Today I had a 2 lb. gain, blah and yuck yuck. I am back on track today and will stay that way. I have joined 2 challenges and really want to get back into size 6, not 22!! I am hoping that starting a journal will help me to stay on track. It was a bad eating weekend. Hubby just can't seem to stay on track and its hard for me to. No excuses though. This is my body and I want my body to be thin, trim, and healthy. My pledge: I will eat healthy today and do some excersize. I'm going to kick butt on tae bo today. :D I may try the pilates that a friend lent to me.

My mini goals: 199 by 2/10
195 by 2/18-this is my nephews b'day party. The last time some of the people saw me I was 133. So it will be a shock to them!!

Its so easy to gain weight, why is it so hard to lose it? X-(

Well, you've got a good start on your journal and setting some mini-goals. Good luch with your new, healthy journey. Best wishes.

Yesterday was not a good day. I ended up either eating or sleeping. Not good! We didn't even do our schooling and thats not me. Woke up this morning and decided to see hubby off to work and popped in Taebo basic. I did the whole thing!!! I haven't done the whole thing in years. I still plan on doing something for this big gut I got. Crunches or something. I do have the tae bo bootcamp, but I'm just not up to that yet. ITS HARD! I weighted in at 206 this morning and I'm really upset, but I have no one to blame but myself. It would be great if its all water weight ha ha ha !:laugh: Ok, I can't get down on myself just yet. I have a little less than a year to reach my goal. January 2007 I will be at goal! Then all the skinny people around me will realize I can do it.
It took me forever to find my journal, isn't it great so many people are journalling. This is really my first time that I am going to keep up with one. I still kinda feel like an outsider, but I threw my ashame to the side and came back and post anyway. DT helped me so much!!!!!!

Well gotta go for now.

way to go on the exercise ! :D

You're doing great, keep up the good work.

Today has not been my day. I haven't overeaten, just flat out don't feel like doing anything. I'm going to whine a little bit. I homeschool my children, and they have been giving me such a hard time. Finally, I called their father and he told me to make sure my oldest doesn't leave the kitchen until she is finished. Needless to say she is still sitting there and its 2:30. My boys were done at noon, after a morning of argueing. It really affects the day, to eat right and excerisize.

I do plan on doing some excersize, I just haven't yet. I think I'll do pilates and some tae bo. Excersizing is still a chore for me. When I lost weight the first time (2001) I found that excersize was fun. I'm waiting to get to that stage again. At least I hope I will find that stage again. I'm not to confident right now.

Over the weekend I gained 6 lbs. 6 POUNDS in one weekend. That wasn't a happy weekend. I knew I wasn't eating right and I did no excersize. I guess I expect it to magically fall off. :laugh:

My dad is trying to be supportive of me. So is my husband, but I just feel completely alone. Like no one understands what I'm going through. When I told my dad about the gain he wasn't to nice, telling me I have sooo much fat to lose. He's right, but cheer me on now! Oh well, I guess I'm just a bit whiney today.

Well my stats right now are 219/207.6/125

I had gotten down to 200 and was thrilled about that. I thought I was finally going to see under 200. NOPE. I will though!! Thats right positive reinforcement!!

Ok off for now,
LMJ :(

Thank you all who replied to my journal, it really is nice to see that people care!

YOU HAVE A JOURNAL!!! :O

My LRM!! Oh how I missed you!! :x Do people here know you lost your weight at DT? Those were the days, eh? Chatting with Fred.. I miss it! Not that I work fulltime anymore, but still. :)

I'm sorry you're going through a rough time. I should post a little "meditation" I read.. it was about how putting yourself down is self-indulgent. You don't have the right, since you come from something so beautiful. Whenever you catch yourself being negative tell yourself to STOP.. that you do come from something beautiful, therefore you ARE beautiful.. and do NOT let the negative thoughts start.. I started feeling better right away.. Even without thinking anything more positive than that. I just stopped the bad talk. I don't know if that makes sense, but it did for me!

I hope today is going better. :)

And you didn't gain 6 lbs of fat over the weekend. It'll drop off.

corinna

I am going to make it! I will not fail!

I ordered Turbo Jam its from the makers of beach body. I can't wait to get it. Getting a little sick of tae bo and its time to find something else for now. I want an eliptical machine and may just dish out the money and get one. Its for my health right!

Yep, I lost 80 lbs. with DT in the past. I stopped coming here and see I gained back 95lbs. 8-| But now I need to be more determined than ever. Plus, SUMMER IS COMING!!!!!!

Not much to report right now.

I found it! I haven't written in my journal in so long that I lost it lol!!!
Well I fell off the wagon and gained a few pounds back, bringing me to 210 but now I'm back to 208 now.
My excersize is up and thats a good thing. I feel energized. I am taking Hydroxycut but not like they say to. I only take one to two a day. Just for that extra oomph. I'll eventually stop taking them. I love the elliptical machine. Turbo Jam is cool too. I can only do 10 mins on the elliptical and I can get through the ab turbo jam. I'm drinking tons of water. Thats my update for now.

:x Hi there, baby girl!

What is turbo jam?

Quit going away, will you?

Corinna

Hi, I like the name lovemyjeep so thought i would stop and check you out.I to have a jeep I love,lol.
I am very happy you are back. I to had lost 149 here at DT and gain some back, now I am back. So I know how you feel. You have a great start going now.So Stay here at DT with us. I belive it really does help as long as we keep coming.

You are doing so great with the exercise, you go lady!
I wil check back with you and see how your doing.

I remember you too LRM...sorry you gained the weight all back..It must be really hard doing this a second time...however...a bit older and wiser..and slow and steady will win the race..don't let anyone tell you otherwise..I am till slowly going down..but going down..
Take care..and I think you made a wise choice in coming back...Takes courage my friend...:)

Lulu

Thank you again everyone. I love the support I am getting. We are a homeschool family so my time on the computer is very limited, but I have decided to take that time out.

Corrina, turbo jam is from the makers of beach body. It is a little bit of kickboxing, cardio stuff and ab workouts. I think I got about 8 workouts all together. It was pricey but so far it has been worth it. It came with some "slimming formula" which I don't take and multivitamins, which I do. It also came with a band that is for resistance. I was so sore the first time I did it lol I cried when I tried to get out of bed. I still do and love tae bo, but I needed a change.

I had hurt my back. A buldging disk and instead of trying to maintain my weight with minimal excersize and watching my food intake I went back to the junk food. It took me 3 years to gain it back, but it still has come back. I am trying to get in the frame of mind I was back then. Everything I looked at was in a more positive manner. Now, I can find fault in everything.

I want to post a before pic, that will keep me motivated to get that after pic. BUT I don't know how.

Well off for now..

If you want to send it to me, I'll post it for you.

I am SO happy you are back!

Corinna

Hi LMJ!
i remember you from last time too and i applaud you for coming back to DT..it helps so much to get support from people who really know what losing weight is about.
you have done it once and i have no doubt that you will do it again!
Turbo jam sounds awesome!
hugs bell :)

Wow, thank you all again.

We are refinancing our home and boy talk about a nervous wreck. With the appraisal and all I haven't been able to sit down. Thats a good thing. Cleaning and cleaning and cleaning some more. Not that my house is a wreck, but my boys were in separate rooms and they always slept together so I am putting them in one room so they can have their own beds. I never knew how gross a 10 year old boy can be lol. The phone has been ringing off the hook!!

Hopefully, I'll have a loss tomorrow. I am a bit nervous about my weigh in. Can you tell I'm a wreck about everything? I have not eaten very good and tend to be addicted to the scale. I am not changing my signature though until I am below 206 lol. Right now I'm 208. I am really trying hard not to eat past 6pm. I think I'll make some jello or something for my nighttime cravings. No more ice cream, doughnuts or cookies for me. I'm moving elliptical downstairs so keep on me for doing it.

Hey LMJ!
Just read through your journal...I sure am glad that you found it again. I find my journal super helpful in getting me through the rough times.
I applaud you for homeschooling your children. Its not for everyone and I know myself I couldn't/wouldn't do it. BUT I support everyone who does!

I hope everything works out for you with the refinance..i know its difficult to keep on track when you're stressed out. And i DOOOO know how messy 10yo boys can be LOL

You seem to be doing well...keep it up!

Shan

YAY!!YAY!!! I had a loss!! I'm at 206 now. :D I am so excited!! Now, to get the rest off. I won't be easy, but with us getting an appraisal done to the house I have been cleaning so much. My children are no help lol. Everyday is a challenge for losing weight. When going through the cycles of everyday life and the challenge of beating the fast food resturants how do you maintain a higher quality of life? Motivation for me is very important and I'm sure others feel the same, but what is the real thing that keeps you motivated? I feel its a number of things, myself, because I am the only one who can do this for me, my children, because I want to make a good example for them, my husband, because he likes thin women and I want to be that for him, my health I don't want to die early of a heart disease. There is a number of factors that can keep me motivated but I can still fall off the wagon. I try to remember the first time I lost 80+ lbs. and how I felt then versus how I feel now. The exhileration that I felt when I would see a loss and the pain of how it was to gain. I still feel that way, but not with the passion I had before. Maybe once I get under the 200lb. mark I will feel that again.

Thank you littlebeetle. Homeschooling is definetly a challenge but worth it for my family. My daughter was in public school until 3rd grade. I had to teach my boys how to read and stuff. That was an adventure lol. Thanks again!

You are doing terrific LMJ!!!
I guess passion comes from different things. I am passionate about my weight loss journey but still fall off the wagon sometimes. I do this for me, my partner, my future and my kids. I don't ever want them to struggle and hurt the way I have! Life has sooo much to offer and being at this weight I dont think I am living life to the fullest!!

Keep going, the passion will come back. Baby steps help you obtain your dreams!!

Hugs
shan

Hello!

Congrats on the loss! :cheer:

Corinna

Yippee!!! Another 2lbs. lost bringing me to 203!! I feel really good about this this time. I'm thinking about quitting smoking, which makes me a bit nervous about weight loss. I think if I do decide to quit right now, I'll just keep up the excersize and healthy eating which can't hurt me. I haven't gone as far to set a quit date yet.

