Hello all.
This is my attempt of riddnig myself from the yo-yo cycle that I've gotten into. I think I loose and gain the same 7lbs every 2 weeks. so now, IT'S STOPPING!:)

I'm taking on a whole new healthy approach. And hopefully in a couple of months I'll be well in the habit.
I've come to realise that eating junk = feeling terrible. AND I don't acctually like it! I really enjoy healthy eating (especially if its in an expensave resturant! :D ). So there is no reason what so ever for me to keep pigging out every now and then.

I plan to keep this journal daily - and completely and utterly honest. even if I disgust myself at times! Im keeping track of various things - general mood, diet and exercise. Hopefully this will be a good theraputic tool too (i tend to eat loads when all is not well).
so here goes...
DAY 1
Im fasting at the moment. Im on day two of my fast, and I feel fabulous. Really productive and energetic. I tend to feel a bit peckish in the evenings, and sleeping is more difficult, but the day time is like a refreshing breeze. I go about my work, and visit friends, and am generally at peace with everything. I fit in a 30 minute run this afternoon, and am about to embark on a 30minute pilates session.

Well! That wasn't too painful. Untill tomorrow...cheerio.
Daisy x

Hiya Daisy!

Glad you started a journal. Now I can pop in and say hi. :)

Good job with your fast... I'm glad it helps you out... whenever I did it, I use to get totally moody, lol... but if it makes you feel good, then great!

I'll be back to check in on ya.

Ta-Ta For Now!

Yay for your journal! :cheer:

Journals REALLY help ya out-- I don't know where I'd be without mine! But anyways, I look forward to getting to know you.

Until then- keep the positive attitude!

aww! thanks ladies, and blue, sorry about the other day, my computer went mental and logged me off! :(

Well, still fasting!Today has been tiring tho. I went shopping, and got really tired out and dizzy, so I popped into a coffee shop and had a non fat frape, Not strictly a fasting drink, but I only had half, and at least it wasn't the chocolate muffin that was dancing around in the counter telling me to buy it! I was feeling a tad moody anyway, mainly due to spending many hours with my mother telling me what should/should not wear. I did come home with some nice things though so that cheered me up (retail therapy, always good!)
I cant really be bothered to exercis after power marching round the shops for hours, although I will do some pilates, and take my dog out this evening.

FSUgirl - looking forward to getting to know you too. Here's a bit about me (what the profile doesnt say!) I'm 20, Live in Cambridge England with my parents. Im studying human Biology, hopefully so I can become a psysiotherapist. I enjoy...lots of things really! Im a dancer, and love all things ballet - although I'm taking some time out after injuring my back (hence needing to loose some lbs!). I did that in my 1st job - I used to work with horses, doing dressage - bit of a contrast there I know! AND lol, I used to be British campion in Tae kwon do sparring, lol - thats the most random bit of trivia I've got!
Apart from the sporty side - Im an allrounder. LOVE animals. Bit of an adrenaline junkie on one hand - with roller coasters, bungie jumpng and all extreme past times! and a lover of all things art on the other hand - galleries, theatre, fashion bla bla bla.
Leading on to the final sector of my persona (I think!) and that has to be the social side! Im well into trendy bars, and wning and dining with friends!
Well, Im probably boring the hell out of everybody now...so untll tomorrow. As you were! x

Day 4 of fasting. Quite good, although I simply had to try some of my mothers curried peas! sounds gross, but actually delicious! And seeing as it was only a spoonfull - It barely deserves a mention.
Today I did 1/2 an hour of 'cardio box' in the morning. in the afternoon I took my dog out for a walk. Not really exercise, by hey, I wore my mbt's! This eve will consist of my ussual pilates routine infront of the T.V! possibly with a small glass of wine - it is friday after all!
I'm still enjoying fasting, although Im really looking forward to breaking it next week. I've been keeping myself busy so I dont feel hungry - this has unfortunately resulted in an up in my nicotine intake :(. That's really bad, I know. But right now I can't take on alot more. I do plan to give up, and I know I will, but It will be stressfull - so one thing at a time please!
I've also been looking at lots of recipes from a vegitarian cook book we have at home. There are lots of delicious, low cal things in there that I can't wait to try. And seeing as they are all veggie, it'll fit in perfectly to next weeks plan of fruit and veg only!
Take care everyone. Dais x

NIce journal, good luck with those few lbs.

hey smallfri, thanks alot! :)
well, day 5 of the fast, and I feel like crap! However that may also be to do with the sleeping pills I took last night. I was feeling so awake last night, that I even did 20 mins more cardio. By 1 o clock I was annoyed, and desperate to get some sleep - so I took the pills. They didn't help at all! I was just drowsy, dizzy and awake all night, and I'm paying for it now!
Today, I've felt SO unwell - which isn't like me at all. I stayed in bed mostly, and had a glass of skimmed milk to see if it would help (bad move!) I've also had some low cal hot chocolate, and some cranberry juice.
Now I feel a bit better - so I've just taken my dog out on my bike (she runs along side) It wasnt really a work out at all - as I was only 20 mins, and it had no effect on me what so ever - but at least the dog was a bit puffed! 20 mins sprinting is hard work when your limbs are only 3" long! lol.
Im just about to get some studying done, before I go round a friends for the evening.
So! This hasn't been the best of days, and I certainly wont be taking anymore sleeping pills tonight! But I am feeling optimistic deep down. I'm proud that I've managed this long without solid food, and it's made me realise how much I use food to cope with things like stress and boredom. I only have 2 more days left, and I cannot wait to get on the scales and hopefully reap the rewards!
Hope everybody is doing ok, and I wonder if anybody can tell me how to put one of those ticker factory scales on my profile?
Thanks, Daisy x

maybe this will work...

Good to see you got the ticker working. And I am glad to see you are almost done fasting. I hope it worked for you. Also what kind of dog do you have. I just cant seem to find if you said or not.

hi again. yer, got it going eventually!
my doggy is a patterdale terrier. They are quite rare, and distinctive. If your not farmiliar with the breed, heres a low down: always a solid colour, predomintly black, although some are chocolate or tan. white markings on the chest and feet are allowed. jack russel type head, but with a shorter and much more muscly body. THey weigh alot more then they look! Patterdales have a great temprement - more like that of a labrador then a terrier - they are calm and quiet and ussually very well behaved! To sum up - a big dog in a small body lol.
thanks for asking. Dais x

Sounds neat, when I have more time later I will look them up on this website I use to look up dogs.

well - day 6.
I feel much better today. I confess, I did eat a couple of little jelly sweets last night at my friends. Not a good plan. and I didnt even enjoy them - I'm actually really craving vegetables! Tomorrow is the last day of this maple syrup thingy im doing, and I'll weigh on tuesday morning - I really cant wait! whatever the outcome - Im just glad I've done this as I feel refreshed, and in control, and ready to not eat crap anymore.
I've been on a 3 mile bike ride this morning, which was more difficult then I anticipated. It was mostly up hill, but also SO windy! I think I was only travelling at 0.5 mph at some points! lol. My thighs were hurting a little towards the end.
Im about to take my dog for her weekly 'trek'. I go every sunday, round all the farm land and around the river. Its a really nice today so i'm looking forward to it. Then, later I'll be doing the regular pilates session.
daisy x

Hiya dais!

Wow, you sure do exercise alot! Where do you get all this energy??? lol

Bottle some of it up and send some here!!

hey bluey,
dont you worry, there will also be weeks when i'm surgically attached to my sofa! :)
Hope ur ok hun, catch ya later. x

Final fasting day!!!!! HOORAY!!!
ok, ive reached the end of my tether! lol. I did not sleep a wink last night. At 4 o'clock I decided it was useless to just lie in bed, so I got up and worked till a civil hour (hey at least i was productive!).
So today I am ridiculously pissed off! lol. Im just a cranky evil cow. So its a good job Im finishing tomorrow!
Im never going near maple syrup again!!!!
Its only 12 o clock. Ive been out walking, and im running later. plus pilates.
im going now, as fasting is boring in a journal - theres no food to talk about! lol.
over and out. x

Oh my! Im drooling thinking about my eating day tomorrow. I didnt know one could crave vegetables so badly! lol
I'm busy planning exactly what my menu will contain - ok, thats a lie, I planned it about a week ago! lol. sorry - a little bit ocd! but never mind!
I am so pleased that it's the evening now, my day is done and I can just chill.
Tomorrows menu will contain:
fruit for breakfast - Im thinking skewers of pineapple, apple, banana and strawberry. yum!
lunch - mixed mushrooms (oyster, button, skitake and field) with garlic and parsley. mmmm, im going to be totally kissable after that! lol
dinner will be field mushrooms with spinich, cream cheese and red onion, with many asparagus tip! (hey, they're only 1 cal a go!) - i may also whip up a herb sauce to complement.

aaaaaaa - drooling! im worse then my dog! hehe!
I also plan to do a work ot DVD, walk and pilates.

hmmm, can I say something without shooting you down, but I was hoping that after you where done fasting you where going to go back to a normal eating plan, well not what you normally ate but just eating. But do you know about how many calories that would be. Cause it doesnt look like a much. Good luck though, I will continue to read and am looking forward and hoping your scale went down for you.

no thats fine - I want ppl to tell me what they think!
Thats why I came here - Im clueless about food!
Yea, it is low cal today, but What Im doing, is gradually increasing over the week (dont worry, ive seen a nutritionist, im not just winging it!). This is mainly because I dont want any lost lbs to fly back on (apparently you have to be very carefull how u manage post fast eating) and also, ill probably feel really full with little.
Thanks! Dais

Im becoming addicted to this site! Its coz my work (assignment for my course etc) is SO boring, and this site is a pleasant break from intercellular exchange. lol.

As predicted, Im STUFFED! I feel so full! But good lord those mushrooms were nice - bit rich though. I had humous and a cheese dip with them, delish! If anyone wants the recipe, give me a shout. It would be an excellent side dish or starter.

Done my free weights DVD already, and celebrated my 5lb weight loss by doing some clothes shopping, so i feel great today. I need to get cracking on the more mundane things in life now - house work, car washing and dog walking.
I cant believe how close I am to my goal now. I think If I now aim for a pound a week, that'll be enough. After the initial fast, Im gonna slow things down so it's constant. This is a great feeling! I hope everybody can get here :) Best luck everybody!!! Love Daisy x

Hiya Daisy!

Was well excited this morning cos I knew today was your weigh-in day, lol..

5lbs lost!! FANTASTIC! :1stprize:

awww, bless you! and Thanks!!!
BUT...I dont rate spinich! lol. eeeuuuwww! Its all wet and soggy! ick! Also, the asparagus was perfection :p
I am proud that I've stuck to what I planned, but I may have some fresh pinneapple later, for desert. yum!
The day has continued to go well. but a boring evening of more work looms :(
tomorrow, I'm doing another workout DVD, and eating.....
* banana and apple for brekkie
*roasted peppers for lunch
* aubergine, corgette, pepper and stirfry with oyster sauce. yum!

