Ok, so I tried to weasle out of here, but I can't. I won't let my negative thoughts and proccesses get me down. I will pull out of it and win this battle of the bulge. I need to be here for me. Sorry, but not for you or you or you...but for ME. Thats what this is about its about losing unheathly weight that is on my body. Noone can do it for me and know what I am p*ssed. I am p*ssed that I am the only one that CAN do it. I am going to post about the negative things I am feeling...then its out of my system, I will post about the positive things I am feeling then I can brag, and feel good about myself. I have a horrible time of being down on myself. I am going to try my hardest to keep my head held high and not walk with my head down to the ground. I am going to do this. It IS MY TIME!

LMJ

Dear Alex, I am so DELIGHTED to see you back here .. :jn :dn .. my hand is outstretched to you so PLEASE let me know if I can help in ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM. Have and make it a great weekend. I am as always, Monica

Hi, LMJ:

Nice new journal and a nice new attitude! Good for you!!! And you are absolutely right that you are the ONE who can do it.

This losing weight business is a difficult business. It takes a lot of positive thought and action. So take it a day at a time, remember that you are doing this for YOURSELF, and enjoy life as you go.

Keep smiling -

Well I started out great and still holding strong. I did weigh this morning and didn't like the outcome 219.6, wow I gained. Thats because I was eating out of control and now I have to get back in control. I can still fit into the size 18 jeans, but tried to fit into a size 20 shorts and couldn't. X-( X-( X-( No worries, I'll be there soon. Just a matter of time. A matter of me getting off my tookas and doing something about it.

Worked in the flower bed today. I was burning up, we go from freezing to burning up lol. My face turned all red and I felt like passing out. I finally called it quits and still have a little more to do. I need to buy some more flowers to put in there. Yesterday was my 16th wedding anniversary and hubby brought me home a rose bush so I planted that. I think I married one of the best men out there...has to be to put up with me. Anyway, my tulips are blooming and some kind of flower came back from last year, I just love when they come back! Thats one reason I have hostas out there lol.

Monica: Thank you so much for stopping by. I am going to stick with it this time round. I am going to start walking on Monday.

Jo: Thank you for stopping by. It is much appreciated support!! I need all I can get. It definetly is difficult to lose weight and so easy to gain. I see you have done a fabulous job!!

I have set some goals for myself and am going to work really hard at achieving them:
1. EXCERSIZE this one is so easy for me to slack on. My elliptical is on the fritz and I am a big lazy person. I find it so easy to say I'll do it tomorrow. I know I can find 45 mins a day to do some kind of workout.

2. Eating right-I find that I am a good one to skip meals then binge in the evening. If I eat consistenly throughout the day I won't have this problem. I have to manage my food more wisely. AND stay out of the kids treats.

3. Organization- If I am more organized in my everyday life I can be more organized in what I eat and what I do. I am going to get all my schooling stuff for the kids organized this weekend. I am going to get their portfolios up to date and organize my grocery shopping list.

4.Take pictures-if I can see what I look like to everyone else then maybe that will motivate me to stay on track.

Thats about it for now. If you have read this far Thank you!

Ok woke up on the wrong side of the bed. Was told I am a total grouch. I am guessing this is the best time to excersize. Let my aggressions out. I have reasons to be angry but not going to go into detail. No need for that.

Beautiful day here in Maryland. Supposed to hit the 80's so my dad told me, then its going to get cooler.

Didn't do to well last night had a binge out of control eating again. I think its turning into habit as I wasn't hungry. I think I was eating out of frustration. Eating just to eat. Comfort maybe. I think I may try to fix my elliptical again. Hubby tried once and its still maybe alot of racket. I may just get on it and let it be noisy. Who cares what the neighbors think lol.

I want to go get some more flowers for the flower bed, but don't feel like driving. Sometimes I wish I wasn't in the boonies and could walk, but I love the boonies. Hubbys parents gave us a huge table for our kitchen. I didn't think it would look good but after rearranging some things it looks really good and ONCE its screwed together we will have a massive area to do school. It will be nice. Also it matches my china hutch thingy. I have a replica of an old ice chest in there too, which I keep some books in (which I need to clean out) and its a bit darker wood but it still looks good.

Didn't weigh in this morning had a rough night last night. Kept waking up so I slept on the couch. Too much on my mind right now. I feel like I falling into another depression which I don't need right now. Saturday we are going to Hershey Park. I'm going to try to stay away from the chocolate. :tongue: I'll do my best. We're not going to bring alot of money so we won't be too tempted. Just enough for the kids to get a souviner (sp?) I do need to get a pair of sandles before we go.

Hubby will be on vacation next week so I don't know how often I will be around so I'm going to make the best of this week.

Well I have written yet another babble book...till next time..

LMJ

You have been missed at wi for the Biggest loser challenge.

Hope you and hubby do something fun while he is on vacation..

Hi, LMJ -

A nice new table for the kitchen, that sounds good. Did you have to refinish it? I always enjoyed refinishing furniture, it was a rewarding occupation.

Depression is a nasty beast, difficult to deal with. Hope you are feeling better now.

Enjoy Hershey Park. I have been there, although it was many years ago. I thought the whole place smelled of chocolate, but maybe that was my imagination. LOL

Have a great day.

I'm also trying to kick the "negative crap" cycle in my life lately. Hang in there. Try to look not just at the positive things that happened, but the positive things that can result as things happen now. That is my biggest issue, actually. I got to where I saw and expected the worst, and planned for that. I'm trying not to do that anymore.

Now I try to see the good things that can come out of any situation. This sounds...mystical or hokey, but it is working so far for me. The universe never stays the same...so I don't try to keep things the same anymore. I try to live and see what is really happening around me, and look for the blessings in those things FIRST. Even traumatic things happen for a reason, if for nothing else than to make you angry enough to drastically change things for the better. I'm not going to let it get to that point anymore, though.

Life really is a wonderful gift. There is lots of good stuff in this world for just about everyone that looks for it. Grab the good stuff and hold onto it. Preachy enough? Sorry. I'm feeling preachy. Take care.

Well I've been absent due to my computer being a butthead. No, really hubby tried to fix it and called the number and it appears to be the motherboard or hard drive or something major that we can not fix....so we had to send it back and I'm on the old computer which is slllowww. I just couldn't bring myself to sit here for 10 minutes to wait for it to load up. But I waited today. It won't let me pick a font or anything :( lol

Jo-I am going to refinish the table I think. It doesn't need much, maybe just some polyerethine (sp). Its in great condition. It actually is five feet round. It came from Good Will and my in laws only have 40 $ invested and it came with 3 chairs. So come yard sale season I'm going to go looking for 2 chairs. We have a bench chair that doesn't match but it works for now. I'm still going in and out of the depression mode. Trying my darndest to get out of it. It'll work out I'm sure. Tomorrow is Hershey Park, the kids are so excited. Its a nice park. My youngest can't wait for the roller coasters lol :help:

Smallfri-I am really bad at weighing in when I am supposed too. I was going to leave dt and forego all the challenges. I have to re apply to them. I don't know what I'm doing yet. If I'm going to try WW points or if I'm going to count cals. or what. I think I'm in yo yo land right now.

cfj-I believe you are right in the sense that there has to be a negative to balance out all positive behaviour. If I'm reading what you said correctly. Nothing ever stays the same and has to change for us to change. I like what you said about life being a gift. I am one that will pray and count my blessings then turn around and not realize that I do have a wonderful gift...not to get to preachy myself. Thanks for coming around, I love reading your posts.


Well as I said we're heading off to Hershey Park, PA tomorrow. I'm going to try to stay away from the chocolate lol. Usually when we go I don't get to involved with it. I can get a hershey bar at the store. Same thing. Alot has been going on and I haven't really had time to focus on me. On "my" homeschool board that I go to we have lost 3 loved ones, they are in heaven and 1 was in a very serious car accident. I have cried so much in the last 3-4 days I don't know if I can cry anymore. Thing is I don't know these people, but I know there loved ones. One of them I didn't know at all. I cried, she was well loved, but she is in Heaven and I have to believe that. I have just started back at the homeschool board in the last month. I used to go there all the time when I first started homeschooling and was there all the time for years.
We are also going to Six Flags in May. Its homeschool fun day. I can't wait to go there my sister will be going too. I'd like to lose about 10 lbs. before we go. So, today I am starting AGAIN. I don't know how many times I will say AGAIN, but at least I'm not saying NO MORE.
Well I'm not feeling to good right now. Gonna go lay down for a little bit. My legs are aching something terrible and I just can't figure out why.
Oh and I did get the flower bed finished 2 days ago. I don't think that would make my legs hurt though.
I'm all over the place with this post LOL. Hope you all have a good day!

Still on the old computer grr.

Anyway, Hershey was a blast. I had a rude awakening some rides it was hard for me to fit on. They had to push the bar down hard. It was so embarrassing. We are going to 6 flags in May and I am not going to go through that again. I will be down in weight. I am going to excersize everyday and everyday that I feel like I don't want to I will remind myself of Hershey.

I weighed in at 218.8 this morning. Working for 199 by May 24. I don't know if that is really realistic or not but thats what I am shooting for. I am going to take it one day at a time. I am going to try to walk everyday and do a dvd of some kind of excersize. Starting TODAY. Hubby just went to pick up daughters boyfriend so I know I'll get the walk in but I don't know what time I'll be jumping around the living room doing taebo or pilates or even the ball workout. I won't do that in front of him. But I will do something even if its past my bedtime.

Going to work on getting before pics and put them up. THAT in its self should motivate me. I know I have been saying that for a while but I have to do it. If I can figure out how. LOL. I am still down 10 lbs. from my start weight and now I have to get a move on. I am so ready to do this now. Summer is right around the corner.

Ok I figured it out...that is me doing what I do best...at 228lbs. not a very good pic but its something. I will have a follow up pic soon.

Good Morning/Afternoon Alex,

You know SOMETIMES we NEED a VISIBLE WAKE UP :O to make us take NOTE of what we have to do ...

You know yourself BETTER THAN ANY OF US as to what you can ACCOMPLISH .. I know that we all have to CHALLENGE :lift: OURSELVES to SUCCEED ... imho IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH WISHING OR HOPING ... AND EVERYTHING TO DO WITH DOING ..

If you put on a cd and DANCE AROUND :dc YOU'RE EXERCISING ... if you're WALKING UP AND DOWN STAIRS ... YOU'RE EXERCISING ... IT STARTS WITH JUST ONE STEP ...

I'm glad that you enjoyed yourself THAT'S IMPORTANT ... and on your calendar CIRCLE the DATE and know that WHATEVER WEIGHT LOSS GOAL YOU HAVE ACHIEVED by that date -- WILL BE A POSITIVE GOAL :1stprize ... Take care Alex and have and make it a great day. I am as always, Monica

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Thank you Monica. I think the visible wake up call is definetly what I need. Something I "didn't" see before and I "can" see now. If that makes sense. I couldn't see that I was that large until it was put in a perspective that I needed to be smaller. I am aging myself right now and I don't need that. I want to be the young hip mom. I want to take my kids places that they want to go and if I am to large to do that it won't happen. I will be like I am in the first pic. Thats not me. Not me anymore. Again thank you for all your help.

