Hello All,

Well, I am in need of some help here. And Since I'm having trouble just getting someone to mentor me, or help me out on a person to person basis daily, I have to rely on myself.. *oy* Annnyways, I am hoping that this journal, will let people get to know me, and perhaps even maybe allow for someone to actually mentor me/kick me in the butt daily.

So a bit back I got a motivational email with 70 tips to motivation, so I've decided to write on each of the tips, daily.. One tip a day. Todays Tip:

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1. Let Go of the Past
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Before you can create a better future, you must let go of
the pains in your past. Failing once does not mean you will
fail forever. Learn from your history, but don't let it
stand as an obstacle between you and your dreams.


Now this one is a hard one for me! But I'm slowly getting better at it! My biggest problem has always been a combination of men, how I've been treated by them, and how they have made me feel as a person.

Some/most of those things I can't change! I can't change how or who those men are, the only person I can change is me! One of those Guys I told I would never talk to him again... yet it seems when I'm upset or angry it's him I run to first! I REALLY need to stop doing that, he is such a bad influence in my life. Actually, part of my image issue comes from him encouraging me to do things unhealthy to myself for personal gain. (SO DUMB)

I can't change what I did in that situation; but I can change my future feelings! For Example: i am not interested in a financially unstable man! I know that sounds awful; but if a man is unable to provide for me, i can't/ won't do it!

There have been many past relationships yet only 2 have completely changed my outlook on life... as much as I hated having to go through those things; they were manditory for me to become me! So this is me stating that these "men" in my past are just that... MY PAST!

Situations that have molded me to be who I am... NOTHING more then that!!!


See you again tomorrow!

Hello all,

I've found someone to keep me accountable! YAY.. Susan!

So today has been an alright day! Nothing all to exciting. I started my School week long break! WOO HOO! So nothing much to do for a whole week. Well I will do homework and finish most of it for the semester.

Tip 2:
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2. Remember Success
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Just as important as learning from and overcoming past
failure is recalling past success. It doesn't matter who
you are, you have succeeded at something at sometime in
your past. Don't gloss over these moments. Use them to
remind you that you can in fact achieve your goals

I often have a hard time remembering that I HAVE succeeded in many things.
Most recietnly I have lost 25 pounds. And if you ask me, that is GREAT!

One of the hardest challenges I had to face reciently (besides the 25lbs) was:

I was working at a camp this summer, working with kids. My job was "outdoor challenge director" basically, I had to teach, riflery, archery, outdoor living, wall climbing.... and the worst part, is every week I was required to climb a 900ft hill ...

Now this hill wasn't a light walk up a hill, it was like rock climbing... well for me anyways... I started practicing climbing that hill 2 weeks before the kids started coming. every day... now something to note, I'm scared of hights!!! (eek) Well not so much anymore... but I was. None the less, I ended up climbing that hill 9 full times. (twice in one night... now that's a story to share) and 4 part times. More times then ANYONE in the whole camp... in a really long time. I am really proud of myself for doing that.

So, I'm sure you all really want to hear the story of me climbing the hill twice in one night... So I'm going to tell you...

So, the reason we climb the hill every week, is to go on an overnight outtrip with campers, (13-38 kids!!) So this perticular week, we had an outbreak of the most violent flu you could imagine. So, we decided to wait till thursday night to head up the hill. So, we all went up the hill, everyone was feeling fine. We set up the tents, and at about 10pm we started getting everyone ready for bed. Everyone was quiet and settled at about 10:30pm... about 5 mins later... One of the campers was sick.... threw up on her sleeping bag, and another campers... So, I gave the non-sick camper my sleeping bag.. and decided to take the camper down the hill.. at 10:40pm....

So we start our long decent... now we both slid down the hill, it's just easier... trust me. and on my way down, I ripped a HUGE hole in my pants... like across the butt... (SOOO VERY funny) So we finally got down the hill, got her settled in her cabin, and I changed my pants.

But then, I remembered I needed to go back up the hill, for two reasons, they needed another 19+ year old, and I hadn't told them if I was coming back or not. So at 1:30 am I started going up the hill. alone... two things to note here, I had never climbed alone, or a night... never mind alone and at night!

I was scared... and.. yeah it was rough, seeing as I had climbed the hill not more then 5 hours before. it takes about an hour to get up... I made it up in 35 mins I was SO SCARED.

Now to finish my story,... on the way down the hill the next morning, I ripped a second pair of jeans.

Needless to say, it's a pretty great story, and another great accomplishment. The director of the camp said "Amanda, we're so proud of you... first off it takes a VERY rare person to climb the hill 2 times in one night.... and an extreamly rare person to climb it in the dark.. nevermind alone" I am one of about 6 people who have climbed it in the dark..ever!!


Well have a great day all.

hi amanda....welcome to DT:welcome: ....i loved your experience climbing the hill ....you are so brave to be able to go there at night and alone...i dont think i would ever do that...

congratulations on the weight loss so far....you are doing great.

Well It's been a bad week... I kept .."messing up" *sighs* Oh well, today is a new day!!! Thanks for stopping by Egyptrose, it is a pretty great story- the hill story.

:)

Tip #3:

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3. Realize the Possibilities
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It's possible. The dreams you hold in your heart but push
to the back of your mind are within your reach. Accept the
fact that you can create a better life. This will serve as
the springboard of belief you need to succeed.

I really do need to believe it is possible for me to reach 140lbs. I KNOW IT IS.... I can do this... I know I can! It just gets hard sometimes, I know I've done a good job so far, but the ideals of the world keep flushing into my mind... "You could be thinner..." Oh why do I think such dumb things!? Hurmph! X-( Oh well... I need to start thinking of ways to change those thoughts, to positive ones...

I am currently on my reading break. But I'm so bored. It's a bad thing.. when I get too bored, I want to eat.. I've done good these past two days... but tomorrow is hump day:S

OK.. POSITIVE THINKING>>> I NEED VIBES!!

lol, well have a great day all....