I like writting my menu in advanced - I stick to it more!

adios ladies! x

wow, 5 lbs and thanks for explaining your eating better. I can see that you would want to gradually add things back, I know that from experience also. So with these changes and adding back the heathly food syou are adding you should do great.

thanks smallfri.

Today...well, I feel ok and everything, BUT IM SOOOOOO TIRED! it's not because of the diet/working out. It's coz Im not sleeping - stress!!! Im moving in a couple of months, and I didnt think I was worried all the time (although my stomache flips everytime I think of it!) but Its showing in different ways. Like making lists all the time, stiff neck and shoulders, and absolutely no sleep! Which is what happens whenever im stressed.
I've totally lost my appetite today, Im really not interested.
for brekkie...banana smoothie made with low fat probiotic yoghurt - which was actually very nice!
its only 2 o'clock still. I attempted some lunch with grilled veggies and humous, but only had a piece of pepper in the end! had a few grapes and half an apple,.....I just feel wacked! I think the sleeping pills I took last night are still in my system!
I may not even exercise today. well, i'll have to take the dog out, but nothing strenuous.
First I need to get my head in gear and get my work done! ok, having a nap now. I still plan to do my stir fry later (I live for assian food! ep. japanese!), Hopefully I'll feel like it after a sleep!
ok, thats enough griping from me! have a lovely day everybody! x

Hey Dais! Wow... a 5lb loss, that's GREAT! I'm envious, that's for sure. How were you able to get your energy with no food during your fasting week?! That's good that you are slowly getting yourself used to the food again, little by little!

Congrats girly! :up:

Thanks!
well, there's millions of websites that go on about fasting and its benefits. initially, the body uses the glycogen stores in the muscles for energy (this only lasts a few hours, and you do feel a bit wiped out). However after that, the body cleanses itself by burning up all the toxins that it builds up when your diet is poor, this includes fat. fat is just one big energy store waiting to be used.
After day 1, you feel more energetic then ussual. this goes back to the times when we needed to get off our bums and kill a t-rex or something because it was a while since we last ate! clever huh? the human body will never stop fascinating me.
Although, the more times you fast, the less impressive the results are. This time was my 3rd proper fast. On my 1st, I lost 12lb in 5 days! However, poor management of the 'after-math' ment it all pilled back on. Hence being so careful this time! And I swear - Im never eating refined flour again. its addictive, and serves no purpose except cause health problems. I used to be a fan of all things refined - white bread, biscuits, cake, white pasta...you name it! I was totally addicted to it - highs from it, and crashing sluggish lows from it.

anyways...today has not been a success really! I just dont want to eat! I got a bit hungry a little white ago, so I had some more pepper and grapes, but Im done...to be honest I cant wait to just go to bed! lol

SO! a round up of today....
banana, tblsp yoghurt, 50ml skim milk
1/2 an apple
20 grapes
half a pepper and a bit of humous

RUBBISH! lol although at least i feel more human then earlier!
as for exercise...im just about to go jogging with the dog...I'll do about 20 mins in total. Then some pilates exercises later.
as for drinks - im a religious water drinker - I drink well over the amount needed, and always have, so that's not a problem. However on top of that, I do like a diet coke now and then, and TEA!! lots and lots of tea!!! (hey! im englih!). I also like a glass of wine on some evenings.

oh well! im off now...as you were xxx

Good morning happy dieters!
Its a lovely sunny day today, so Im planning on a nice bike ride after breakfast. I sense a productive day coming on, so hopefully I'll get lots of work done. Later this evening I'm meeting a friend whos just come back from Finland on business, we're going to go out and i'll probably end up having a couple of glasses of wine. Nice treat!

food plan
breakfast - banana smoothie (yoghurt, milk, water, 1 banana blended, over ice), which im enjoying now as I type.
Then for lunch, Im going to mix up a pot of chunky veggie soup. Its my mummies recipe, and delicious! just using any variety of veg, cheese and stock...all blended up and heated through. If Im feeling brave, I may serve with salad (although, I hate nothing more then salad! lol). This soup magically seems to last for ever (or... i always mess up the quantities, and end up with enough to feed an army). So I will have more of it later for dinner. snacks will include, apples, grapes, pineapple...or any other fruit we have lying about.

Well, thats enough from me for now, I will check in later with a round up of the day. Love Dais xx

well, hello again!

Its only 4 o'clock still, and ive had my soup for lunch with some grilled halloumi cheese - yum!
haveing the same for dinner, and wine later.
I've been out on my bike, and just about to jog with the dog, lol. Hopefully I'll have time to fit in some pilates later too.

ok, gotta go. untill friday....bye!!!

oh! almost forgot. You may notice that I have changed my tracker to a lower goal. i will not loose anymore then 14lbs. Its just, A) I want my current weight to be at the left side of the tracker, and B) 98lb is a good dancing weight for my height. I also have a very small frame - I mean, really small! im 28'' around my chest and back, so i can take this weight whilst being 'normal'.
please respect my choice. It's the norm amongst most dancers to be lighter. The avatar of me is of when I was at around 98lb, and as you can see, Im slim, but not sickly thin. HOWEVER! lol, if i get to 104 or something, and ive decided enough is enough. That will be it.
thanks! love dais x

Good Afternoon all.

GRRRRRRR! NO SLEEP AGAIN!!!! Not a wink! Although crazy2 gave me a great link for insomnia. I've picked up a few tips that I'll give a try tonight. I hate when this happens, it just makes you feel so ill. I know its all stress related, but at least ive got one less thing to worry about now, after my hospital visit this morning (found a lump in my boob, but its fine).
Apart from that, Im just panicing hugely about moving...Ive never lived away from my parents before, and its not the kind of place I'd really like to live..but its happening none the less. It weird, because i dont get along with my parents really, well, we're ok, but not close at all? so i cant work out why Im so stressy? weird...
So..as for today so far, I had banana,blueberries, strawberries yoghurt and honey for breakfast with a fruit smoothie.
at lunch time I had soup and hallumi again, followed by some creamy mushrooms with herbs.
Havent decided on dinner, although my appetite is much better today, i may make a huge veggie stiry fry with a hot hot sauce. mmmm! actually I want that now! lol....(2nd lunch must be ok on an all veggie diet!)
not going to exercise because i cant be bothered! instead im going to sleep, work and walk my dog. The emphesis on WORK! lol im starting to get a bit lazy with it, and seeing as this year has been my first as a straight A girl - I intend to keep it that way!
Yes, I fancy a chilled day. Just doing things like bathing and painting my nails...AND GETTING SOME SLEEP!!! so consider this, a day of rest.
ok ladies (and gents) I'll love ya and leave ya. All the best, Dais x

ok, well I did manage to fit in a cardio sesion and pilates after all. somehow found the strength! lol.
I had my stir fry, and it was delish! I even made my own sezchan sauce, which is a pretty miraculous feat.
work is still looming...but if all else, it'll help me get to sleep! its so boring! hehehe!
may have some fruit later too, or the ever lasting soup...
2morrows plan is as follows...., 1/2 hr pilates, 1/2 hr walking in mbts. oooh mbt's (massi barefoot technology) are a great investment for you walkers out there - if your not familliar with them, they are a special trainer with a curved sole (so you rock). they take some work getting used to - and feel like walking in sand...but you burn 3x as much in them! they really tone your legs and bum too....google them! I also be dancing for many hours in silly heels in the evening!
and food...probably a similar fruity yoghurty breakfast. Im going to make bbq veggie kebabs for lunch. and dinner, a new dish I found in a vegetarian cook book...cant remember its name, but it look nice! Ill probably snack on fruit too.
looking forward to starting introducing protin to my diet next week, and weighing in again.

ok, my dad will be on here as of now to...god only knows when! lol. so I'll catch up when I can. Have a lovely w/e every body xxx

You are looking great. I could never fast, It would kill me literally. I have low blood sugar to begin with so I cant go more then a couple hours without eating anything. But it is great taht you did it and have learned from your mistakes and are starting back up so healthy.

Thank you so much for the support. Yes, its not the most enjoyable of times, and I certainly wouldn't be doing it if I were in your possition. Also, after taking away your eating routine, you kinda dont know what to do with yourself. In actual fact, I found this really helpful too, because it showed me how much I rely of food to help in more ways then to just fuel my body. Im really glad I did it, although its unlikely that my next fast will last as long.

Yesturday I REALLY wasn't feeling very well, I was even sick a few times in the evening. So I went to bed at 10, and only just got up at 10.30! woohooo! 12 hrs sleep! Im so glad about this, hopefully I'll be feeling ok today now. Thank god, beacuse for a minute I thought I may have to cancel my evening plans - which would have been very awkward, as I arranged the outing! Im sure I'll be fine now, but I certainly wont be drinking much.

Im just going to take it easy today - a little shopping, and walking. My dog is in a show tomorrow, so I'll be practicing with her too! Wish us luck!
Hope your all doing well, and have a wonderful weekend...see ya later! Dais. x

ahh! Im having a great day! :)
its 6pm and im just getting ready to hit the town. in a very funny and approriate top that reads 'maple syrup...mmmmm!' very funny, and fitting after my fst! lol.
I did some studying this morning, and walked the dog..aldo went out food shopping. AND- I had a nap!!! thats amazing! so today I slept...14hours! lol. I needed it!
ate:
banana smoothie, apple, and a DELICIOUS vegetable bake. mmmm, it was sooooo good. Im stuffed now tho! so i'll have to go out with a pot belly lol.
well,,, its over and out for me...i better not be hung over tomorrow, because its show time!
have a grat w/e, Dais x

well...strictly speaking, I dont need to post anything at this point (its 12.30 am on sunday morning) but Im up now, and thought I'd just do something to wind down before bed.
I've been clubbing....except, I really didnt enjoy it! :( shame really, because I spent alot of money. I just... I dunno, It was the kind of place that anounced things like...'happy 17th birthday Holly, and congrats on the baby!' (I have no problem with teen mums, but I turned round to see a little girl, beer in one hand, fag in the other, and about 7 months pregnent :() I just felt like I didn't really fit in...and Im kinda glad!
So not a great night out. I think my friends and I spent at least £60 ($40), and all of us walked out of the club sobber, and somewhat baffled! maybe I'm getting too old!? lol
Its just made me realise so much tonight, about the things I want out of life. I really want to do lots of things - like travel, and get a degree, and..you know! Real, good things.
On a more shallow level - I did look DAMN hot tonight! lol! which really made my night! I cant believe how much success I'm having with my diet since joining this site. Seriously! I know I didn't weigh alot to begin with, but my attitude sucked, and I was really unhealthy which inturn made me really depressed. This is the first time in a long while that I've felt genuinely happy, just the way I am. So THANKYOU!
Well, I better head off to bed now - Its my doggies 1st show in the morning! lol. wish us luck!
Good night, Daisy x

Daisy,

After reading your last post I am wondering if the fact that you are getting healthier, feeling better, losing that weight, etc, if maybe you are feeling better about life,and so that 'sad' stuff at the pub just showed you how awful life can be sometimes and you are realizing that you want more. Which is just awesome.