Hi, LMJ:

I'm glad you enjoyed Hersheys, even through you had your "wake-up" call. We often need those "wake-up" calls to help us get focused on what we need to do to help us get healthier.

I've always enjoyed Hersheys, but I've never been to 6 Flags. Best of luck in your plan to drop a few lbs. before you get there. Just keep plugging away with your workouts, and remember to drink that water.

Hi LMJ,
I was very happy to see your new journal!!! I am glad your back.
This will be short as I am having trouble with my right elbow big time I think the RA has moved in ,lol.
I will come back and post to you tomorrow or the next day. I just don't want to use the arm much right now.
Happy to hear that you are back on track!! That is SOOOOOOOOO GREAT!!!!
......Hugs, Millie

:wave:

Hi LMJ,
Ok I just got caught up on your journal. Sounds like you had a good time at the park with the famliy.
I am so glad you are back at DT. I am so sorry that you are feeling some depressed. I know that can be rough. I have been there many years ago and it took me years to get through it, with help. If you every need to talk PM me your phone number and I will give you a call. I have unlimted calls. So I would be happy to chat with you!
I loved the pictures you posted! You have dark hair, Like me,LOl.
How is your garden doing? Sounds like you hubby gave you a nice ANNe gift! I love roses!! Hope yall had a good day.
Have a great day my friend!
......Hugs, Millie

Been really busy and can't stand this computer I'll be back to answer replies when I can. Going walking now :)! I miss ya all!!!!

Again....hubby is on vacation this weekend. We are running around everywhere. Just about to go take a ride.

Thank you for those who wrote in my journal. Sorry I have been absent. I'll be on when I can.

Hi, LMJ:

I just popped in to see how you are doing, and I find that you and your hubby are enjoying a vacation

Running around is actually fun activity. And I hope you are not so depressed as you were.

Post when you can.

Awww a minute on the computer. Hubby went to the historical society with his dad.

Jo-we have had a really nice vacation. It goes so quick though. Its amazing how when your working/schooling how the time doesn't go this quick. lol I have tried really hard to stick to plan and not done too bad. I have been drinking my water and haven't done any real official excersize but we have been so busy. Thanks for checking in on me! :)

Millie-How's the elbow? I hope its ok now. We did another flower bed in the front of the yard. Its funny its contagious, our neighbors down the street drove really slow past our house and we saw them working on their flower bed the next night!! It was really funny. I do have dark hair, but I just put blonde highlights in it. I'm not so sure I like it. But now my hair is so dry I'm afraid to dye it again. I'm going to put a moisture mask on it today and see if that helps. I'll pm you my phone number when hubby goes back to work, that way I'll actually have time to talk without him up my nose. lol

Corinna-Its nice to see you!! Come more often...


Well, I went and saw the doc yesterday. He was happy with my progress. I told him I stopped taking the Effexor (anti deppressant) and he said that was fine. I think it was giving me leg cramps because I haven't had them since I stopped taking it. I am feeling alot better than I was. I go through periods of depression, but he said I'll be fine.

Good news!!!! I am down to 216.8!!

Well I better get off here for now. Hope you all have a good day!

Well I'm back again. lol, I've been doing some thinking and I changed my goal weight. I changed it to 145 lbs. When I lost weight before at 130 people said I looked anorexic (sp?). So, I'm going to shoot for 145 then listen to my body. Thats it for now....

LMJ,

New goal sounds good. Great idea to listen to our bodies and make sure we are shooting for healthy, not some 'number'. Good work.

Thanks Nancy! I am one that will look at the "number" and go strictly by that and not realize that there are other factors. Then I had to open my eyes when I went down a pant size and didn't lose any weight! :laugh: I was totally and completely baffled. Don't get me wrong I loved it but I am a definete "type A" personality and everything has to have a reason for something and it didn't make sense. So, for now I'm loving my 18's. Hopefully soon I will be loving my 16's lol.

Well its been a pretty uneventful day. We went grocery shopping and actually stayed 10 bucks under budget!! I was so happy. lol usually we're 50 over. This time I made a LIST! I also made a MENU. I am usuing Slim Fast for breakfast AGAIN, but I tried to eat a good solid breakfast and it just makes me sick. Even before my weight issues I never ate a solid breakfast...go ahead throw the stones...I'll duck! I am still having problems with nighttime eating. Can't get it under control like I thought I could. It will take time I suppose. I didn't buy any munchies (I guess thats our usual extra 50 lol). I did buy me some yogurts if I get any of it before the hounds (my children and hubby) eat it all. I bought mostly dinners that I have to cook and not just foods that are already cooked and have to throw in the oven.

My outlook on things really have to change. I have to look at things positive. I have to see things through rose colored glasses. I will lose weight and I won't have to worry about the health problems that run in my family. If I have a bad day thats the breaks. I am not going to have a great day everyday. I just have to stop this yoyo. One good then one bad then one good.....and so on.

I'm starting to really get excited about going to 6 flags. My sister and her hubby and kids will be going to. Its a homeschool day. There will be vendors there and special entertainment. The bad thing is they will only be open til 5pm. So, we'll be rushing from ride to ride, to venders to special events.

We're going to my sisters tomorrow so I won't be around probably til Monday. I have to get the kids school stuff ready for next week. They had this week off since Dad was home.

Well I guess thats it for now. I've written even babble.

til later..

Hi, LMJ:

Looks like you did a great job with your grocery shopping. I always like it when I am under budget, so I know how you feel.

Losing a size is wonderful!! Congratulations. That's better than losing 10 lbs. with no change in the size of your pants. So feel good about that.

Have lots of fun at Six Flags. Excursions like that are always great fun, especially since you are enjoying it with your kids. You'll be able to act like a kid again yourself.

Hi Lmj,whew weeee so happy to see that you are still here you sceered me there for a sec lol I posted of course in your other old journal and thought you were gone so happy to see that your not.Well I am finally back again and plan to be for a while I sure have missed my DT buds.Looks like you are back on track again thats great you really can do this though it is hard yes but you are worth it.I am hopefully going to be able to hit the pavement once again myself by Monday as I have yet again put my back out so hopefully it will cooperate by then.Anyways give me a "HOLLAR" girlie as I am sure I will be in need of that my friend lol you have yourself a very good day and I will be back because I don't plan on going anywhere for a very long time now...... finally its about darn time lol you take care and keep on keepin on my friend.

Hi Heather!! Its great to "see" you. Yeah I had a pity party for myself, then realized I need to journal. We have to stick together in this ya know.

Today hasn't been a bad day yet they all start out good. I just have to make them stay good.

Kids are driving me crazy. They had last week off due to hubby being on vacation now they don't want to do their schooling blah! I don't either but it has to be done.

Not much to report, just wanted to make sure my journal was up to date. Haven't weighed myself yet. Still trying to hold out til I feel a loss. Not sure what excersize I'll pursue. We have someone coming to look at the popup at 6 tonight. Today is the first day its in the paper. .... wouldn't it be nice to sell it tonight lol. Its priced right we're losing alot of money on it. but we need it.

Well I'm off for now...

LMJ, hope you have success tonight and it sells quickly. That is always a load off your mind.

I know what you mean about getting the kids back to work. My girls had a friend from out of town visiting this weekend, along with another close friend. They all worked at camp together last year. They stayed at our house Saturday night and at the other friends last night. They didn't get home til noon today. I have given them time to do their own thing all afternoon, so far, but will tell them to put in 1 hour of school work tonight. Then we have to work hard the rest of the week. Yes, there will be the usual moans and groans but hey, summer school is a good threat against that, lol.

Take care.

Well the pop up didn't sell....YET! I still have hope. It will be in the paper for 2 weeks. I just have to wait for the right person.

I want to thank Jo, Nancy, Millie, and Heather for coming to my journal. I'm am so dissappointed in myself right now. I did terrible last night. :help: X-( Hubby did a candy run and I ate and ate til I felt sick. I know I have to stop that! My nerves have been frayed and I turn to food instead of using logic and facing my problems.

Our mortgage is late, I called them and they are willing to put us on a repayment plan. I called first thing in the morning yesterday and the man I spoke to was horrible. He told me I was irresponsible, and that they don't have any programs to help me. I have to work on getting it up to date myself and I can't pay a little extra every month I have to make 2 mortgage payments in a month to catch it up. I was so frustrated!! I called back and spoke to another rep. she told me that I COULD pay a little extra to get it caught up but I have to go through some sort of repayment plan. They take my debt/income ratio and tell me how much I need to pay. BUT I can't do it until the 16th or 17th of the month. So thats on my mind.

I did put in a prayer request for the following...

My dad has an appt. with the dermatologist about a place on his face (I may have already written about this) He has had it for about 10-15 years. The dr. thinks its cancer. Even my dad thinks its cancer. So, whats the problem you say? Well dad is very stubborn when it comes to medicine...the biopsy (sp?) ...where are they going to do it? Dad has pretty much told me if they tell him to go to the hospital he will not go. I think I have him convinced that his first appt. May 16 will be a consultation. Then he may have to go to out patient services. He said he'd think about it..a so so sign. This is on my mind.

My mom..I'm sure I've mentioned she had a massive heart attack last June. She needed a quad bypass, the drs. could only do a triple. The one artery was too damaged. Since then she was hospitalized for ecoli (remember the spinach thing). Well then she went for testing and was found out that the bypass had failed. She had to get stents put in. Her heart stopped on the table and they needed to put a pump on it. A 30-45 min procedure took about 2 hours. My sister and I were worried sick. We thought we had lost her no one came out to tell us anything. Now, she needs another surgery on her neck artery the corarted (I KNOW I spelled that wrong) that will be May 21. This is on my mind.

With all that we are supposed to go to six flags on May 24, Homeschool day. I am thinking about all of this and trying to look forward to this day.

Our homeschooling-we are so far behind. I wrote up our lesson plans for 2 weeks and the kids are doing ok with it but at the same time giving me a hard time. Sometimes I just think they would be better off on that big yellow schoolbus. But I made the commitment to do this. My 11 yr. old didn't finish all his work so I made him do it last night and he did. My 10 year old didn't finish one subject so he will have to double up today....and my 15 yr. old...lets just say she will be doing schoolwork ALL day. Which leaves me to do all the housework and schoolwork to myself.

I know this is a long winded whiney post. If you made it this far thank you. I just don't know how to cope with everything and I turn to food. I need new coping skills. I did pick up a book from the pharmacy the other day about dieting/lifestyle changes it was free. Its called "If your losing it" or something like that. I'm going to try to read it today. Its not a long book but it has some "hints" and "ideas" for the yo yo dieter. Which I am.

I also dragged out Allen Carrs book to quit smoking. I am going to start reading that when I have the time. I had started reading it a few months back and it really is interesting and I do find myself smoking less. I don't want to use any nicotine replacements.

Anyway, I better get my behind moving...Hope you all have blessed and wonderful day!

LMJ, wow, so many major stressors all at once. I know how it is will hs, sometimes you just have to make them do their work. And the darn kids, it is amazing what they can get done when they really want to do it. You could always use the concept that they have to be done so far to get to go to Six Flags day. And be firm about it. They can do it.

