Consistency. Goals. Motivation. Ability to get the end results.

I CAN do this. InCANtations instead of InCANTations.

I can, I can, I can. Hehehe..

I have to transfer some stuff over to here and reply my replies..

Corinna

my cholesterol results from June 2004:
HDL: 1.35
LDL: 3.29
Triglycerides: .93
which makes my average 3.75

I can't believe I am the first person to post in your new journal.

You know you can and you will.

Carol

Oooooooooooooo, new digs! I like it. Nice focus too. Later.
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Sandie: Heh, I was going to quote everyone's last reply to me, but you mentioned something about me having more heart than common sense, so I won't for you. :p I am trying to do as many things each day that will help my anxiety and it is working. They say that when you put something off, you emotionally pay each time you think about it. So if you do it when you first think of it, you pay once. It helps.

Seaweed- not an angel. I just feel that everyone in the world deserves to be treated as well as I do and I deserve to be treated VERY well. I have always wanted foster kids because I think every kid out there deserves to be loved the way my kids are. My husband does not agree, unfortunately.

Fagan - thanks. If it continues, I will call my doctor. I really don't want to start taking medication for it. I think I will look into a few herbs to help me. Or homeopathic stuff.. I know valerian root is good.

Ivoryrose - thanks for checking up on me. I am feeling better. I need to workout.. that will make me feel better. :)

Dj - yes, it's cooler in my house, but our house isn;t set up for crossventing.. So it's much warmer in my house than outside.. but! It's cooler in here than yesterday. Dan likes to be warm, so he thought it was great, the freak. Hehehe..

Off to do things that will make me feel less anxiety..


Corinna

ha! Visitors while I was replying and transitioning from my old journal..

Carol - It's almost an honour, eh? Welcome to my new digs.

Fagan - Howdy and welcome. :wave:

Corinna

LOL, Cori.... Alan's a freak with the heat, too. I always said he was a lizard in another life! Glad you are a little cooler anyway and good going on the new journal!

inCANtations vs. inCANTations is awesome!

Hi Cori! A new journal for a new start? Good for you! I know you can do this and YOU know you can do this!

I don't get around to posting in journals (including my own :laugh: ) very often, but when I saw you had a new one, I just had to check on you. The twins are here and so I'm pooped of course, but I'll check back with you in a few days to see how things are going.

Take care and have a good week!

Hey! New digs to get you started fresh. Love the title, too. You can do it. I don't know how you're coping with the heat and no AC, though. Ugh! Hang in there.
Hugs,
K

I like the wallpaper. Smells good in here, too.

here's to fresh beginnings!

:cheer:

welcome to your new hang out :wave:

Like the new home! Clever title. Glad you are feeling a bit better!

I didn't know it got so hot in Canada till I met you. A/C has gotten so expensive down here that a lot of people don't have it. I don't think I could go that route. I am used to the heat but expect to go in the house and cool off.

Carol

Hi Cori,

I have been lurking again and see that you wanted to know how to make black bean relish. I make it all the time and do it a bit different than Ivoryrose.

1 can black beans drained and rinsed.
1 can corn drained
1 bunch of green onions chopped
chopped cilantro to taste 1/4 cup
cumin to taste 1/2 teaspoon
1 cup picante
lime juice to taste


I mix this together and let it stand in the fridge for a while so it is cold when I serve it. You can use any kind of canned beans for this and the other ingredients are optional. Just season to your taste.

Carol

MMMMMMMM Recipes!!! oh!

Hey Baby!

How's it shakin? You sound good, better, up!!

Ok so if your man thin? Everyone in my house sweats except for my Thin daughter who chills from a slight breeze..

Sometimes it is hard to come up for air. Gosh, you work a two jobs (stamping, customer service stuff??). Have children. Dealing with your pops and past history. I would be totally buzzing with anxiety.

Adding exercise is tough when there is no time and when there is I am surprised your not sleeping like the dead.

Hope things slow down for you where you get some time for yourself.

Jump - it is rough and will get more rough until Monday. But such is life. I just want more time to workout. Will get there.

Max - I'm TIRED. I can "live" on 5 hours of sleep but will only get about 4 hours for the next few days. Makes for a fun to be around Cori.

Carol- I might try that.. thank you for sharing. :) And of course Canadians use AC - it gets over 100 here in the summer. I just read yesterday that the inuit are starting to get it installed too, but that has a lot to do with just how airtight their houses and buildings are - made to keep heat in.

My Lovely Ivoryrose - thanks!

Beth - Thanks

Jessica - I didn't hang the wallpaper.. in fact, you'll notice it's gone and I've painted. (and stamped on the walls, of course)

Kerri - To new beginnings, right? :cheers: It' not that hot here this week. I hope it stays like this - perfect weather! I bought a fan. Oooo..

Mel - I know, you're a busy lady. I did read about Cody in your journal yesterday - that is AWESOME. He sounds like a sweet kid who shouldn't feel in the way.

Dj - the incantations thing is Tony Robbins speak. He loves to be hot all year round.. he thinks the house should be WARM in the winter, too.. drives me nuts. Put on some socks and a sweater (and how about some pants?)

Off to finish prepping for my WS tonight.

Corinna

:wave: Found you!

Four hours is NOT enough. Get some sleep, woman!

Four hours, don't fall asleep at the wheel of the car, eh !

I have to admit I am struggling to get my workouts in with three kids, work, ect.... . I am just so bloody tired all the time. Yet I have a home gym so that helps but it is still a struggle.

I am learning to manage time, write lists, I hate to say it but it does help a lot. learned about writing "to do" lists from all you guys in here.

Hang in there.

Dj - the incantations thing is Tony Robbins speak. He loves to be hot all year round.. he thinks the house should be WARM in the winter, too.. drives me nuts. Put on some socks and a sweater (and how about some pants?)

Off to finish prepping for my WS tonight.

Corinna

Ha! I just reread that - Dan being the HE who likes it hot. No clue how Tony Robbins likes it. :laugh:

Seaweed - I know, it isn't enough.. but life being the way it is, I get what I can get.

Jump - It's rough, but having 3 kids is grand, isn't it?

Corinna

I like a cold house - summer or winter (but you already knew that). My BIL, who is from Iran, likes it hot and I swelter when we visit them. They're always sick at their house, though, and I think it's because it's too hot and too closed up.

I've been down that road of little sleep - not conducive to good days for anyone in the household when it happens to me. Try to get some rest so you don't end up sick.
Hugs,
K

LOL, Cori! At first that's what I thought you were saying about Tony, but then realized that Tony wouldn't run around your house with no pants in the winter! LOLOL

Dj - I thought it looked really funny.

Kerri - I like it cold, too.. It's hard being married to someone who doesn't. He likes to sweat and get icky.

Corinna

Ok, I need to take a shower and get to the gym. Yay! I'm going to the gym. Go me! :)

Corinna

I actually went to the gym yesterday. Yippy! I wish I could workout today, too.. I hate this. But such is life. I should put on music and clean.. It'll be some sort of movement (and I NEED TO MAKE COFFEE)..

My 4-day sprint is almost over for now.

Gotta tidy (I had people over 2 days ago and my place was clean.. WTF happened?!) and then go see Bob, then back for downline training, then prep for tonight's workshop (which is mostly done) then prep for tomorrow's class (I have the project's chosen)

Then I work tomorrow afternoon until midnight, then go to the gym sunday morning, then see Bob then work until midnight Sunday.

This is why I hate listing my things to do list. it's overwhelming. I usually have it chunked in my head so that it's way less overwhelming.

Corinna

Yay for making it to the gym!! :dc Yes, it's a long list, but you have it under control. Go you!

:O Tony Robbins hangs out at your house pants-less???

Dang, my grammar and spelling suck when I'm tired. It likely just sucks period.

Bob was in an agitated mood. Buddy's getting more strength and buddy wants to leave the hospital. Fun, fun... He'll be wandering soon enough. I feel badly for the nurses. :(

Ivory - yeah, I want to find out who is teaching step III on Sunday.. they haven't announced it yet. Oh, wait.. I'm planning on doing weights.. I keep forgetting. Hehehe..

I had a GREAT sales night tonight. Yay, me! Booked three shows.. life is good.

Corinna

Sounds like day to day, Bob is in a different state, so maybe he'll come down some. Hang in there.
Great going on the gym visit!! :ex: And great job on the sales night!

Isn't it amazing how badly a house can look in 24 hrs when you have to share it with others...:sigh:
Hugs,
K

Nice place Cori, maybe I can keep up with this one!