LOL, well enough philosophising for now.

Keep up the good work.

Hi Nancy, Thanks for the reply. Yes, I think you hit the nail on the head there. Maybe Im being a bit of an old fart, but I think I've totally outgrown that kind of club. I mean - you should have seen what some of the girls were wearing!! :0 - it was little more then a swimsuit. And I totally agree - I din't realise how much a healthy body = a healthy mind, so Im really chuffed to bits with my progress! :)

I got up early today, and attempted to train the dog a bit - no such luck! lol, she just wanted to play! fair do'd i guess, its sunday after all ;). so this show could be hit or miss.

so I had a yoghurt for brekkie, and ill just have to take some fruit with me for the day. Im cooking up my fave sezchaun dish again for dinner - but this time for the whole family. eeek! hope its edible! lol
hopefully I'll have chance to fit in a cardio DVD and some pilates before I go round a friends house this evening.

Enjoy the day everybody!
I'll post the sow news later, and hopefully, I can at last scan some pictures and get my gallery working!
bye for now, Dais x

Great, that sounds good.

wow!!!
My dog wiped the board! we won everything and over £100 of prizes! (think thats roughly $200). great day! although im really sun burnt!

...and starving! there was only greasy burgers at the show (which i avoided, as it looked like mad cow disease in a bun). so im just off to cook dinner. Its already 6 o'clock, so Ive run out of time to work out and study (oh well! lol. i dont care!) so its straight to my friends house after tea.

wow. what a great day!!!!
enjoy the rest of the w/e everyone, Dais xx

I'm being lazy!!!
I have done nothing yet, and I have so much to do!!
So thats why I am here today...to motivate myself into getting started on my list!
ok, its 12.30 noon. im going to start with exercising - half an hour of pump dvd to wake me up.
then i'll study for a few hours.
THEN...i'll walk the dog,
and finally, i'm making dinner for a friend today - i got the recipe from this website, of a type of veggie/cottage cheese bake. sounds yummy.

ok! i'll wait till one, whilst i have a fruit salad with mummy for lunch, then i'll get productive! :) (oh, had a yoghurt for breakfast too)
enjoy the day! dais xxx

well!
I know now why I feel so tired, and lazy! I got my period! It's been aaaaaaggggges since I had one, and I thought they had gone for good (they stopped while I was sick) but low and behold, here I am again. (I feel like Im 13 again, and have no idea what to do! lol)
So its good in a way that I feel rubbish! At least I know It's because i'm healthy now.
I've managed to do the shopping, and study...I've even already cooked the bake for tonight (and had a sneak preveiw, its lovely!). So that gives me plenty of time now to work out, walk and get showered etc. but I feel like its going to be a struggle to get motivated! I've been bullying myself all day now - I cant believe how lazy I feel. Barely enough energy to type! lol.
so...im just wasting away the minutes untill i can be bothered to move. Im a bit annoyed the period had to turn up now, as tomorrow is weigh day. and now that will probably be inaccurate....but hey, at least if i've gained, I have a scape goat!
ok...3hrs till friends come (hang on, let me mentally prepare!!!! deep breath)
its 4pm - im going to work out till 4.45.
at 5.30 I will walk the dog
6.30. wash hair.

ok! structure! now i just have to keep kicking my arse!
bubi all, take care, daisy xxx

Nice chatting with you earlier Daisy. Take care. Congratulation with winning with your puppy.

Thanks Bolin, nice meeting you too.

IM SO ANGRY!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!
my friend cancelled on me. Im ussually very stable at these times, but today, im particullarly irritated. Seeing as I put much time and effort preparing this stupid meal. and spent god knows how much on wine etc. for the evening. Plus, i just feel like a typical pissed off teenager anyway (yes, im 20, but im sure im retarded in some way lol) I know I should try and see things from her point of veiw, but right now im too annoyed.
So, I had the dinner, and I am going to drink the wine later. Possibly Alone, like a sad old alchoholic.

On the bright side, I got everything done in the end, and im just about to go out and see a more reliable friend!
I'll probably be on later - ranting! or in chat.
bye for now! Dais x

12th september.

weigh in day!
Im down 1lb from last week.This is great news for me. I thought I'd probab;y have gained weigh - from breaking the fast, and being on a period. but no! So im very happy about that.
Today Is also the start of adding protein to my diet, like eggs beans, fish and lean meat.
So, without further ado, im just having baked beans for breakfast (mmmm, one of my favourites!)
lunch will probably be the rest of thebeans, an omlette, and some fruit.
and for dinner, Im cooking an asian dish with lentils and peas, and lots of hot spices. mmmm!

I also plan to do another fitness dvd, and some pilates and walking.
ok, later all, Dais x

what a boring long day!
I worked all morning. did house work and shopping in the afternoon, and im just about to start working out, and take the dog out.
Food went as planned, today i've eaten:
1 can of baked beans, 3 egg whites, a slice of pineapple, and an indian dinner (yellow split peas, fresh peas, tofu and prawns) all yummy! all easy, and all filling.
just about to walk, do my dvd and pilates!
god! does anybody else just feel like their day is just about getting things done!?!? lol
bye for now, Dais.

Well,
it's 10.30 a.m, and thank god the doorbell rang, or i'd have never gotten up! lol. I guess that's what you get for waiting till 2.00am to be on chat! look at that dedication!!! lol. well, actually, I couldn't sleep - but hey!
So I havent eaten yet...im waiting to feel hungry! But the plan for the day is as follows:
breakfast - sausage and eggs (low fat sausage)
lunch - fruit salad
dinner - tofu and chinnese vegetables in sezchan sauce yummy!

exercise -
30minutes running with doggie, pilates.

plus the ussual boring stuff - studying, shopping bla bla bla. Oh, actually, i'm going to see a movie with my brother tonight. Snakes on a plane! It looks awful! but it should be funny! lol.

have a great day all xxx

Well! what a little piggy I am! lol
I had my breakfast...well, I guess it was actually lunch seeing as I was so lazy and slept till near lunch time. so yes, I had...erm, brunch - all 550calories of it! ops! I had 4 sausages, and 4 boilled eggs! lol. Thats the most I've eaten in months. Im so full I cant move now! and it was over an hour ago!
I sense a lazy day brewing...hence on here far too much AGAIN. But I am working on that run...one trainer is on anyway! Did my shopping already - but I think study can wait untill this eve, after the cinema. I simply cant look at books while im in this mood - it'll go straight in one ear and out the other.
So...new plan....
skipping fruit salad...I wont need to eat now until much later. my stomach is on the brink of rupture! so, it'll be hit or miss as to whether I make my stir fry later. who knows! I know I wont be eating any crap from the cinema though - mostly out of protest towards the extortionate prices. expensive sugar - blah!
I must do my x-country run and visit the doctors before that...and then study all eve.
ok! It still works, now I've got to convince my brain that it doesn't want to go back to sleep. COFFEE PLEASE!

Minus studying, I managed to get everything done today...
I didnt really eat anything else, just a couple of slices of pineapple.

Im feeling...strange. I have a bit of a problem. Im so...perfect! and i hate it. so perfect that im nervous all the time in case I muck up and get something slightly wrong.
I've noticed this...so im changing my eating plan slightly...Im going to add a 'bad day' to my eating, every now and then, maybe once monthly. when I can lay off the perfect health kick, and not record anything in here. a day where i dont work out, or count, or care, and loosen the reins a bit.
I noticed my awful perfectionism, after this evening when I totally freaked out because my mother changed dinner plans for saturday - i just lost it big time :(. so i need to chill!

The trouble is though - I LIKE to plan, I like to decide what im doing and eating, so I stick to it. Because, in all truth, Im terrified of loosing control, and I dont think thats a bad thing, to be in control. but thats ok right? Its good to plan, no? lots of people do. ahhh - enough blabbing - its mums fault for making me feel like im weird! lol, and that just makes me plan more!!

so, IM GOING TO PLAN! lol
2mo...have to get some work done!!!! also want to do a workout dvd, and im going out with a friend in the evening.
as for food...I think banana smoothie for brekkie, my tofu stir fry for lunch (the one I was suposed to eat today), and dinner...hmmm, maybe the fricasse again that I had last week, with asparagus - because it was absolutely delicious!
yes, that sounds good...over and out, Dais x

LOL, Daisy, could I tell you were a perfectionist?!!! I know it is hard for perfectionists to have their plans changed etc. So hang in there, at least you recognize this, that will help.

You food sounds great, what a little chef you are becoming!!!

Yes, I also feel like my day is full of things to do, believe me, I never get it all done.

Glad you came to chat but so sorry you have to stay up so late to do it. We really need an earlier chat for our UK friends.

Take care, keep up the good work.

Oh, instead of calling it a Bad food day what about calling it a Free day, lol, that is what I do, it gives a much more positivie spin on things.

Good idea Nancy! - a free day -ahhhh! yes, that works.
and thank you for dropping in!

The thing with my plans - They always change anyway! I think I just like to know what Im doing.
I've gotten into the bad habit of staying up late, and sleeping in late (DT'S fault! :D but hey, at least im sleeping!)
So it's 1.30pm, and I have yet to 'wake up', and have only had orange juice so far.
Im continuing with the chef theme this morning and heading off to the market to get ingreidients for 'salmon roulettes' (dont be fooled - its basically an omlette with salmon cress and creme cheese hehehe!).
THen WORK!!!! grrr, what a rubbish student I'm being these last few days!
Ftting in some cardio, and dog walking...and then it's my second attempt of meeting the unreliable friend this eve. I've lived it and learnt it now - so Im only going to wizz up a quick stir fry incase she dumps me again!
ok, no time to chat now...IM LATE! IM LATE! (turning into the alice in wonderland rabbit now).
Have a lovely day everybody.

oh yes Nancy, an earlier chat would be marvellous, but Im still going to try and pop into monica's chat tonight out of sheer curiosity!
bye for now, Dais.

Thank the lord!!!
I got some studying don at last! So im back on the wagon!
just about to do the fitness routine. then I gotta bath the dog and have a shower before the 'evening entertainment!'. I think its going to be a bit wild! My friend has stocked up on vodka mudshakes lol (they are about a million calories, but its a one off).
so, im off now to start working up a sweat!
bye for now, Dais xx

great job, now I have to have your motivation cause I have no ambition to study this week, and I have to cause its only an 8 week course and we are coming to the end of week 3 already, it goes so fast.

I know, It's torture! best of luck with it tho...you'll be ok once the ball gets rolling. just force yourself to begin with, and then you'll be ok. Ive had to pick and choose the topics I cover when Im feeling disheartened - ussually the easy/interesting one! lol.

well, I managed to do my cardio, now its bath time!! ok, now the dog has hidden - so excuse me, I have to go and find her! lol.

bye everyone, thanks for stopping bye!