The appraiser for our house is coming today and I'm a nervous wreck. I'm trying not to turn to food for comfort. Its not acceptable. I really want this to work for hubbys sake. It will be his garage.

Thats it for now,
LMJ

I am crossing my fingers for you LMJ!!
Let us know how things go with the appraisers...

I quit smoking four years ago this June. I was never a heavy smoker...only a couple a day. My partner is asthmatic so I needed to quit!! I got down to 1 a day and then was like...what the heck is the point LOL SO i just stopped. I Know its not easy...especially for someone who smokes more then I did. It takes alot of strength and courage....
I am sure when you are ready you'll do just fine!!

Thinking of you..
Shan

I think you should quit! :)

Congrats on another loss!

Corinna

I feel like a yo yo right now. My weight is shifting back and forth so much, but then again so is my eating. I need to start doing some real cardio. Housework just isn't the same. lol. I don't want to yo yo diet as I have in the past. I want to live healthy. In a way that I can for the rest of my life.

Still waiting the appraisal, geez this is stressful. In my stress filled times I always turn to food. I have been ok without binging to bad. I did gain a pound. Better than 10! Weekends and I just don't get along when it comes to eating.

My goal for today is to do tae bo basic. I'm going to try to get in 10 mins on the elliptical but not sure if that will fit in my day. I have to run to Bath and Bodyworks for my daughters best friends b'day present. Which is about a half hour away.

I'm just babbling right now. Nerves and stress have consumed me. Maybe its time for a nap LOL!!!!:laugh: :laugh: :laugh:

Have a great day all. And for those that have visited me thank you for your inspiration. It means alot more than I could ever put into words.

LMJ

Hey LMJ
Where are you?? How have you been???

Come back soon....we can help you cut the yo-yo string *smiles*

Shannon

[F]Do you guys/gals know how embarrassing it was for me to come back to DT? I had lost over 80 lbs. was DT star and then gained 100 lbs. But I'm here. I have to be.

Littlebeetle you are a sweetheart. Thank you so much, I really need to be accountable and get on this computer and keep updated.

I am down a little over 3 lbs. Thats good. I bought all kinds of fruits, and things I can eat throughout my life. Not just to diet. I have learned that I have to do this forever and not just when I gain weight. I am prone to obesity.

We are having a garage built and it is so stressful. I never know when the workers are coming. They are really nice people though, when they are here lol. My hubby is really excited over getting his garage. I'll just be glad to get the junk out of the "basement" (we have a bilevel or raised rancher as sometimes called). Then I'll get my family room lol.

Well I better get my kids up. Having a 14 yr. old girl is so hard. She just wants to sleep all day and eat. (her whole body weighs 120 lbs lol) I want that metabolism lol!!!!!!

I quit smoking today, so if I get grouchy I am apologizing in advance!!

LMJ:eyes: [/FONT]

Well my new start date was June 2, and I've fallen off the wagon almost every night. I plan on sticking to it tonight. Have had some really great chats too. That is inspiring.

I feel sometimes that I give to much of myself to others rather than spending a little time on myself. My sister is such a good supporter of me. So is my dad and hubby, but I always let myself down.

I need to make realistic goals instead of ones that are impractical. I'm going to sit down with my home journal and look at what I can do.

I feel like I am an embarrassment to my hubby. I have to get over that as I do with all these negative thoughts.

Well well well I didn't know if I changed my ticker it changed on all my posts lol. Oh well.

I feel really good today about staying on track. I had a loss 214.4 now. I have under 100 lbs. to lose now!!!!!!!! I was talking with my dad and he seems so proud that I am FINALLY sticking to something. I am eating and eating throughout the day, but stuff like watermelon, cantalope, celery, carrots ect. Not for my main meals though. I did go to bed hungry last night, but figured I have to get my body used to the change. I plan on doing some tae bo this morning and possibly turbo jam later if I can get all my "chores" done.

Why is it so easy to gain weight and so hard to lose it? X-( I don't want to be a statistic!

I have a drs. appointment on June 12 and I hope that I can handle what he says about my weight. I don't get weighed at this dr. but still, he has eyes lol. Yet I'm addicted to my home scale getting on it at least once a day. GRR :o

I did start smoking again, hope to quit within the month. Its a horrible habit and I hope that if anyone is considering it or is just a social smoker that they back off. I was a social smoker and now smoke half a pack a day.

Thats it for now,
LMJ

You're back again!!! Wheeeeeeeeee!1 I saw you in chat the other day, went in and you had *just* left. :c(

Keep at the quitting smoking - it took me a good 9 months. You know what made me quit? My mom was only allowed to smoke in one room in the house and that room had a good air purifier in it.. My stepfather never went into the room, but had smoker's lungs.. It made me wonder what I was doing to my husband!! I am SO thankful I didn't have kids at the time..

They say that each time you make an honest effort to quit smoking, you're closer to quitting.

Glad to see you back! :hug:

Corinna

Well I just keep going from one extreme to the other. I hit a high of 223 and I'm not proud of it. When I went to the dr. he said I have to lose weight and have to quit smoking. (Didn't quit successfully last time). Well I'm into my 5th day of quitting now. I've lost 4 lbs. so I'm hoping it can both be done. I did have a pig out last night and was really upset with myself. I have to use an inhaler now because either I can't breathe or I am wheezing, hopefully when all the smoke junk gets out of me I won't need it anymore.

LOL, they just put an ice cream shop RIGHT across the street from my in laws house. We were talking about it and my mil said this could be dangerous. She is right! I was able to resist an ice cream cone!! I was so proud! :) I'm not so good at resisting ice cream.

I have some before pics that I should post. I don't really want to but maybe that would motivate me to stay on track so I can post pics along the way. Why is it that I try to make my before shots look so ugly lol. I'll think on it for now.

I did pilates the other day and really liked it. My 9 yr old did it with me. He was so funny he would grunt and groan, then tell me I wasn't doing it right. I would have to stop and watch him, then stop the dvd rewind it and watch Kathy Smith do it and do it again. He loves to excersize with mommy. Such a cutie! Also, I did about 5 mins on the elliptical, I know its not much but going from nothing to something I thought it was pretty good. Then yesterday I cut grass. It was so hot! Not sure what I'm going to do today, probably more pilates, but I'm thinking of trying turbo jam again. I didn't really like it when I tried it before, but I don't think I gave it a chance. Right now I don't think I can keep up with tae bo. I can't wait until I can I miss ole Billy. lol.

Well I'm just babbling.....talk to ya soon,

LMJ :flower:

Yay for quitting smoking!! You can do it! :)

I have to use my inhaler more often now than before I quit smoking, but I'd rather have to use that thing than be addicted to cigarettes!

Corinna

Ok, on Sunday it will be 7 days since I have smoked. I have also played around with 5 lbs gaining and losing for about 2 weeks. I just can't seem to get it right. Wonder if I ever will.

Corinna that inhaler is nasty!!! But at this point neccessary. I chew alot of sugar free gum right now lol next all my teeth will fall out hee hee.

I've started taking a multi vitamin yay me doing something just for me go figure.

Well I'll check in later!
LMJ :flower:

Hi there lovemyjeep,I just finished reading your journal wtg with the smoking I too quit smoking april 9th of this year and I feel great the urge to smoke only hits once in awhile when I get around crowds and I did try a cigarette on 2 different occassions and they were nasty 2 hits on each yuk just nasty and I am so glad so you can do it.Its good that you keep coming back to DT at least your not a quitter you will get there you had it in you before you will find it in you again,it definitely takes some major inner strength too manage weight loss I too have been a big loser just to turn around and regain it all plus much more but I know I can do this because I don't want to be fat anymore I want to live life to the fullest and this isn't living for me and I think you can say the same thing I'm so happy that I found DT and want you to know we are all in this battle together you can do this you know that you can.
I wanted to let you know that if you drink lots of water every day like at least half your body weight in ounces that it could help you to rid yourself of having to use that inhaler www.watercure2.com check this sight out I bought the book and I've sense been downing tons of water.Good luck to you on your journeys.

take care,
Heather

Thank you for visiting my journal Heather. Sometimes I think this smoking thing is driving me mad!
Corinna if I don't kill someone I'll be a survivor lol.
Today marks 7 days without a cig. I am really craving today but my trident isn't far away. Nor is my inhaler. I tried to cut the grass and about died.

My weight isn't going anywhere, today is grocery shopping day and I am going to try to get "good" stuff. I drink water like crazy. I have been trying everyday to do some kind of excersize but can't seem to lose a lb. I know I will eventually.

Can't remember if I posted this in my journal but my dr. gave me a menu of 1200 cals a day. I'm going to call him and ask more about it. I also need to ask more about the inhaler anyway. My problem is with meats and dinners thats why I'm considering healthy choice and lean cuisine dinners so its already done for me. Usually I'll have yogurt and oatmeal for breakfast, for lunch I am hooked on rice bowls and dinner is when I blow it. I usually have lots of fruit in the house for snacks. Or I'll have an extra yogurt or something like that if I get hungry. Sometimes its so hard to decide what to eat.

Well I'm off to the store in a few. Wanna read up some on here.

LMJ :flower:

thats what I have been doing is the Healthy choice,lean cuisine and smart ones and thats been helping me out alot I hate to cook because I feel at my weakest point around dinner time so with the tv dinners I just pop them in and know that that will be it for me for the rest of the night my 2 daughters have been taking turns cooking for the rest of the family so I just hide out til dinner is over with,it works for me and still getting good weight loss results with the tv dinners

LMJ - I am proud of you for not smoking, my friend! :cheer: Yay, you!

Well I oops this weekend and smoked but I'm back on track.

I weighed myself this morning and not to my delight I have gained 224. I have to get this weight off. I am not willing to smoke to do it though. I have to stay strong.

As some of you know I am a homeschooling mom to 3 so I don't get alot of time on the computer. I have been writing out lesson plans for the last couple of days. Its truly a mess when I do so today I am doing a big cleaning then back to the lesson planning. I don't know when hubby will be able to take vacation so its hard to plan around that.

