I've been weighing in for the past month and been a member of this site for over a year, but it's time to do something real about my issue.

I've had 2 operationa for profuse endomeitriosis, one about 3 weeks ago, it attacked my bladder, ovaries, external uterus, tubes, all internal walls, bowel and a few other organs. I have been pretty messed up and as a result have also been on medicine for depression. Apparently that medicine has made it quite hard to lose any weight but I've had enough of making excuses, if I really wanted to I think I could lose all this weight that I'm carrying. I also have to go on a new drug for the next 6 months and am terrified of the side effects it may have - it will put me into a false menopause (which will go back to normal when I go off it again) which is scary for a 28 year old.

So, there it is. That's everything. But I want to be 70kgs by the end of this year, I've been weighing in in my weigh in thread and started at 122.2kgs and am currently 120.2kgs. Sorry for the kgs but they mean more to me since that's what we use in Australia. So starting tomorrow I'll be putting in my food and exercise and water into this thread to keep myself accountable.

Today I ate pretty badly. Tonight I threw out all the crap in the cupboard and fridge so tomorrow will hopefully be easier.

I went hard on the treadmill for 30 minutes which was good, so I'll do that again tomorrow and try to eat better. Also, water, need to drink more water.

Had a bit of stress lately which makes me eat mindlessly - that is an issue, my emotional eating is now what I realise is the problem. So I'm going to go and walk on the treadmill everytime I feel like eating - so I should be on there pretty much 24-7!!

Stressed about the operation I had, then trying to get better, also stressed about a guy - one that has been an issue for more than a year now. I adore him but it's on, then it's off, then on, then off, I know I'm better than this, but when you're a bit heavy you lose your self worth and just take what you're given, and I'm not being given much at all! But just enough to keep me hanging, I'm better than this and deep down I know it, I just wish that my outsides matched my insides. But that all relies on me - I want to take but control, control of me and my body.

They say it only takes a little while to form a habbit. I want my new habbit to be walking on the treadmill for half an hour every day, I want that to be my staple thing everyday, that way at least I'll have that.

I've walked 3 days in a row and plan to walk today too.

I drank 3 litres of water yesterday and will do the same again today too. That's another habbit I need to form.

Now about food.... ooooh I've not been good with that. It's like because I'm doing well with exercise and water that I'm subconsciencly trying to hyjack myself by eating like a pig!! Last night I went and bought salad stuff and more fruit and hopefully today that will be easier for me.

So far today, bran and banana for breakfast.

So my plan of attack:

22 weight watchers points per day
3 litres of water per day
30 minutes of exercise per day
To track everything that I put in my mouth

:)

Sounds like things are going okay for you and you have a plan of attack, so that's a start. Best Wishes to you!!

Thanks Kelly! I tell you I need all the wishes I can get!

Today I went on the treadmill for half an hour at 5km/hr. Very sweaty by the end!

I've drunk 2.25 litres of water so far.

I've eaten 16.5 WW points. I've actually had 14.5 points but I had a HUGE zero point salad, so I put it down as 2 points, because it really was huge.

Today I walked for 30 minutes at 5km/hr. I didn't drink all my water, will work on that tomorrow.

I've eaten 16.5 points, but going to have another 5 now which will end up on 21.5. Yay me!

Back to work today and I can tell you I'm exhausted. I can't walk today, just too tired. It's 7.50pm and I'm already in bed, completed stuffed. I didn't eat well either, and now I feel disgusting. I'm drink water which is making me feel a little better, but I'm going to go to sleep and get up early and walk in the morning.

Finding this really hard on my own:help:

Hello Sweetlover...

I understand the struggle...I am dealing with some very emotional issues right now in my life, which has resulted in me gaining 5 pounds...due to emotional overeating. Very frusterating; but each day, each hour, and each meal is a chance to get back on track! We may fall off, but we can get right back on plan! Keep working on it and it will all fall in to place!

:sweety: Kori

Thanks Kori - I needed some support

I did well today until I came home from work, it seems as though I cool until I'm alone

Today I had:

Bran - 3 points
Milk - 1 point
banana - 1 point
coffee - 1 point
2 bread - 2 points
Butter - I think was on the bread - 2 points
Cheese - 2 points
gerkin - 1 point
banana - 1 point
yoghurt - 2 points
Lite n easy meal - 6.5 points
milk - 1 point

bread roll - 3 points
vege sausage - 2 points
cheese spread - 2 points
dorittos - 5 points

See did well until after dinner when I'm alone - perhaps I should get someone to move in so I don't eat! Or the other plan is, I'll just have to eat less during the day so I have more points in the evening, and also eat something at work, right before I go home, so I feel fuller before I have dinner.

you were doing great with your eating as long as you were walking ( i see by reading back through your journal ) so maybe you need to keep walking and that helps you stay in touch with your body more :)

Your doing super though - don't be too hard on yourself :hug:

Hi Beth - I agree, I didn't realise that until you pointed it out.