OMG!
I partied WAAAAAY too hard last night. It was great fun, although I do remember requesting a visit to the E.R. (and we dont even have an E.R. here! lol, its called A&E). So, after being violently sick and crashing on the sofa, I feel like death today, and I fully deserve it!!
Never mind! You're only young once I guess.
On the plus side, I did get up much earlier, so hopefully my routine will be back to normal now. Oh! and dinner was amazing! My stir fry was so much more then just a quick easy meal! it was delicious!
SO, I've been busy cleaning up the house this morning after it was demolished last night. And now Im off to study.
Later I'll be working out to yet another cardio DVD, walking the doggy, and then this evening I have to babysit. It's cool babysitting where I go because the kids have got a massive trampoline...and a dance mat! so I'll be working out all night too!
I've had a yoghurt for breakfast, with a glass of orange juice.
lunch...hmmm, I dont know yet, probably just fruit.
dinner is alrready sorted, Im just having some white fish with steamed veg and parsley sauce.

ok...now is the hard part - sop feeling hungover!!! lol.
bye fore now, Dais.

Don't get to much routine in your life right now. Your young but once enjoy it. Time enough to get serious and on routine later, way later live a little have fun. Your only a little girl yet.

I like routine! :D. its the only way I can ensure that my head wont blow up and the world will fall off its axis! lol. Yep, Im a bit of a control freak. But I do alow time for par-taying...hence feeling like Ive been run down by a truck this morning! lol

I dont post everything in here, I have got other stuff going on too - like moving house, and a holiday in 2 weeks to Greece...plus I see friends a few times a week.
This journal is like my little safe haven where I get to indulge in being obsessive! lol.

but thanks for stopping in Boblin, cool chatting with you. and I guess I am kinda small lol. xx

well, never got round to cardio - I think I'm ready to die instead.
Although I really MUST walk the dog. and I suppose I'll have my hung over arse dragged onto the trampoline tonight. All I want to do is sleep!

Food today
natural Yoghurt
omlette (whites only) with red onion and prawns
fish and veggies (all steamed and organic).

If I survive the night, I'll post tomorrow!
bubi, Dais x

You will survive just to do it again LOL.

LOL! thats probably true linda!

I've done something good this evening. I went babysitting and managed not to touch a single sweetie/cake/chocolate :). I did have to have nibbles - had a slice of ham, and a banana, and a bit of cheese. But this is all ok with me.
I was so nervous about babysitting. That place holds so many horrible bulimic memories for me (I've been looking after these kids for 6 years now). And I ALWAYS used to trip up there. It was a mixture of feeling nervous, boredom, and just because the house is stacked with bad foods.
So Im very proud that I stuck with the healthy stuff rather then falling back into old habits :).
Next time I'll try not to snack at all - but Im just one of those people who (like many) are very triggered by certain locations. e.g. after clubbing, I always want pizza - because thats what i've always done! and home is a very healthy and minimalist food place for me, but my bestfriends house is full of old habbits like raiding their biscuit tin - which have stuck!
Over the last few months where I've been really clamping down on sorting my eating disorder mentality out, I've had to pick and choose where I place myself, so as not to blow my progress. So tonight was a big deal for me, and Im happy with the result!

well. bed time for me now! It's another dog show in the morning, so hopefully We'll do aswell as last week - all fingers and paws crossed people!!

over and out, Dais x

ah! tired!!!! i got up too late again. so im just killing time until the dog show.
Late night snacking = not a hungry morning. So I've just had a small apple so far.
I'll grab a light lunch at the show - I MUST have some pork from the hog roast that they will have. mmmm!
and tonight i'm going out for an indian meal in town.

so! bye for now! dais x

ahhh - coutry fairs! with their homemade fudge, and candy floss, and all other kinds of indulgences. I had a measly scrap of pork (litterally a couple of bites), as the standard was pretty poor - teaches me for arriving late! and I confess - I did have to have a bite of chocolate fudge, and a few raisens too. Do I regret?....NO! that fudge is worth maintaining weight for! lol.

had another apple too. so total so far:2 apples, 1oz pork, teeny bit of fudge, and 5 raisens.
However - Im about to get ready to go out for dinner. mwhahaha!

We'll be drinking wine of course, but I plan to steer clear of carbs altogether - no rice/naan bread/or bombay potatoes for me. I'll be mainly opting for the seafood on the menu, and a vegetarian dish in the hottest sauce I can find! lol. I LOVE spicey food - the hotter the better!

Before I go out Im going to quickly fit in a cardio dvd for 30mins. should wake me up before I hit the saturday evening pub/resturant scene.

I definently wont be drinking too much though! Still havent recovered from friday! lol
well...I guess I better get going! good eve all, Dais

dang you are excluding all the really good restaurant food. lol. Good for you for the will power.

Hiya Dais!

Good job with avoiding the temptation foods when babysitting!
Did the imagery of the cookies being poop, or the big fat greasy man help you out? lol!

Ahh.. fair food. I love fair food! I do avoid fair food at the fair, cos I found fair-ish foods at my grocery store that I eat instead... like, they sell a 1oz tub of cotton candy that has 120 cals, caramel apples that have 160 cals, or microwavable corn dogs for about 220 cals... so I enjoy the fair food experience at home!... I just ate one of those caramel apples literally 5 minutes ago for a snack... yummalicious!

lol, ok enough talk about food... have a fun night and save some of that curry for me! oops.. talked about food again... ok, now I'll shush, lol

lol Blue!
Im ok to talk about food for another 10minutes at least! GOOD LORD - that indian was soooooo delicious!!! oh my!
smallfri - no carbs is all good with me after ths meal I've just had! I had some gigantic king prawns, that were so spicey it made my eyes water! with chickpeas, and garlic panir cheese. it was absolutely delicious - a real treat. but I didnt need much of it to fill me up!

Managed to do my cardio too, to my amazement!

Apart from food, fat, and exercise...the rest of my life is...hmmm...plain sailing? maybe. I have planty on my plate wat with arranging the 'big move' to London, and my last minute Greek get-away. BUT, this said - I'm bored! Lately I've been pondering alot. I feel like I cant wait to be about...35. When I'll hopfully have a stable career, and a HUSBAND! and maybe even some beautiful adopted children.
You see, Im a trendy girl who's all up for empowering women etc. but really, I cant wait to settle down in a proper home with a family (and 3/4 bmw's, lol)

oh god, what am I on about! lol. I LOVE this journal. I think I literally think out loud in here...and so its only natural that my silly daydreams come out too!

well. I hope you enjoyed my hypothetical life story!
I'll ramble on about other life issues tomorrow! lol. n night, Dais x

Morning All!

I ended up going to sleep at 4.30 am this morning lol. and still im up at a relitively civil hour!
well...Today, the weather is lovely! so a nice long bike ride over to my brothers house will be good exercise (it'll be long though, about 8 miles).
so im going to have a good cooked breakfast before - maybe grilled bacon and eggs.
I'll take the doggy out for a long walk too in the coutry.
Mum's cooking the traditional sunday roast for dinner, yum! so i dont have to worry about cooking.
so Apart from that lot, I plan on have a lazy day! typical sunday, bad T.V, and and slobbing on the sofa lol.
have a lovely day of rest everybody! dais x

Hooray!
I finally managed to work the gallery! It was a trial run, so I've just got a boring mug shot in there at the mo. none the less - I'm glad that mystery was solved!
breakfast was yum. 1 egg, 1/2 can of WW beans, and 2 rashers of lean bacon.
Just about to attack the bike ride!
later...Dais. x

Oh poo!
I snacked a bit today...heres a round up:
*1 egg
*1 piece of bacon
*whole can of beans
*1 small apple
*chicken breast, cauliflower,brocalie, peas, beans with gravy
*natural yoghurt with honey
*3 small slices of ham
*peice of cheese

Thats alot compared to what I normally have. I dont know why! for some reason I do just feel genuinely hungry today. I did go for quite a long bike ride though.
I know I shouldn't, but I feel a bit uncomfortable about that lot, and I've found that Im getting a bit more anxious these days that I haven't lost any weight this week. That's silly, I know! but there we are! that's how I feel.
Oh well, It'll all be ok tomorrow, and then we'll see what happens on weigh day. Although Im not particularly looking forward to it.
bye for now, Dais x

I'm here to report my sins. As I always stated. This is an honest journal. And...my final scrap of dignity! so here goes!

That was a bad food day!! and a worse food night (its 1.30 am now).
peckish turned into compulsive - a flat out food craze. That's the thing about we perfectionists - we are anything BUT perfect. and yet find it so difficult when snap! lol.
so! this eve...on top of what i've already listed was:
seeds, more ham, more cheese, more yoghurt, more apple.
I've decided now that Im very full. And it was all healthy stuff I guess - I was just on major food cruise. (although Im seeing too much fat on the menu there - far too much dairy).

I've gone through loads of therapy this year. They harp on and on about identifying feelings. well - I cant do that! all I know is i felt a thing today. It wasn't a pleasant thing. An awkward and anxious thing that left me all on edge all day. So i should have seen this reaction coming.
I remember since being really little that when ever I was nervous I used to eat like a horse. Mainly just to fuel my pinging off the walls.
Who knows why on this particular boring sunday I went a little looney, but I did.

Im accepting that I didnt do the best thing. However, shaken to the core that I've ruined my progress, and that I'll get stuck in an over eating nightmare again. Actually, maybe its THIS thought that sends me into shark mode?
so without further ado, Im putting this day to bed, limiting tomorrows intake....and crying to you all on tuesday when I'm 200lbs ;). jk - I'll take it like a man really (god, I hate that saying!).
well. I'll stop bending your poor ears now. n night! Dais xxx

ah! The aftermath!

Well, after a sleepless neurotic night, filled with strange cheese-induced nightmares (about rabbits??) I had an uber-long lie in.
At least I awoke to think 'what the hell was I thinking?' - I dont mean about what I ate, I mean for going all crazy after what actually wasn't a bad snacking fest!

so enough about that, arse has been kicked, and Im fine now.

I've gotten lots of work done today, and also had to re-think the holiday :(. Im gutted really! I really wanted to get away, but unfortunately, I just dont have the cash to spare. Instead, Im waiting untill after christmas for a cheap get away to austria. I wanted sun really, but skiing is just as lovely, and Austria is beutiful in the winter months.
At least that's one less worry for the time being.

I've also decided (after the inspiration from Blueroses and Lovemyjeep) that once I'm at my goal weight, I will give up smoking. I can't possibly do it at the moment! Although I am cutting down significantly already.

Just about to go running with the dog, and then Im going to do some food shopping. This week has flown by, and tomorrow Im introducing carbs to the diet. Only wholegrain stuff though, and CEREAL! Im really looking forward to that! lol.
Today, as I imagined, I havent been very hungry at all.
I had a banana smoothie for breakfast, and beans for lunch.
I dont know whats for dinner - I may pick up something nice at the supermarket later.