I thought it might be a good idea to take a sleeping pill last night.. I only got 3 hours sleep and now I'm a MESS. More so than normal. :( Oh well, there are worse things in life, I am told.

Kerri - I thought you mean a State, not state. Then again, I am very, very, very slow today. I don't know how much more lucid he will get.

LMJ - Hehehe, is my life that hard to follow? I find it rather boring.

Corinna

Cori,

A new Journal to LEAD YOU TO GOALS END .. I know THAT YOU CAN DO IT. I am as always, Monica

Ok, the avatar is sick, but funny - will change it soon. VERY soon

Ok, changed it to something more appropriate. *snicker*

Monica - thanks for the kudos. Always love an MP visit! :x

I'm sooooooooooooo tired today..

Corinna

Heh, Cori...I love the bloody keyboard guy. Found him in my e-mail one day and watched it over and over and over....is that wrong?

Hope you are getting some much needed zzzzz's right now!

Aw, I didn't get here in time to see the bloody keyboard guy. But I think the current one is so appropriate for your life - lol. Get some rest, my dear.
Hugs,
K

Oh shoot - I missed the "bad" one lol ;)

Hope you get some rest :)

Seaweed - I love how his eyeball flies out from the blunt force trauma. *snicker* I will likely put it back in at night, after John goes to bed. Hee!

Kerri - I think I slept about 6 hours last night. But we had cuddle bugs in the bed. hmph!

Beth - aw, thanks - I hope you get to see the avatar. It's so funny (and so sick)

Actually! Since I care so much, you can see the sick, yet funny avatar here (http://www.stamptopia.com/Ouch.gif).

Enjoy.

Corinna

:rofl: :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: I LOVE THAT AVATAR!!!!!! LOVE IT!!!
The Bluttay one that is!

Just my luck, I MISSED the inappropriate avatar! Bummer, man! I'll see if I can get the link to come up. 6 hours, huh? Well, that's moving in the right direction. Does motherhood ever allow you a full 8 hours? Hope you are doing well. :)

Irose - Did you get the link to come up?

Max - I LOVE your new avatar! Lickin' great!

Corinna

The "bad" avatar is so you, my friend! lol. 6 hours is pretty good - that's going in the right direction from the 3 hours. I've been shooting for 7, though. I cleaned house all day and, ahhhh, it feels so good. And NO, I will not come clean yours now - lol.
Hugs,
K

hrmph. I can only get it to partially come up. (dial up at home) Will try it at work with the speedy internet. I need a laugh...

It is unanimous. Keep the avatar for a long while. It suits you very well. It makes me smile to see it over, and over, and over...

Take Care
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The only avatar that would be better would be the energizer bunny.:)

Carol

Kerri - you NEVER come clean my house. Hmph. :c(

IRose - I hope you get it going and don't think I'm too messed up for liking it. heheh..

Fagan - isn't it, though? I love how the eyeballs come out.

Carol - you popped in. Hehe.. Yeah.. I think I will change it to something more psychedelic.

Corinna

Hey! I'm on page 3, people!!! Where are my fans?! My guests? Visitors? Yeesh! Hmph.

I went to the gym today. Yay, me! Going to go tomorrow, too.. Yippee! I am excited!

Corinna

Yay, Gym!! Look, Envy!!!

A visitor!!! :x

Jessica - Heh, all you need to do is get a box and run around it like I do.

Corinna

You're getting to the gym more! Maybe your little avatar guy should stop to lift a weight now and then? :) Call for a visitor and I come a runnin'! Hope all is going well for you.
Hugs,
K

Kerri - I can always count on you! :x Things are ok - just prepping for a kids' party for tomorrow.

I got a stationary bike from freecycle today. I haven't ridden it, but it's the old style monarch bikes that they used to have in gyms about 10 years ago. I am very impressed! If it rides smoothing, that is all I care about. Hop on that puppy for like 45 minutes while watching tv and I'm good to go!

Corinna

Yes you can, my friend! A birthday party for one of yours? At my age, I can't remember all my friend's kid's birthdays - isn't that pathetic? 8-| lol.

A stationary bike! Good deal! I have a feeling that piece of equipment will get quite a bit of use. Nice to have something to fall back on when you can't make the gym, too.
Hugs,
K

Kerri: Nope - I'm workin' a kids' party today.

Umm... wheeeeeeee? *cough*

Corinna

It went well, the kids' party, that is. How many times can you say that there was a party and the kids were quiet? :) They had a blast and they all made lunchbag scrapbooks, magnets and a card. Oh and they decorated their gift bags themselves. :)

I have a new goal. I am excited!

Corinna

I went to see Bob today. He's getting thinner and weaker and more agitated. He was actually screaming last week and has needed to be more restrained. He isn't eating enough. :(

It's really sad.

Corinna

Cori,

I say this with a lot of love ... GOD BLESS YOU AND YOURS for being the thoughtful DAUGHTER (even though he is not blood of your blood) .. I can empathize :console: how EMOTIONALLY difficult this is .. you're a blessing to this man ..

I am as always, Monica :hug:

I'm sorry to hear about your step-dad. You are doing what you can by being there for him. That is all that you can do. My thoughts are with you. Take Care.

CFJ

Cori,

Why did it take me 4ever to figure out this was your new journal?? This low fat life is dulling the knives if ya know what I mean....What's a paperbag scrapbook? Sorry your stepdad's slipping....Hang tight.

:wave:

Sorry to hear about Bob. :hug: Wish there was something I could do to make it better. Glad you are hanging in there though. I LOVE my stationary bike for those days when you *just* can't bring yourself to head out to the gym, or it's too crappy outside for a walk, but you still want to get some exercise in. On good days, I try to alternate "sprints" with intense resistance, then back to regular speed/resistance. Seems to work better. Or at least I tell myself it does.

Kid's party? GAH. You are *SUCH* a patient woman. Me bows.

Ivoryrose - I hope I like my bike as much as you like yours. Thanks for the kind words re: Bob. It isnt easy. :(

JoBenny - Ha! I did put on my cloaking device. Could that be why?

Fagan - Thank you! I have a new goal for which I am pretty excited. WHeeeeeeee! Takes my mind off of things.

Monica - thank you so much! You are a sweet lady and I appreciate you so much! :)

Corinna

Oh, I went to the gym and did a 45 mins step class today. Go me!

And I ate very well.

Corinna

Cool...free bike! I should start reading the freecycle stuff that lands in my junk mail. Could likely pick up some weight gear there.

A kids' party involving scissors and glue and no one glued themselves to anything/anyone and no missing fingers??? You are a saint. Mr. Dressup's got nothing on you. Plus, I always wondered about a grown man talking to puppets and that Tickle Trunk of his....but I digress. You are a saint!

Sorry to hear about Bob. You are doing all you can.

Yes, it definately must have been the cloaking device! 45 minute step class....Go you is right!!

P.S. I hit your gallery link by mistake and saw your photo...Was it always posted?? You are very pretty! And Emily is just adorable!

Sorry to read about thy stepfather, Corinna! You are a good daughter.

Congrats on the free bike ... I love my recumbent, though, I don't use it as much right now as do other things ... still it's there for fill-in when walks 'n hikes 'n such aren't on the menu because of pain or something ... biking really slims the hips 'n makes for good cardio. I like to watch old Andy Griffith DVDs on mine ...

Congrats on getting to gym as well. :cheer: :wave: :)

:party: :cheer: :dance: WHOOOHOOOOO, you gym-goer, you!!!! :lift: Now to get my ever-expanding bum there. sigh.

Okay, I'll bite. No one else seems to want to. What is your new goal????? I would have bitten earlier but school started Monday and my use of my time has been to immerse myself in reading John Irving books and a new Jacquelyn Mitchard, Cage of Stars. Both authors are new to me and I'm enjoying them (although I'm a bit embarrassed I've never read any John Irving before, just seen the movie versions of some of his books).

Sorry about Bob, but you are so good to be there for him - even though it's difficult. Great job on the party! Sounds like a big hit and lots of fun for the kids. I saw someone say they just recently saw a pic of you and you're pretty. Yep, that's the Cori girl!
hugs,
K

Hi Cori,

Sorry your step-father is not doing well. Sounds like he is losing ground.

The kids party sounded like fun. Was it much of mess to clean up after?

I am glad you are getting some gym time. You really love it but I don't see how you have much time with working and a family.