I saw your prayer request thread, will be keeping that in my prayers.

Just take things a step at a time. YOu have a week or so before your dad's appointment so just let it go and focus on school and home. Things will be ok.

I'm sorry that things are really piling up for you. It's tough when you are caught in the middle, dealing with both the needs of the parents and the needs of the children.
But take it a day at a time, and relax as much as is possible. Things will settle down in time, they always do.

Do the best you can. Try to turn to something besides food when the tensions mount up. I know I have knitted up a storm at times in my life when life got too much for me. Actually knitting burns a few calories, and it is hard to nibble with a pair of knitting needles in my hands.

At any rate, please know that your parents are now on my prayer list. And as for the Homeschool Day at Six Flags, that is a great goal for the whole family. Enjoy!

Just peaking in, how is everything going?

Thank you Nancy and JoJo. I'm trying to calm down and relax a bit. Its really hard when I am a high strung person, I get stressed very easy. Last night I did ok, I had a bowl of cereal instead of ice cream. lol

Anyway, I'm going to try to still come in and journal everyday. I am really pushing the kids with school. The end of the year is coming and especially my high schooler I have to have grades to report to our umbrella school (they oversee our schooling). I usually do that the month I get our "report" but this year I probably won't be doing it unitl August. It will cost us more money to enroll (enrollment prices go up the later you enroll) but we have to get more work done. My son, Michael (6th grade) already has his work done and its not even noon. The other 2 are still working. Last night we worked until 8:30 PM. Mike (hubby) told the kids that their schoolwork is to be done by the time he gets home from work, no matter what (4 pm). I agree. We shouldn't be working all day...or the kids shouldn't be goofing off and not listening to me. So, if I don't get to everyones journal I am sorry. I am going to still try, but we have alot of stuff to still do. Lacey (daughter, 15) has to do a dissection. I am not to sure about this one. She is taking biology this year and I was speaking with another homeschooler and they told me it was a requirement. I am going to look into virtual dissection, but she wants to do the old school get a frog and dissect it. Which completely freaks out Michael (11). So, I don't know what I'm going to do yet. I have a catalog that sells the frogs, scaples ect. So, basically my mind is on school. I am still watching what goes into my mouth. I am eating when I'm hungry, but have had a stressful week. If you read this far your amazing!!

I did weigh myself this morning 215.2....199 sounds so good to me right now. I want it so bad. I can "taste" it...no pun intended. I have to start excersizing and make time for it. Not make excuses why I can't excersize. Which I have been doing. For example, I have to grade papers, well I used to excersize and grade papers too! Like today, its a gloomy, humid, nasty day..so I can't go for a walk....would I have really gone for a walk if it was nice? Probably not. I have WATP anyway, I could do it in the living room! I need to get off my lazy butt!

No more calls on the pop up. Its still sitting. I'm hoping the closer to the weekend we get that we will get some calls. Even if people don't buy it just the calls would make me happy lol. but we're getting NOTHING. We're thinking about bringing it to Mikes parents house (if they will let us), they live on a higher traffic road then we do. But I still say we have to wait out the 2 weeks its in the paper.

Well I'm being paged by a kiddo...

LMJ

Hey congrats on the loss!!!!!!! Over a pound!!!!!!!! Getting to 199 is just an amazing thought, and so close for you!!!!!!

Hope you enjoyed division, lol.

See you soon.

Well Nancy we never made it to division LOL, he still needs to concentrate on double digit multiplication (which I thought he got lol *sigh*) If we get our schooling done today we will have made it a full week of "Moms Bootcamp Schooling". The only big problem I'm having is Lacey (daughter ,15 isn't doing her French, and we NEED that elective) I have made very full schedules and we have completed them everyday and I have actually graded them EVERY day. Which I used to let pile up. I'm trying to be more organized with schooling. Its so hard.

Kids are still in bed and its 9 am. I have been up since 7am and have enjoyed the quiet. I paid the electric bill...we'll have lights for another month yay lol. Have doodled around online for a bit and been drinking my coffee. Its been a nice morning other than the icky humid, damp weather.

I had ice cream last night. I did good all day then folded before bed. I didn't weigh this morning. I have to pick a day to weigh in on, but just do it randomly now. I'm scared I have gained, I can feel it. I feel bloated. BUT I still have to try I can't give up.

Hubby is going to the race track tonight so it will probably just be me and my middle son (Michael 11) tonight. Which is nice. I enjoy when I get to spend time with one of the children by themselves. I don't get to do it alot with Lacey as she is 15 and is always on the go. Justin (my youngest 10) I don't get alot of time with, he is my adventurous one. He wants to go do all the "big kid" stuff. It will probably be ok for me tonight with food since hubby won't be home. He started on this journey with me but has since fallen. So, I am doing it on my own.

I won't give up. As many times as I fail, I won't give up. I will keep trying until I get it right and sooner or later (hopefully sooner) I will get it. I am eating when I'm hungry. I am not writing what I eat down and maybe I should start. I did buy a journal book to do so, but have found a million different uses for the book. My goal for next week is to start writing down what I eat/drink. Also, to start measuring what I eat. Instead of taking a scoop and saying "That looks like a cup" or pouring the creamer into my coffee saying "thats about right". I want to give up my morning coffee, but I'm going to wean myself off of it. Maybe do half decaf/caf for a while and see how it goes. I've only been a coffee drinker for about a year if not less.

Well I'm off to call my sister. I talk to her everyday and today I'm running late.

Have a great day everyone.

JoJo....I've been looking for your journal....do you have one??

LMJ,

I find that I am amzed how much I am eating when I actually keep track of it, lol. So it might be a good idea to do once in a while, just to keep it down. I also use fitday.com, it is free online, to count calories for me. You might like it. It often takes a person a bit of time to catch on to it, so don't worry.

I have no one dieting with me either, so thank goodness for diettalk, people here understand. When I tell some of my friends about diettalk they just look at me strange, they just don't get it.

Make it a good day.

Hi, LMJ -

I'm just checking in to see how you are doing, and to wish you a great weekend. No, I don't have a journal at the present time, though I have had them in the past. Mostly I post in the Richard Simmons Forum. Maybe I'll start a journal again one of these days, but my daily activities are rather boring.

Anyway, handle the stresses of your life as best you can, take it all a day at a time, and remember to reserve some time for yourself. And have that great weekend.

Good Morning Alex,

I was reading your post and I WANT YOU TO REMOVE ONE WORD FROM YOUR VOCABULARY ... "FAIL" ...

You haven't failed BECAUSE YOU'RE STILL HERE ... you have gotten sidetracked ... but you DEFINITELY :coach: HAVEN'T FAILED

If I may suggest SELECT ONE ASPECT OF YOUR WEIGHT LOSS PLAN ... and FOCUS ON THAT ASPECT FOR ONE WEEK ... if it's EXERCISE :ex: than SET A SPECIFIC AMOUNT OF TIME that you are going to exercise; if it's your :water: WATER INTAKE ... then work on increasing your intake ... and last but not least if its your food intake ... NOTE THE NUMBER OF CALORIES (or WW Points) you're going to use and STAY WITH IT ...

Also and this coming from me .. IF YOU GAIN ... DON'T BEAT :whip: YOURSELF UP ... it's a SETBACK but you will find that as time goes by those SETBACKS BECOME LESS AND LESS ..

Now my friend go out there and have and make it a great day and A FANTASTIC WEEKEND. I am as always, Monica

I agree with Moica. The whole "failed" concept does not work for weight control. Your weight fluctuates over your entire life, even if you don't have a weight problem. You can "fail" at one-time events that are over someday. You "manage" or "keep and eye on" your food and weight forever. There is no fail. There are moments where you mess up...sure. But those moments are not failures, and they don't make you a failure. You are not a mess either. You are a person, and you messed up THEN. You can NOT MESS UP now, and in the future. Sometimes you will mess up. Nobody is perfect. Nobody.

I hope that your pop up sells at the new location. Hang in there, and take care.

Hi everyone. ....thank you for coming to support me, I'm in the middle of a great big clean up so I don't really have time to post individually. Of course, I'm the one cleaning when its beautiful outside! duhhhh...anyway have some good news we sold the popup!!!! We took 700 less than we wanted but its sold! It will hopefully be out of here this weekend. The guy gave me a deposit so I'm hoping he'll come soon. I didn't like going that low, but now we can get the floor for our soon to be family room!! Renovations can start again!!!! Hopefully, today I can get the room cleaned up enough that we can finish drywalling and get the spackle and paint done over the Memorial day weekend. Then lay the floor!! We're going with wood laminate, thats what we have upstairs. As long as this guy doesn't back out, of course I'm nervous about it because he hasn't called to tell us when he's coming to get it and pay us. BUT he's a realtor so I'm assuming that his weekends are pretty hectic with showing houses ect.

Had a huge dinner last night. One I should have stayed away from but I was starving. I'm doing much better today. On track. I'm not writing anything down yet, I'll start that on Monday. I have a notebook for everything I might as well have a notebook for my cals/excersize.

Well the floors not gonna scrub itself. *sigh* wouldn't that be nice! LOL, I'll try to be back later to answer you all....Your all so wonderful! What would I do without ya?!?!

LMJ

Ok, now I have a little bit of time before I start (which I should have done yesterday) the big clean up of downstairs.

Nancy-Thank you so much for your support. I know dieting alone is hard, especially when a dear hubby brings home ice cream or candy which are my down falls. Now, he did say this morning that he was going to get back on track and lose the weight. We'll see. If he is on track it makes it so much easier for me. He hasn't started excersizing so I can make excuses not to excersize, I am lazy. So is he. We had it down pat at one time and had our schedule so regimented that we had times for our excersize routine, we just can't seem to do it this time. We will I'm sure once we drop a couple pounds. It will happen. Thank you so much for coming to my journal and supporting me. It means alot.

Jo-I am so sure your daily activities are not boring. I would love to read how you survived breast cancer (yes I'm nosey!). How you lost your weight, and so on. I'm sure you would be an inspiration to all. When and if you start a journal let me know!

Monica-You are so dear to me, your advice means so much to me. I know you are right and I have such a hard time being patient with myself. I am not a patient person. If I do something I have to do it all the way, or not at all. I have to learn patience. I do have to take this one step at a time. I know this. I just can't seem to get this in my head. I'm stubborn X-( I will not use the word fail again. I may get sidetracked but I will get back on the saddle and try again. I will not set myself up for a sidetracking as I have done in the past. I am going for a 30 day no binge challenge with myself. (more on that later)....thank you, my friend. Thank you for being there for me when I am down.

cfj-YOU are a wonderful support system. You get me p'd off at myself lol :laugh: Make me want to do that excersize, all I have to do is read your journal, which sometimes I have avoided because I know I will see what you have done and want to be there too. I say "If he can do XXXX I can do XXXX. I used to excersize everyday without fail. I would want to excersize, I need to get in that mindset again no matter what the consequence is. (for example, less computer time). Thank you, for being there, thank you for posting here, thank you for being that support system.