I don't know how I did it in the past with excersize. I just don't seem to have enough time in the day. Today I got up early and plan on doing something. I think I'm going to try AGAIN to do turbo jam. I kinda keep shoving it in my face because I really don't like it but I paid a small fortune for it.

dMy food today as long as I stick to it will be:

Breakfast: Coffee-usually 2 cups w/Equal and a yogurt (I know I should eat more for breakfast but I'm just not a big breaky eater.)

Lunch: Rice bowl and a salad

Dinner: Lean Cuisine Not sure which one (they weren't on sale like they usually are so I only bought 4 and some lean pockets)

Snacks: Why fruit of course. lol I want to get some kind of protein bars but they were so expensive at the grocery store we went to. I have to wait until I go to GNC or something.

That is my plan. Instead of ice cream tonight after dinner I'm going to make a big fruit salad. I think I can stay between 1200-1300 cals a day. I'll probably go back to the dr. in a month just to get weighed. I have to remember to put it in my planner. LOL without that thing I'd forget my head.

My hubby is usually pretty supportive, but he was being really mean yesterday. I hope he was just in a "mood". He was constantly bringing up my weight. It hurt my feelings and I told him so. This morning he was really nice to me. I think thats why I didn't sleep last night. He has a big belly and needs to lose too, but not nearly as much as I do. He is my shoulder that I lean on. We've been together since I was 15 married since I was 18 and I'm 33 now. Just a tidbit hubby is not a smoker.

Well gonna go try to read some journals then get my day started.

Thanks all :flower:
LMJ

I keep forgetting to write......on Wednesday I am going to the Poison/Cinderella 20 years of rock concert!!! I had wanted to lose this weight first but boy does time sneak up on ya!! YAY I am sooooo excited!

LMJ hope you have a good time at that concert sounds like a good one I too have been with my hubby forever I was 16 and now 37 so as you can say I've been with him a great deal of my life,my hubby rags on me too about my weight he gets in to name calling which I think that is why I've held my weight a lil bit longer than I normally would I wanted him to except me no matter what but the truth is no matter how much he loves me I can't make him be attracted to me at this size and thats just the way it is for me but I am ultimately losing it for me not him I was finally ready for myself.I make him sound bad at times in my journal and others only because most times I am venting he can get on my last nerve lol but I've got to say he is supportive in my weight loss for the most part because even if he doesn't want to he will go walking with me if I ask him to probably because he knows being I've lost this weight before that I can again I just don't like walking alone.Well ok I'll quit my babbling you take care and again have fun at your concert.

Wow, name calling isn't cool. My dearest LMJ, maybe hubby was mad about the smoking and took it out on your extra weight? I bet he just wants you around 20 years from now. :)

Good luck lesson planning.. I am in awe of anyone who home schools!

Corinna

Well Wednesday night we went to the Cinderella/Poison concert and had a BLAST!! I would have loved to be one of those skinny little girls but oh well I am me. It was great!!

I have started to smoke again. I am going to quit again as soon as I get the courage up again. This time I think I may use the patch if it gets to stressful. I have to quit.

My weight has gone up. Not good. I am working on it.

I am under so much stress right now, my daughter has been supeonaed (sp?) as a witness and that has me all upset. One of her friends was beat up by a neighborhood bully and they are pressing charges. We have to go to court.

I will write more later I am in the midst of cleaning.

LMJ

Yet another day has passed and I binged again last night. Trying to eat more during the day to settle my cravings at night. Today is going to be a hectic one. I'm still trying to get my house in order mind you I am a perfectionist when it comes to cleaning not that my house is gross lol. With 3 kids that are home all the time its virtually impossible and I know that. My MOUNTAIN of laundry is now down to a pile.

My weight is 221.4 down from 224. When I went to the dr. it was 222. So I'm still playing around with the same 4 or 5 pounds. I need to get serious and I am going to. My water intake is always where it should be. I am on meds and the dr. told me that is *one* reason I have put on weight. I am not making excuses for myself just knowing that I will have to work a little extra to make it.

Hubby has hurt my feelings a couple of times but always says he is joking. It still hurts. I just have to get a thicker skin I suppose. He usually is my biggest supporter. I ripped a pair of capris and he made a comment. I felt like crap. Then he said something at the concert I was so upset. I love him dearly he is the love of my life and I know he doesn't mean to be mean. He is over weight as well.

Well we're off to Home Depot *yay* there goes all our money LOL.

LMJ :flower:

Awwww, just remember that each time you quit smoking, you're THAT much closer to quitting. The more you quit, the higher the chance of success, so do NOT give up. (My mom died when she was 49 from smoking related cancer, if you remember..)

Corinna

Thanks Cori, you are so supportive!

I just did half a mile on the elliptical *geez* it was HARD! took me 12 mins. I can't believe I used to excersize an hour and a half a day and now 10 mins is a chore. I'm going to do some pilates in a bit. I never thought I would like pilates then a friend of mine lent me some and I really like it. Its kinda like you don't have to do a ton of reps to feel what you are doing as long as your doing it right. I realized that after not doing it right lol.

I'm really starting to get serious about losing weight. I'm trying to spread my caloric intake throughout the day versus binging at night. I am going to start a food journal at home so I can keep track of what I'm eating. I want to get out of the 200's so bad!

Well thats it for now!

LMJ

Hi LMJ the good thing about exercise though is our bodies respond quick to it so before you know it you'll be right back up to where you used to be as long as you keep it up.WTG on the exercise!!!

I did it I did it!! LA LA LA LA LA!!! I did the elliptical and I did pilates!! First day I have to say that I did my excersize like I said I was going to!!!! I am just tooooooo excited over this. I'll probably be sore tomorrow but I'm going to try to do the same.

Hubby is in the garage working on his car (71 Cuda), kids are busy playing and I just got finished trying to lighten my hair a bit. Didn't work lol. I have very dark hair. Usually in the summer I get blonde highlights, but that is my 50lb. treat. So, I just did the Ms. Clariol thing. Now, I have to deep condition it so it doesn't look like straw. Lucky me got the curly hair. But now, I have time to do what I want. Yeah right lol, I should be writing out lesson plans lol. That never seems to get done. :laugh:

I have to teach myself not to weigh myself throughout the day. Its bad enough I do it everyday. I want to try to do it weekly. If I could just set a day and do it but that darn scale just eggs me on it! X-(

I think when I start my food journal, I'll print this one out too. I had started doing that at another site, but never finished. Now, that I'm set here maybe that would be a good idea. My computer is downstairs and I am rarely down here. This will someday be my family room. lol. Its a bedroom/junk area now. Don't know what to do with it throw it in here. Don't know what I'll do when its finished lol guess we'll have to get a shed or something.

I'm babbling once again. Thank you to all who have supported me. Your the best!

LRM

Yay you on the exercise - how is the smoking thing coming along? ;)

Corinna

The smoking thing is going terrible! I am going to start over again on Monday I think. This time I am going to use the patch and not go it cold turkey. The aids are there I might as well use them right? This time hopefully will be my last.

:cheers: WTG girl you are doin great and you can babble all you want because its your journal so you are intitled to.Is your scale right where you can see it all the time?Because I to have a problem with wanting to step on that thing all the time too so now I have it put up out of sight out of mind and I just pull it out once a week on Saturday,only one time did I weigh myself a couple times on the same day and I was a whole pound up just a couple hours later so that put me in a mood so yes now I keep it in a drawer out of my face.:cheer: :cheer: keep up the good work,it will all pay off before you know it!!

Yep right on the bathroom floor!! Dern scale. I asked hubby a couple of times to take that thing to work except on weigh in days. Maybe I'll ask again. He told me I'd go crazy without it lol. He's probably right. Also, a thing I did once was jump out of bed and grab a glass of water so I couldn't get an accurate weight, but still I weighed myself. *sigh* fun fun fun...

Yes! Aid thyself, woman! Just don't aid yourself to a buffet. ;)

Corinna

Good for you with the exercise!! Don't you feel great?!?! I know alot of folks here weigh themselves everyday but I just can't bear it. It effects my mood way too much. And I really think your body weight fluctuates too much for a daily weight to be useful. That's a great idea for your DH to bring it to work. I think you've turned a corner today and now you're back on track and ready to kick some serious booty!!

Thank you all!!

I did it again I did it again *hear the singing?* :dn :dn :dn :jn :jn :jn

I just made it 12 minutes on the elliptical. You see I could only do 2-3 mins before. I did .52 miles. I am soo sore but made myself do it. Today I am going to do turbo jam or tae bo I haven't decided yet. I feel yucky sweaty right now. I'm just pumped up right now.

Will post after all the excersize is done!

Didn't quit smoking today. Gonna shoot for tomorrow. My dh's grandmother was brought to the hospital last night long story. We just aren't having any luck with health this year. If you can please say a prayer for our family.

LMJ :flower:

Prayers sent your way.
Wtg you keep it up girl you are doin GREAT!!!
Self discipline like will power is always needed when it comes to doing well when your brain says no too bad show its whos boss lol gj once again you rock girl!!!!

Minnieme I am learning something I didn't learn the first time I lost weight. Its about self control not starving yourself to death. I haven't gotten anymore excersize in yet. My daughter has a friend over so I'm doing lesson plans lol. I don't want her friend to see me jumping around. I'll do them after she goes home. If she ends up spending the night I'll jump on the elliptical again. I didn't realize how sore my arms are lol.

Just found out one of my daughters friends was put into a mental hospital. He was talking about killing himself on My Space and his parents luckily found it. It has been such a hard summer for us.

My daughter, 14 conned her dad into letting her dye her hair pink lol. I told her as long as I have trust in her that her hair color was up to her. I know she is not having sex, doing drugs, smoking, drinking ect. that she is more than welcome to have pink hair. She is a good girl, but does have to catch up on her schooling and we never seem to have time. We have our moments though lol. She IS a teenager. My boys are totally different its so weird how different they can be and be siblings.