Carol

Cori- i am betting that u are going to get some awesome use out of that exercise bike..i figure i can watch tv and work out at the same time..everone wins :)
Caitlin is just starting to get really into scrapbooking etc..having a kids party where they did it would be very cool according to Caitlin..maybe u can fly over and do it next July..i will have won the lottery by then and will fly u first class of course..Jess can come too :)
hugs bell :)

Bell - Ha! That sounds great. :) I haven't used the exercise bike yet. But alas, I will try to tonight. Dan will be upset, because it will mean he can;t go to bed until 11, but boo hoo for him. Tomorrow will bring us a faboo day at the gym! :)

Carol - I think he only had ground for about 3-4 days.. He isn't getting any better, so this is the best for him, but exceedingly HARD. :(

Kerri - I'm going to Texas in January and there's a race that I want to do when I am there. :) Thanks for the kudos on my pic. I was professionally made up, so if I looked less than fabulous, then it would have reflected poorly on her. I have never read John Irving. I am sure this will shock you, I don't have time to read much! ;)

Ivory - isn;'t your butt gettng smaller? You're losing weight these days, my friend. But yes, you should exercise. Everyone should. :)

ESA - I don't think I could sit on a recumbent bike because of my tailbone (YES, it STILL hurts even though I fell last OCTOBER!!!!).. I am excited. I should clean up my room and then put it up there. Hehehe..

JoBenny - I hate that it was only 45 minutes. Cardio classes should be an hour, unless they are spinning, because those are hard enough. This wasn't. Thanks for the props on my picture. I was in a video for Stampin' Up! last year and that was me, all professionally made up. :)

I watched Memoirs of a Geisha last night. Not too bad. We ran out of coffee, which horrified my bestfriend, so she is off fetching some. I want to do some tidying of my desk and then we're off to see my stepfather (well, I will go see him and she will go to the park with the 7 kids between us.. OY!)

Corinna

I ate *some* sugar yesterday, but nothing overboard. I need to get dressed, prep the picnic and go see Bob. (ummm, wheeee?) It doesn't look like I can go Friday. :(

Corinna

I saw Bob and it was horrible. He seems to be catatonic. His ensure stays in his mouth. I was feeding him water by filling the straw and then blocking one end with my thumb. Just sad.

Corinna

Wow, he is declining very quickly. It must be very tough to handle. My thoughts are with you on this. You hang in there, and take care of yourself too.

I was going to say something about food and exercise, but they seem kind of trivial in comparison to the situation with your stepfather. Take Care.
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Did I mention that he was screaming the other day? They had him heavily sedated. I had a long chat with him today. He never really turned to look at me. I told him that I bet that mom missed him. We knew that he fought with alchohol and that it beat him. I told him that we forgave him, wished there was a way for him to fight his way back to us but knew that wouldn't happen. I then asked him to stop fighting the nurses. I told him that we would all be ok and that he didn't have to be here for any of us. We are sad but understand and it's ok.

There was no chatting today. He was humming occasionally to the music.. but he was ODing on sedation it seemed. It took 4 people to restrain him last week. They got all restraints on him and he got out of them.

Anyway, it's after 4am and I am awake because my stepsister called me. Bob passed away at 4am. They called my stepsister at 3am to let her know that his extremities were cold and they put him on oxygen. He had a DNR.. so that is pretty much all they would do for him.

Corinna

i am so sorry Cori.. my thoughts are with you and your family..many times that final talk by a family member giving them permission to go is what they need to go peacefully.
You have been a wonderful support to Bob and i am sure he would have thanked you if he could.
hugs bell :)

Thank you, Bell.. My friend, whom is a nurse (I told her all about your scratches and bruises and bite marks and she thinks you are a SAINT!), suggested to me a while ago that he needed to hear that from someone and when that someone said the words, then he would pass on. When he was alert and hopping around, it would have seemed like an odd time to tell him it was ok to die. Yesterday, it just seemed appropriate.

I had been wondering what I had wished on him recently.. Actually, ever since he yelled at me, was agitated and trying to bolt, I have been wondering that.

Wow, I think I must have been the last person to see him. I find that comforting in a way.

I need sleep. Bah!

Corinna

Fagan - the change in him was an absolute shock. He was as sedated as you see in the movies.. you know, where they are listless and drooling.. It was all I could do to not sob in front of the nurse.

Corinna

Dear Cori,

I want to offer my condolences :console: ...

You gave this man something that he apparently couldn't give to himself; but now he's at rest and YOU MY DEAR YOUNG FRIEND were a LOVING AND GIVING child. You'll be blessed for this .... Much love, I am as always, Monica :hug:

Cori,

I am so sorry. I know you gave a lot of yourself to make his last days better and made him feel loved. When people get so far gone it is truly a blessing for them to go.

Hugs, Carol

Aww Cori I am so sorry to hear about your loss. Stay strong.

I'm so sorry you had to go through that, but I know your presence and permission were a comfort to him. Sounds hollow, I know. Wishing you strength and peace, my friend...
:console:

At this point, I don't know if it was a damn shame or a blessing that he passed. He deteriorated and passed so very quickly, it seems to me. I feel sad for you, and him, though. It sounded unreal. Most of us have not had to face that sort of thing before. Yet. But most of us do have to face these things with loved ones sooner or later. Terrible, terrible, terrible.

I'm glad that he is at peace, and I hope that you obtain some peace as well. You did right by Bob. That is for sure. I'm sending peaceful and soothing thoughts your way. You are a wonderful person, Corinna. Take Care.
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Just echoing what others have already said. Seems he was tired and ready to go...you gave him forgiveness and permission...what an amazing final gift from you. I admire your strength. My best thoughts and wishes to you and yours.....

You did the right thing. Sad for your loss and your grief but glad he is not suffering anymore and is able to rest.

My condolences, Cori. Such a sad situation. Do something nice just for yourself because you deserve it.

Thank you, my friends. I appreciate your kind words.

Seaweed - I think I deserve something nice, too.

Jump - I will agree after I get some sleep.

JoBenny - the words were easy because I have been mulling them around for a few weeks.. It was being in the room with him so.. catatonic. That was awful. Almost as bad as the first time I saw him. I had regrets after my mom died and I didn't want more.

Fagan - thank you. I did what I felt would be a good thing to do. To let him be at peace.

Jessica - Thank you.

LMJ - Thanks.

Carol - I agree. It was a blessing. What a crazy rollercoaster ride this summer has been.

Monica - thank you! You are such a comforting and consoling person. I love that you are at DT - we are all blessed. :)

This was Bob. (http://www.diettalk.com/forums/vbpicgallery.php?do=big&p=406) He had head shots taken this year so he could become an extra in movies, etc..

Corinna

Corinna, I'm really sorry to hear that Bob is gone, but I'm so happy for you that you did what you needed to do for you in being with him and giving him the support, love and comfort that you needed to give him.

No regrets are the best..... regrets are the pits..... take care of yourself.

Also echoin' what others have posted, sweetie. Stay strong ... but I know ye will.

ESA - Thank you.

Dj - Regrets suck.. unfortunately, I have the regret that my friend's husband works for the police in the drunk driving division.. I regret not asking him to stalk my stepfather. But really, it is all I could have done differently.

Corinna

You did all you reasonably could, my friend. You are wonderful and gave him just the right things that he needed at the right time from the moment this happened to him. And now he is at peace, with your mom and watching over all of you. No regrets because you did it all just right with him. My heart and prayers go out to you and your family, though.
Big Hugs,
K

Sweetie, the compassion you gave to this poor weak man, whether he deserved it or not, is a testament to the gold that is your character. Words are insufficient, but it is nonetheless worth saying -- You have acted with the utmost dignity -- You add goodness, forgiveness, and selflessness to this world -- and you should be VERY pleased with the example you are setting for those beautiful children of yours. Seriously. Hang in there -- I think it safe to say that everyone here is pulling for you! :hug:

My condolences, Cori.

I absolutely LOVED what Ivoryrose said. I second it heartily and could not have said it better.

You are a strong woman and are really trying to deal with some serious issues now that have come to the surface again. I am very, very proud of you and think you are a terrific person. Your step dad was very lucky to have known you and it seems to me that all that you went through as a youth made you the compassionate, caring woman that you are today -- and probably contributed to your wicked sense of humor too (which I appreciate).

You did the very best you could with this man and eventually you will realize this in your heart of hearts.

Sending a hug your way, my friend...

Hi Corinna,

Hope you are feeling a little better. Hold on to any good memories you have and let the negative thoughts go. They will only hold you down and in the past, and it is the present and future that matter.