Now, to my own little challenge. I am challenging myself to 30 days of no binging. I am challenging myself to excerize 3-4 days a week. I already drink my water, I don't like soda or any other drinks other than coffee. So, I have two things I need to work on. No binging and excersizing. I can go throughout the day and eat good, keep within calories, THEN BAM nighttime comes and I take my nighttime meds (depression meds) and I am eating whatever comes my way. My plan is to take my meds later, like right before bedttime. Then the appetite that comes with them will happen when I am in my slumber of sleep. NO more sending hubby to the nearest gas station to get me ice cream or candy. The weather is getting so nice. We have had such wonderful weather, despite a few nasty humid, damp days that I should bring the kids and dogs for walks. Nothing to major, just walks. We have been doing "Bootcamp School" and its been taking up most of the day, but we still should have time to take at least a short walk. My kids will benefit from it as well. My boys, will get off those video games and my daughter will get off the phone. We will have time for just us, no schooling, no electronics, noone else, just me and my kids. Its going to be hard with my dads appt. coming up, but thats in the morning May 16, we can still get things done, then my moms surgery May 21, we won't be able to do school or anything we will be at my sisters house. My mom lives an hour and a half away. BUT I can still do this. If I have the time on the computer I am going to try to use fitday.

The guy that bought the pop up still hasn't come to pick it up. Its killing me. I want it gone. I want the money lol. I want to go look at flooring. I want the flooring in my house so I know it will be done when we have the time. I want the renovations to continue!! This room has been a family room before, but it was much smaller, then we knocked out the wall and made it a bedroom, now we knocked out the wall and made the whole thing a family room. Right now there is one wall left to drywall, a piece of the ceiling left to drywall (hubby had to tear it out for some reason), spackle and paint, flooring and trim. We probably won't get to the trim but we can still use the room without trim. Its a bilevel with 2 bedrooms upstairs, with the kitchen, living room, bathroom, downstairs is a bedroom, bathroom, laundry room and soon to be family room. I can't wait...see no patience.

Ok, I have written a book...if you have read all this...wow, your amazing!

To all you Moms out there HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!!!!!

Til later....

Had to come here and tell you all. The guy came and got the camper. We went and got our flooring!!! We thought it was going to cost us 1200.00 thats what we priced at Home Depot. We went to a place called Ollies and got it for under 700!!! I'm so excited!! We actually could have gotten it for under 400 but we liked the "real wood look" . YAY! We can get back to renovating this room and have everything except paint and trim to do it. We've been working on it since last October I think. lol, we sure do take our time.

I started reading that book I picked up from the pharmacy. It has alot of good info it. It says you have to have "self care" before you can do anything worth while. I have to work on that. I have to learn that taking time for myself is OK. Taking a 10 min walk for ME is OK. This is my goal for now, to work on ME. Think about doing things for ME including excersize, eating healthy and all around happiness. Then the book advertised a weight loss drug LOL. Thats when I put it down.

Whether I'm doing good or bad, have something to say or not I always seem to come back here. I use this place as my sounding board I guess. Whether its diet related or not. I don't know if thats a good thing or not.

I'm restarting again today. Going to walk for 15 mins. even if its just in the house. Its chilly outside now but its still morning. Middle son, Michael (11) opened my bedroom door this morning and let the dogs wake me up at 7, I came upstairs and he had thrown up all over. I got the yucky chore of cleaning it up. Just what I wanted to do first thing in the morning lol. :-& I guess he thought he'd be in trouble or something for not making it to the toilet. Poor kid. He says he doesn't feel sick. He did have candy yesterday though. I am calling that the culprit. Sooo, I don't know if he will feel able to walk outside and if he is sick I don't want to leave him alone. He just came down and said his belly is feeling a little funny. *sigh* just what I need this week is a sick kid. LOL, now he wants to know what diettalk is all about. He is so inquisitive. When he does his schooling he's like that "most"of the time.

I didn't get my quiet morning this morning. I sure do miss it. I don't realize how nice it is until I don't have it. I am working on getting my 15 and 10 year olds up.

Wednesday is my dads appt. for the thing on his face. He's a nervous wreck. I hope things go well and he doesn't go off on the dr. I really don't need that. But if it does happen then I'll just go with the flow...not my worry. I'm leaving it in Gods hands.

I realized that throughout my journal I constantly say, I'm going to excersize, I'm going to cut back my eating, I'm gonna do this or that. I sat here and read it. Boy, do I get off topic ALOT. I definetly will do at least 15 mins. of walking with my kids pedometer (they lost mine) on today. Hopefully, I will do more, but I will at least do 15 mins. Its a Lilo and Stitch pedometer that they got from McD's a while back lol, but its the only one I have. I used it one day and walked for 45 mins. went to take it off all proud of myself and hit reset. So I have to be carful not to do that again.

Once the family room is completed (hopefully soon) I am going to start using the elliptical again. Its down here now, but it is so boring and I don't do what I KNOW I can do. Once we get it all set up and the TV is down here I can put something on, even music or something and just go. Right now I have nothing to listen to or watch to keep my mind off what my body is doing. I have to have Mike (hubby), or maybe I'll do it, tear it apart AGAIN and see why its making so much noise. It bangs and clatters like you wouldn't believe. I don't know what the problem is. It sounds like parts are falling apart and I get afraid that my big ole body is gonna go flying off that thing lol. I know I can do 45 mins. on it or 2 miles, but I get so bored that I quit at about 20 mins. which is still good and I still should just do it and be bored, but I can't seem to get myself on it. Last time I got on it my daughter sat down here and talked to me which was good. She kept playing music on the computer, which I don't know how to do and we had a great time. I made it 35 mins. but she won't do that everytime I want to get on the elliptical plus she has schooling to do. and her chores. Now, that she has a boyfriend she is more interested in him than helping Mom. X-(

Ok, todays plan is 15 mins walking
todays menu
Breakfast-slim fast shake, coffee
Lunch-oatmeal-been craving oatmeal for some reason
Dinner-Chicken, potatoes of some sort or rice, corn
If I get hungry in between I have yogurt. I ran out of fruits but do have baby carrots to munch on.
Plus we are in dire need of groceries as usual.

Mike has to work til 5pm which will put him at home at 6pm so dinner will be later than normal. Normal is 4pm. Mon-Wed.

I read in that book, that if your body is craving something it is missing nutrients. Every night I crave ice cream. And with that I have been eating it. I don't know if it is habit or if I am missing calcium, so I am going to try taking a calcium supplement for a few days and see how it goes. Last night I wanted ice cream, but I didn't really want it. I ate it though. I haven't weighed myself. I think I'll weigh in on Wednesday or Thursday. Whichever day I feel good about it.

Well once again I have written a book.

Till later...

I did my 15 mins. of walking..probably more. I forgot to put on the pedometer. We had a bad day yesterday with school, having a sick kid, noone felt like doing anything. So, we're making up for it today.

We had a HUGE problem last night, for some it may seem small, but for us it was huge. Mike was at work and bored, so he signed up at myspace. He went and looked at our 15 yr old daughters myspace page and found out that she PIERCED HER NOSE! Not her nose but the cartlidge in the middle!!! He was livid and when he called me I was livid! She had asked to get facial piercings before and we told her when she was 18 she could do whatever she wanted. That she was too pretty to manipulate her face that way anyway. So, now she is grounded for a month. Which is probably too strict and we'll probably waiver on it, but for now thats her punishment....then as we were watching t.v. last night Mike noticed she had gaged (sp) 2 holes in her ears!!! Her reaction is at least I'm not out smoking, drinking, or doing drugs. I agree with her, but she is still being sneaky. There are other things she has been sneaky about that we have found out about. I told her she will get caught.

Anyway, I'm being paged again by a kiddo, Math--gotta love it!

Will be back later

LMJ

Good Morning Alex,

I want to applaud both you and your husband FOR TAKING A STAND ... and imho I don't think your "PUNISHMENT" was too strict. I think the teenage years are just as DIFFICULT for both the teenager and the parents ...

I was the "MEANY" when it came to discipline ... and believe me it was difficult to hear the "I HATE YOU ... YOU'RE SO MEAN ... MY FRIENDS GET TO DO IT ... YOU JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND" ... but now that my daughters are adults (lol Laurie will now be the parent of a teenager WHO FEELS "ENTITLED" to LIVE ...) and who from time to time (lol NOT OFTEN ENOUGH) RECOGNIZE AND THANK ME for CARING ENOUGH TO STAY STRONG ...

I'm very old fashioned and I believe that a parent who DOESN'T DISCIPLINE their child or HAVE EXPECTATIONS for their child is doing their child a major disservice. So stay STRONG :mus: and KNOW THAT SOME DAY YOUR DAUGHTER WILL SAY THANK YOU. Have and make it a great day. I am as always, Monica

Good for you on establishing some discipline. Raising teenagers is difficult, and I wish you the very best.

Thank you Monica and JoJo. I have been second guessing my choice of punishment. I am reaffirmed by your posts. Also, Mike (hubby) and I had a discussion last night and she HAS to be punished. Last night she was begging us (mostly me, I am the main disipliarian (sp)) to go see her boyfriend today and I finally just told her no. She told me she loves him and is going to lose him. I told her if he loves her, he will wait for her. I was 15 when I met Mike and he really went through alot with my parents. So, we'll see what the day holds.

In about a half hour I go to pick up my Dad and bring him to the dr. for the place on his face. I'm really nervous. I am more nervous about the drive than the actual drs. appt. I think. Once I get Dad in there he is "trapped" lol. He's a nervous wreck and smoking like a chimney I'm sure. At 73, there is no reasoning with him. He is set in his ways and if this dr. doesn't tell him what he wants to hear thats it. He is almost like having another child. Then theres my mom, she called the other day and told me not to come for her surgery HA! I told her straight out I wasn't going for her, but for my sister. My sister needs me there and I refuse to let her go through it alone. So, Sunday evening, I'll be leaving here around 6 pm to get to Dover, DE and pick up my mom so we will all spend the night at my sisters. The surgery is scheduled for 6:30 am Monday morning. My mom is acting completely ridiculous on this issue. I don't know how it will end up but some how it will come together. I feel for Lacey (daughter) she will be babysitting 5 boys lol. they are easy to babysit though...yes, video games. My boys and my nephews are all good boys. Lacey will probably play on the computer, but I told her since the nosering incident she is to no longer have a myspace or be allowed on myspace. Sooooo, she will have to find another form of entertainment.