I tried again to lighten my hair BIG MISTAKE. Now I have blonde roots and dark hair LOL. Now, I guess I have to let it grow out some and heal from the double dye job. I'm a mess.

I have stayed on plan all day today YAY!!!!!! Still smoking though X-(

Well better get off this computer. Daughter is going to the mall and I have to lay down some rules.

I hope each and every one of you are doing fantastic!!!

LMJ

Ha! Such nice dark hair and you went and dyed your roots blonde. Too funny.

Yeah, I am jealous that you have curly hair.

My kids had pink hair a few years ago. Hope was 4 and Kaitlin was 6. Hope wants purple hair now and K likes hers the way it is.

Congrats on the good food day!

Corinna

:laugh: I also went thru the pink hair purple hair green hair too funny my daughter use to put koolaide in her hair so I didn't care it washed out any ways I went thru the colored hair with 2 out of six of them so thats not to bad and your right its a heck of a lot better than them getting in to drugs sex and all the craziness they could be doing I've been through a lot of different stages with mine which are 20,18,16,14,8, and 6
So sorry to here about your daughters friend my kids go on that darn site too I'm constantly in to their business to see whats up it is one way you can see whats going on with them I'm so glad they discovered it in time to be able to do something about it before it was too late.

My home is always jumpin with kids friends so they probably all think I'm crazy I don't care what they think if its my time to exercise I do it they just laugh at me (when I'm on my gazelle) and tell me good job or you go girl,they probably think your moms on a kik again huh? lol but this time I will do it darn it lol.WTG with you again you are doin great I'm sure the smoking will come too its just going to take time it is hard to lose the weight and quit smoking at the same time, eventually you'll be able to do it.
I've sent my hubby to work with the scale before too lol Ok well you have a good day I am outta here tc

Hey you! I'm so happy to hear you've been bitten by the exercise bug!!! The first week or so it'll be hard to work out through the soreness but it gets better and better, I promise!

I'm still trying to learn the lesson that starving yourself does not equal weight loss. I'm convinced learning that is the key to losing weight and keeping it off. It's tough when you're so used to the "quick fix"....getting 10-20 lbs off super quick but then falling off program completely. It sounds like you're really starting your weight loss efforts from the inside out....that's GREAT!

The combo of the internet and teenagers really scares me. We had a 13 year old neighbor's kid get abducted by a 16 year old boy she met in a chat room. He took her to Florida. She was missing for over a week. He was almost 30 years old. They were a totally normal family. It was terrible.

My mom let my sister and I have total freedom with our hair and make-up as long as our grades were good. I think that's the way to go. By the time we were 20 we'd both experimented enough and were back to being happy with what god gave us!

You're doing Great! Keep going strong...

Thank you Jo and Minnie. Ha ha Cori, I'm stuck with blonde roots LOL. It makes me look bald on top. hee hee I got some deep conditioner and going to dye is dark again and leave it alone. Its more of my natural color which was my goal to get my natural color to come out but I'm impatient. At 50lbs. lost I'm getting highlights. I just can't leave my poor head of hair alone lol

Yesterday, I was sick. I still feel kinda yucky. Won't be on the computer as its cleaning day. Yes, I clean alot. Everyone tells me I overdo it, but I like a nice clean house. The kids have trashed it and they WILL help today.

My dh's grandmother is in the hospital she is malnutuirished (sp?) and they think she has lung cancer. She can't walk. It has been one hell of a summer for us.

On an upside the garage is finished! WEll it still needs electric but the structure is done!

I am so sore I can hardly move, but today is tae bo day. Going to do elliptical for as long as I can then move on to the tae bo. Nothing like a good sweat. Supposed to be 102 degrees today so no outdoors activities so no walking. I get so worried when I am sore in my back. I hurt my back and that was my downfall to gaining most of my weight back. That and a big head that I could eat whatever I wanted. All that after being a DT star is really sad (I used a different name) Now I weigh alot more than I ever have though. Hubby weighs less than I do now. Just hearing 100 lbs. to lose sounds like so much! I'm trying to break it down in 10's. I did have a ticker but I never kept up with it.

Right now my mini goal is to get under 200, not to mini but thats my goal. I havent' put a date on it, but I'd love for it to happen before Sept. I'm not going to push myself beyond what I can do.

Well I'm off for now!

224/220/120

25 lbs in a month is a lot, but doable. I bet you could do it! I have problems with consistency. Blech.

Corinna

LMJ! I responded to you in my journal but wanted to get over here too....

C'mon girl, you're doing it!! Even tho' you're hot and sore you're getting back on that stupid machine and pumping away those pounds!!!! And you're tae boing them away!! Don't look back anymore....If you asked every single person who posts on diettalk they would admit they've lost and gained the same weight over and over again....The only thing that matters is the choices you make today!! I had a little pity party myself this morning and when the tantrum was over I picked myself up and dusted myself off and promised myself that I could do this.....and believe me if I can do it..anyone can! Hope the yucks leave you soon. I had a few tough tummy days last week....I think it's partially the weather. Feel better!!

P.S. Oh happy day on the garage!

I here you with the house LMJ ya gotta stay on top of things or it falls apart fast thats what kids do lol at least mine I find it much harder at that to keep up with them now that their teenagers than when they were little.
You are doing great on your exercise too and in this heat yes it sucks,with the heat index they said it will feel like 108 by 4pm but the rain is moving in to cool things off,yes finally.
Is tae bo easy to follow? I think I would have fun with that seems like it would be a good toner. I used work out to Denise Austin and shes easy to follow.

Minnie tae bo is easy to follow once you know the routine. I've been doing it off and on for so many years that I know it. Give it a try. you may like it. I'm finding it hard to keep up with Turbo Jam. But once I can it huuurts the next morning!!!! Thats funny your daughter put koolaid in her hair. We did our daughters with food coloring once lol.

Jo you are such an inspiring person. Don't let me slack. I am a good slacker!!

Yesterday I did a mile on the elliiptical. Couldn't do it this morning. Gonna try again later. My food sucked yesterday too! Gotta get this weight off.

Think after this pack of ciggies are gone I'm gonna throw on a patch. Its so hard to wish the "good friend" away. Especially with trying to get this fat off me. We'll see what happens. No promises yet.

Well I'm off to turbo jam it or take a nap j/k

LMJ

Naps only after the turbo jam lol you did a mile thats great just keep getting on that thing I find after I do my gazelle even as little as a half hour my legs hurt so bad,and the next day when I get up sometimes it makes me feel like crying but after a few days of walking they feel much better again I guess this kind of pain is a good thing then you know what your doing must really be working. With me I was putting my back out every other week and it hasn't went out in over a month now and only once has it felt like it was going to go out but I kept moving and it didn't.So you just keep it up you are doing excellent and before you know it you will be one big loser lol this is the only site that you could take that as a compliment.You have a good day I'm out.

Well I don't have alot of time have to go see hubs grandmother in the hospital just a quick update ::::: drum roll please ::::: 217.2 !!!!!!!

My back goes gout too Minnie so I have to be careful. Still in pain a good pain. We plan on going to the park to do some walking some time today. I am going to be so embarrassed at the hospital most of those people last saw me at 130. Oh well what can I do? I have to at least say my goodbyes. They found cancer on her brain and lung.

Thats it for now,
will try to post more later if not will be back on Monday to catch up!
LMJ

Congrats to you!! That ROCKS! Wheeeeeeeeeeeeee! :)

Corinna

Thank you Cori, *bowing gracefully*

It was so sad at the hospital. Mikes grandmother was so out of it. They have approval to put her in a nursing home now. The situation she was in wasn't nice so at least she will be taken care of. Mike and I have been together for so long to see her like this is just well sad. I don't think she knew who we were. She was eating though and thats something to be said.

Doing good on eating today and did alot of walking. Haven't jumped on the elliptical and probably won't today. I'm just tired. I'm trying to come off a medicine that puts me to sleep and I'm not having any luck sleeping at night. I have yet to tell my dr. yet but am going to call him on Monday and see if there is an alternative. This med. is a "weight gainer" and I'm not about to work my butt off just to gain weight due to a medicine.

Ok, gonna go for now
LMJ

Hi LMJ,
so sorry to hear about your hubbys grandma I know when you are in a family for so many years they are truly that, your family.Prayers are with you.
My father-in-law was just in the hospital and not doing well at all I too like you haven't seen a lot of the family since I was much smaller and unlike you I didn't go so how shallow does that make me?I know though that if my hubby wanted me there I would've been or if I knew that it would be it I also would've been there,but yes it is really hard for me to pull myself out of the shell I wrapped myself in that is what I am working so hard on each and every day.

You are doing so excellent wtg on the weight loss and exercise you go girl!!!! you are doing awesome!!

It's hard to watch people lose their faculties, isn't it? :hug: I know how you feel!

Keep up the great work!

Corinna

Today is going to be hectic! I have to bring m llasa apso over to my dads for the groomer and have to give dad a haircut. Real easy just take the shaver and shave lol. Then I have tons of housework to do didn't do a thing all weekend. We were at Home Depot all weekend looking for blinds all drawn out story. Thats it for now will be back later today!

LMJ

You cut the llasa and your father at the same time?

Have a great day! :)

Corinna

Hey! Your weight loss is going SO well!! I am really happy for you!! It's so interesting...and of course sad....right now there are several stories here at dt now about older loved ones - and the sadness of having to sit back and watch them they deteriorate. I've never had this experience but I'm sure it's very hard.

I hope you got your blinds! They better be bee-u-tee-full if they took up your whole weekend!! Have a great week....

Thank you all for your support.

*sigh* now my pity party. My son Michael is 10 1/2 he's been complaining of chest pains. Brought him to the dr. yesterday and now we have to go to a cardiac specialist on Friday. The dr. said his heart sounded fine but I'm a mom a worry wart mom. Michael was born with severe clubbed feet and has had 2 major surgeries on them, he has had 2 eye surgeries I just don't know if I could bear anything else. The dr. thinks its either asthma or acid reflux or both. Please say a prayer for us, this has not been an easy summer. I have to go get his referal tomorrow and who knows how long that will take, then the appt on Friday is expected to last about 3 hours.