This week's been hard going back to work, but I'll make a point to walk this week and hopefully the need for food will reduce.

I like walking anyway, helps clear my head.

Hey Sweet!!
Just stopping by to say hello!!! Hang tuff it will get easier!!!Take those baby steps!!!You have the desire, you have the plan, that is the first step the rest will come!!!As I am sure you already know!! You are still recovering and just getting back to work is hard in itself.
lynn:)

Thanks Lynn - I had already felt like I'd failed! But at the same time I know this isn't a race and I'll be doing it the rest of my life - it took 5 years to put on the weight, it's going to take at least 2 to take it off.

Just about to go and get on the treadmill, my first baby step! Thanks for caring, makes me want to succeed. :)

I went to the gym today and did and hour on the treadmill at 5.5km/hr and then half an hour on the bike at level 7. YAY!

Great Job Lady!!! You keep up the good work!!!:D :D :D
lynn

reading through your journal i see you are doing great....thank god i found someone else writing in kilograms and kilomters:laugh: ...we use the same here in EGYPT....but i got used to do the transformations....

i started at 127kgs....but found it easier to set smaller goals and celebrate each one...now i m 107kgs,,,ve been celebrating the 20kgs loss....i aim to reach 100kgs as a 3'rd big goal,maintain for a month then head to the 90's...ve a great week and keep up the good work.

Thanks Lynn - you're doing well yourself!! You go girl!

Thanks Egyptrose - you're also doing great!! 20 kgs - wow!! You rock! I wish I was doing so well! Keep up the good work!

I went to the gym again this morning, 1 hour on the treadmill at 5.5km/hr and 15 on the bike. Becoming addicted! :D

Gym today - hour on the treadmill.

Got back to the gym tonight. Did 10 minutes on the elliptical trainer, 15 minutes on the bike and an hour on the treadmill:)

Well I'm back - again!

Still trying to do the right things for myself, need to get back on track and get on with it. I've managed to lose a kilo over Christmas which is better than I thought I'd do.

Since the last time I was on here I put on weight up to 127.6kgs (281lbs). I've also managed to get some control back and have brought that down to 117kgs as of this morning (257.7lbs).

Again the whole water thing is hard for me - I have to focus on that. I've also been working 80 hour weeks (no excuse I know) and not only not had time for exercise but also caused a recurring back issue (that I get when I have a lot of work stress and too many hours) so I haven't been able to move much. Which is stupid since that is what would help fix it. Anyway, I went to the physio and that is now getting better. Time for me again. Time to take control, drink 3 litres of water each day, walk for at least 30 minutes each day and eat well. I can do this - I'm not a moron!! I can do this and I'm worth it. Finally I think I might be worth it.

I was reading over this journal and the others I started and I mentioned a guy that was causing me grief. Funnily enough he is still in the picture - although barely. Time to get rid of him too. I'm better than this and it's about time I started to think that way. Wish me luck!

I worked yesterday and didn't stop until today at 6pm - that's 34 hours straight. I'm tired. Ended up missing the deadline anyway - which I'm so annoyed about, but anyway. I'm exhausted, but did manage to eat pretty well, lots of fruit and drank about a litre and a half of water yesterday and today. Got a sore throat tonight though - god please don't let me get sick.

On my way to bed now - going to try and go for a nice long walk tomorrow.

Still been doing huge hours at work. This is a newish job too (been there about 3.5 months). Can't believe it's so out of control already. It seems that when they realise you're capable they pile more and more on to you and I've had enough - already! I've requested a meeting with my GM and sent some pretty stern emails to key people about resourcing and work load. Not that I think it will make much difference, but I'm trying, if things don't change I'll have to find something else. How is this related to Diettalk? Well the more I work the less I pay any attention or time on myself and the worse I am to my body. Still drinking the wate, but still no time for exercise.