I weighed in this morning 214.2! I don't know what it is with these .2's but I'll take 'em. Last time I lost weight I used Xendrine. I haven't used anything this time and the weight is coming off so slow. With the Xendrine I could lose a pound a day. Sometimes more, but I know that wasn't heathly and there were days I could go with just eating soup. Maybe if its coming off slow it will stay off. My mil and fil came over last night and my mil told me I look like I've lost weight. That sure does make a person feel good! I have written several times about my indulges with ice cream so yesterday at the grocery store I bought some weight watchers popsicles and ice cream sandwiches that only have 100 cals. I think they were skinny cow. Plus, the kids picked out some popsicles and they only have 57 cals in them. The key is to only eat 1!!I didn't follow my food plan yesterday as Mike had eaten a huge lunch and didn't want dinner plus with him working overtime its so easy to tell the kids to get their own dinner. So, tonight I will make the speghetti that I was going to make last night. I will portion out a little for myself. With my tummy being so nervous I will eat breakfast/lunch when I get back. I just can't eat right now. I hate being nervous!! I am drinking my coffee, maybe I'll grab a slim fast before I go. Then for lunch have a sandwich. Chicken bolonga w/mustard. Thats what I had for dinner last night, plus I had a strawberry shortcake. I bought a poundcake, fresh strawberries, and whip cream. I could have done without that but it was in my face. I will forego that today. So, hopefully today will end up like this:

Breakfast: Slim Fast - on the go
Lunch- Sandwich
Dinner-Speghetti
Snacks-yogurt or popsicles

I am still not writing down everything I eat or going to fitday. I just haven't had the time. Lacey is having a heck of a time in Algebra so I put her back in Pre algebra and we are starting over. This is really screwing us up because she has already received credit for prealgebra. I am going to have to call the umbrella school we are under and see how to credit this. So, we are at the beginning of the book now. She is going to have to work all summer on her schooling and I am hoping by the end of August I'll be able to fill in my report to the umbrella. I got the forms Monday, I was so happy they sent me a copy of her transcripts because I had forgotten what electives we did. I know how could I forget that, but with homeschooling 3 children its easy to forget. So, I'm writing everything down this year. Plus, I've been trying to budget out our money for the rest of the year. I don't want to get behind on anything again. Having bill collectors call really sucks. We always fall behind in December because of Christmas but usually are caught up in January and this year we just haven't been able to catch up. Renovations is the reason I bet. We have sunk so much money into this would be family room. So, now is the time to get it all caught up AND get this family room done. LOL, like you care about my finances lol. My dad always says "your not the only one who has financial problems" but it always feels that way.

Well my book writing is over for this morning, I'll update dads appt. later. I don't know how long it will take. Hopefully it will go quickly our appt. is 9:15 am EST.

LMJ

The dr. appt went sooo fast. They think its benign. Thank goodness. They took it off right in the office. No hospitals!!! They want to see him again in a month.
I asked the dr. about excessively sweaty hands and she said there are many options to treat them. So I made an appt. I didn't need a referral..isn't that neat. God works in mysterious ways. I may have dry hands. Gross I know but it is a bad problem, I won't shake hands, have problems everywhere I go, have a hard time handing cashiers money ect.

I am going to dye the blonde highlights out of my hair. I am already sick of them. My poor hair lol, I did pick up some special reconstructive conditioner by Pantene, and some by Aussie. I'll probably try both. lol :laugh:

Now, that this is over I just have to make it through my moms surgery. *sigh* One more hurdle then I don't think anyone has any appts. until July. That will change because I have to bring the kids for their physicals.

Well just wanted to update my earlier post, I have to get these kids started on school and I am so tired. Emotionally as well as physically. I may just make some more coffee.

Ah yes, the life of parenting teenagers, lol. But you are doing good, keeping strong. You talked about her being 'sneaky' but maybe call it was it is, she lied and disobeyed, flat out, on purpose. Sneaky just sounds 'cuter' and it is not cute. LOL, now you know I am going through stuff too so take this in the best possible light.

My girls also asked for facial piercings and I also told them 18, your free to do what you like. LOL. Look out 18!!!

Wonderful about your dad, PTL. Nice your sister will be with you for your mom.

Hang in there, good job with the 15 minutes, I will try and join you soon.

Take care.

I am so happy to hear about your dad, and how the day went for him. He must be so relieved, and I know you are.

Now stay strong for your mom.

If this is the right journal, then YIPPIE...I finally got around to you. I will have to read backwards and get up to fill me in on a couple things.

I just love playing around with these fonts LOL. Just like a kid. Yep, Kelly....you got the right journal!! So nice to see you here.

Anyway, to my saga...Lacey gave me a hard time yesterday blaming me for her punishment. When I talked to Mike about it he wanted her on the phone and straightened her out. Its amazing how her attitude changed. She told me she can't trust me because I tell her dad, my sister, my dad everything. I told her if she wants to tell me something in confidentialitaly(sp) I will not say a word. She chose not to. So, now I feel she is still hiding something. She cried and threw a tantrum when I said she couldn't see her boyfriend. Apparently, he threw a fit too. I am hoping for a better day today. Praying hard for a better day.

I dyed my hair AGAIN. Its a few colors LOL. Some of the blonde didn't come out, it has light and dark brown it in. Mike said it looked ok though. I'm not going to dye it again for at least 6 weeks-yeah right.

I did really well yesterday, at least I think I did. I still am not writing things down. That is one of the things that the book I read said you need to do. That you can be putting things in your mouth and not even realizing. It gives different scenarios and I can relate to every single one...with the exception of the working one. I went back to the pharmacy and now they are selling these books. I got mine for free! LOL. It has a few recipes in it, but I didn't really read them. I think having the popscicles, weight watcher bars, and fudgsicles in the house has really helped. I'm not eating a heaping bowl of ice cream at night. Now, the problem is the "hounds" (children and hubby). They have eaten almost all of them. I told Mike I'm going to have to go to the store just to buy treats. I'll probably do that tomorrow..payday. Its better for me to have a 60 calorie pop, then that bowl of ice cream that has who knows how many calories. I am going to walk today for 30 mins. at least that is my goal. I hope I can fit it in as I have to write up lesson plans and grade a heap of papers, plus put the papers in the portfolios. That book says you have to take the time for yourself no matter what. I am finding that hard to do, although I am sitting on this computer right now...hmmmm :o Didn't weigh myself today.

We are going to a car show tonight. I hope it doesn't rain as they are calling for it. I don't really want to go, but I have to. Mike says I never go any where with him. We have some friends that will be there too, plus my in laws and some of the guys Mike works with. Its at the potato chip factory. They will have vendors and all. I will stay away from them. No worries. We're going to eat before we leave.

Well, I better scoot-kids need to get their schooling done early today. Lacey needs help with Algebra and Grammar. I have to call the umbrella school too, last year she did Pre-Algebra and I had to put her back into it this year and I don't know how to credit that for high school. She just wasn't getting Algebra 1.
Ok, I'm done..

Hi, LMJ -

Have fun at the car show. That's more of a "man" thing, isn't it? I know I go along with my DH, but he is the one who really enjoys such things.

That was nice of you to chase me down at the Richard Simmons forum. Thanks. I answered your post, including narrating the tale of my breast cancer, which you had inquired about some time ago.

Keep plugging along.

Hello,sounds to me like your daughter got her nose pierced without you knowing,(I need to read and catch up yet)mine too did the same thing recently but shes 17 few months from 18,she borrowed her older sister's id no less otherwise I would have had to sign for it which I never would have,the tattoo was enough for me now she has 2 tattoos and a nose piercing.I told her it looks like she has dirt on her nose lol and I am not joking it really does sometimes,though she does complain about it alot so hopefully she'll take that thing out.

Sounds like your doing good on the diet front,don't ya just love those skinny cows,what a name like cows are skinny lol they are good though as long as you stick to one there is no guilt in that,that is one thing when I am doing well that keeps me going is knowing I can still have my snacks.Well guess this about does it as I am getting so tired,sending prayers your way for you and yours,take care and keep on keepin on.

Well alas, it is Friday. it will involve alot of work for us, as we work on the family room! I told Mike not to expect me to go anywhere this weekend, I have to leave about 6pm Sunday evening and I want the rest of the weekend for us. Working or not.

Onto my saga....Tried to wake Lacey up, she said she was still too tired to get up that her and boyfriend broke up. Must mean she was up on the phone all night. Means I have to hide all the phones again at night. It stinks because then they lose their charge. I can't believe the amount of parents that "allow" their children to talk on the phone all hours of the night. She has done this without permission, yet we have let her have her cell phone WHICH we took away and she keeps ending up with. So, that means I have to hide it. I shouldn't have to go that far. She is a good kid, no drinking, drugs, smoking, partying ect. but these little things do add up. Maybe we're a bit strict but hopefully one day she will appreciate it. She's only 15 for goodness sakes. When I was that age I was only allowed on the phone til 9 pm. Plus, Lacey is still grounded, I have stood my ground. Waivered a bit on the phone, but she has not gone anywhere.

Went to the car show.....boring lol. I did get alot of walking in though. It was at the Herrs Potato Chip factory. We took the chip tour lol, I even declined nice, hot chips right off the factory. I was proud of myself, then they gave you little bags of chips, I chose multi-grain, the other kind was buffalo wings flavor. I tried them EWW anyway Lacey helped me eat my little bag of chips so I didn't eat a full bag by myself. They were 140 cals for the whole thing. It was just a small bag too. lol But they were good. Then I headed to the grocery store and bought more popsicles and fudgsicles this time. I had 2 last night. A fudgsicle and a popsicle. They go really fast in this house lol.

Jojo, yep I hunted you down LOL. I will be heading over to your "journal" shortly. The car show was a little bit of a let down for Mike but its also Hot Rod Weekend at the beach, so alot of people are heading to the beach. We went one year and it was terrible you had to pay for everything. Just to look at a bunch of cars it was like 10 $ a person, and theres 5 of us! I'm still drinking my water even though I think I should be drinking more.

Heather, we told Lacey that she could do whatever she wanted to her face or body when she is 18. That its not acceptable to us for her to do it now. She's only 15. Turned 15 in December. This isn't the first time she has gone behind our backs and done something she shouldn't have. Yes, I understand she's a kid/teenager and will do that but this was over something we have fought about. I don't know how she's going to get over this boyfriend she said she loved him. *sigh* I have to help her someway. I let her do what she wants with her hair, it has been pink, purple, blue, orange, and now she has blonde stripes in it. It looks so much better one color without the stripes but I let her do what she wants. The lady at the salon told her she was very creative lol. Thats right egg her on lady! lol

Well I guess thats it for now. I have to get my day started its 9 am. and the coffee is about out. The kids are wandering out of bed. Schooling needs to be done early today I don't want to be doing it all day again.

Til Later..[/COLOR]

I hear ya,I am right there with ya,I never wanted my daughter to get that darn piercing at all and really can't believe she did it,though she had a friend do her eyebrow once and hid that from me but once I knew she was done with that phase anyways thank goodness lol,shes just being rebellious I think because she knows I am dead set against holes in her face,I don't really believe this nose ring will last either.I keep the phones with me too at night lol and of course they are dead by morning,I think I am going to get rid of the cordless phones then they can't try to sneak them 9pm is late enough on a school night I hear that.

Wtg for just eating a few of the chips,sounds like you are doing very well,I'll be right there with ya really soon as I have put Monday in my head but I am really working my way to it NO MORE POP.Well you take it easy my friend,get in 30 and keep on keepin on.

WOW...I am wishing you a relaxing weekend. I haven't read totally backwards yet to catch up, but I hit some of the high points of your saga, and it seems like you've been through the ringer this week. Hope this weekend is good to you.

Lets see how colorful I can make my journal LOL.