Hugs :wave:

Today was the funeral. It was different from my mother's.. It was more touching. My mom isn't Catholic, so she didn't have a priest. Bob was, so he did. I really enjoyed the priest, his service and especially his homily.

My stepbrother gave the most beautiful eulogy. Along with the alcoholism, Bob lived his life his way and never apologized for it. It was incredible, moving, touching, peaceful and just wonderful. Bob was messed up, but we all knew he loved us. I will forever be grateful to my stepbrother for that. I am grateful to my bestfriend for being there so that I could be the last person to visit with Bob.

I cried (and cried and cried).. One thing that the priest said that made me feel sad was that we might ask ourselves how we could go on without him. I don't think anyone is asking themselves that. But! He did touch us all.. With love as well in a way that will leave us with resentment.

Corinna

sending you warmest, strongest thoughts in this rough time

:hug:

You are doin' great, sweetie! Hang in ...

Sending hugs your way!

LMJ

What a lovely, lovely post, Cori. And what a wonderful gift, that eulogy. It is marvelous to see that you are beginning to know that Bob wasn't all bad, but that he had his strengths and gave you strengths as well. That was his gift to you, with love.

Thinking of you my friend...

I'm sending some more hugs your way, Cori. :hug: This is a rough time. No doubt about it. I'm glad that you can see the good that he brought to your lives. He did not sound like a malignant person to me, and you did your best to honor and love him.

Take Care of yourself this week.
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I am glad you received comfort from the furneral. It is hard to let go. I loved my step-father and was really upset when he died at 57. He had multiple myloma (sp) and it was a very long painful 2 years. He has been gone for years but David and I still talk about him with a lot of love.

Take care,

Carol

Carol - He and my mother got together when I was 10. He had some good traits in him. Especially while sober.

Fagan - I did try my best. I honestly don't think he would have been there like that for me, but that wasn't why I was there for him.

Chum - I always knew he wasn't all bad. The lies have messed me up a bit. My truth of Bob is completely different than his biological kids' truth, which saddens me.

LMJ - Thanks! :)

ESA - Thank you, ma'am.

Jessica - danke

Sandie - Today has been good. Went to a baby shower. It started off with me seeing my friends for the first time in a while. So I was weepy, but then I was ok.

Ivory - Thank you. What one deserves seems to be multifaceted. I think, really, you need to deserve good treatment on only one side of a multitude of sides to be able to get it. Where he failed us in many ways, he did right by us in a few. . especially when it came to letting us know that his grandchildren held a huge spot in his heart.

Corinna

Kerri - Yeah. One of my stepbrothers ragged on me a bit about not fighting with him about the booze. I couldn't let it affect me the way it did when I was a kid. I had to protect myself and my kids from it. And I don't think I could have changed anything.

Corinna

You are absolutely right, my friend. There is nothing you could do to stop his behavior. That is something he must own for himself and your stepbrother must accept that fact as well. I suspect, had you fought him about it, it might even have worsened his behavior. You and your family must always come first and you know that and did that - just as you should have. I hope you can let the hard, hurtful memories go and remember him for who he wanted to be in his heart but was too weak to achieve, added by his alcoholism. Hang in there. Remember you are strong and have lots of people who care about you and wish they could take your pain away.
Hugs,
K

I agree, I agree. We all hope we'll have someone there when we are in our final days, but we (well, I at least) never think about the more difficult task ... BEING that person. Glad that the father, your step-brother, and your freinds and family were all there to make this goodby a touching one! :hug:

It's a good thing for you to spend some time with friends now...to celebrate beginnings. Seems right somehow. Be good to yourself....

I like the idea of celebrating beginnings. That is how I want people to think after I go.

Kerri - I think that not forgetting the painful memories will help mold who I am. Things I don't want to do.

Ivory - Yes, yes they were. :)

JoBenny - My Nemo-fishy friend.. It was a good day. I had a good yesterday, too..

Chumlette - me too.. Maybe not a party, but a celebration of my life. I just hope whatever it is, it gives peace to my friends and family.

Sooooooooooooo...

I didn't work out yesterday because I woke up, got up and it felt like someone stabbed me under my shoulder blade. After checking to make sure I hadn't been, I decided to chill for the day. It took a good hour before I wasn't in pain.. It hurt so bad I couldn't breathe! I neeeeeeeeeeed to workout more often. So today, I am going. I need to schedule the gym in for tomorrow, too. :)

Eating has been CRAP but that will change _today_. :)

Corinna

I'm sorry to hear about your loss :hug:

But look at ya... getting right back on track. :cheer:

Good luck at the gym, and with the eating. You are such an inspiration!

I like celebrations also. When I go I would like my family and friends to have a big party and celebrate. (Maybe a wake. Those sound like fun.)

Carol

Glad you are feeling better inside. I hope that the shoulder pain abates soon. I hate "cricks" like that. Take Care.
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You'll get back in the saddle again. Considering all the stress lately, I think you're doing pretty darn well. Keep stringing those good days together toots.

FSU - Thank you.. Not too sure how much of an inspiration I am these days, but would like to get back there!

Carol - Like Patty Murphy's wake? You can see the lyrics to that song
(http://www.lyricsdownload.com/great-big-sea-the-night-patty-murphy-died-lyrics.html).. It's funny that they give props to GBS for the song. I knew and sang that song 15 years before GBS sang it. Hmph.. I still love GBS, though..

Fagan - I think the older you get the more you have to move to not get cricky. My shoulder is fine.

JoBenny - Awww, thanks. I'm saddled up, baby!

So I am feeling FAT! I was doing jumping jacks today and I could just feel my tummy a flappin'! Yuck. I need to book in at the gym for later todasy (you know, after I sleep for a few hours)... I need to start training! I have 135 days. Wheeeeeeee! Actually, I will be running a 5K on October 1st. That is my first goal. I need to start hitting people up for donations. Hehehe..

I did NOT eat sugar today! :dn

Corinna

Glad the shoulder is better. I'm looking forward to hearing you ran the 5K, too. It will help you work up to the big one. Jay did his 100 miles on his bicycle last Saturday for Tour de Cure. Poor guy could hardly walk when he got home and after his shower, he was laying on the couch (his usually position on the couch - lol) and said his legs were quivering :laugh: . This was the furthest he'd ridden in a day since I was pregnant with Rachel and he rode his bike to Yellowstone with his best friend (so about 10 years ago now). I'm totally proud of him.

Hey, I just stopped by to say hi, read your journal front to back, sorry to hear about your lose. Good luck to you. i hope you feel better soon. How are the kids. Can you believe your little one and my little one will be 4 this year. Time does fly.

Ouch! I get neck and shoulder pain when I'm stressed. Find a little calgon time and I bet you'll be back to yourself in a flash! Have a great weekend!

Don't worry, be happy.

Now I'm whistling that song!

Ivory - I took a bath the other night. It was nice.

Small - I KNOW!!! 4 years. :c( I'm ok - how are you? :)

Kerri - How is Jay now?

I am SO proud of myself - I started to pick some crap at the store, but focused on how it would make me feel if the scale went up a pound, then thought of how good it'll feel to go DOWN! Go me!

Corinna

GO YOU!!! One great choice leads to other great choices!!!! I am very proud of you. It was the more difficult decision and the RIGHT one!!! YAY!!!

Thanks, Chum! I am proud. Today has been faboo, too.. Only 1400 calories, which isn't enough for me (I did a tough class this morning)..

Will likely have a banana at home.

Corinna

Food choices is a tough one for me too, congrats on the willpower. I think Bell had a good way of looking at it when she would mention she was not going to wipe out a good workout with bad food.

What I am curious about is what triggers big time hunger??? Is it not enough water, high glycemic carbs...any thoughts would be appreciated.

Oh my.. Steve Irwin, The Crocodile Hunter, just died. :( Course, I guess it makes sense since he plays with dangerous animals.. it is still sad. He was 44! So sad.. it seems everyone already knows. I am just in shock because I spent the morning at the gym in my newsless bubble.

Yay me for going to the gym, right? Oh WHATEVER! I spent 30 minutes on the elliptical wishing I were in the class that was TOO FULL for me. :(

There's always tomorrow.

Off to post yet another recipe in my recipe thread.

Corinna

Great job on the no crap save, C!!! :wave: I also love hearin' you mention that 1400 cals is not enough fer ye ... it is SO nice to hear fit folk not tryin' to starve themselves. Good fer ye.