Anyhoo, weighed in at 216.8 today! :D :D :D :D

Thanks you all!!

LMJ

My prayers are with you and your family,hoping and praying that you will get all good news with your son to put your mind at ease,I am a worry wart too it comes with the territory of being a mommy thats for sure.
WTG on the weight loss you are doing amazing keep it up.

A change from unhealthy habits
to healthy habits will yield
extraordinary results.
-unknown

Yikes! I hope it goes ok with your son. My kids went through the paediatric cardiologist thing - they are fine, too..

Wishing you luck!

And congrats on the loss. :)

Corinna

Well I'm giving it another try. Gonna quit smoking. Right now.

yay, you!!! You go, my friend!! You can doooooooo it!

:cheer:

Corinna

Good for you LMJ,the important thing is your not giving up and you really want to do it I have know doubt you will be able to kick this habit,and you will feel soooo much better I promise you,I don't miss those nasty things for nothing and it feels good to walk in some place that doesn't allow them and not have to run out the door because you think you need 1 now you can just stay inside and be warm instead of out in the cold during those dreadful winter months shivering burrr ok you have a great day!!

Give yourself time to succeed
and it will happen.
-unknown

How's it going? I'm thinking about you

Corinna

Very exciting about the smokes.....I'm thinking about you too!

Well sad to say I bought a pack. *sigh* isn't it sad that little stick has such a control on my life. New goal I am going to stick on a patch this time around. Take the remaining cigs and FLUSH THEM!! I'm done. Thank you my little cheerleaders I need ya!

First off Michael is fine. Its a condition he will grow out of and not his heart!!!!!!! Now, if I can survive the dental visit next week we'll all be happy. lol

I have gained alot of weight back this week. I think 3 or 4 lbs. I have been in bed alll day today with TOM. I plan on getting back on track tomorrow.

They will be doing brain surgery on my grandmother in law on Monday.

Well more midol for me!

LMJ
will write more later.

AWWW great so happy to hear that your son is fine thats wonderful,prayers sent your way for your grandmother,and no problem that 3-4lbs be right back off quick enough during the TOM its always expected I just stay the heck away from the scale,its definitely water weight thats all.
Maybe you do need a lil extra help from maybe the patch to lay them things down and thats all right too,just try it and see if it helps you,you obviously want to quit so if you had a patch on maybe the urge will not be as strong which is of course the idea of it Dahh me lol so u go for it girl give them a whirl.Big Hugs have a good day!!

I have been so depressed I haven't even thought about my journal, quitting smoking, dietting anything. I have stayed in bed for 3 days now I think it is. Today I have to briing the boys to the dentist and make my daughter a dental appt. You'd think I would have lost a pound or two but I've gained back up to 218. On track today I hope. I see my shrink the first week in Sept. which is a good thing I think I'm pooped out on my meds and they just aren't working anymore. One reason I am dreading this dental appt. is my hubbys cousins wife (got that?) works there and she is as skinny and pretty as can be. Of course she thinks she is fat and is doing weight watchers. When we were in high school she tried to pick up on hubby but he was and no matter how big I get will always be MINE lol. :) She settled for the cousin. Who used to be really dirty I don't know if he is now, she used to tell me he didn't even brush his teeth. Oh gossip don't ya love it. Anyhoo, I am dreading seeing her and her telling me how fat she is. That just makes me wanna strangle her. Her and her perfect world.

Grandmother in law seems to be doing well. She did wake up from the surgery ok, but then woke up and had a confusing spell. I expected it, they did just do BRAIN SURGERY on a 79 ish year old woman. They fixed a vein and believe they got the tumor. the brain is still swollen so she is still having trouble seeing. They expect that to go away and she should be able to see ok. I am praying for her. I don't think she is ready to go yet, but God will determine that. Its amazing what modern medicine can do.

I did take a "uppy" pill as hubby calls them. He says that I am always in a good mood when I take them. Lipodrene I think is the name of them. I know I shouldn't take pills I don't need but if it helps break through this depression. The dr. had me on ritalin, but I threw them away they gave me horrible headaches towards the end of the day. They do have ephedra in them but I don't take as much as they tell you to. I take one in the morning and rarely do I take the second one. I don't need it. I'm so full of energy all day from one.

My friend asked me if I would be her excersize buddy. I agreed. She has been in 3 serious car accidents and can't do alot of stuff but we agreed that walking would be best for her neck. Not sure when we are going to start. Soon hopefully.

Well I'm off for now,
LMJ

LMJ...

C'mon friend. We gotta get you back in the game..!!....

You need to start feeling good about YOU...You can't be wasting time worrying about impressing other people who may or may not be thinner or cuter or happier!

I've been on an emotional rollercoaster myself this summer...I was so confused 'cause I've been eating healthier and exercising more......and ended up feeling like something you scrape off the bottom of your shoe!! I think when your body is used to turning to food as a comfort when your stressed.....and then you stop...your body kinda freaks out. I'm off to my doc tonight to try to figure out new ways to address my anxiety....that don't involve a trip to a fast food drive thru that is! I'm glad you made a appt to see your doctor. You can figure this out!

I want to find a doctor who will prescribe me ADHD meds - I score VERY high on their questionnaires.. But my doctor thinks that since I have gone 33 years without meds, I can go the rest of my life (screw me coping or not, right?)..

I hope the clouds lift for you soon, my friend. Don't be too hard on your cousin's wife.. just be happy that you are more confident than her, no matter what weight you are and be happy your hubby brushes his freaking teeth! 3 car accidents? Remind your friend she isn't a cat and only has one life. ;)

Corinna

Hi there girl,sounds to me like you need to get up and pull yourself out of those doldrums,you can do this because this is what you want,it doesn't come over night like we would like it to sometimes but if you really want to lose weight be active and live a fitter life you can its your choice,the hell with what everyone else may think of you I too was down that road worrying what everyone thought I let myself go,I even so much as trapped myself in this house not anymore I'm out the door and going to take this world by storm and so can you,every day after your eyes open you tell yourself I BELIEVE,I BELIEVE,I BELIEVE and truly believe that you can do this you really can,you don't weigh a whole lot don't think of how much it is you want to lose because once you start losing it 1lb at a time (you know because you have done it) exactly how good that feels what a natural high it is,and really it doesn't take that long to do,think about it,if you started today and really committed yourself where do you think you would be exactly one year from now?Thats the image you need to put in your mind and keep it there because you know you would be looking thy bomb by then.So please cheer up honey we are here for you always hold your head up and just do it your worth it!!! Big Hugs. All my prayers with you and your family now.
hope you didn't take anything I said the wrong way at all,because I surely don't mean it to be taken that way I just want you to feel the confidence I know you have had,its there still you just got to find it again.

Never consider the possibility of failure;
as long as you persist,you will be successful.
~unknown

I never thought about the connection between ADHD and depression before. They had me on Ratlin when I was a kid, but I was one of those rare people that where the ADHD stopped during puberty. I've battled depression ever since. It has been a long time since I was in bed for 3 days, or anything like that, though. My heart goes out to you. That sucks.

I think that you may need a new doctor and/or therapist. There is no need for you to feel so much pain. My mom has pretty severe Bi-Polar disorder, and if they can help her at all, then I'm sure that they can help you.

That is enough advice for one day. You hang in there, alright? Take Care.
CFJ
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LMJ....I just wanted to pop in quick and see how you're doing. I hope things are looking a little brighter in your world. Take care of you, OK.? I'm thinking about ya.....

:hug:

Thank you, my friends. Doing much better now. I despise the bouts of depression I get. Makes me feel less of a mother, wife, sister, daughter and person. Sometimes they last an hour sometimes they can last months. Bipolar maybe. I have been dx'd with agoraphobia believe it or not, the way its been lately and me on the go. I do avoid social situations as much as possible though. I also have a panic disorder as well so I panic in those social situations....kinda ironic. Its been a 12-13 year battle and I've been on a cocktail of meds throughout that time. Geez, I'm just letting it all out now aren't I. Sometimes I feel if I had been dx'd when I was a kid that it would have been easier as an adult. I have been on the ritalin, going to ask the dr. about that again. Maybe adderall or something. I don't know.

Well we are off to Michaels (poor kid has been though so much this past couple weeks) eye dr. appt.

Talk soon,
LMJ

Hi LMJ, well it sounds to me like your a very good mom,and wife.Home schooling your children how wonderful hats off to you I don't think I would have the patience myself for that I look forward to the break when they go to school myself though I do feel I'm a pretty good mom.I hope that you feel better real soon,I hope that your doc will find the right meds for you so you can feel better.Don't ever think you can't lay it out here if you feel the need it's ok we all care and hope the best for you.Take care,feel better,Big Hugs

Though you can't go back and start again,
you can start from now and have a brand
new end.
~unknown

Thanks Minnie, its a tough road to travel but well worth it for my family.

Off to take my daughter, Lacey to the dentist. Joy. My feet have been hurting really bad, I think its those dollar store shoes I've been wearing lol. Had a huge binge last night, ate everything in sight I was doing so good and minding my eating habits then BAM there it all went. Its ok though, I've picked myself up and dusted off and doing good today. One day at a time. I had a slim fast muffin bar thing for breakfast it was really good. I'm a muffin freak lol. Not quite the same as the muffins I get from the grocery store but good enough. Its nice to know that they are there in time of "need". If I get time later I'm going to get me a ticker! Maybe that will help. My mini goal right now is to get below 200. That I think will really boost my motivation and also then I'll go to the dr. and get weighed and say HA HA to him. lol. I can do it!

Ok gotta hit the road the dentist is almost an hour away.

LMJ

LMJ. Major clapping going on for the "picking up and dusting off!!!" I wonder if that binge was set off by low blood sugar? If I don't eat something every 3-4 hours I start eating and I can not stop!!

I know you've been on an emotional rollercoaster lately...and it would be real easy for you to just say "the hell with it!" But you're still plugging along doing the right things and that is just GREAT!!!