My saga...where to begin again. lol. Actually its not to bad today. I did allow Lacey to go to her best friends house, she spent the night. Actually I was trapped into it and wasn't strong enough to hold my ground. She told me best friend was coming over, well Lacey was depressed and I said ok. When best friend got here I didn't realize her dad sitting in the driveway.......Lacey had asked earlier in the day if she could go over to her house and I said no your grounded. So, she puts me on the spot with best friend and best friend dad in the driveway and asks again. I was on the phone with Mike at the time and he wanted to talk to her. Lets just say he set her straight. Why are teenagers so hard. I am praying that my boys aren't this hard. Right now, all my boys want to do is play video games and occasionally (well more than occassionally) talk on the phone with their cousins and my 10 yr old has just started talking to one of his friends on the phone. They of course are only 10 and 11. Now, Mike said we should give her another chance. I'm not so sure of it. I grounded her and she should remain that way. Her only response was "haven't I been through enough?" meaning boyfriend breaking up with her. I don't know if its a permanent break up or just temporary. Teenagers I can't believe I was once one!

I did horrible last night. I had fried chicken and I ate ALOT. In the back of my head I'm hearing "portion control". I didn't listen. I just ate and ate. I almost came on here to write for help, but I didn't and that was my first mistake. I had actually written it all out and had it ready to post then didn't. I am afraid to get on the scale as I am a yo yoer. I probably gained 5 lbs. So, I'll wait until I get back from my moms surgery next week and weigh in one day. I have to get back on track. and I WILL!

I have had so much on my mind and so much going on that I haven't been able or maybe willing to do the challenge that I proposed to myself. No eating after 6pm, no more junk/candy, and excersize 3-4 days a week. My water as I have said before isn't a problem I don't like soda. But I do get the flavored water. Flavored with splenda not the other stuff. I am going to start with a 15 day challenge. No too long, but not to short. I hope I can get my elliptical working because I would love to do that for 15 mins. Mike just showed me how to get a music station on the computer. We are listening to www.christianrock.com It wouldn't be so boring with the music...that is if I could hear it over the noise the elliptical is making. I had thought about a treadmill and now I am second guessing it. I really love the elliptical but can't believe that I've had it for about a year and it is falling apart.

So, for now I will just walk. This weekend I am going to try to get walking. We have so much to do (is that an excuse) we have to work on the family room and then we'll clean up upstairs. Then I have all day tomorrow and leave about 6-7pm for my sisters for moms surgery. *sigh* I am really praying hard that this is the last one. Its horrible sitting in that waiting room, waiting for some kind of news. The good thing is its a beautiful hospital, well its still a hospital. Their gift shop has a mini cafeteria. Then the main cafeteria has a huge salad bar. I am hoping we won't be there at lunchtime. She has to be there at 6:30 am...then they has to prep her, the anethesiolgist (sp) has to come in, and by that time it will probably be about 8. I told my sis I would love to go to the Dollar Tree. So, maybe after the surgery we'll go, or if her surgery is going to take a long time go during the surgery. My eating probably won't be so good on Monday. I'm not going to purposely eat unhealthy though. BUT I have to get one more Shrek glass so we'll probably hit a couple McD's. lol. I'll be bring home some food for the kids and hubby.

Well I better get my hiney to work. Not sure what I'm supposed to be doing but I'm sure Mike has something for me to do. Even though I just can't seem to wake up today. Lacey just called and she was in a good mood. Wonder what happened last night, or if she is just letting the boyfriend go and getting on with her life. I'm glad she is happy!! Maybe letting her go was the best thing for her. Who knows. I won't babble about that anymore...

Once again I'm off...
LMJ

Good Morning/Afternoon Alex,

It's just my opinion, but why not select one of the aspects of your weight loss plan and do that one consistently for one week ... YOU SAY YOU DON'T HAVE A PROBLEM WITH YOUR WATER INTAKE ... so select another aspect and CHALLENGE YOURSELF to succeed with that aspect for one week ...

LOL the teenage years are indeed memorable ... and I can honestly say that only one child (Barrie) kept me on MY TOES .. and although I would never say to her what my mother said to me ( "I WISH THAT YOUR CHILDREN GIVE YOU AS MUCH TROUBLE AS YOU GAVE ME "--) now of course I WAS :not: PERFECT ... lol and I SO remember my PERFECTIONS ... :lil:

You're doing GREAT :1stprize: imho as a parent ... YOU'RE THERE FOR YOUR CHILDREN ... and that's what counts. Take care of yourself and have and make it a great day. I am as always, Monica

Thanks Monica. I know that I need to be consistent. I'm just so impatient.

We've been working on the family room all day. Some friends stopped by and we took a break. Now, back to the grind. I haven't eaten well today. Its been a grab and run day. We are FINISHED the drywall hanging and onto the spackle.

I am working on getting everything out of here. Especially when we sand. We don't want the computers getting messed up. My shoulders are burning especially my right one. It looks so weird in here lol. Well I better get off here and help!

LMJ, just peaking in, looks like you are getting a real workout with all the home improvements!!! I can just see those arms starting to bulge!!! LOL, get your rest though too.

Will try and get back in a couple of days.

Hi girlie,well I see you too are still working on home improvements me too lol its crazy isn't it,about the time my hubby wants to put the wall up between my bathroom and laundry room again I won't want him to anyways,I got to say I finally combined the 2 area and am really liking the bigger open feel of it,boy didn't that man get off easy on this one lol yes I second that get those computers as far away as you can from the sanding,I hung plastic and thought I seeled it off good but darned if that dust still didn't make it to my family and dining area,yuk I hate that part most.Alrighty I will see you back here Tuesday,take care.

I agree with Monica. Pick one thing out, and change it for a few weeks until it becomes an ingrained habit, beforre you move on to another. Pick one and stick with it for a while. It does not really matter which one (water, portion control, keeping blood-sugar pretty level all day and night, no emotional eating, etc.).

Hang in there, and have a great week.

My mom had her surgery today and I am exhausted. Will update and respond tomorrow. Thanks you guys..

I am little slow, but didn't know that your mom was having surgery. I hope all is well, and do keep us posted on how she's doing.

Well my mother is home. Everything went so well. This was her 3rd surgery and the 1st go go well.

Today I am really bummed out. Don't know why. Yesterday was so hard and today I should be happy. We are going to 6 flags on Thursday. The family room is coming along and hubby has been working on it every night. We have everything for it except the trim and paint. I am just bummed.

Going to make this short, I'll get back on here later and reply and go to other journals. The computer is set up on the floor right now and its rather hard to do anything lol.

Hope you all have a nice day.

LMJ

I'm glad your mother is doing OK. You have had some stress with your parents, and their illnesses. Take it easy, and catch up with yourself.

LMJ, it might just be with all the stress and 'excitement' that your body is slowing down to help revive itself. Probably just a bit of a chemical thing. Get your rest and I am sure you will feel better.

Ohhh, I love updating a room. I am sure the family room will be lovely and a great place to hangin' out.

Have fun at 6 Flags!!!

See ya.

Feeling a bit better today. Trying to get the house clean so we don't have to come home to a messy house tomorrow. The kids are so so helping. I gave them the choice school or helping me. They all chose helping me but they aren't doing what they are supposed to so I may just set them at the table and make them do school.

I did terrible this morning. I had 3 donuts. I so wanted to be close to 199 by now and I know I'm still a good 15 lbs. from it at least. I haven't weighed.

Thank you all for your well wishes for my mom. I appreciate them. She is doing so good. I just called her and she almost sounds normal. (as normal as she can get lol ). She will go through some more testing through the month of June and then won't have to be seen for at least 6 months at a time. She's really looking forward to that. She found out she was the first one to get a stent in the neck (I can't spell the word) in that hospitals history. I found that to be interesting. The dr. has a 100% success rate though so we're praying it will stay that way.

Yesterday I slept all day, I was so worn out. Emotionally I think. I was so worked up about my dad and then my mom right after that it was too much to handle at once. Now, I'm going to try to relax tomorrow and enjoy my family.

Well I better get back to work. I may even go do some sanding in the family room. With my mask on of course. I don't know how much Mike has done. I can tell what needs sanded though. Plus, I have to bring Lacey to the hair salon for an application. Now that boyfriend is gone she wants a job!!! YAY! She can start saving for a car.

Ok, I'm off for now,
LMJ

Ah, you sound much better today L. That is good.

The boyfriend is gone? Where did he go? I must have missed something.

Have a good day. You are terrific!

Ahhhh, boyfriend broke up with Lacey. She was miserable for a day. Then *poof* she said he was a jerk and is happy as can be. Teens LOL

LOL, that is great. Hope mine does as well, and I hope it comes soon!!!

Hi! Your name in CFJ's journal caught my eye. I love my Jeep as well :) You are doing really well. Small baby steps are key. One day at a time!

- Kussanna

Hi Kussanna and welcome to my journal..yes, I love my jeep. Its a liberty, but we have plans to lift it and make it more "rugged". Big tires ect. With 3 kids we had to get rid of our Wrangler and don't want to get the 4 door Wrangler cause our Liberty is paid off. lol.

Thanks, Nancy and Jo for checking up on me. I am exhausted!! We went to 6 flags for Homeschool day yesterday. The park was mobbed!! I had no clue so many people homeschooled!! There was a family there that had 13 kids with them. Now, I don't know if they were all their children, but I wouldn't doubt it. They looked like it. I had another eye opener that I think will keep me on track for a while. My sister and I got on a roller coster and the seat belt wouldn't fit. I had to get off. I was so embarrassed. Then another roller coaster (yep, I tried again) I fit on but the girl said "is that tight enough?" I was so embarrassed again. I told her yes, but then was terrified the whole ride that it was going to come loose. Next year, I want to be able to ride those rides and not feel like I am going to fall out, or be too big and not be able to ride them. The good part, was the kids (mine and my sisters) had a great time. We all got sun burned lol. I forgot sun block. duhhhh. We were lucky it was a beautiful day.

Now, back to being overweight/obese I am getting on program. I am working on my water. Now, I don't believe I have a problem with getting my water intake. I just don't think I get enough water. I am going to work on getting 6 bottles of water today. I usually drink flavored water, but I'm going to just refill my bottle with regular water. I have a filter on my water so it tastes good. Water doesn't bother me to drink. I am going to work on this all weekend. Monday, I am going to start walking. Using watp. I will start with 1 mile working my way up. I don't know how long it will take to work my up. Or I will use the pedometer for "X" amount of time..or go for a walk in the neighborhood which is hilly. Very hilly. During this time I am still going to watch my calories. I am going to stick to about 1200-1400 a day. That is livable. I can do that. I have done it in the past I can do it now. This is something that I finally have to do. My health is a big concern right now, especially watching my mother go through the things that she is going through at such a young age. I don't want my kids to go through what my sister and I are going through. I haven't weighed yet...probably tomorrow.

Mike has off Monday and we will be working on the family room so I will be getting some movement in there. Sanding and painting. Hopefully we will get the sanding done tomorrow and can start painting on Sunday or Monday. Keep your fingers crossed. I can't wait to get that room finished. Even though we don't have furniture for it lol. We'll take the living room furniture for it and leave the living room empty for now. I'm saving for furniture.

Well, I am beat...I'm going to go see what the kids are up to.

Sorry if I haven't gotten to your journals...I'll get to them...promise!!