Sad 'bout the crocodile man ... still, he died the way he lived ... adventuresome and in an "accident" with an innocent animal ... he was a champion of animals, in my view.

Sorry fer the hijacky comment on thy journal. :)

See ye! :wave:

Thanks, ESA - 1400 is totally too low for me. I like my lowest intake to be 1600 calories. I try to stay between 1600-2000. If I am consisten with that and I workout consistently, I lose a fair bit. This big girl likes to EAT! I could easily eat 3000 calories of HEALTHY food so you can imagine how much I am eating when I mindlessly eat a cake (or a Tim Horton's truck's contents.. ha!.. Actually, I like their coffee and food.. not so much their donuts, despite being originally a donut shop.. (ooohhhhh! the digression!)).

As for Steve.. He had two young kids and should have been thinking about them when he went to do dangerous stuff.. Though, stingrays aren't supposed to kill.. but he got it to the heart.

Ok.. Off to do the next step in making my lentil soup. :)

Jump - that is a very good question. Sometimes it is hunger. Sometimes it is boredom.. It is definitely habit for me. A compulsion, even.. But I definitely feel hungry at night. I usually save myself a good snack.. but after a good workout, I feel like EATING sometimes.

When I go to the gym in the evening, I have to have a light snack before, but not supper. I have supper when I get home. A light snack again isn't enough.. But! if I plan it better, my food choices rock.

It depends on where I am emotionally, hormonally and just how my day went. I haven't had sugar in 3 days, so tonight will be easier. I think a good question to find the answer to would be WHY do I have such a nasty relationship with sugar? Why can't I eat it when so many other people can?! Is it all in my head? Is there evidence to support my claim? According to a show on TLC, they say that obese people don't release as much seretonin as thinner people when they eat comfort foods.. They said it's the same as a heroine addict and how they will release less than someone who is not a heroine addict and therefore we need more of what we are "addicted to" to get the same feeling as a regular person.

Is it guff? True? I dunno.

Corinna

No, no..., I have the same troubles too that is why I ask. Thanks for responding.:)

Jump - I'd like to know that answer, too.. it is a locked up treasure of info and explanations that I think would help me get to where I want to get..

I do know that when I overeat at night, I occasionally have the occasion to outdo any other overeating session..

I think I should try working on shrinking my stomach a wee bit.

DANG!!! This is good soup! I posted the recipe In the recipe section (http://www.diettalk.com/forums/showthread.php?p=639355#post639355)

Looks like you are doing well. Keep it up. As for the snacks that is awesome will power. Great job.

Thanks for asking about Jay. He's doing fine now. By the next day, he was a lot better, not really even sore.

Sounds like you're making some good choices on your food. I had no idea about Steve! We've been doing mega work around here this weekend since Jay was off school (the 1 week break between quarters), so I haven't watched any news.

On the hunger thing, I think a lot of different things can cause it, depending on your body chemistry. I think it can be not enough water, not enough fat, not enough carbs or protein - it just depends on what you're shorting your body on if you're not eating in balance. But, that's just my opinion.
Hugs,
K

Kerri - I think I totally need to work on shrinking my stomach! OY! And then the habit and compulsion to eat at night. Boredom is a factor.. How mofo tired I am is a HUGE factor. Cool about Jay being good to go the next day.

I am impressed you read all the way back through my journal to read that the Crikey guy died. Tres impressive.

Smallfri - Thanks! Sugar is haaaaaaaaaaaard for me. Harder than it needs to be.

I have been thinking of trying the hoodia stuff but apparently you can't be sure of who has the right stuff. It takes 6 years to grow hoodia from seed. Who do I trust?

I could just trust working out and eating right and yet I don't. Silly me.

Y'all remember Fredhttp://www.onephatman.com? His wife finally had WLS this past January and has lost 133 lbs since then! Oh my! I was reading her journal. She journaled a lot of it.

Corinna

It seems a LOT of people have a hard time with nighttime snacking. It is always in magazines too. I used to snack in the middle of the night. I really don't do that anymore either. I find that brushing my teeth around 8-ish really is a good way to not want to eat. It sort of signifies "I'm finished" and then I won't eat after that. It's kind of a dumb trick, but it can work for some people.

I think sugar is hard for lots of us. It is addictive, afterall. All the dietitians say so. It messes up your insulin and makes you hungrier. I found out too that diet pop also screws up your insulin and can actually make you hungrier! Insanity.

I hope you have a good day, my friend!!!

Thank you, my chum chum! I have very rarely gotten up to eat. but some people are just hungry then! My nighttime snacking started when I was pg.. you are supposed to eat before you go to bed because it's healthier for the growing faetus.

Stories like his always make me feel good, I couldn't find the story about his wife but will look later (run, run, run)

Corinna, I have been trying to figure out the same thing about sugar! I had sugar for about 3 days in a row and it has been absofrigginlutely tortuous to get back off of it. Why can so many people "just have a little" and back off? Last week when I was trying to stay away from it, the first few days I was antsy, crabby, thinking about it all the time, -- its CRAZY!!!!! I think it IS an addiction! Then, when I wouldn't let myself have sugar-sugar, I found that I was craving white bread and other nutrition-free high carb crap. I wish I could figure out how to implement moderation WITHOUT getting addicted. If you come up with something brilliant -- pass it along!

p.s. Chum, I'm going to try the toothbrush thing...do they make sugar-free toothpaste? :shrug:

It is not just simple sugar that sets me off. In fact, I can handle a small blast of regular sugar from something ice cream, a candy bar, or something like that. I do have serious problems with enriched white flour products, packaged chips, cookies, high-calorie deserts, pizza crust, large servings of things like rice or pasta (1/2 to 3/4 cup max at any meal), and other things that can make my blood sugar spike quickly and keep it there for more than a half hour or so.

Anytime my blood sugar spikes really quickly, I have problems with the period after when it drops/plummets again. I used to abuse my body by keeping my blood sugar elevated all of the time, and my body still expects me to keep my blood sugar high if I let it spike like that. When I come off a blood-sugar spike, my energy level drops so low that I may as well be asleep. I'm like brain dead. And the hunger! I get so hungry for the rest of the day. Not just the "got to eat NOW" hungry, but also the sneaky "just a little bit more" and "a little extra snack won't hurt" kind of hungry (little snack can = bag of oreos if not careful).

So...I avoid foods that spike my blood sugar most of the time. I just can't handle the aftermath. It also sets me up for emotional eating, which is very, very hard for me to control once I get started.

I do eat stuff like that every week, though. I don't think that it is realistic for me to try to live in some sort of food nazi vacuum or anything, and I make sure that I "face the beast" regularly to keep in practice with how to deal with it. It can be hard as hell.

Sorry for the hijack. Later All.
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Fagan - Oh my! Dude, you're scaring me. Hehehe.. maybe there are foods that lead me to eat sugar? Who knows! ACK! Crazy.

Ivory - I don't find I ever crazy white bread. I do know that if my meals don't have a carb, protein and filler (veggies, whatever).. then I rarely feel satisfied.

Jump - his wife's journal can be found here (http://www.onefat*****ypoo.com). Her decision to have the surgery and all the journally starts in January..

Corinna

Corinna, all high glycemic foods, even healthy ones, make me crave sugar ... white flour products, white rice products, corn products (corn is one of the worst things possible for blood sugar, in my opinion) ... lots of other stuff ... Pringle's, especially.

Hope you are havin' a good day ...

Hi Cori! I've been MIA lately...rounding the kids up, getting ready for school. All caught up with your journal and seems things are going well. I'm glad! I'm hitting the gym again too and it feels great. I just printed out your soup recipe. I think I'll make it tommorow....and if you have any more please pass them on..I love soup in all it's forms. Hang tight toots.

I always try to read back from when I last posted so I know what's up. Most of the time, I don't let more than a day go, though.

When I was pregnant with Rachel and had gestational diabetes, I ate no sugar (although I was allowed 3 squares of graham crackers sometimes, I only ate them once in a while). By the time she was born, I could have cared less if I ate any sugar. Me! This chocoholic! Had I not given in to the moment, when other's were eating chocolate around me, I probably would still not be eating the stuff and be a lot thinner and a lot healthier. It always kicks in my eating and hunger, whether it's chocolate, white flour, white rice, whatever. Being tired and bored, but mostly the tired issue, are my biggest emotional eating triggers, though. I know some people succeed in excluding certain foods for good from their diets, but I don't seem to be one of them. :sigh:

Kerri - I just can't seem to get into eating sugar in a healthy way. If I have some.. I have to have MORE. LOTS more. But! I don't seem to have that problem with the other foods as much.. Unless I am in denial, of course.