P.S. Stop off at a real shoe store on the way home from that dentist!! Take care of your feet!!!

P.P.S. Have a great week!!

You and I have the same mini goal.. We can get there!

Corinna

Slimfast has muffin bars hmmm I'll have to get some of those,them sound pretty good I myself think slim fast makes the best bars,I've tried a lot but will go back to them every time.I do the same thing as you if I really have to have something them work,I also buy them nabisco 100 calorie treats they have cookies and trail mix and different things to satisfy a craving,I'm glad you just kept moving forward after your binge hey thats all you can do,believe me I too have those days that I just have to have a little more and it is ok as long as most days our goal is still in focus and were working toward it its fine you are doing just fine,and before you know it you will be below 200.You have reminded me that my kids need a dentist appt. darn my luck I won't be able to get them in til after school starts hope its just a cleaning that they need.Alrighty take care and have a good day!!

To reach my goal instantly is impossible...
but,today I will be one step closer.
~unknown

I really hate that "out of control" feeling that happens when I binge. Hang in there, and make sure not to starve yourself as punishment or anything like that. That just sets me up for another binge later on because my blood sugar gets all messed up, like Jobenny was saying.

I'm sending slow and steady, anti-food nazi thoughts your way. Hang in there.

CFJ
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No more whoa is me posts, its time to pull myself out. Today has been a really good day. I have the upstairs clean and getting ready to help my boys clean their room. Then I have to work on some more lesson plans. I like to have at least a month in advance done. Last year I didn't and we didn't do so well. My daughter has to finish up some of her 9th grade work and she is giving me a fit about it. I'll make her do the 9th grade until my hair turns grey if I have to. lol. My downstairs is a mess. We have a bilevel home, the living room, kitchen and 2 bedrooms, bathroom are upstairs, downstairs is a bedroom, bathroom and computer room (which will one day be a big family room) is downstairs. I hate cleaning the downstairs lol.

My sister, whom I love dearly and is my best friend was here yesterday. We had a blast. I had to bring my daughter to court she was a victim/witness to one of her friends getting beat up. Well the beat up kid didn't show up. So, the kid that beat him up lives down the street from us and my dd is afraid to walk near his house without getting cussed out so now there is a protective order and that punk tries anything then we call the district attorney and can bring charges against him personally. We are a quiet family and don't try to start trouble. Its just a shame that this happened I'm not looking forward to mischief night.

My weight is fluctuating drastically between 213-217. I can get a stable weight and keep it. I'm drinking my water like crazy and eating sensible meals but I am having some urinary problems gross huh? I can seem to get it all out. I went to the hospital once for chest pains and they found a bladder infection and said my bladder was spasming maybe thats the problem. I think I'll pick up some cranberry juice and see if that helps. I am just so desperate to get under 200 before I go see the dr. again. What would make my weight flucuate like that? Water?

Breakfast- Kashi Go Lean Crunch (I woke up really late today.

Lunch - Dry tuna on bread

Dinner- Chicken breast, potatoes, corn

Snacks- yogurt and slim fast mint bar

I'm going to try to list my menu everyday. I can't promise that I'll keep it but going to try.

LMJ

HEY Love!!! I'm was so glad that you stopped by my journal to say hi!! It sounds like you're doing GREAT! Upbeat and positive.....a new attitude that is going to bring BIG results VERY soon!!

So glad you spent some good quality time with sis....sounds like it's just what you needed! Really too bad about the court thing...kids that age need so much guidance...and too many of them are left to fend for themselves...I hate that your daughter doesn't feel safe! But I'm sure she feels very well protected!

Ugh! The bouncing scale....my worst enemy!! Can't offer much advice but it sure sounds like an icky bladder could definately be the culprit! If it were me I'd stop weighing myself....just jump on the scale once a week or so....Seeing the numbers go up and down like that when I know I'm working hard....it screws up my head too much and discourages me. A weekly weight will usually give you a better overall picture of what's really going on. Anyway, just my .02!!

Again, your menus look rock solid and you're really kicking some major butt! I'm so proud and happy for you!!

P.S. I totally forgot you homeschool!!! Good luck getting those plans done....I admire you so much for taking such a lead role in you kid's education!

Just a quick note....boy a positive attitude sure does make a difference! I did great today. I need more excersize but that will come in time!! Thank you all my friends.

I didn't weigh myself this morning!!!! :D :D :D Now to get through the rest of the day OFF the scale lol.

Our air conditioner broke last night. We have central air and water is everywhere. Hubby is going to pick up a new tube and see if that was the problem. I hope we don't have to have a new one. Just don't have the money. Looks like I'll be cleaning the basement area so an air conditioner worker can come in.

Hope everyone has a fantastic day, I'll be back later today.

LMJ

Taking a break from the never ending task of the basement. I never knew we had so much junk!! I better sweat off a pound or so lol I am drinking lots of water. It is so muggy. I'm going to put a fan in the window to try and cool off the upstairs, usually the downstairs stays pretty cool but I'm workin' hard. The laundry pile well mountain is almost touching the ceiling due to all the blankets that were down there. I need a good area to put blankets and just don't have one. I may go to Walmart and get a container to put them in. Hubby told me to go ahead and wash them all. Riiight while he's in an air conditioned office must be easy to say. Needless to say I'll be doing laundry all weekend.

We need to go see grandmother in law this weekend too. Tooo much to do so little time. At least I got most of my lesson plans done, I thought I had all of them done for a month but I have to get my daughters finished I only have 3 weeks of hers done. She still has some 9th grade work to finish too. So I'm not in a great big hurry, but she only has 2 weeks to finish it. We are going to start school the second week in Sept. Hubby has first week off. Usually we start mid August.

Well I'm babbling again..so I'll sign off,

LMJ

Hi I too have that darn blanket problem where oh where to put them,think we have way too many is the only problem lol but I have a very large bedroom and have one dresser that I stack them on I know not the best of sights but it works I guess.Maybe if I went thru my closet and thru away a bunch of stuff I don't need I would have room for those darn things,see now I'm babbling and worse yet this isn't even my journal lol
Your weight fluctuations are probably just water,I'm sure if I weighed myself in the middle of the day or at night it would be different than when I weigh myself 1st thing in the morning so I too agree with Jobenny maybe try only weighing yourself once a week so your not driving yourself crazy with the fluctuations,I was watching Oprah one day and her personal trainer says he doesn't advice people to weigh theirselves for the first 2 an a half months of a weight loss program though I know that is just nuts too,that would be to hard to do.

Good morning - look at you! All productive like. ;)

You will get what you need to do done, I have faith in you.. I have to ask what is up with the DRY tuna on toast? Ummm, yum? I have heard that relish is good to mix in for flavour.. I like pickle relish. then again, if you like it, you like it, right?

Corinna

Oh yeah, I also hope your bladder issues resolve soon. Yuck!

LOL Cori, we get the albacore white tuna almost tastes like tuna. Think I'll try the relish though. yummy.

Too bad about the air conditioner. I hope that it is a clogged line, or something similar. Muggy, heavy work...yuch.

I'm sending super-positive, kick-butt, and long-term and peaceful new food and exercise plan thoughts your way. Hang in there!

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Just dropping in to say hi, and thanks for posting on my journal. Seems like all it well with you. Keep up the good work.

Please keep your fingers crossed for us, hubby fixed the air conditioner.

I'm tired going to bed.

LMJ

Hey Guys!! Well my back is totally out of wack today. All that cleaning yesterday really took it out of me. That dern basement. lol. Luckily it appears (knock on wood, and I'm not superstitous) the air seems to be working and no water is leaking!!!

I'm trying really hard not to weigh myself everyday. Its a real challenge for me. I did go 2 days without jumping on the scale, it was nice to see a 4 lb loss, taking me to 215 AGAIN! 16 pounds to my first mini goal. :D :D I think I'll try to make it til next Saturday to weigh in. I could never go 2 + months without weighing. I'd go nuts!! I can't wait until people can start to see that I am losing that will be the trick to keep me losing. As soon as my back feels better I'm going to jump on the elliptical and do a half hour everyday. I need to get a ticker for that but I'll do that but I'm not sure how many minutes to truly start with and if I'm over estimating with 30 minutes. I need to hook up this tv downstairs or play some music while I do it. I want to get back into tae bo again. I used to love it, but when I tried it a few weeks ago it bored me. Maybe I over did it. I still have turbo jam and other tae bo dvds. Plus, I have pilates. My 9 year old loves pilates and he loves to go for walks so that gives me incentives.

Grandmother in law has lung cancer and they saw a spot in her adrenaline gland. They are considering a home that is just for cancer patients. They haven't decided where to put her yet. Uncle (that has lived with grandmother for 30 years) really has no home right now and is a bum. He is an alcholic and won't give it up. If he would stop drinking which I know is easier said than done he could move in with his son. Its a mess. We still haven't been up to see her and really need to. I feel so bad, but we seem to be having such bad luck lately.

Well gonna check out some other journals but gotta fill up this coffee cup first lol.

LMJ

LMJ - sorry to hear about the condition of your grandmother-in-law...this must be a difficult time for you and your family. On a happier note, I am glad to hear that your a/c is working. I actually had a leaking a/c about two weeks ago myself. Luckily, my landlord had someone to come fix it. I am still a renter, so I didn't have to fool with.

I know it is hard not to weigh everyday and every minute of the day, but it is do able. I only weigh on Sundays. I think if I weighed any more than that, I would probably pull my hair out and throw the scale across the room. My weight goes up and down so much it would make me crazy. I am tempted throughout the week to to step on it, but I try not to.

Congratulations on getting close to your goal. Keep up the good work and you will be there before you know it, and the compliments will be pouring in. I am an eliptical fanatic myself. Everytime I go to the gym that is the one machine I definitely use. I mix it up with TM and bike, but the first thing I hit is the eliptical for about 60 minutes, then hop on something else. Hope your back gets to feeling better, so you can get back on it. It is great.