LMJ

You are not alone on the water thing. I hardly ever get in a good amount of water. If I workout, I usually do, but when I am not working out or not at work, water takes a backseat. I drink more water at work than at home. On the weekends and holidays, I can go a whole day w/o even thinking about consuming water, it is the last thing on my mind and the last thing that I want to drink. I keep telling myself I need to get better, but as you know, things are easier said than done. Well, I am wishing you and your family a great holiday weekend. Have some fun!!!

Good Morning Alex,

I am SO PROUD OF YOU FOR CREATING A PLAN THAT IS SO DOABLE ... just a suggestion though .. insofar as using the WATP tape (which is great for overall exercising) instead of going for the FULL 1 MILE ... walk for 1/2 mile today and walk 3/4 mile tomorrow and then on the next day walk the full mile ..

Also just a thought do the warm up and add that to your exercise minutes ... I am now walking up hills and adding a block to that hill climbing ... today I walked 1 3/4 blocks up hill .. tomorrow it will be 2 blocks .. walking uphill is imho A REAL WORKOUT (for me anyway) ...

You take care of yourself and DON'T YOU WORRY by next year you'll have achieved your goals and will be WORKING on maintenance .. Have and make it a great weekend. I am as always, Monica

Coffee and diet soda do not count as water? Holy crap, am I in trouble! :laugh: Don't get hung up on the little details. Just try to drink more fluids to flush those kidneys and liver of toxins while you metabolize your fat. Metabolizing fat can cause toxins to build up in your system, and you want to get rid of those.

I hope that you have a great weekend. Have fun with the pedometer, walking, etc. If it is not fun, then you should find some physical activity that IS fun for you to do. This is not supposed to be torture or punishment. You want to get healthy and stay that way, not beat yourself down for being overweight. Take care.

Hi Kelly, cfj, Monica...thanks for coming by. cfj, I make sure to get my coffee lol :laugh: Can't get started without it. I can't drink anything carbonated cause of one of the meds I'm on. It makes it taste HORRIBLE. It was funny the first time I tried it, hee hee. The medicine is Topamax and actually alot of people have lost weight on it, but not me.

We have a ton to do today. Mostly working on that room. I want to run to Value City Furniture, they have couches on sale for 277. and I just need a filler couch for the living room. I don't want to miss out on a deal. But it may be junk too. I may make it up there..its a good 45 min - hour drive and I don't know if we'll find the time. I'd much rather have the room done and look for furniture later.

My daughter....oh I'm going crazy..I have been really leinent (sp?) on her grounding letting her use the phone, and once letting her go with her best friend. Now, I feel like I just got punched in the face. She took her sim card out of her phone and snuck (snuck?) it into an old phone. I can't turn her phone off until Nov. without getting a 250 dollar charge, but you can bet your bippy it will be turned off in Nov. UNLESS she has a job and is paying her portion of the bill. For now, I am angry. Her grounding is going to be much much stricter, and I am sticking to it.

Now onto my weighty issuses...I weighed this morning 214.8 I gained a few ounces. Its ok though. They will come off. With all that I ate last night (you DON'T want to know) I am just glad I didn't have a bigger gain. I only drank 2 1/2 bottles of water yesterday. So, I have to pick that up today. I am sore from riding the rolller coaster (Batwing) at 6 flags. lol. But I'll still be helping Mike with the spackle and sanding. Oh fun! We need to re drywall the boys room too. Don't know when that will get done. Probably never lol. This has been a big job. Ok, I'm getting off track...again...Today my goal is to get in 6 bottles of water. I had the 2 1/2 and was up twice last night :toilet: :laugh:

Well I better get going..gotta finish up my coffee so I can start in on water.

have a great day all.

Taking a break, boy spackle and sanding is hard!! We have to respackle most of the room. ACK! I really appreciate those who do this proffesionally. I'll tell ya what I think I'm burning some cals!! Well I better get back to work...
Be back later

Hi, LMJ:

Working on that room is burning lots of calories for you. Remember that. And you are accomplishing something very nice for you and your familly. Good for you.

I think your right Jojo. I was sweating yesterday. It was so hot. We finally broke down and put the air on. Mike is already sanding this morning. I told him I had to come here first lol. Am I addicted?

I drank 3 bottles of water yesterday. Could have had more but we went to Home Depot and I forgot I brought my water. I'm getting there, thats half of what I want to drink. Its a slow process. Plus, we had the drywall sand everywhere and it was gross. I am thinking it will be the same today, but I'm going to try to get more water in me. I had 3 cups of coffee this morning. Thats my usual. I eventually want to cut the coffee out, but I haven't yet. I'm thinking about getting decaf and doing half and half to wean myself off of it. As I've said in a past journal entry I've only been a coffee drinker for about a year. Before that it would only be a cup here and there now I seem to depend on it. I am looking forward to the start of my excersize regiment. I am still thinking walking. I probably won't be able to start Monday, we will still be working on the family room. Tuesday will probably be more acceptable with my time limits ect. I have to set a schedule, with schooling ect. I will probably work on that tonight if I have time. I have to start getting the kids up earlier to get their school done, or I have to start getting up earlier and excersize while they are asleep. I'll have to figure out which works best. I think I will be better off working out in the morning. It tends to be my best time of the day. Usually, Michael (11) is up before me anyway, I can have him wake me up LOL. I do want to work my way up to tae bo again. I know I can't do that now, I've tried. My body is not tae bo friendly right now, but it is my favorite excersize. I have fun with it and khi bae.

We bought the paint yesterday. I am getting so anxious, but some of the spackle isn't dry yet. Soooo, I have to be patient, not my good suit. We bought a few other things and it came to 90 bucks! I was holding onto my money and kept telling myself to hand it over to the cashier lol. I didn't wanna! At least I know its all stuff we needed and not just throwing the money away. The pop up money sure is going fast. Its being used for a good reason though.

I told Mike once the family room is done we are going to do a huge cleaning of the entire house and make a trip to Good Will with the stuff we don't want. I want to declutter so bad. Maybe even have a yard sale first, but yard sales are hard work. Its so much easier just to bring the stuff to Good Will. My inlaws talk about having a yard sale though and they are in a perfect location for it. Its something I'll have to think about.

Well I've written yet another loong journal entry...Have a great Sunday all...I'll probably be back sometime today. Again, am I addicted? LOL :laugh::laugh:

Good Morning...
Not alot of time this morning because I need to be sanding in the family with Mike. I really want to be painting tonight. It doesn't look like we will, but I have a little faith that we will. Waiting on spackle to dry is like watching water boil. Its just been so humid here I am guessing thats why its not drying like it should. We gave it over 24 hours and it still wasn't dry X-( We will hopefully be painting tomorrow night the latest.

Well yesterday, I had 4 bottles of water. Its going up every day. My eating was HORRIBLE. I had Dominoes plus junk all day. Today I am going to try to watch it a little better.

Well I better go do my "job" , Mike is waiting on me.

Have a good day, Memorial Day everyone. Thinking of our troops today too.

LMJ

A day of Domino's won't kill you. At least you are mindful of it and are going to watch it. We can't completely give up on the food and junk that we love...that would just be crazy talk. :) So how did the painting come out? Have you all been able to do it yet? I bet you can't wait for everything to be done. Well, I hope your weekend was good (hadn't had time to read backwards). Mine was great, thanks for visiting my journal.

We're PAINTING!!!! We have about half of the room painted with the first coat. It is tedious. I can not do ceilings lol. We worked from 9am to 10:30 pm yesterday. It was an exhausting day.

Kelly, so nice to see you. Your right one day wouldn't have hurt, but with all the work we were doing all weekend we ate out all weekend. I totally blew it and now I'm terrified of that little scale in the bathroom. One day this week I'll get on it to assess the damage. Hopefully, with all the work I've been doing it will work out. *fingers crossed*

I overslept this morning. So, I just getting to my coffee. Made my morning phone calls (Mike, sister, Dad). Trying to wake up daughter. With whom I'm very upset with. She just can't follow the rules. And will continue to be grounded until she does so. We took her SIM card away from her (cell phone) and she actually went into her dads dresser drawer and took it. She is already grounded for piercing her nose, while being grounded she snuck (is that a word?) an old cell phone and was using it without our knowledge, well she got caught! More grounding...NOW...I catch her AGAIN doing the same thing. She said ex boyfriend is harrassing her, well how does she even know this if she isn't supposed to have a PHONE! Sooo, now she is grounded longer. She drives me nuts when she is grounded but thats the way it is. You break the rules you are grounded. Ok, thats enough about that.

Well I have to get off here and check my cell phone carrier to see if she used my phone last night. Terrible isn't it.

Til later..
LMJ

I forgot to add, I only had 2 bottles of water yesterday ACK! X-(X-( I am going to do my best to get more in today. I am going to try to dig out my body for life book and read into that again. I'm reading The Innocent Man by John Grisham right now and spend my reading time with that but, I can take a break and read bfl. My books are all under my dresser right now (and I have a ton of books) and I don't know if I'll be able to find it. But I'll take a few minutes later today to see if I can. I have to do something. I can't go grocery shopping until Friday or Saturday. I'm hoping the family room will be completely done by then and I can relax a bit. Mike called and I asked him if I could paint some today lol, he told me only if I don't make any mistakes. So, I may be painting later today. Depends on my shoulders they are killing me.

Ok, well this time I'm off. Gotta still clean up all the dust from the drywall. I want to take pics of the family room but don't know how to get them on the computer. (This is a new computer and its dusty!)

Gonna go wipe up some floors! Have a good day all!

LMJ

Wtg mom stick to your guns,I know raising kids is so tough,I always say I can't wait til they grow up at least my 1st few but after they do then I will probably wish them to be young again lol who knows.
Sounds like you have been very busy this weekend I'm sure you have burnt plenty of calories doing what your doing,I don't envy you at the moment as that dry wall dust makes ya wanna cry GRRRR.... what a mess that stuff makes.I hope you have a very good day and can enjoy that family room very soon,hopefully I can get back here soon as I miss being here because as you put it its addictive and I really miss being here alot,it keeps me going,alrighty my friend I'm out rem. keep on keepin on!

Hello! Your daughter sounds like mine. How old is she? I have 5 kids the first 2 being girls. One is 17 and one 15. They drive me nuts with the crap they pull. My 15 yr old is always in trouble. I used to be lienient w/ her groundings cuz she too drives me nuts when shes grounded figuring if she tortures me enough i will let her free but i have gotten strict with it. This last time i stuck to my guns through all her crying, whining, yelling, and so on. she got 3 days out of school suspension for skipping class which was her 4th time,. she was caught with another girl in the autotorium behind the stage curtain where they do plays in a boat that is a play prop and it was 10 feet in the air. she took off and the teacher had to chase her around the school. I didnt know how to respond to the phone call from the school but i was super pissed. she does stuff like that alot. I cant wait till their grown is all i can say.

Hey LMJ I so feel for you we redid our entire house while living in it and I mean really redid it! I came home and there was a huge hole in the ceiling and the contractors where throwing bricks out of the windows! I hate sheet rock dust too! I hope you get it finished soon. I am still doing a few finishing touches here as well. Our home was built before the civil war and was hard to redo! I wish you well in your redo.