JoBenny - I almost needed a cigarette after eating my soup last night. MmmmMmmmMmmmm..

I think I am going to go to the gym twice today. :)

ESA - I love corn! I love carrots. I don't eat white pasta much and I don't eat white rice much either.. (Especially the rice.. I have to make fibre more of a friend when I eat rice)..

HMOG I am TIRED! Life sucks now that it is back to 5 hours a night sleep allowances.

Corinna

Fagan's post might be scary but it was very interesting. I always learn something from that guy.

That lentil soup would also be good if you added spinach. And maybe a smidge of nutmeg with the greens. Mmm.

Mmmm, mmmm, mmmm! That soup is goo-ooo-ood.

I can't sleep. Hmph!

Corinna

I only went to the gym once, but I did some stuff that needed to be done, such as drop off hostess packages and weeded my garden.

I need to sharpen my hedge clippers. Didn't cut ANYTHING.

Corinna

Sugar - primarily chocolate - is a binge trigger for me. I guess when I was pregnant, I was in control for Rachel's sake and I was able to live without it, but it did come to a point where I didn't care if I had any or not, even for some time after she was born. This article in Reader's Digest was an interesting one for me as I've had the craving change happen for me with salad - I crave it every day now because I've eaten it for so long on a regular basis:

http://www.rd.com/content/openContent.do?contentId=27417

I guess a good part of this process is coming to realize what our triggers are and how to avoid or overcome them. If we had that "fixed", we'd be good to go and thin!

Kerri - Maybe I need a lobotomy!

Mmmmm, chocolate

A lobotomy is a terrific idea! Mine worked out really well.

Who are you again?

PS...make sure they cut out the part of the brain that craves sugar and not the part that helps you control your intake by telling you your stomach is FULL.

I worked out already today - WHOOT! Go me!

Corinna

Heh - who is who?

Day was good. Worked out. Painted pottery. I have to go back on Monday to stamp on it. Going to teach a class.

Class lady wants me to start paying a fee to use her studio. I think I will ask if I can get the people to stamp on a piece of pottery and pay for it instead. I think that is a neat idea!

Off to have an overwhelmingly busy day!

Corinna

Go, go Corinna,

Busy hands makes it easier not to eat! haha

:wave:

Now, chocolate is an entirely different matter. I have found ways to sneak in my chocolate and still be on program. :o I even fit it into my program during the strictest phases.

I still add raw and unsweetened cocoa powder to lots of stuff every single day. Every single one. No kidding. Raw cocoa powder only has 15-20 calories per tablespoon, so I add 1/2 teaspoon to my coffee every single morning, and 1-2 tablespoons to my evening protein pudding every night. Sometimes I add it as a spice to some Mexican/Central/South American dishes too. I still love chocolate. It does not have to come with extra fat or sugar for me to like it.

Now I'm hungry! Have a good weekend!
Every single one. No kidding.

I'm glad you had a good day!

I'm with CFJ, you can find a way to fit in something sweet without overdosing on it. I used to make this SBD thing that was skim ricotta blended in a food processor w/ff half and half, cocoa powder, a splash of good vanilla, and a bit of splenda. It was really good too.

But if you already have the lobotomy scheduled, far be it from me to stop you.

Corinna.

I made that tomato lentil soup for dinner tonight and just had to stop in and thank you for passing that recipe on!! I'm a huge soup eater all year round and this one is right up there with my favorites. DH loved it too. It's especially great cause once you get those veggies chopped it's such an easy meal! I'm gonna be making buckets of it this winter that's for sure. Thanks again......

I'm not an "eat chocolate in control" sort of gal. I always overdue it. I'm glad some people can control it, though - just wish I could.

Great idea on the pottery stamping instead of a studio fee, Cori. And what one of your days isn't overwhelming. At least you got the workout in to kick that tension in the back side. Sounds like you're doing great lately.
Hugs,
K

how goes the exercise bike Cori??? hope you are liking it if you ever get a spare minute to sit on it that is????
Hope your day wasnt too overwhelmingly busy and that you got some downtime in there somewhere.
hugs bell :)

Good day was Thursday. Yesterday sucked moose ****s. SO STRESSFUL and overwhelmind. And I didn't work out. (gov't might sue me.. because of my stepfather.. which doesn't make sense.. but I have to find ot the logistics.. apparently $35K-$60K is the bill)

Today? I worked out! 2 HOURS! Whooooot! Well, 1 hour 50 minutes, since the last class was 50 minutes, not 60.. I'll take it. I go back again tomorrow! :)

Corinna

What the heck does the sticking gov't think you owe on your stepfather, for Pete's sake?!?!?! What about his other children? Doesn't sound like they have much to stand on. Hope that just disappears.

Good for you working out. Keep it up!
Hugs,
K

:wave: hi cori....missed you....you are as busy as always....hope you get some time to rest today...1h 50mins workout!!!thats a lot!!

ve a great sunday.

Kerri - it wouldn't just fall on me. If anything, his kids are more responsable.. but still!

Egypt - heya babe! Thanks for the visit. 1 hr 50 minutes is a good amount of time to workout. :)

Bell - I haven't tried it yet. Dan hasn;t brought it upstairs. :(

Kerri - my days aren't usually overwhelming. They are busy. I don't have much room for compromise in my days, but they usually have a good, no-time-for-housework rhythm to them. :)

JoBenny - Whooot! Isn't it AWESOME? I just need to get 4 more people addicted to the soup and I get a free toaster!

Chum & Fagan - I have sf cocoa in my coffee everyday! :o

Sandie - I bet my husband has an idea of what I could do.. Like.. housework!

Corinna

When my Dad died I wasn't held liable for any of his bills. He didn't have any assets to pay for his care and they didn't ask me to be responsible. Did your step-father have assets? If he did his estate may be liable. I am not an attorney nor do I know Canadian law but you might check on that. It might mean that non of his children have an inheritance or if they do it will less his expenses.

When do your kids go back to school or are they already in school for this year?

David and I are leaving Thus. afternoon for vacation. I will be gone from a computer till Oct. 1. We are taking the motorhome up to Colorado and do some camping in the National Forests. We do plan to camp at our favorite campground at 10,800 ft. and fish for a couple of days. We usually catch our limit everyday and there is nothing better than pan fried trout for lunch.

Your ceramic and stamping sounds like a great idea. I hope it goes well.

Carol

The cocoa sounds like a plan, I might try that.

:wave: Happy Weekend! Hope you are feeling well and recovering.

Bill thing, what a pain! They shouldn't be able to squeeze anything from you. Probably just bluffing or a clerk who doesn't know what's up. Whatever the case, you don't need the hassle. i'm sure you won't need it, but good luck!!!!

Thinking healthy thoughts for youuuuuuuu... :D

Hey Corinna,

Don't sweat the housework, it will still be there tomorrow, and the next day, and the next! hahaha

I doubt the Gov't can do anything about your Step-Father's bills. They just like to pump up their chest and sound important! Don't sweat it. It will all work out, I'm sure.

Have a great week! :wave:

Carol - Have fun on vacation! Will miss you. :) :x

J'soda - It's delish!

Ivory - I hope not. My stepsister told me she spoke to a lawyer, though.. *sigh*

Sandie - I agree.. I should do it tomorrow! :)

Corinna

I think protein powder was maybe made in Hell. YUCK!

I agree that lots of protein powders don't taste that great. Especially the ones that are supposed to be drinks.

Recently, I've started concocting my own. I take a 1.25 pounds of Soy Protein Isolate from the local health food store (24 grams protein per 1/3 cup), and mix it with 1 box of Jello brand instant sugar/fat free pudding. You add just enough water for it to have the consistency of pudding, instead of trying to make a gritty and chalky drink, and eat it with a spoon. The instant pudding makes the mix a little bit creamier, and I calculated that it probably adds only 3-5 calories per serving (about 105-115 calories per serving). Yum, yum.

My favorite flavors of Jello to use are chocolate fudge, banana, and vanilla. Sometimes I mix two flavors together. I have not tried the pistachio or fruit flavors yet, but plan to over the next few weeks.

Not only does this taste better to me than the pre-mixed ones so far, but it is also about half the price. Taste was my original motivation, but I'm also very glad that costs less.

You can also use whey protein isolate. I just got tired of the taste of whey products after more than a year of using them.

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Thanks, Fagan.. I don't really understand what you just told me.. so I'll go harass you in your journal. :D

I worked out today. Go me!