WTG to you on your 4lbs lost and to never return again!!!I agree that once a week weigh in is the way to go because you will then most likely see a change from the week before for sure.I weighed myself 3x's this week because of a few doctors appts.And of course I weigh the same as I did Thursday so yes that scale drives me really batty when doing that,I will be glad to go back to the once a week.
Yes its always nice when you get the recognition,I myself am down 34lbs and really haven't had others besides my family hubby especially and kids notice but I think when I am able to buy some new clothes it will be more so noticeable,right now I'm still wearing same old clothes and floating in my shirts lol I can't believe how big they look on me now and to think I once thought they looked small only because they felt that way.
I am sending lots of prayers your way for your grandmother-in-law its so sad to see our loved ones in such pain.I lost my grandmother to lung cancer that was a really hard time,I loved her dearly but watching my dad's sadness for his dying mother was the toughest to deal with,so Big Hugs lots of prayers sent your way.
My back bothers me a lot too maybe try going for a walk a lot of times mine will slowly get feeling better as I walk,also wearing them bands that support your back help too,hope it feels better fast for you.You have a good day.

Love. Hi friend! Sorry the back is out....hope it snaps back soon! Glad the AC is holding steady....Where I am it's about 65 degrees and really damp and cool so I'm giving my ACs a much needed break!

4 pounds!!!! WOOOOOHOOOOO! That's great!I know it's hard to stay off the scale. I was totally hooked to jumping on it several times a day. But it really has made my efforts easier not seeing those daily fluctuations that really have nothing to do with fat loss. I bet people will notice really soon! For me it was the 10 pound mark or so when I got my first comments....but for you I might even be sooner....You're right the positive reinforcement helps ALOT!!

I think 30 mins on the elliptical sounds like alot for someone who's been off it for a little while....but you know your body. Maybe shoot for 10-15 the first day and if it's a breeze bump it up the next day.....I know the worst thing I can do is push too hard early on and make myself too sore to keep it going.

So sorry about Grandma....that's so hard.

Well, have a great weekend!

Thank you everyone for your prayers and support.

We went out with the in laws today, I ended up eating a chicken pot pie from KFC, didn't really have any healthier choices. Oh well....drank a ton of water I am floating. :toilet:

I was thinking today on the drive, we went to Pennsylvania (I live in Maryland), if my goals are really realistic or if I'm just fooling myself. I had gone from around 197 to 133 before and really worked hard for it, but did gain it back. I'm really ready and willing to work hard for it again and give it the time it takes, but this time I'd actually like to get to my goal. My goal is around 120. I don't know if I've ever posted this before I didn't want to be a "brag" or anything but I used to be a member of DT under littleredmustang. I was a DT star. I have pics under there. I look and them and literally start to cry. I was such a happy person back then. I was almost completely off all my meds and could cope with daily life. Then of course I hurt this bad back of mine and fell into the depression mode and gave up. I didn't expect to gain back almost 100 pounds. Take it from me it is possible to lose alot of weight and gain it back if you don't maintain properly also if you don't lose it properly. I wrote alot of crap about how I lost the weight but at the end I fell into the old habits I wanted goal so bad! I'm not going to do that now. I eat when I'm hungry. I don't let myself get to the point of feeling faint, dizzy, or hunger pangs. I can't. Then I thought that I CAN do anything and I mean anything I put my mind to. I am stronger than I give myself credit for. I am going to have to work through a sore back, work through the depression, use the meds I need until I feel I don't need them, be a stronger woman on the inside and not just the outside. My self esteem has to raise in order for me to turn my life around and thats exactly what I have to do to lose this weight.

I worry about my daughter, she is so worried about her weight she is 5'5 and weighs 115. She was almost 200 lbs. last year. At 14 she has turned into a beautiful young lady, but has confided in me that she weighs herself everyday. If she gains a pound or two will cut back on her food. I told her I'm hiding the scale from her and she flipped out. I was really only kidding. Weight has been such an issue in both of our lives I can understand where she is coming from but I don't want it to consume her life. I just don't know how to stop it. I worry about my 9 yr. old son, who eats all the time and is getting chunky. Will he be like me? Will he constantly have to fight with his weight? I am trying to give him better choices and thats all I can do. My 10 yr old..he can eat all he wants and is still skinny as can be. 'lil terp lol.

I have to stay positive!!! DT helped me before and now I am completely addicted once again.

Well I've rambled enough and the :toilet: is calling again!

Thank you my friends!
LMJ

Ramble on LMJ, that is what this site is here for...besides it is your journal, write whatever you want...right? I, for one, love to read your posts. (I can relate to some of your situations...more than you could possibly image) I think that you have a truely inspiring attitude. I admire your strength to post freely...maybe one day I will get there. See you obviously must be much stronger on the inside than you give yourself credit for. You are on the right path to the success you want in life, and not just the weightloss success, but the kicking the depression and self-esteem issues (I can relate to those and the meds...we have a little more than weightloss in common...lol) Anywho, thanks for sharing and best wishes to ya!!

Thanks Kelly, sometimes I feel like I am just putting a bunch of non sense words together lol.

Sitting here with my morning coffee, going to try to give it up soon. Hubby doesn't drink it so I only have a tiny coffee pot. I bought Folgers Chocolate Silk coffee and can't seem to stop drinking my 2 cups in the morn. I use splenda and some fat free 25 cal creamer and its yummy.

Had a good chat with myself last night. I did end up eating a pb&j before bed I was so hungry. I could have had something better but thats what I was craving. Decided I can do this. Will do this. Had a bad night sleeping last night. My best friend died 7 years ago August 15 and I keep having nightmares about her. Last night was one of "those" nights. It shall pass just like they do every year.

Its a hot and muggy day here. YUCK. Going to try to get on the elliptical today at least 10 mins! Gotta work my way up right? I figure I can afford 10 mins right now. My back is still on the down side of things. UGH. I don't want to push it but if I can't handle it I'll get off of it.

Well gotta run,
LMJ

I can get thay way sometimes myself when writing in my journal, but then I think..."hey, this is what my journal is for"...so go for it. It does help to get it out.

Hey, I am a coffee drinker myself. I also prefer folgers. I just use the Classic Roast and sweeten with a Coffee-Mate creamer (of course a measured out tsp) and Equal or Sweet-N-Low. I have been known to have a couple of cups a day myself. I actually do better on the weekends than during the week. When I am working I usually get up to about 2-4 cups. On the weekend, unless I am really drained, I will only have about 1 or 2.

I am sorry to hear about the nightmares. I have not experienced that before, but it must be a horrible feeling. Good luck with your elliptical workout today. I am more than sure you can do it. It will take some time to work up to it, but sounds like you've already got the mental strength and encouragement, you just have to build up the physical strength...especially with your back. Be careful of your back. Have a good workout.

I went to chat and was very inspired by a chatter and of course those who posted in my journal and decided what the hay, I'm gonna jump on my elliptical and see what I can do! I had no set time or length determined I just wanted to see. Well hubby was down here playing his guitar so I had company. I haven't even taken my shower yet, I wanted to post first!! I did a little over 20 mins and 1.10 miles!!!!!!

I am so proud, stinky and sweaty!!! Thank you all!!!!!!!

Now, off to the shower!

Congrats on working out! That rocks! :dn

I'm sorry about the nightmares and losing your bestfriend. That is rough. :( You can get back down, but I know how you feel.. I feel like I am a shadow of the person I was a year ago because of the weight I have gained back. Bah! Here's to focusing on losing the weight! If we focus on where we are, we will stay exactly here.

I had someone tell me that she thinks that completing a goal is exactly what I need to do.. It was what I needed to hear exactly when I needed to hear it.. I will tell you what.. Know that I will believe in you until you believe in yourself again! I know you can do it and just remember the positive energy I have for you and that I have it because I know it's TRUE!!!

You caaaaaaaaaaan dooooooooo iiiiiiiiiiiit!

Corinna

Just wanted to stop by and say hi. This way I can find your journal and give you some additional support here. Well hope to chat with you soon, when I have more time I am going to read through your journal a bit. I just wanted to stop by right now.

I am finding myself very addicted to this place today. I feel the need to be here. Thanks Corinna, I needed a boost. Its always hard for me in August of every year. When my best friend had passed we weren't on speaking terms. It was when I had decided to take my daughter out of the public school system and homeschool her and she didn't agree with my decision. When she knew she was dieing she made a decision not to call me because her and her hubby knew I couldn't handle it. I didn't handle her illness very well. She had cancer. I tended to belittle the illness and pretend it wasn't as bad as it was. Even through chemo and her losing her hair, being very sick, not being able to take care of her son ect. I was still in denial. Her husband called me the day she died. I flipped out at the viewing and couldn't handle the burial which I still regret. Since her passing I have been to her grave only once. I had lived a pretty sheltered life and never lost anyone to death before. It was a wake up call. Now that I am older I look at things differently.

Welcome to my journal smallfri, you'll see I tend to ramble ALOT about off topic things and such. I am very open about things, and just type what is on my mind.

Well, I think I may have over done things today. We went to this place called Conowingo Dam and walked the trail. We walked a total of 3 miles. Hub wanted to go so we jumped in the car and went without thought. It was fun though, the kids had a blast. They ran ahead of us and called us slow and old. Well, hubby called me old and slow too lol. It was fun though. It was hot and muggy but we made it.

Tomorrow I am going to do tae bo if I can move lol. I told hubby we should go to the dam everyday after he gets home from work and walk, but he lifts weights every other day. So, we may do it every other day. If not, I'll make up for it some where. I'm really having a good time with this excersize thing now. There were runners, bikers and other walkers so I started to get into the 'zone' again.

Well I'm hungry and need to shower!! I stank!!!!!!!!!

LMJ

Way to go on that trail walk today. Sounds fun and spontaneous. I bet it was good exercise...good for you.

I am sooooo sore! I knew I would be but as I walk around the house I can feel my muscles loosen up a bit. When I first got out of bed I thought I would be on the couch all day today lol, but I am going to jump (not literally) on the elliptical machine with no predetermined time/distance again and see what I can do. I am not that sore that I can't move. I had to rearrange the living room so I have room to do tae bo or turbo jam or any other dvd and I did that this morning. Already broke a sweat lol. I haven't decided which dvd I am going to do but I think it will be tae bo because I know all the moves and I don't have to think to do it.