Dais x

dinner = covent garden soup (organic, pea and ham).
ran 3 miles.

Hiya Dais!

Wow... I inspired LMJ to stop smoking and now you're thinking about it too!

Hey, if we're all trying to get healthier... than I guess not smoking is a good way to do that too.

I definitely wish I would have been 'allowed' to smoke until I hit goal, but oh well.. it's just tackling two big things... weightloss and no-smoking... that are doing my head in!! lol

You seem like you're doing great on your diet! Even when you said you overate.. you decided to eat healthy things... keep it up girly and you will be at goal in no time. :)

Good luck with weigh-in!

Thanks Blue!
You have definently been an inspiration! Im looking forward to quitting too.

Well, Im up very early today! 6am! wow!
but I do have a very busy day to get started with - I have a physio appointment to get to, and Im going to bike there and back. Its quite a long journey, and I hope I don't get too mangled in my appointment for the way home! But at least thats the exercise for the day covered - and I dont have to fill the car up!
Later I need to buy my dearest sister a birthday present. And this evening I have a friend round to have dinner with.
Also I have boring things to do, like work more, wash hair, walk dog bla bla bla...so overall I'm going to be kept quicte busy.

It's Tuesday - my WI and diet change day. So, 1st of all, the news on weighing - down 1lb! hooray! secondly...carbs! yay!! I NEED cereal...so Im going to go now and have a yummy breakfast of special k and skimmed milk. mmmm!

later.Dais x

Breakfast = BIG bowl of special k with skimmed milk :)
luch= some rice noodles and stir fried vegetables.
dinner = 'cowboy hotpot' lol. its basically a bbq flavoured vegetable bake that has baked beans, yam, and smoked cheese in in. its nice anyway! lol

exercise = 5 mile bike ride, 2 mile walk in mbt's.

wow, awesome job daisy, you are my inspiration as well. And actually that dinner sounds really good. Can I have the recipe. I love trying new things. I love the strawberry special K, have you had that, and throwing in a banana is good also.
You seem like you are going to be busy today, and I am hoping to stay busy all day. I havent gotten to those shoes yet. But I am going to make it there.

Hi smallfri, thanks for stopping by.
I'll put the recipe up in the recipe forum.
Hope you get round to shoe shopping soon! x

oh...and too add to food today - I had a slice of organic wheat free bread too (wholegrain) with a bit of low fat butter.

Whats my problemo then?
I got everything done. Everything is fine. Yet Im all weepy and down in the dumps. :(
Im down another lb, and eating my favourite stuff (cereal! lol. I am the cereal monster!!)
Yet Im just slobbing around feeling sorry for myself!? I'm not even sad - or if I am, I dont know what for.

oh! Rubbish!!!! I better go to bed, I feel stupidity coming on. lol.

night night, see you tomorrow! xxx
p.s. new pic in my gallery!

well good thing you didnt turn to food. Next time go for a quick walk, walking everyday, at a brisk pace has actually been proven to be a better depression fighter then meds. You can research that if you want. I did a whole paper on it for human services and have known about it for years. Anyway, blah, blah stuff it is. Good luck with today, and I am surprised you havent been here yet. I hope you are ok.

OMG! I'm so lazy! lol
I got up at 1pm! :O I've had breakfast, A thick slice of my 'speacial bread' with 2 scrambled eggs and a teaspoon of light butter.
I plan to get my backside moving as soon as I've down this coffee! I'm going on an very long bike ride today...about 12miles round trip! I only hope the weather clears up a bit - its a bit misserable and windy out there.

The rest of my day is free -so I MUST work. I need to get alot done today.
And my dinner plan is a whole meal pita bread with vegetable filling.

No evening plans today - just dog walking and a bit of shopping for food.
oh well - better start waking up!
later...Dais x

P.S Thanks smallfri - I didn't see your post. Yer I feel fine today. I dunno what was up last night!? thanks anyway.

WOW, now I don't care that I slepttill 1, because I've just finished a 2hr bike ride!
It was soooooo difficult! Much londer then 12miles, as my usual route was blocked and I had to go way out of my way! I have to say, the only part I enjoyed was getting off the bloody bike! It was awful! I was just too exausted, the wind was so strong, and it was maximum effort all the way, and mostly uphill. IM DEAD! lol. and I still have to walk the dog! Sh'e pestering me something chronic! aaaaaa, leave me alone dog!

Im adding a tuna steak to my dinner, but right now I must tackle the school work! bye for now xxx

great to hear you are feeling better today. A long bike ride is wonderful

Round up of the day:
food.
1 big slice of wheat free organic whole meal bread. butter. 2 eggs.
1 organic wholemeal pita bread. portion of boilld veg (asparagus/courgette/carrot) tuna steak, glazed with honey and spices.
small bowl of cornflakes.

exercise
the marathon bike ride! dog walk.

ok...now I must work! lol. bubi xx

yay! finally got my work done!! hooray.
had a banana whilst I was studying too.

I must plan for today...Im feeling stressed out. Im really bloody angry with my sister, and a bunch of other 'stuff' so I have to indulge in my favourite pass time...
tomorrow!
bannana for breakfast (im tired of carbs already - I hate that Im a slave to cereal, It litterally drives me crazy! lol. I actually cant wait to fast again)
*study!
*pop down town to pick up some ingreidients
*make a fabulous broccalie torte for my friend and I (yes, we are ladies who lunch!)
*do a workout DVD and walk the dog
*go out with another friend in the evening. She's visiting from London, so a late night may have to be had! lol.
*eat much more fruit!!!

TA-DA!
ok, untill 2mo...bubi! x

I HAVE A TRPPED NERVE IN MY NECK!!!!!!!

im so annoyed!! I can't move my head, let alone work out.X-(

so, Im dosed up to the eye balls on pain killers, and cant really move!
Boring day then!
No exercise will have to be done, except a little walk with the dog maybe.
Ive had banana, yoghurt and some corn flakes for brekkie.
and im making pita piza for lunch and dinner. they should be yummy.
oh well, i suppose i better make the most of my disability today and get lots of studying done.
to be honest, i wish i didnt have guests coming over today! oh well...

bye for now, xx

oh dear, studying has not even started and its 5.30! eek. im just going to take the dog out now for a brisk walk, then hopefully I'll have time to do a topic or 2 before I meet friend 2 for the evening!
phew, this day is going too fast! At least my neck is starting to ease off a bit.

oh, I must just tell you about my pitta pizzas! AMAZING! better then any take-out pizza I've ever tried! I could eat them everyday, if the people around me could stand the garlic! lolI used prawns, mushroons and babycorn on the top, with lots of tasty herbs and spices that really complemened each other. they were so delicious!
so I had two of those today,
also had some dry cornflakes to munch on, and a slice of pineapple.

quite a good day if I manage to fit some work in, apart from the neck of course!
ok, enough blabbing, I gotta get some work done! lol
have a nice night everyone, Dais x

Those pita pizzas do sound tasty! You should share the recipe :)

will do! ill post in the recipe section. thanks for dropping in.

I managed to get my daily quoter of books in, thank god! lol. and did my walk. so now its just chill out time - as I re-schedualled my friend.
Instead of going out boozing tonight, we're lunching tomorrow, at a nice coutry pub. I'd imagine the calories will be tres high, so i'll be having a rather skimpy breakfast and dinner!
hopefully the neck will be much better tomorrow, fingers crossed!
xx

p.s. I've been a piglet tonight and over eaten with the evening munchies! lol. its no big deal to me at the mo, but I'll have to make better choices tomo! ops!
p.p.s. Im not weighing myself this tuesday. It'll be bad news, so I dont want to know lol. im just going to do the rest of the carb week, and have a free day on monday, and then get back to fasting next Tue. next WI will be 3rd October.

It's half 1am. and for some reason, I feel I have to write the nights events in here, as a way of ridding myself of guilt and sadness before I put a lid on this day and start again.
As a recovering bulimic, I have a tendency to have 'set backs'. I dont need to spell it out. but basically - i did it. Again.

god, ive been down this road so many times. Be great for ages, and then, for any reason, fall back into my old habbits. Its at this point, I ussually fall straight back into the negetive cycle, and end up gaining loads of weight and becoming desperately ill again. physically, but more importantly mentally.
I feel terrible. so alone, and disapointed in myself.

Im not asking for help. I know nobody can help me but me. I just need someone to tell me I can do it....that sounds so silly! but for some reason or other, its as though in one evening, i've been drained of all faith, and I need support.
Im so afraid that this will spiral out of control, and I'll be trapped again. I cant even pin point the triggers, or my feelings at the moment! I just feel...disabled! thats the only way I can put it.

RIGHT! bear with me whilst I have a good think...I realise that its poor management that leads to slip ups. I've also noticed a huge increase in difficulty since I added carbs to my diet. SO, Im going back to just fruit veg and protein until my free day, which is only 3 days away.
Its a shame, but I cant afford to do this anymore. I cant put myself in this vaunerable position again. so, no carbs (except maybe some sweet potato or brown rice, as part of a vegetable dish)...definently no bread/cereal - as they seem to be the worst for me.

Im just so so upset. I always think I have the answer to everything, and then there are times like this, when I feel completely clueless. Im batteling hugely with the urge o cry and scream 'somebody help me!!!', but its no use. I need to sort this out on my own. But 1st I need to figure out how.

time for positive planning...
ok. 1 slip up, is 1 slip up. it was horrible. but now its gone, and I can continue doing as well as I was, without a single dent to my weight loss.
Just because that happened this evening, does not mean it has to happen again.
food is fuel. not pleasure. so I will eat what I need, and no more.
tomorrow food (and I AM sticking to this)
*banana
*the healthiest meal on the menu at the pub
*veggie stirfry with brown rice and prawns
and THAT IS ALL.

how can someone with the decipline to fast for 7 days, not have enough discipline to stand one evening without binging and purging?
I need to find my strength again.

sorry for the dismal post. but It was necisary - and now I feel slightly more positive about tomorrow.
ty all. Daisy.

well well well!
I feel nice as ill this morning! I cant possibly have breakfast - the thought of food is making my stomach turn :(. Im just having some oragne juice at the moment.
one good thing is the neck feels a bit better, so I will be exercising later.
reading that post again was good. Its going to help me remember everything. I shall refer to it often, as a way of avoiding a similar experience.
Righ, Im off now for coffee with one friend, and then lunch with another.
God knows what lunch will be - Im just praying that there will be some healthy items on the menu!
the rest of the food for today will stick as planned.
later, Dais x

ok! 6pm, and food went as planned (minus the breakfast). I had a vegetarian meal at the pub - nut roast with mash potato and gren beans. I've just finished my stir fry. Thats me done now for the day. NO SNACKNG.

I have alot to be doing this evening though which will help me stick to it. A pig of an assignment for one thing, that will take a good 2hrs. 30minutes of pump cardio (neck feels exercise worthy now) and I need a good long soak in the bath too. so! thats one evening planned!