Corinna

Congratulations on working out!!!! Good for you!

Yeah, what Chum said! How goes the sugar battle? I keep trying the protein powder thing, but yeah, it's got a serious chalk problem to remedy. bleck. I get along with the protein bars better.

The protien mix sounds like a good thing the way Fagan does it. Nasty stuff when you buy it, though. Good for you getting the workouts in. My house is a disgrace - honestly. I've had no motivation to mess with it for a good week. Just doing what has to be done- dishes, laundry, litter box and picking up. Sure is dusty around here - LOL.
Hugs,
K

Bonjour Comment ca va?

Nice to see your getting right with it. Back to working out. I'm trying to get in a few good eating days then i'll try the work outs. Like one thing at a time. Going to get this right some day. good luck.

I've had a rough couple of days, leading me to think that it's time for me to go back to work fulltime.. like a real job. I am supposed to start fulltime at phonetime on Monday, but there is a GOOD chance they can just kiss my butt.

My eating has ROCKED, though

Boblin - I do miss working out. I hope I have time when I go to work. YIKES!

Kerri - YUCK! and my washing machine seems to be on the fritz again. :(

Ivory - Yeah.. I'd rather just eat cottage cheese than the protein powder. I have to keep remembering that it is a valid option. :)

Chum - are you excited that I worked out yesterday, too? :)

Corinna

Straight protein powder is HORRID as a general rule, you have to get it sweetened and adding a bit of fat (no, it is not a bad thing) improves the taste. Some protein is much worse tasting than others depending on the type. The problem with prepacked protein powder is that they never put in fat because it spoils.... you might try out protein factory...you can make your own mix.

I had the BEST workout tonight!!! Wheeeeeeeeeeee!

Bootcamp class (I am ALREADY sore!!) and spinning class!

Corinna

Bootcamp and spinning class- that sounds like my idea of a great time!!!!
YOU ROCK!!!!
hugs bell :)

Awesome on the Bootcamp and spinning! What's going on that makes you feel you need to work full time again? Hope everything is okay. You work so hard as it is, too.
Hugs,
K

Bootcamp anything sounds pretty serious to me! Wow. I'll bet that you are sore.

About the protein powder mix. Soy protein isolate is a white powder that you can buy in bulk at many health food stores. It is almost pure soy protein separated from the rest of the beans using water and mechanical processing. Whole Foods and Trader Joes also sell it, but with like a 100% plush markup ($3.99 per pound versus $8.89 and up here).

In my home mix, I take the pure protein isolate and mix it with Jello Brand Instant Pudding (sugar free and fat free). The pre-mixed flavors and creaminess of the Jello brand pudding makes it taste better to me than many of the protein mixes out there. It is not a drink, however, like most of the pre-mixed protein supplements. It makes a better pudding-like substance. Just add a little bit of water at-a-time and stir it in until it is the consistency that you like. Easy.

It tastes even better when you add it to diary products like yogurt of cottage cheese. When I have a dairy product with my meal or snack, adding the mix to it is a nice change over having the dairy item and the protein supplement separately. It is good. Really.

Take Care.
CFJ
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Fagan - Thanks, I will take a look around for it.

Kerri - Ummm, we need the money.. But! I think I might have been offered the BEST solution!!! 30 hours a week, but still making 1.5x what I would where I am now at fulltime.. Wheeeeeeeee!

Bell - it was great!

Jump - I am starting to wonder what my problem is. I love cottage cheese, which is a very good protein.. I should just get over myself and eat the stuff. Hehehe..

Corinna

Hey talk to us in chat.

Sorry Boblin,

Emily is hope and was distracting me.

No problem just teasing you. Was nice to see you in chat. Hope your washer is being fixed or the old one brought in. good luck. In all aspects.

I dump a scoop (sometimes two) into muffin batter. I like to make blueberry muffins and add in some vanilla protein powder. Can't even tell it's in there.

What's the scoop on the new job?

Seaweed - Hrmm... I didn't know we can bake with the stuff, thanks for the advice! :)

Boblin - I washed a load last night. 160 minutes in the drier and it's all good. :o I hope Dan brings home a trolley from work to get the washing machine into the house!

Weigh in day. Wheeeeeeeee!

I did an awesome step class last night. I will be going to the gym for weights and a run afterwards. :)

Corinna

Wow, the new job offer sounds amazing! It would allow you to still put in the time you need to with stamping and not kill you with overwork. I'm starting a crossing guard job at Rachel's school on Monday,too. Little time, nice part time money to add to the Title I job money. And I'm only volunteering 1 day a week this year! Yay me! lol.

So, how careful are you when you cut out sugar? Do you just cut out sweets or do you go major and get sugar free bread, etc? Asking because I've now got high triglycerides to add to my lovely list of things that suck about my health - lol. Sugar, apparently, is a major cause (alcohol, too, but since I haven't had that since about 1990, I think I'm good there). So, I'm in the process of starting Body for Life and Bell suggested I mention the need to cut out sugar to you to see if you had any tips about it. I'm working hard on the mental part of all this - "I can avoid sugar without difficulty. I can regain my health. I can lose my weight and get off my medications." and so on. Whatever helps, right?

Sorry :hijacked:
Hugs,
K

Kerri - Thank you for thinking of me as a good example of how to cut out sugar, but it seems like Athletea, Fagan, and Seaweed have PhDs on the subject. Ha! I had no idea that white rice was a majoy concern and DUH! If I had paid attention to my body, I would have noticed.

BFL is neat because you eat 1 of each of 3 blocks per meal and do that 5-6 per day. It's a tough diet to follow, but kinda up there on the scientific with the Zone. I wanted to get the BFL for Women book, but I am too cheap to buy ANOTHER diet book. :o

Anyway, I avoid sugar, but I don't go anal about it. I try to buy spaghetti sauce sans sucre, but if it has it, I don't panic. I am trying to not eat rice.. but I don't have much room for it, either.

I am sorry your blood results came back less than stellar.. And good luck beig a crossing guard.. I'd be getting the motorists to run down the kids who are a pain.

Corinna

So I am down 5.4 lbs this week and I worked out AGAIN today. Wheeeeeeeeee!

Corinna

Congrats on the loss!!!!!!

Wowser that is one nice big loss in a week Corrina your obviously doing something right. Share what did you do different this week.

Yay you on the 5.4 pound loss!!!! Obviously, you're doing things right.

Thanks for the suggestions on others with tips about cutting out the sugar. I don't know Seaweed or Athletea, but I used to post and read Fagan's journal, so maybe I'll pop in there for some tips. Basically, all white stuff (white flour, rice, potatoes) are high on the glycemic index. The following link is to a Prevention Mag. article that has a glycemic index you can copy:

http://www.prevention.com/article/0,5778,s1-4-62-658-2636-1,00.html

So far, I've read enough of the BFL book to figure out the 5-6 meals per day and the 3 lists of foods. The 5-6 meals a day is right up there with what they advise diabetics to do and the combo of foods will help regulate my blood sugars. I've done the 5-6 meals a day thing for as long as I've been diabetic, using fruits, mostly, for the snacks. Now I'll add to the fruit to stay with BFL suggestions.

Hmmm, having angry parents in vehicles hit the kids that are smart mouthed. That's an idea.......:D
Hugs,
K

And here I thought I had answered this..

Kerri - I'm telling you - Run 'em down when they get out of line!! :whip: Thanks for the link.

Boblin - I followed the program is all. :)

LMJ - Thanks.

Corinna

5.4 pounds in one week is amazing! The plan is working gangbusters for you. Coolness. Good for you.

I DO NOT have a PhD on cutting sugar, either. I just follow the advice that the nutritionist and my doctor gave me. They gave me lots to read about the subject too, because I'm geeky that way. I have to research everything, read independently collaborative studies, etc. to believe it. It is the scientist in me...:laugh: :o

Have a fantastic and thinner weekend!
CFJ
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Fagan - So that means you ARE an authority on the subject, in my books. :p

What an incredibly terrific loss this week!!!! I'm so happy for you! :cheer: (that little thing bugs me, but the sentiment is good, just the same...) I am getting better at kicking the sugar, but your posts remind me that I need to get on the exercise train. Believe me, I needed the reminder! The classes you attend sound awesome! The walking and biking here are good, but our gym selection here sucks and the best one is where soooooo many people I work around go. It seems too... I don't know...too invasive or something. I get enough of those people at work, I don't really need to see my bosses in the locker room nekked! :rofl:

The new pt job sounds like a good opportunity. Does it come with the same benies? It will be great to have a few more hours a week to take care of all the zillions of things it seems like you get done in a day. :D

Ivory - FULL benefits - how awesome is that?! I work part time now, but it is evenings and weekends. This pay is $10 more per hour and.. well.. just better.