I'm sick of not putting all this energy into myself. How do I fix this? They don't pay me to do nothing so I have to apply myself, it's a very demanding job. I'll be packing up my house in the next 3 weeks and moving back to my parents house (and rent mine out) so that I can look after theirs and the pets while they go travelling for 6 months. Maybe I'll look at contracting or something for that time (risky, but at least during that time I'll have rental income to cover the mortgage etc) . Aaarrrhhhh, I need to change my life and situation but keep getting backed into corners that I don't want to be in. This ISN'T the life I want to be living. In fact, I'm a career woman who has excelled in that area, I have a home and friends etc and am very comfortable. HOWEVER, ever since I was little all I wanted was to have a family of my own and a loving husband etc. Notice a disconnect?? I do. I'm almost doing all this because I have nothing better to do! Just becasue I'm good at it doesn't mean it's what I want to be doing. I want to find a loving man and have a relationship and then a home and then a family. Instead at this point I come home to a dark house after 10pm each night, try to eat something ok for me and then fall into bed. There's also a sneaking susspicion I'm hiding, or sabatating myself. Why? I think I'm not good enough or don't deserve it? Yeah, probably. I want to be fit and healthy sooooo much. I want to work normal hours and do my best during them and then go and have a normal life outside of them. I want to meet a nice man and have a relationship and see where it goes from there. I don't want to be working all day and all night. What are they going to put on my headstone when I die.... I wished I'd spent more time at the office?? Nup! So, what am I doing? Again I think it's got something to do with feeling like I'm not good enough, I'm scared of failing so I go nuts ensuring it's all perfect. Wish I had the same fear about my diet. Although that wouldn't be healthy either I guess. And the fact that succeeding at my diet doesn't pay the mortgage is a factor too. Ooooh.... I really am trying to sort out my priorities.

Ok. For this month I am going to try and commit to 1. working no more than 10 hours per day. 2. Drinking 2 litres of water per day 3. Walking for at least 30 minutes every second day 4. Doing one thing for myself or my house or family / friends each day.

Just dropping in to say hi and check out your journal. Sounds like you've got some great monthly goals set for yourself. Stay focused and keep a positive attitude.

Thanks so much Kelly! You've done so well - a great inspiration!! Thanks for stopping by, sometimes you tend to feel a bit alone, it's nice to know there are people out there taking notice. :)

Well - I'm still trying - very trying! I'm like the little engine who could! I think I can, I think I can.... I did work for 12 hours yesterday but that's better than I've done in previous weeks so I'll take that as a success! And today is Saturday and I was going to go in this morning but decided not to - YAY me! I'll have to pay for it tomorrow and next week, but at least I would have had one day off.

I've been drinking my water, still no exercise. I will go tomorrow morning before going to work - I think I will, I think I will....... ;)

My aim is to be some where in the vacinity of my goal weight by my 30th birthday which on the 4th November this year. I've got 11 months to lose 120lbs - whoa - well ok, that may not be realistic but how about I set my goal to be 2 lbs per week until then - that's do-able - right? So by my calc's that's about 40 weeks = 80lbs.

This is my goal. My goals broken down are:

31 Jan - 249.7 (-8lbs)
28 Feb - 241.7 (-16lbs)
31 Mar - 233.7 (-24lbs)
30 Apr - 225.7 (-32bls)
31 May - 215.7 (-42lbs)
30 Jun - 207.7 (-50lbs)
31 Jul - 199.7 (-58lbs)
31 Aug - 191.7 (-66lbs)
30 Sep - 183.7 (-74lbs)
31 Oct - 175.7 (-82bls)
4 Nov - **30th Birthday**
30 Nov - 167.7 (-90lbs)
31 Dec - 159.7 (-98lbs)
31 Jan - 151.7 (-106lbs)
28 Feb - 143.7 (-114lbs)
31 Mar - 140 (-117.7lbs)

As long as you are doing this right and the healthy way, 1.5-2 pds a week is very possible and when you get determined and set your mind to it, it will get done. Those are actually the stats that I set for myself when I first started, so yeah it is possible. It does vary though. Some weeks I would only lose .5-1 pd and other weeks, I would lose maybe 2-3 pds in a week. It takes a lot of discipline and hard work, but when you want it bad enough...it's yours, and I believe you want it, so go for it. Good luck and best wishes!!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!

2 lbs. a week is a good goal. and if u work hard and stick to it it can be done. just like keey said make sure you're doing it in a healthy way. u don't want to lose it quick and have it all come back. but itl can happen and will if u really want it to.
till later
niki

Thanks girls - I'm so glad you've made those comments. I feel that 2lbs a week is a reasonable target but you never really know until you do it and since you have it gives more weight (haha!) to the idea. But seriously I'm glad you think it's an ok goal and yes Kelly, I do want this. Totally committed. I want this so much and 2007 is my year - I've had enough of everything else getting in the way and at the end of the day I am the more important not all these other things. Me!

I agree that there will be weeks of only 0.5 and others of more, I guess I'm just hoping they will average out to about 2. But we'll see. And this isn't a race, if after a while I realise my goals aren't realistic for me I'll review them, but at this point that's what I'll aim for.

So today - had a good breakfast. Extra fibre all bran, light milk and banana.