I am tryiing to find my kids other homeschooled kids to get together with on a regular basis. I have found my boys a group and it sounds like alot of fun. They actually get together at the Y and rent a room for gym class. Its only 25/hr. and they split the cost so its only a couple dollars per family. They go to the library and parks and stuff. I have had only one email for my daughter and of course its a 15 yr. old BOY lol. My daughter will be happy. lol. I think she talks to more boys than girls and seems to get along better with the boys. Although, she has yet to find a boyfriend (Thank you!!!) The one boy she likes is too old for her and I told her that he is 17 almost 18 and I'll ring his neck if he tries anything. He works at the local pizza shop and has delivered pizza a couple times here lol. Anyhoo, enough of that.

My eating today will consist of:
Breakfast: coffee and oatmeal
Lunch: I'll probably end up eating Kashi cereal (we need to go grocery shopping very badly!!)
Dinner: Chicken Breast, potatoes, and a veggie, not sure whats left in the pantry.
Snacks: yogurt or reduced fat triscuits if I get hungry.

I may end up drinking a slim fast for lunch. I haven't decided yet. We have some in the fridge and we are very low on groceries. I need to go to the grocery store. Maybe I'll go today I don't know. I still have enough to last a few more days lol, can ya tell I don't like to grocery shop?

Ok, well I'm out for now. Hopefully I won't feel so needy today and be on here like stink on poo.

LMJ

You are doing great,your menu for today looks excellent,and go ahead and be here like stink on poo because you are doing stupendous.DT is a great place to be on a daily basis anyways keeps the focus right where it needs to be to win the battle we are all up against and all is good because the war will be won.
That sounds like a good time for your kids that would be the only thing about home schooling as a concern as that they still be able to socialize frequently with peers their age.Other than that there isn't nothing to miss about public schooling,sometimes public schooling is more of a headache actually than its worth,I've had my bouts with it I do know that.Ok you take care and have a good day,now go kik some butt with Billy

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Don't worry about being on so much, I think it is great. I am on here a number of times a day myself and I think it is perfectly fine. I am finding myself addicted to this site. I knew I would like it, but I didn't know I would be this drawn to it.

Sounds like you've got a busy day ahead of you, espcecially if you go grocery shopping. Good work on the exercise...keep it up, your soreness will go away before you know. Let me know how you do on your eliptical. I think getting on without a set time is a good idea...just go with whatever feels comfy and stop when it is time to.

Well I did 15 mins on the elliptical this morning and haven't done anything else. I have been so tired today. I had a breakdown of sorts and had to take some meds and just am out of it. Will probably get another 15-20 mins in soon.

lmj

Feeling much better now. Did an additional 10 mins on elliptical. Will be back in the morning! Have a good night everyone!

LMJ

Way to go, LMJ. Glad that you are feeling better.

Love... You sure snapped back quickly! Good for you for going back for Round 2!! That elliptical is no joke...it kills me every time!! I think you're doing GREAT! I loved talking in chat today....Let's do it again real soon!

I enjoyed chatting with you too Jo. Lets do it again soon!

Well I just did 11:30 mins on the elliptical, a half mile. I'm all sweaty lol. Still so sore. I am competitive by nature and want to do more. Play mind games with myself. I am only competeing against myself.

I am going grocery shopping today no ifs ands or buts about it. Well we'll see. lol. I'm going to pick up some healthy choice, lean cuisine ects..

Thats it for now,
LMJ

Hiya LMJ! How you doing girl?

I took your advice from chat, and started looking at Elliptical trainers online, and I saw one on Amazon for exactly $189! I told Hubby about it, and so instead of wanting a bike and helmet for my bday, he agreed to get me an Elliptical! Woohoo! I'm going grocery shopping today too... I usually don't enjoy it that much, but once I'm in there, I'm alright. Healthy Choice and Boca are on sale this week, so I'll probably stock up on those... make a great lunch... Anyway, sorry for blabbering, lol...

Have a great day and hope to see you in chat again soon!

Sounds like things are going well for you, LMJ. Way to go on that elliptical. Girl, you are getting up there. I find myself competing with myself at times too. I like to push myself a little more every once in awhile to see where it gets me...most of the time I succeed, and it looks as if you are doing the same.

I might do a little more grocery pick-ups tomorrow, even though I hate going to the store during the week, but I saw a couple things in the sale paper I want to get, so I might as well suck it up to save a few bucks. I am also a lean cuisine fan, as well as healthy choice and smart ones. They are great on the go. I can throw one in my bag for lunch and be done with it. Well, sounds like you have great taste too...lol. Well, I have taken up enough of YOUR journal, so I will catch you later.

Well my eating yesterday SUCKED! It was horrible. I guess it was cause I had all that food in the house lol. I did do an addition 10 mins on the elliptical but just can't find the time for tae bo grrrr. always something else to do. I will do it today. My daughter has a friend over and she'll just have to see "Lacey's crazy mom" jumping around lol.

I'll check in when I'm done with the elliptical!
LMJ

At my sisters will post later.

Had a wonderful time at my sisters, its always fun when we get together. My eating wasn't so good I don't think I ate enough. I have to figure out a day to weigh in and try to stick to it. Its so hard not to jump on the scale. I don't really have much to report today. I'm feeling kinda lazy but have to get my house clean and do some excersize.

LMJ

I weighed in today 213.4! Well I weigh everyday but don't post my weight everyday lol. Today the scale was nice to me. Hubby is on vacation so I don't know how much I'll be on here. I'm just excited to have lost.
My legs and back are really sore. I did ebay Walking away the pounds or whatever its called. Can't wait to get it and try it. I've heard so much good stuff about it. This is the lowest weight I've been in a long time and every time I get lower I tend to binge. I am not going to SELF CONTROL.

LMJ

Wow! Awesome job LMJ!! Keep it up!

Walk Away the Pounds DVDs are great! You will love them!

Good news on the loss. I hope that helps to drive away the duldrums. Try to keep your blood sugar level, to help avoid the binge urges. You have worked so hard. Make it stick. Take Care.

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YOu will love the walk away the lbs, and great on the loss. Good luck this coming week.

LMJ.. GOOD JOB!! Keep up the good work!!! Have a great weekend!!! "T"

Great job, LMJ. I am so excited for you. I also have the Walk Away the Pounds tape. I used to do it a lot. When I did do them, I enjoyed them, so I think that you'll have a good time with them. Way to go!!

Thank you everyone for the support. I can't wait to get the dvds.

I haven't posted for a few days been really busy. Hubby went to go see his grandmother in the hospital so I'm taking a few minutes on the computer.
Things are really the same just trying to keep steady with my eating. My excersize this past few days has really been terrible. I really need motivation again. The elliptical machine keeps staring at me. lol.

Well thats it for now,
LMJ

Hope everything is good with your hubby's grandmother. Glad to see that all is well with you and that you had time to post. I haven't been doing my best at the exercise thing either. I hadn't done any real exercise since Thursday, but I will snap back. Like you, things have been a little crazy and busy around here. Well, take care and have a good holiday.

Congrats on the loss, my friend! :)

Corinna

Just did 10 mins on the elliptical and hoping to go to the trails again today. Don't know if we'll be able to or not but it would really boost me alot.

Thanks corrina and kelly!!

LMJ

Have fun on the trails. I did the elliptical today, too! :)

Corinna

Way to go on the elliptical machine. You are really getting up there on your time. Happy trails...if you go.

Grandmother in law passed away yesterday. I won't be able to get online until after the funeral on Monday. Please say a prayer for our family right now and that the grieving process is an easy one.
Went and saw my best friends grave since we were at the cemetary. This has been a hard week for all of us. I don't know how we have managed to get through it. I haven't been as supportive to hubby as I should have been and feel horrible.
Thank you all,
LMJ

Sending prayers, postitive thoughts and my very best wishes to you and yours. Hang tight friend.

I am so sorry about you Grandma in law.. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. Let go of the guilt. You haven't been capable of being there for yourself lately and when you came back to the surface, you had to regroup yourself before you could be there for anyone else. It's brain chemicals my friend.. not a lack of effort on your part!

Corinna

LMJ.. so sorry to hear about your grandma in law.. your family will def be in my prayers!! I know it is hard to let go! But, I always try to remember the 'Little House on the Prairie' movie.. where the lady told everyone.. she wanted to be remembered with smiles.. not tears!! I tell my kids the same.. remember me with smiles!!! and the good times!! when I am gone....

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. I have you & your family in my prayers. It is amazing what we think we can't get through, but a way is always made possible. Take care and wishing your family all the comfort in your grieving times (didn't mean to sound like a hallmark card...lol).

Thank you all for your condolensces. Tomorrow is the funeral. I am working my way up to it. It will be small.

To add to my stress, my mother was admitted to the hospital the day after losing mommom. They think she has an infection from having open heart surgery in June. They just don't know what it is to be specific. She is using the bathroom like 20 times a day. Its an hour and a half away and I haven't been able to get down there with the funeral stuff and making sure we have what we need.

Thank you all for being there in my time of need. I'll be back on track on Tuesday or Wednesday.

LMJ

Sounds like you are really going through a tough time. My prayers are with you. Take care.

Well we made it through the funeral. It was tough. My 10 year old just cried and cried. He made me cry. My mom was discharged from the hospital yesterday.

Back on track today. Amazingly, over vacation I didn't gain and TOM I lost! I had a gain, but I guess that was just TOM.

Well gotta get to schooling the kids will be back later.

LMJ

Glad to hear things are slowly getting back into a routine for you and your family. Also, good news with your mom. I hope that she continues to do well. (I am assuming she's doing well since she was discharged, but correct me if I am wrong). WAY TO GO on keeping the pounds down during your ordeal. I bet things were so crazy that you didn't even have time to eat...or pay attention to what you were eating. I guess that is one positive thing. Glad to have you back in full force.

:hug: That's all. Just :hug:.