I'm already anxious about babysitting tomorrow night. I don't know why, because I CAN CONTROL MYSELF!!! I need to keep repeating this!
I plan on a cooked breakfast tomorrow morning(bacon, eggs, beans) and another long bike ride after. Fruit for lunch and a hike with the dog. A veggie bake for dinner using brown rice. Whilst babysitting, I'll probably be trampolining and playing on the dance mat, but I'll also be taking snacks so Im not tempted by the chocolate and sweets there - I'll perhaps take some seeds and fruit. So, its another busy day by the looks of things! good!

Ah! I have some good news too! Greece is back on! YAY!! I'm going slightly later - 17th of October. This will give me time to get the cash, as I'm selling my car soon. Im sooooo happy about this! I NEED a holiday.

ok. nough from me. Take care all...Dais x

Daisy,

Sounds like it was a rough day yesterday! So sorry. I know there probably isn't much I can do to help you out, but I'm a great listener if you ever want a shoulder! Sending prayers your way!

-Momma D.-

awww, thanks mamaD! lol.
yes, it was horrid, but I think I'll be ok now. I dont need to gripe anymore about it. Im so pleased with how much better I am in general, that one day CAN'T get me down. I freaked a bit, but now - looking at the bigger picture, I realise Im doing good.
Thank you for your kind support and prayers.
much love, Dais x

It takes a lot of strength to realize what's been done, and move on and learn from it. You really do want to take care of yourself, that's what's important now. Keeping yourself busy is a good thing too, because you don't really have time to think about anything lol. Have a great weekend, it sounds like you're going to have fun!

Hi there Carla,
Thanks for popping in! :)
yep, just psyching myself up for another assignment :( I have a feeling it's going to take quite a while!
The bike ride will have to be tomorrow instead - the roads on a saturday are just not worth the hassle. That'll be ok though - i'll have more time tomorrow for that. I'll be riding over to see my neice and nephew, So many hours will be needed to ocupy the babies!
Today Im going to just take the dog out for an extra long walk, and do another cardio DVD.
Already had breakfast - A wholegrain oat roll and butter, with 2 eggs, one bacon, and baked beans.Alot of calories in there, but I figured, its 11.30, and I shant eat anymore now until dinner time at 6ish. AND I'll probably burn a few today!
Ok, enough from me for now. Hopefull I'll be on later with a summary.
have a great weekend all! Love Dais x

HOORAY!
Got assignment done - it took 4 hrs but at least its out the way now.
took the dog for a 5 mile walk. Now just waiting for dinner - Im having a wholemeal pita bread with chilli.
THEN - I'll have time for 30 mins cardio before I babysit. I'll be edgeing the kids towards the trampoline and the dance mat as much as possible, but I've got nuts seeds and dried fruit to snack on.
Sounds good to me!
more tomorrow...xx

1.30am.....
got everything done as planned today. Loads of extra exercise whilst babysitting, and the snacks worked a treat. However I did have an extra pita bread when I got home. thats ok though- I was really hungry, and it was only about 100 cal.
2mo plans are...
long bike ride and long walk with dog, an hour or so of study, visiting friends and family, and a bit of food shopping.
plan on eating fruit smoothie for breakfast, pitta bread w/some nice and healthy filling at lunch, and of course, mummys traditional sunday roast at dinner.
fingers are crossed that it goes as planned. I'll be keeping active and busy, and it'll set me up nicely for a free day on monday! yay!
night night! x

MORNING!
scratch that menu plan...today was/is (already had brekkie)
breakfast - wholemel roll and beans, glass of orrange.
lunch - banana + yoghurt with honey.
dinner - pitta bread, asparagus, salmon, light cream cheese.

just about to bike out with the dog, and then again alone so I can go further.
then work, wash hair, go to town. STUDY!!
This eve, another dog walk...and possibly have a friend over.
right! time to get cracking - have a lovely day evryone! :)
Dais x

5.15pm...
done everything so far, except study which I'll do in a sec. Bought some cool dvd's to watc this eve, so I think I'll do lots of pilates while they are on.
Had another big bowl of cereal. but thats it - no more!!!
Tomorrow is a free day - so Im taking a holiday from diet talk! lol. I wont be posting anything - and I'm just going to chill, indulge, and prepare from the 2nd fast on tueasday! :)
so, untill then! au revoir xxx

Good morning all!
Am I glad to be back or what!? I had a free day, and I feel thoroughly ill today because of it - honestly, I dont understand how people can have take out food every week.
Enough about that, Back today. Im a lazy little sod..I slept till noon again.
and now I'm left with little time for my busy day which reads as follows:
*study,
*library
*swimming
*dog walking
*a meeting with my accountant
*and pilates.

However - its' do-able still.
So, Im fasting now for the week. The first day is always the worst. Especially in the evening. Although I feel so mouldy from yesturday's menu that it may well be a breeze.
Im afraid it makes for a boring journal, but a very interesting WI (hopefully!) Im sure I've gained from last week, so next weeks WI might not be as spectactular, but we'll have to see. With a bit of luck this will give me a bit of a kick start away from the bad days I had this week, and maybe I'll be closer to my goal.

ok, better attack what's left of the day.
bye for now, Dais x

Uck! Doesn't fast food just make your tummy turn? When we first moved back to MN we ate out a lot, and now we all just turn our noses up at the smell of it. Fresh food is so much better. Not only that, but after reading the calories in some of those things....really you're probably better off fasting for the week afterward! :laugh: Good luck hun, it won't be easy, but it will be worth it!

absolutely!
My digestive system is like that of a dog, lol, yesterday I think I ate a months quota of calories and fat, so I'm really going to relish the week 'clear out'.
Thanks for popping in MD!
x

Hiya Dais!

Good luck with your fast! One of these days you're going to have to tell me exactly what you do for it cos I'm kinda interested and I might try it.

Have a good rest o' the day!

Hey Blue!
Easy peasy - just dont eat! lol.
I drink an awful lot of water, detox tea,3 of my maple syrup concoctions, and a glass of oragne juice in a day.
I do still have a diet coke/'real' tea when Im really flagging - although try my best to steer clear of them, and use skimmed milk for tea.
once you get over the fact that your actually not going to be eating for a while, your fine. In fact, I tend to get really euphoric and producive.
I've read time and time again that your metabolism slows, you dont loose weight bla bla bla...but Im not sure If I buy that or not. I've also read many more scientific arguments saying that metabolism doesn't actually slow untill week 3 of total starvation - and my weight loss while fasting is proof enough for me. I also did not gain weight after the one I did last month, I didn't go hungry, and felt great. In contrast the week where I was eating 'normally' - I was on the brink of a full relapse of bulimia, misserable, and sluggish.
Good luck if you choose to follow suit. I'll back you up all the way if you choose to - plus, you can look forward to a big weight loss if its a first attempt - a good 10lb gone forever is always nice!

Anyway...I've just taken my neice and nephew swimming which was lovely, if a bit cold!
i'm about to go study at the library (2 birds, one stone)
then walk the dog out to the park, before my meeting with the boring money man!
this eve - pilates, and a nice long bath and an early night!

with a bit of luck i'll be up earlier tomo!

till tomo...bubi! x

day 2 of fasting...
going strong! it's 2.30, and I still have loads to do....library again, work, take the dog running, and visit a friend this evening.
I love that I do this Tuesday to tuesday, as it never feels like a week! e.g. tomorrow is thursday, and that in my book signals w/e! which means its nearly next wek! lol. I guess it actually makes no difference at all, but I find it makes the time pass better.
well, I better get over to the library before it's full of school kids.
Have a nice day everybody xx

Daisy: GOOD LUCK with the fasting girl. I really want to try it sometime too. I probably would be able to do it if I took my vitamins (I'm anemic- so I need need my iron pills). But you are definitely so close to your goal. 4 pounds. Think you'll loose 4 pounds by the fasting?

no no, im 12lbs away from my goal! but yes hopefully 4lbs is a do-able loss this week.
thanks for popping in. I would advise you ask your doctor before fasting if your anaemic though!

as for moi...Im just about to go running. and of course - in true style - i've left my work till last! lol.
later dudes...x

hello, hello, do you run in your mbt's. I went and tried them on, not sure about them though, was I suppose to feel the pain of the muscle right way. I was taller though lol. I tried on the size I usually wear and they felt big, so I tried on a size down and they felt small, so until I figure out what size I really need then I will wait. My feet are two different sizes buy a little bit so its hard to find the best fit. I guess I was just looking for more a feeling, maybe if I wore them for more then 5 minutes. They are a heavier shoe then I would buy also. But they felt cool to walk in though.

ah! Im glad you got round to trying them. And yes, you will feel them aching your legs straight away, particularly if your calf muscle are weak.
did you get someone to fit them for you? I hope so. You cant acctually buy them in the UK unless they have been fitted.
They are definently heavy! So I don't spend a long time in them. and running...hmmm, I wouldn't recommend - its hard enough walking in them properly (you have to really dig your heel in, and roll forward with each step). Running may cause concussion because if you dont land each steap heel-toe heel-toe, you may land right in the baulky part of the sole! very uncomfortable!
To be honest - I think walking is enough in these shoes, and once you get stronger, uphill and power walking will give you a great work out.
Hope you work something out!
dais x

OMG!! fasts are so f***ing boring!!
They shouldn't be really...seeing as food really shouldn't fill ones day. But due to all th energy pulsing round my body - I'm just so bored!!!!
I've done everything left to do today, its 9pm, and im supposidly 'chilling' with a glass of wine. But all I really want to do is go to a party imediately!
I suppose I'd better plan tomorrow! lol. aaaaa! gone all psycho again!
so, tomorrow:
*ring sister up and sing happy birthday down the phone :)
*bike miles and miles to greet my friend, ANOTHER birthday girl.
*work my arse off on my biology
*walk the dog
and...well, I simply must do something fun too, even if its just a quiet drink with some friends. I need more stimulation!

please pray for me to actually get some sleep tonight! lol

ahh bless your little cottons daisy!Im glad youre doing well on your fast cause im doing terribly with my plan! Ive had pizza and chocolate so all is not well!lol. In reference to the MBT's, did you get yours mail order?just because there isnt much press about them or where to buy them, there was a tiny little article in my health and fitness mag, but not saying where i could get them?

No eb, you cant get them mail order - they have to be fitted!!!
if you go on the official website www.mbt/uk.com (I think), theres a list of whats available and where. Also, if you live near any health spas that have a boutique, they will probably stock them.
Good luck!

I did have them fitted and even the person said I should just try what is comfortable because of my feet. I asked about the running cause the website does state you can run in them. Just not use them for competitions.