I've been using the calorie tracker on fitday dot com too which is helping me journal the energy value well. Off to do half an hour on the treadmill now. I'll write more later today.

Good for you, Sweetlover. You have got this all planned out and that is one of the most important things in changing into a healthy lifestyle...planning it out. Besides, like you said, if things aren't working out, you can switch it up, review your strategies and so forth. This is all about you, go at your pace and what works for you. You've already got this in the bag, just stay focused.

Have eaten 1658 cal's today which is good (target is no more than 1800) and had 1.75 litres of water (7 glasses) so doing well. Also left work at 5pm and decided today to find another job - yay me. Want this and can't have it working in this job - my focus has changed. Updated my CV and contacted an agency to find me something else.

Going to go to bed and get some sleep now.

Thanks Kelly - I sure do need your support especially since you've done so well and I can see it's possible. :D

You're a true inspiration!
Eloise

Well, in the middle of job interviews and moving house!! Crazy.

Still been doing well and have come down to 116.3kgs (256lbs) hopefully things will quieten down soon.

E

Have walked every second day for 50 minutes all week. Good I think, especially in the middle of moving. I've finally moved except for a few boxes that need packing except I ran out of boxes.

I've eaten well today and walked, but for some reason I'm not happy. Not about my diet, but I feel hopeless. I'm tired and sad and think life is finally getting me down. It's all just too hard. Works been awful (read prior posts), I have a huge meeting on Tuesday and have to have totally moved out by then also. I've got PMT too so that's probably what the matter is, but I'm not feeling very happy tonight. I feel on the verge of tears and just giving up on everything. I won't and tomorrow is a new day etc, but right at this moment I feel like it. Just a bit crap!

Had some sleep and a break today. It was really nice - forgot what it was like!

I weighed in today at 115.8kgs / 255lbs - woo hoo! Still away from my goal for the 31 Jan, but better than staying the same or putting on so I'll just keep going. Don't think I'll change my goals as I think this month has been really hard and not a normal one - moved house, horrible at work etc, so I'll just keep trying. Oh one thing I have been doing is I've been walking every second day for about an hour - that won't help and it also has helped lower my stress levels so I did do something good!

Still the same weight, went down to 115.3kgs / 254lbs yesterday but back up to 115.8 / 255lbs today. It's that TOM right now so I guess that's having some impact, but I've also been going out a lot for dinner this week, again choosing the right things but it's still hard when you don't really know what's in it. Anyway, my official weigh in is the 31st so I'll wait to see what I am then. Walked yesterday and do the same tomorrow.

Jsut dropping to by to check in you. Keep up the exercise and focus. How's everything else been going for you?

Here's wishing you a great weekend!!!

Thanks Kelly - I'm still here!

Still walking for an hour every second day which is the longest I've kept up any routine I think - pretty sad really, but good this time around. But no weight loss in the past couple of days. You're right though need to stay focused because now is the hard time. I'm going back to the gym this week, so I'll still keep walking every second morning and thought I'd do 2 to 3 sessions at the gym (treadmill, bike, squats, light weights) in the evenings.

Since I've plateau just a little in the past week or 2 I'm also going to pay more attention to my water and food. Aiming for 1500 calories per day for the next month and then I'll start dropping it the months after.

Anyway - thanks so much Kelly for stopping by. Even though I'm still here I haven't been journalling. My weigh in at 31 Jan was 253.3lbs. Slowly coming down, but so far to go that it's a bit scary. Still 8lbs mini goals are what I have to focus on for a while, otherwise I'll freak out a bit!

Elle

Hello Elle :wave:

I usually use kg too... but here, I am use my mobile phone to convert kg to pounds :D

Its for your birthday present on 4 November. Oh, my birthday is 16 November, it will be great to be slimmer on my birthday. Lets do it together :)

You did great, WTG! :cheer:

Hi Titinpus! thanks for your support. I have a lot more to lose than you but yes it's good to have a buddy.

I've still been around just haven't been journalling as I've been finding life a little depressing! And I guess I don't want to be writing down depressing things so I just haven't written anything at all. I'm now down to 251lbs (114kgs) so have come down a little bit more. I've still been walking for an hour every second day and have now taken up water aerobics twice a week too (good for my joints), I've also not eated over 1400 calories each day which is 1300 below my basal count so I would have thought I'd have lost more on the scale, but then again perhaps I've put on muscle that weighs more - I don't know. My clothes are all so much looser that I can't wear some of them now which is great. Still it would be nice to see it come through on the scale. Maybe this is my first real plateau. I just have to keep going and break through so I can come out the other side! Just keep swimming... just keep swimming! Anyway - just checking in - I'm still here - still trying...