Wheeeeeeeeeeee!

(and I do like to workout)

Corinna

CONGRATULATIONS ON THAT FABULOUS WEIGHT LOSS!!

Do I understand correctly that you have found a better job, with better pay as well, and for less hours??? If so, I take my hat off to you lady! That is WONDERFUL NEWS! I am really happy for you.

Fagan sounds like an expert to me, too, with that info base.

Keeping up your exercise? Saw you did on the 15th, but then no post about it.
Hugs,
K

Wow! Great loss!!!

Not sure I'm an expert on cutting out sugar. I am an expert on sugar & caffeine withdrawal, though. It was so bad I will never go back to drinking caffeinated coffee!

I'm an AUNT!

Congrats on becoming an aunt and on an awesome loss for the week!!! you are rockin!!!!
hugs bell :)

Cori...I been out of the loop!

Amazing weight loss, great new gig AND a new Aunt. Sounds like you're walking on SUNSHINE sister!!!

So glad to hear about all your GREAT news!

Congratulations on becoming an Aunt, Cori!
Hugs,
K

Congrats, Aunt Cori!

http://www.stamptopia.com/Xander.JPG

Awwwww!

So, details? Boy/Girl? Weight? Name?

Xander was born at 8:33 AM MDT at 8 lb 13 oz, and 22 inches long. Karen and Xander are resting comfortably and will be home on Thursday!

Seaweed - I don't think I could cut out coffee. I am in awe..

thanks for the props on the loss everyone. I appreciate it! :)

Corinna

Adorable! And a good sized baby. How exciting!
Hugs,
K

I think the baby has more hair than my brother

What an adorable baby! He looks like he will need lots of snuggling from his favorite Auntie Cori. Don't you love that sweet baby smell they have as newborns? That's before they become, er, stinky. :laugh: Congrats! The circle of life...

Cool name! Love Xander!

Cori, I only stopped coffee for maybe a week, then started drinking decaf. It's not the caffeine I love, it's the coffee! Tim's decaf is just as good as the regular.

congratulations for the new baby,aunti cori.....i love the picture.... so tiny and adorable....

congratulations on the loss too...

Seaweed - if you keep telling yourself that, it might come true. I drink decaf too..

ivory - YES.. I like to sniff babies... I just love babies.. I am surrounded by them right now.

egypt- thanks.. he a cutie, eh?

Corinna

My diet is stil ok.. not rockin' like last week.. but ok. :)

I have been working out.. I am using the exercise addicts thread as motivation..

Corinna

2 1/2 hours at the gym today - WHOOT!

awesome workout Cori, what classes did you do?

2.5 hours?!?! You're a star! That is one cute baby!!!

2.5 hours? Wow! Way to go, Cori.
Hugs,
K

Bell - 30 mins cardio kick, 60 minutes Step III, 60 Cardio dance. :)

Kerri and JoBenny - Thanks! :)

Corinna

awesome workout Cori..bet you felt great after all that hard work..i know i always feel energised after a kick ass workout..not tired like you would expect.
hugs bell :)

You are becoming a workout machine, Corinna! I'm impressed. You are increasing your exercise output fast. Are you sore?

CFJ
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What stamina! You are my hero, oh Corinna, Queen of the land called Gymnasium! :D

Ivory - Gee, thanks. :) No need to be a hero.. I really enjoy it.

Fagan - it takes a lot for me to get sore. It's not like I'm not used to this level.. I only just took the summer off. It's not tlike I go for 3 hour bike rides, either. ;)

Bell- When I did step then spinning on Wednesday, I was TIRED! But I had also done my bathroom and my lungs were sore. I think I need to start using non-irritating cleaners.. Oy!

Corinna
I like my new avatar, even if the eyes bug out before the toungue comes out. :)

My wife also thinks that I'm nuts for going on 3-4 hour bike rides at least once a week. I like it. No, really. Most people don't get that, for some reason. I can't ride that long on a stationary bike, but being outside and seeing the mountains, wildlife, and the changing plants and crop rotations as the seasons progress is a lot of fun for me. I feel like I'm flying sometimes, and it is monotonous enough for me to take in everything around me, or to think about things. I'm hooked. Bad.

You take care.

CFJ

The avatar doesn't show up right for me. I was wondering what it was supposed to be doing - bug eyes and tongue sticking out, huh?

Can't stop Cori with any soreness. You and Bell have always amazed me with your stamina levels.
Hugs,
K

I can't figure out your new avatar.

Congrats on being a new Auntie!

And wowee! You have been an exercise MACHINE. You are going to have an ass of granite soon!!!

Hi Cori,

I can never read about all your exercising without finding myself totally exhausted by doing so.............haha

So, how is the little nephew doing? I bet he's already gained another pound since birth! Well, maybe not an entire pound, but maybe 1/2??

Have a great week lady! :wave:

Good morning. Hope you have a terrific day!!

:wave:

I keep thinking I have replied here and yet I haven't.

Ivory - :wave: right back atcha.

Chum - it was an ok day, thanks.

Sandie - you reminded me to ask! I found out that he is having a slow start. Or mom's milk supply is. I can relate.. I had that with all 3.

Chum - Bah! I will just be strong like bull, fat like cow.

Kerri - alright, alright.. I will find a less confusing avatar.. ;)

Fagan - right.. I don't think I could do a stationary bike that long either.. But I could do 3 hours of classes! :)

Ok, I need to get ready so I can make it to the gym for 9:15.

Corinna

Is it true you could "do three hours of classes?" All in one day??? That is just astonishing. You must have amazing legs.

Chum - sure! if I had the time. I would love that. I did two today. :)

Corinna

stopping in to say g'day Cori!!!!
we surely need to meet up one day and try out one another's gyms..that would be a cool holiday for me..going to step class with Cori..better still i will come and try spin class!
hugs bell :)

Bell - I would loooooooooooove that! Today, I am sore from the hard weights workout I gave myself yesterday. Wheeeee! I am doing spinning and then dance class this morning..

Corinna

WOW. You did two classes in a day! All you guys with the stamina of marathon runners. I am so so impressed. Especially when I crutched half a block last night and felt like I'd climbed Mount Everest.

8-| ADDICT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

lol Hey Sexay wus up!B-)

Hey, Corinna..... I know, I know.... I haven't been in here in ages! But here I am to say you are one awesome workout gal ! You and Bell both would be hell on wheels in a gym together! LOL I have always been in awe of your work outs!

Take care of yourself and have a great weekend!

I used to always hate those classes, but am going to give them a try again next week. I don't think that my coordination is any better than it used to be, but I will be able to keep up aerobically now. You guys make it sound like so much fun!

Have a great weekend!

CFJ
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hey Cori..Fagan checked out a spin class at his gym today and wants to try it..stop by his journal and tell him how cool they are!!!
i am sore from weights too today but a good step workout this morning will get those muscles worked out.
hugs bell :)

Chum - yeah, if only I can eat like a person who wants to lose weight instead of someone who thinks being 300 lbs is where it's at. :(

Max - Hey there - thanks for the visit!

Dj - Hey, babe! Welcome back again! I hope you're back for good. :)

Fagan - you should try spinning again.. you don't coordination for it. :) Well, I enjoy it.. but I know a few people who hate the classes.. Meh.

Bell - Ha! :) As much as I'd love to.. I can't make people love my workouts (those silly people!)

Corinna

Hi. What do you eat? Are you on some kind of official "plan" like WW still or something?

I like to eat most things, unfortunately..

I'm just eating whole foods, in Zone blocks these days.

Right now I am making coffee.

Corinna

Wheeeeeeeee! Fun with avatars

It's Peanutbutter-Jelly Time! Peanutbutter-Jelly !! Peanutbutter-Jelly !! Peanutbutter-Jelly with a baseball bat!

Your in a silly Happy mood that's good for the diet. Go girl be Happy it's what we need to be. To reach our goals and challenges.

LOVE the new avatar! The Zone concept is a really good one. I have found the BFL diet a bit too strict for me, but I'm concentrating on low carb, low fat, little sugar.

Better watch all those PB&J's. After a while they can do things to you.
Gee, maybe they already have??:O

Hi Cori,

I am back from vacation. Will check in later, the office calls.

Carol