Hi people,
Yer small, I think it would be ok if you were careful - on level ground etc. but be prepared to ache!

well...day 3 of fasting.
I got a bit peckish earlier whilst wondering round a health food shop - yoghurt covered peanuts are my fave treat! but I did not surcome to temptation! I will stick this out untill tuesday!!!
Been productive again - worked and visited my friend, I cant be bothered to do any hard exercise though, so Im just going to take my dog out for a really long walk (in the magical mbts!). perhaps do some pilates aswell this eve.

tomorrow...hmmm. more work! (nearly finished my course, so im really slogging at the mo), meeting friends up for coffee, a proper workout! and going out in the evening for a couple of drinks.

ok, Im just off to buy some cheapo clothes now for my holiday!
bye for now, dais xx

aah! broke the fast slightly - my bad. im not bothered at all though - had bit of chicken, not much at all. Looking back at my last fast, it was day 3 where I had to have a little something. except last week it was jelly sweets and vanilla frapes'! lol. so this was a good little something, so its ok. 4 more days to go - and im sure the 4-bite-chicken-fuel will see it out!

Actually - minus insomnia last night, im feeling much better now.
its 2pm, and Ive already studied for the day, and worked out. Im so happy that my course is half way done now! :) cannot WAIT till the exams.
Just about to have coffee with my friends, and hopefully get the holiday booked.
Then with a bit of luck it will have stopped pouring down so I'll walk to dog out. This eve i am going to the pub! Im so bloody bored! I need social stimulation!! It all well and good studying at home, but the dog only provides limited conversation! lol. I like to keep busy, so my peanut craving wont jump in and ruin the day.oh, speaking of doggies - we have another show tomorrow (weather permitting) wish us luck! all fingers and paws crossed please! %%-
Hopefully I'll be pretty sleepy post-pub so I wont have to resort to the many over priced drugs on offer for we owls. 8-|

well, I've clearly spent too much time on this message! lol.
so I better run. take care all!
Dais x

Daisy,

Good luck at the dog show! What kind of dog do you have? We are getting our first puppy in two weeks, I'm so excited!

Have fun at the pub, (although not too much fun, that could be disastrous :laugh:)

lol, well, it wouldn't be a first time!
I have a gorgeous little patterdale terrier - Im going to try and put up a photo of her in my gallery,
Good luck with your pup! I just LOVE puppies! but it sounds like more toilet training for you!
x

aaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!! BOOKED HOLIDAY!!! yay! Im so freakin' excited!
damn - now i'll never get to sleep! :D

fly out to Crete on the 17th - that's just over 2 weeks! yay!!!

unfortunealy with the excitement I forgot myself, and ate peanuts. grrrrrrr. about 400 calories worth too. Oh well! lol. 3 days of fasting left, and hopefully It'll all go ok! :)

yayayayayay!!!

OK, yes, I am rather drunk.
I drank far too much. its half 2 in the morning, and I've just finished eating my way through a weeks worth of food. :(
I lost all control. and now I feel really sick. I ate, toast, cereal, and a chicken roll. I hate myself. i really do. but right now im too drunk to do anything about it! lol. so Im just going to have to cry myself to sleep, and start again tomorrow :(.
rubish rubish rubish

ahaha! no, scratch that, I dont hate myself - although I hate how much I ate today :(
I think I've lost it a bit! Lost the fasting brain. so I'm gonna have to call it quits - I cant fast when Im not in the right frame of mind, so I'm calling it off and starting it another week instead.
Its a shame, because I managed 3 days. I dunno, maybe I'll do tomorrow and monday, and just put today in the bin - along with last night! lol.
I've had a bad day - im hung over, we did awful at the dog show and Im really tired and stroppy.
Hopefully I'll pull it together enough to work out later, but I'm tempted to just start a fresh tomorrow judging by the family meal we're having later *sigh*.
Oh well. hopefull I havent gained. I guess we all have bad days from time to time.
I'll jump back on the wagon in the morning!
ta ta all x

Just start over again, You are doing great. I think once you get to 107, you will feel great.

thanks small.

Im having such a bad day :(. I feel just awful - really sad, and like I've totally lost control.
Im scared that I'll gain weight. today I've eaten so much ****. Im NOT going to calculate the calories, but it was really bad.
I've decided Im really just going to fast this week. and I know I'll do it, because Im just so discusted with myself, and the thought of ruining myself anymore.
I know I have to go out for dinner on friday next week, so i'm gonna fast till then. Thats only 5 days, and I'll weigh in on friday a.m. I really wanna feel good for my holiday! and not be all mopy that I havent behaved! that way I'll be able to let myself go a little on hol.

yes, that sounds like a plan. Im already feeling a little better.
ok. enough dwelling. Tomorrow - im going to...
1. THROW ALL THE SWEETS AWAY!!!!
2. go shopping in the sales for holiday clothes! :)
3.study for 2hrs
4. take the dog for a long run.

I hate the self saboutage thats going on here. I hate that Im so scared of success - why is that!? its annoying me lately. I mean, Ive been doing fine, and all of a sudden, Im right back here :( GRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

really need support guys...help!
night night x

Aww Daisy, sorry the last day or two has been so rough (I told you that drinking stuff leads to trouble ;)). You have been doing great and will continue to do great, and do you know why? Well I will tell you the same thing that Shan told me, BECAUSE YOU CAME BACK HERE and you still have a plan to finish what it is that you've started.

We all care about you and want you to succeed, so we will be here to support you always.

Take care hun,
Momma D

aww, that was nice! thanks for your comments - and yes - that party was rather too hectic (its not my fault! lol ppl kept buying me drinks!).

despite my best efforts today (and they were good) I've now been informed that next weeks dinner is now taking place tonight.
So unfortunately a bit of reschedualing is in order. Thats ok though. It wont really make much difference in the long run- im just a bit annoyed because I felt like getting started today. Never mind! Im sure it'll be a nice evening, so I'm just going to enjoy it and start tomorrow. Dinner is likely to be quite healthy - so im just going to have to get on with in and stop bugging myself because the plan changed.


I've walked the dog out today, and got absolutely soaked to the skin! so I've now washed my hair and will NOT leave the house untill its dry out!!!
Just about to go study and work out before we go out.

So, the new plan - i will fast monday to sunday.
Im adding a new rule to my fasting - do something nice for myself each day! (thanks Blue! good tip). Fasting is quite a long and boring experience. and with just work and working out on the ajenda, its easy to get down and out. I've got lots of nice little things going on next week, like massages, shopping, getting hair and nails done etc. Its great, because with a bit of luck I'll be at my most beautiful for my holiday! lol

Thanks for stopping in MommyDyanna! Im feeling much better, and your right I will do this :).
bye for now, Dais x

Morning all! and happy monday lol.
Im quite pleased that I worked out and studdied yesturday, despite just wanting to sleep, but...
Dinner last night was a stodgy roast with lots of white bread.

rubbish.

Im like a junkie with anything involving white flour. I become an addict in 0.2 seconds. Its SOOOOO bad for me. I feel really sick, headachey and tired. yet I cant get enough! I just turn into a shark on a food frenzy!
Today has not started well at all. I got up late, and feel yucky, and like all good addicts - I've already found myself morphing towards the bread rolls.

However - I am just getting on with my fast. If I dont do it now I'll never just get on with it. So, the plan is sticking. Weather its enjoyable or not.
Right now I could just go back to bed, but Im taking my niece and nephew swimming in an hr. Im really not looking forward to getting in a cold pool. but at least it will get me moving.

I do have alot to get on with later, So Im praying that this horrible lazy slump passes.
I plan to do all the bits and bobs that I need to do in town after swimming. and then get an assignment done before I take the dog out.
I need an early night tonight because Im going to London early in the morning tomorrow.
Its a busy 2 weeks ahead of me, Which Im really thankfull for! I need to focus on anything I can to help me get back into the swing on dieting X-(

This is so annoying!! why is it so easy to do badly, and such an effort to succeed!!??
well! I suppose I ought to drink the biggest coffee I can find and then pack my swimming bag!

Have a lovely day all! Bye for now, Dais x

Breathe, breathe, breathe, ok, now breathe, you are doing good. Positive thinking, switch to positive thinking, we all have bad days, you are doing well though. Just vent here and get on with it. You are determined, that is for sure.

A good start to the week after all of that fuss! Thanks small - rant is over! lol
yes, i feel lathargic still but I got everything done, and I feel positive about the rest of the week.
no exercise today, minus taking the kids swimming, and no slip ups. so im happy. (except I have too much work to do! grrr!)
Roll on tomorow!
dais x

Another good day to report. I havent been hungry at all which always helps in times like this. Exercise is limited today due to work and various bits and bobs like taking the car into the garage and shopping. But I did take my dog for a very long coutry walk today, and this evening I plan on doing a good hour of pilates because I've not done any in quite a while.
Im pretty much done for the day now, minus a bit more studying (groan).
till tomorrow...tata! x

well, I've already done my exercise and studying for the day - I went for a long, and difficult bike ride, and spent 2 hrs boggling my mind about research methods (so dull, I cant even explain!).
I feel soooooo tired today. Im litterally falling asleep on my key board! A bit annoying really because I still have to walk the dog, and possibly go shopping with mum. trying to get out of that one though!
Although I must walk the dog or she'll go insane.
Apart from that - Im treating myself to a lovely long bubble bath with a glas of wine later!
Have a lovely day all, Dais x

Hiya Dais! Just popping in to say hi. :)

Wine and a bubble bath... ahh that sounds splendid right now....

thanks for popping in blue!
yes, bubble bath and wine - I do believe you gave me that tip!
I managed to skimp out on shopping, and doggy is walked....
so, time for me to veg! lol

oh, found out that I'm going out for another meal on saturday now! lol. so fast will end on sat, and I'll weigh in then too.
bye for now, daisy x

well! I have pmt, No patience, and a chocolate craving.
so Ive broken the fast. Ive eaten ok today, with a modest amount of choccie.
Ive also done some cardio, and been over to the stables to clip my friends horses out.
studying's done, food shopping's done, and im just about to go and have a massage and call it a day!

I havent weighed in 3 weeks, and Im certain i've gained, so I'm just going to face the music tomorrow - it'll be upsetting, but hopefully inspiring too!

have a nice night all, dais x

wow, same here, good luck.

Thanks for stopping by small - and sorry to hear your stuck in the chocolate slump too!

That last post I left was quickly outdated yesturday evening when I ate copius amounts of biscuits. lol. Honestly, I've been behaving like a total fatty these last couple of days!

As promised, I stuck to my guns, and got on the scales. 2lb gain. and im happy with that! well - not thrilled obviously, but it should have been so much worse! I deserved a 10lb gain after yesturday!

Today I feel very ill indeed - no doubt due to my terrible diet from yesturday and the day before. So I dont know what Im going to eat today, I dont feel like anything, maybe just something bland like soup.

I have plenty of work to do today. and I need to work out too. mum has held me to my promise of shopping this afternoon, so it looks like I'll be doing that. And this eve Im babysitting. Im not bothered about babysitting tobight. I dont feel like eating junk anyway - and I have plenty of work to be getting on with while Im there. oh! and of course ill be dog walking in the rain too!