I am glad you are journaling again more. I send you many good wishes for the daughter concerns I can't imagine how hard it is to be a parent now days. I feel for ya. I am sure it will all pass and she is a good kid it just is hard trying to figure out who they are and who they want to become.

What am I saying I don't have kids! I was one once a long long long time ago and did work with youth for several years. But really what do I know.lol

People make fun of us because we have been married for almost 18 years and don't have kids! I am only 35 and I think we still have plenty of time!!! So may God be with you. I am glad it's not me dealing with it! lol just kidding. Kiddies are great just as long as they aren't mine. lol

Good luck on the drinking the water. Remember take care of you!

So happy you've gotten around to painting. I bet you can see the light at the end of the tunnel for once. Hey, I am keeping my fingers crossed for you too, but I am sure you are fine.

Good Morning everyone. WOW, I'm so happy to see so many have posted to me. Thank you, Thank you!!!


Heather: We are really bad about groundings..generally we give in after a day or so. This time we are sticking to it. Its been hard but oh well. I hope you get your computer fixed soon, I miss ya!! And as you say we gotta keep on keepin on.

Angel: My daughter is 15 going on 21. She thinks she can act like an adult without the responsibility of one. I guess this is normal? I have never had a teenage girl (or boy for that matter) so I am not sure. We got into a tiff yesterday and she was telling me everything I'm doing wrong. Hopefully, somewhere in the back of her head she'll remember the things we did right. I just sit and remember when she was 2-3 years old and what a precious little thing she was and she still is. I just wish she'd get her act together. We homeschool so I don't have to worry about schools.

Suny: I would LOVE to have an old home! We had this one built in 1998. We were dumb young kids and didn't have things done like we wanted. Now, we have had a garage put on, and now we're doing the family room. At first it was a bedroom but the boys (10 and 11) want to share a room. So we decided to make it into a family room. Yes, drywall dust is AWFUL! We have done the whole room by ourselves. The garage we did have contractors do though. If I ever have another house built or bought I will have everything I want. I'm 34 and been married for 16 years. He was my high school sweetheart as I'm sure your hubby was. We'll have been together 20 years in June. I told him I WANT DIAMONDS LOL...(we can't afford diamonds it was a joke lol) a nice dinner will do without the kids. Thanks on the good luck with the water, I definetly need it.

Kelly: Hey!! Nice to see you again. We do see the light at the end of the tunnel. The bad part is I will have a room with no furniture when we're done LOL. Hubby has this "thing" about used furniture. I may try to convince him to go to some yard sales and see if we can find some nice furniture cheap, but I don't think he'll go for it. LOL My man!

Well we will be starting the floors tonight. Hopefully at some point I can take a picture of the room. I wanted to take them in stages but never got around to it. It has taken up so much of our time I wanted them. We didn't even really see our kids on Monday.

Didn't do well with water yesterday. Only a bottle and a half. I just wasn't thirsty enough, plus I was disstracted by painting. I think when I get consumed with a project I just ignore what I have to do. We didn't even do school yesterday so we are a day behind. I have to clean up the floors, get the spackle off them, sweep, clean out a closet, and get everything ready for Mike to start the floors today. I haven't weighed myself since the last time. I'm still afraid. Mike brought home ice cream last night. My biggest downfall. I ate way too much. I was so tired I just didn't care. He did ask if it was ok to bring home and I said I was strong enough not to eat it. BIG mistake. Only my mistake though.

Well I had better get this day started. I have a ton to do. We have to make up for missing yesterdays schooling. Plus, I have a cup of coffee waiting for me.

Thank you for all who have visited me...your support is so appreciated. I need it now more than ever!!! :ghug:

Hi, LMJ:

I'll bet your room is going to look wonderful when you get it finished. Redecorating is always such a challenge, it's a lot of work though.

Now, drink that water today. You know you should, and here I am reminding you. .

Thank you for the reminder Jojo, I really do need to be reminded. I'm only one bottle down so far. I have torn up the remaining carpent and now will wait for Mike to get home to lay the floor. I am getting so anxious for it to be done. Tearing up that carpet sure was a chore. I was filthy. I have a closet in the hallway and it was full of junk, I had to empty it and now my room is full of junk lol. No room for anything. I think I'll try to work on it tonight.

Just for the heck of it, I went to take a shower, and decided to weigh myself. Ready for this....211.8 I'm not sure if I'll weigh that in the morning, but I was shocked!! I have been eating sooo terrible. I'll weigh myself first thing in the morning to see what my true weight is, but I was happy not seeing 214.

My son is sitting here reminding me to put periods at the end of my sentences lol. He wants on the computer. So, I guess I'll let him have it for a little while, his dad doesn't let him.

Hope your all having a good day.

LMJ

Well, if he wants new stuff...indulge yourself. Afterall that you and your family have been thru w/ the remodeling, you deserve some new "digs" to dress that room up. Maybe you could still look at yard sales or estate sales for like little end table and whatnots...just a thought.

This mornings weight was 213.4. So, I've lost a bit. Last night without thinking I ate a bit more than I should have, well more than a bit. I was in bed and my dear hubby brought me some Little Debbies snacks and I ate them. Didn't even think about the consequenses. I think I'll go ahead and change my ticker. I don't plan on gaining any of it back. Plus, when the family room is done, my elliptical, hopefully will be more accessable. As long as we can figure out whats wrong with it. We'll have to see. Hubby said I may just have to put it in the laundry room. Which won't solve any of the problems I've had, being bored while on the thing. I want it to put it in the family room so I can watch tv or listen to music while on it so I'm not so bored. I watch one soap, and that would be the perfect time to do it. Even though I don't watch it daily.

Water wasn't to great yesterday...3 bottles. I'm really working for that 6. Its taking more time than I thought it would. I didn't think I had a problem with water. I don't drink anything else. I just thought I drank more. I was wrong. I'm so glad Monica brought this to my attention. I thank her for that.

I feel like I am losing weight sooo slow. I sometimes feel like just giving up. I won't but I feel like sometimes. Just eating what I want. Then I think of my mom. A heart attack at 61. That is so young. I don't want that. I don't want the health problems. I already have an extra heart beat that has to be treated with meds. I want to live as long as possible. I have kids and I want to live to see my grandchildren...maybe my great grandchildren!! If only weight wasn't an issue. If only everyone was healthy and happy. Then we'd have a perfect world...wouldn't that be nice.

We didn't get the floor put down yet. We did get all the light fixtures put up. Mike didn't get home until 6pm last night. He said when he gets home tonight he's gonna bust his butt and work on it. We'll see. We're so close to the end. After the floor is trim than we're done and can "move" into the room. I can't wait.

Well my coffee is getting cold...til later

LMJ

Good Morning Alex,

First of all CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR WEIGHT LOSS ... :cheer: ...

SECOND OF ALL :coach: AND HEAR ME LOUD AND CLEAR -- you're doing great with the water .. each DAY YOU HAVE MADE GREAT IMPROVEMENT SO PLEASE STOP WITH THE :whip: NEGATIVITY ...

Each day we learn something not only about our weight loss journey BUT WAYS TO IMPROVE THE QUALITY OF OUR LIFE. You should be so proud of yourself for RECOGNIZING THAT LOSING WEIGHT IS SOMETIMES A SLOW PROCESS ... AND JUST HOW IMPORTANT IT IS FOR US TO TAKE OUR JOURNEY ONE DAY AT A TIME ..

You know that I started my weight loss journey at 307 pounds .. AND I UNDERSTAND THE FRUSTRATION OF NOT LOSING IT AS QUICKLY AS WE WANT (like BLINKING OUR EYES) .. but I'm telling you with all honesty that imho it's better TO LOSE WEIGHT GRADUALLY and KEEP IT OFF than to LOSE QUICKLY AND GAIN IT BACK QUICKER --

The journey doesn't end (imo) with losing weight ... MAKING SURE IT STAYS OFF becomes MORE IMPORTANT ... I've had to change by WALKING EVERY DAY NOW (instead of 3 to 4 times a week) and REALLY MONITORING MY FOOD INTAKE .. and I now so APPRECIATE a fraction of a loss -- LOL and I'LL TAKE IT ..

So know that YOU ARE MOVING FORWARD ... YOU'LL GET THERE and we'll still be here insuring that our successes remain the same. Have and make it a great day. I am as always, Monica

Hello! Your daughter sounds like mine. I have a 17 yr old girl too but my 15 yr is way worse than my 17 yr old ever was. My 15 yr old too points out all my faults, what i do wrong, what i dont do right so i learned to give it back to her. She has hurt my feelings on many occasions even to the point where i have cried, now when she does it i tell her shes not perfect either and i list her faults and she doesnt like it. She gets really mad when i do this but i do it so she can see what if feels like and not to do it to me, it usually ends with her apologizing till the next episode. She thinks she can do things wrong without consequence and it dont work that way. My daughter when she was little was precious too but as teens its the worst, but i do have to say i didnt have too hard a time with my 17 yr old until this yr but shes behaving again now, my son who is almost 14 is going through it all now with the talking back to me and all that. Its no fun.

I have also from time to time thought about giving up the dieting but all that i will gain is the weight back and health problems so i trudge forward. Your always a winner if u never quit. I too wish the weight would just melt off but i know it wont and it takes alot of work to have it come off and to stay off.
Right now im focusing on getting it off. Ill cross the bridge of keeping it off when i get there. Hang in there, you will get there.

Hope all is well with you today. I know you can't wait to move into the new family room. By the way you don't want an old house they are never really done because of the oldness you are redoing things every 5 years or so. I use to say I wanted to live in an old house as a kid. They are beautiful just to time consuming as well as money we could have built two homes. We are saving to build a new concrete, glass and steal house we are very modern people so this house just doesn't match us.

How are the daughter problems going? Better I hope.

Oh by the way my hubby and I were not high school sweethearts. Well I was in high school but he is (hold on to your hat!) 8 1/2 years older than me. His dad was my minister!!! He said the first time he met me he knew he was in trouble! lol I was very mature for my age I was an only child I think that was part of it. I was so much older acting and responsible than everyone at school. Oh well it worked out and no one thought it would because of our age that he would tire of me and we wouldn't even get married and hey 20 years later and 18 years of marriage I think it's going to be ok lol. We lov each other lots! lol Have a blessed week and hang on you can reach your goal.

Just wanted to drop by to tell you to have a great weekend:hug:

I just can't seem to get moving this morning. Mike called at 9 and I was still in bed!!! I did weigh myself this morning...213.0 I am not going to weigh myself again for at least a week. I think. Sometimes daily weigh ins help me, sometimes they depress me. So, I have to even it out. I can go a few days without weighing. Over the weekend its easier for me not to weigh in.
Its supposed to be a hot day today, so I already put the air on. Just what my electric bill needs. I'm already behind on it. On a repayment plan. Mike will yell but it gets hot. Living in a bilevel the downstairs gets super cold and the upstairs will stay moderately warm. Plus, we don't have vents in the family room yet so it freezes over there.
I'm starting to ween myself off the coffee. I have an irregular heartbeat and realized I don't need the caffine. I only had 2 cups today. Yesterday I had 4 bottles of water!!

Monica - Thank you. Like I have said before I ne