Have a nice friday all! Dais x

hello.
Be warned - I got out of bed on the worst side this morning. grrrrr! No idea why, but Im just feeling really irritated! like skin crawling irritation (??).

yesturday was an absolute joke - I ate all manner of rubbish whilst babysitting. But Im determined to be down 2lb before holiday, so this week is gonna be work outs and small amountsof healthy food all the way!
This morning Ive had pineapple for breakfast.
I have a good hr of study to do, and then an hour work out. THEN i need to walk my dog (I'll take her on another long walk).
Finally, I need to wash and scrub up into a beautiful princess, and go out to a very lovely resurant!
see yas later ppl - have a wkd weekend! DAIS X

Well deary take care of the two lb gain. Before it becomes ten. I know your being supper careful . You want to stay in your skinny jeans. Enjoy your evening but beware. See you in chat.

well, dinner is cancelled! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!

and it wont become 10. the fear is now installed, I am loosing that 2 before holiday, and ill reach my goal by xmas for sure.
I never over eat unless im at home or something, because I never like to look like a gluttenous pig when im around people. lol.

im annoyed! and feeling collosal. so im kinda glad for the gain, as it kicked me into action! :)

at least work and work out are done, and im half way princess-ified. lol. not that i need to be. i dont suppose any of you want to take me out to dinner? grrrrr!

oh, i suppose this isnt a great time to say I had 5 chocolate biscuits for dinner lol. ive also had a bowl of pineapple and a small ham sandwich today. so Im going to go for a really long run now to try and errase that a bit! And seeing as there is no dinner plans tonight - im not having dinner. grrrrr! i shall bike to see my friend instead.
The biscuits were a really annoying mistake - a post argument rebellion. Im just so furious that my plan has been changed. Thats no excuse I know, but the run Im about to do will easily burn 1000 cal. Oh and im also annoyed that ppl are bringing biscuits into the house anyway! its so annoying. this is not a diet friendly house at the moment. but I also cant beg for support, because my parents are not too keen with me loosing anymore weight. sod them!
Im going to plan my food now for the week. and not trip this time. I have to just keep my cellulite arse in mind - and not forget that in a week or so I have to squeeze it into a bikini!

I better go ad calm dont!
bubi all x

Yesturday was TERRIBLE in regards to food.
BUT, I did the longest run I have ever done in my entire life - running for 2 hrs straigh - no breaks, no walking, all across country. and it was great. a total of 3hours exercise all in all.

So Im up early, had a big carby breakfast that Im just gonna sit and digest for a while. And then run again! also gonna go for a long long bike ride to see my babies! (neice and nephew).

Im have a new 'do' (hair), I have offically finised one of my study courses! wooooo!!!! and im pretty much all set for my holiday.:)
Now I just gotta kick my butt into dieting again.
Tonights meal is already planned - chicken and vegetables. No carbs.
I've already had all the carbs I need this a.m. - Lots of wholemeal bread, with eggs. Its not particularly 'diet food' but I plan on really working out hard again.

The rest of my day is gonna be spent reveiwing my work, and planning the next course (I will be studying untill next June). Need to order new books and stuff, and make a new study plan.
Also need to do some pilates tonight.

ok, over and out. Have a lvely sunday all! Daisy x

w-hey!
got eveything done, and im really aching from all the running and biking... just waiting for a healthy dinner now. :)
good me!
I havent bothered with sorting my work - decided Ive got all week to deal with that, so I may aswell enjoy my weekend.

till tomorrow...bubi! x

OK, I admit, I also had a bag of m&M'S last night! lol. so much for the fresh start.
Never mind, I can start again now. and I better or Im not gonna loose my 2lb by sunday.
So I had a banana for brekkie, and Im making a vegetable bake for dinner.
Today I have to take the kids swimming, get my ingreidinets for dinner, bike over to see a friend who has a new playstation game! lol. I also have to take the dog out, and do some work.

So Im busy enough to keep my mind of chocolate. But it's going to be hard. Im due my period, and I look so bloated I could pass for a pregnant woman! Im praying that I come on before holiday, and also that these bloody cravings pass!
oh well, I better head off and buy loads of yummy veg (and not look at the sweetie isle!!!!!)

bubi, Dais x

yay. all is done (apart from a dog walk which im just about to do)
food today = apple, banana, veggie bake.
exercise = swimming, walking (didnt bike in the end).

Im just gonna chill with a glass of wine infront of the TV tonight, and do some pilates.

tomorrow is another busy day:
need to go to doctor, clip another of my friends horses, visit a friend, and sort some work out. Possibly will be sopping in the eve too. oh, and dog walking of course. Hopefully I'll have time to do some form of exercise too.

over and out...Dais.

well well well,
Ive been rushed off my feet today! And its not over yet 8-|

I got up and went to the doctors (not ill, just repeat meds), then i drove over to clip out another of the horses for a friend - I ended up staying a few hours and did some mucking out and firld cleaning. took the dog with me - so thats both our exercise done for the day! lol

After that, I biked over to see my holiday buddy! Its all very exciting, we've made lists of what we're taking next week, and what we need to get. soooo excited!
Just got home, and cleaned the house, But Im going to go for another short walk with my doggy to check out my finacial situation (uh-oh! lol)

By the time Im done its be about 6pm, and Im just gonna do some pilates and chill. and hopefully get some planning of work done too!!!

I havent eaten today, and dont think I will now. Ive been too busy, and havent really felt like it. so I'll just start again tomorrow with the healthy eating.

well, id better continue my rushing around now! lol...

Tomorrow should be pretty hectic too...work, and sorting holiday clothes. Luch with one friend, and dinner with another - not to mention working out and walking the dog. aaaaaaaa! hectic! although Im not complaining! I love busyness!

over and out...Dais x

actually!...i did eat in the end. I had some veggie soup (1 bowl), 10 grapes, 1/2 can of baked beans, and half a banana with yoghurt and honey. Now Im kinda pissed off that I didnt eat breakfast. naughty me. but then again, I wasnt hungry untill 5 pm!
so even though its half 10, Im going to do a cardio dvd. just to work off that lot before bed. only 30 minutes. and i must say im not really sleepy at all yet.

Im really looking forward to tomorrow. The friend that Im going to lunch with is an old friend from college. she fell pregnant when she was 17, and she's really struggling with being a young mother. As a suprise Im taking her to Brewsters for lunch - its not flashy, but had a kids area (ball pool, creche kinda thing) with childacare staff on hand, and cctv that you can watch from your table. So im hoping she'll have a nice day out. Im really looking forward to it too! lol.
As im getting take out food in the evening (indian), Im just going to order a light lunch at Brewsters - salad or something.

oh well, better get my dvd going!
night! x

Hello all,

Its 4 pm, and this is the 1st time I've sat down!
Today I got up early and had banana yoghurt and honey for brekkie. I then went on a quick run with my dog.
Then I jumped in the shower and went over to Brewsters for lunch. Unfortunately I forgot myself, and ended up eating quite alot this afternoon. I had a slice of vegetable lasagne and some garlic bread. I played with my friends little girl in the kids area for an hour after that, but whilst we were shopping, I ended up having m&m's too 8-| . It was a really fun day though, and the little one had a blast!

Im just about to work out again (do a pump dvd), and Ill have to walk my dog out again before it rains.

Finally, Im picking a different friend up from work tonight and we're having indian take out food.im gonna go steady, as im so full from lunch. maybe just chick peas and satay king prawns. noting too carby or anything with creamy sauce. We'll probably have wine too.

ok...im off to work up a sweat! bye for now, Dais x

now 11pm...stuck to plan :) and dinner was lovely.
However im gutted that i have pmt. have had it for a week, and still - nothing to show for it!! I have cramps, cravings irritation and teary moments - but still, no period !?!?! Im sure my body is just waiting for me to get on the plane on tuesday before it springs that on me. grrrrr! im NOT going to be impressed if I have it on holiday - bloated tummies do not suit bikini bodies!
Tomorrow, I have to do some bits and bobs to do with college in the am.
Then Im biking a few miles to see my physio (exercise, check!)
In the afternoon Im really going to sort out clothes that Im taking to Greece, because mums taking me shopping when she finishes work so I can get anything else I need.
Then in the eve, I'll go running with my dog.
My new aim for now is to limit my cigarette habbit. 5 a day!!! only.
bye for now, Dais x

well.
Im thinking alot today.
I rode over to my physio, and spents and hour being mangled. During this hour, my physio (who is a great thinker, and a very wise woman) and I had a vvvvv.deep conversation. All around quantum physics and the quantum theory in general. Thta being, that what you emmit, you absorb. is anyone else interest in this? or have any knowledge of 'the secret'?
I find it fascinating. I think it could be the answer to any possible problem ever encountered.
Im definently going to look into this further. Although It might send me a little more loopy! lol.

on a more shallow note - Exercise so far is 4 miles of biking. and Im going running later after Ive shopped for holiday clothes.
food - nil. Not eating today now. I dont feel like it, so even if I get hungry later Im just gonna soldier on until tomo. I hate to eat when I havent had breakfast.

ok, over and out.
dais x

Daisy, be very careful about the not eating idea. Your body needs lots of fuel for all that exercise you are demanding from it.

Just a question.... what made you put 98 lb as your goal? I checked your height on a Health Calculator and it says that for someone who is 5'4" their weight should be between 124 and 138. Please be careful. I know that struggles you have had in the past.

It just always seems to me that a grown woman should never be below 100 pounds for sure and probably not below 120.

Just a thought........... because I care about you.

thats really nice of you nanc. Thanks for caring! :)

98lb - 100lb is my ideal ballet weight - Im hoping to get back to it after xmas.
I know its low, and its no secret that dancers are lighter then average, but as I said a while ago - if I get to 106 and decide enough is enough, then that will be it. at the moment I feel that im perfectly healthy, And certainly do not look under weight. Ill be posting pictures in my gallery after my hols, so you can see for yourself.

When I do not eat, its a BAD day. I dont strive for it. Its often a response to stress, just like the days when i over eat.

Thanks for sharing your opinion x

p.s - had some wheat free bread and an egg, and also a cereal bar in the end.
exercise = 4 miles biking, and i ran for an hour, plus 20 mins pilates.

Im up bright and early, and already eaten about 700 calories! lol.
all good food - brown bread, eggs, vege sausages, beans mushrooms - the works! Im stuffed now of course, but I figured I should have a 'foody' day. As Im hopefully going to give blood today.
I plan to start working out in a couple of hours. a nice long work out, couple of hours running or something.
Im very busy again, so I want to get it out of the way. I have lots of shopping to do today, plus the 'blood letting' lol. also im going out for a late lunch with a friend. This evening Ill be babysitting - so I guess I'll get a further workout, on the dance mat or playing 'it' and hide and seek! lol
so a busy day ahead for me! so i best be off.
Ill be back on this eve to sum up.
have a lovely day all.
Dais x

well,
Im been rushing around like a mad woman. I Ran for 20 mins with the dog. Did lots of shopping and sorting with my friend. Had and apple and a bag of yoghurt