And so a journey begins anew....

Hello DTers, I want to first of all support everyone here who is trying to lose weight, and wish you all the best in your efforts. Being healthy is probably the most important thing you can do for yourself. What follows is a bit of an introduction of me in terms of dieting/weight loss. I am excited to be back in the game and have decided to post a journal here to help me in my efforts, which have been a bit difficult for me recently, but I am "back in it, once and for all!!!."

A couple years back, I was a weight loss machine! I went from around 290 to 180 in what seemed like no time at all. I remember looking at the scale every day, and I was disciplined, watched my calories, worked out, and I would see marked differences over time in weight (though I majorly plateaued around 180, stopping short of fitting in some sweet pants I bought :down: ). It was great!! I am so glad to not be at the near 300 mark anymore.

The not so great part, is I did gain some back, and I weighed in this morning at 222. I am determined to not only not gain more, but to lose back what I did gain. I love how being thinner feels/felt after being VERY big my whole life. I am not too happy about being above 200 again, so I guess that is my first goal. I am also disappointed that I am now "obese" again according to the BMI, so getting to 190 is my second goal.

I stay pretty active, and starting in mid February, took on a PE schedule at community college that essentially gave me 5-6 hours of exercise a week, this in addition to playing hockey on friday nights. You would think I would have lost a bunch of weight, but not one bit. I make wholesome breakfasts and lunches for myself, but snacking at breaktime at work and eating out on weekends have been killers.

So today, I am determined to not only lose back what I have gained, but also to make it down to 150. It is on the high end of the healthy range, but I figure with all my working out, I have some extra muscle under this fat, and if I get to 150 and find it is not enough, I can go from there.

I know I am exercising enough, I just gotta keep the calories in check. This semester ends in early June, then I will be doing 2 3 hour water polo classes for 6 weeks in the summer (unfortunately hockey season is over now and I am skipping the summer season b/c it's expensive), so my exercise schedule is going to change.
Right now though, I am taking advantage of my good daily exercise habits and am going to also eat less. I am shooting for around 1400Cal./day in 3 400Cal. meals and 2 100Cal. snacks, as well as drinking more green tea and taking vitamins and calcium supplements.

Today, I was pretty good, not PERFECT, but definitely ate less than I am using, so on the right track.

Breakfast: Soy/Flax cereal with strawberries and almond milk
Snack: 5 chips with guac and salsa, 2 mandarin oranges and 2 small cookies (here's where I wasn't stellar!)
Lunch: Lean pastrami sandwich (around 350Cal.), cut-up veggies with a Tbsp. ranch dressing, 1 mandarin orange
Snack: 2 mandarin oranges (hehe, the box I buy lasts 2 weeks like this lol)
Dinner: Chicken patty, a small amount of shellfish and brie cheese, and blueberries.

I am actually a bit hungry right now, but I am hoping if I ignore it for now, I will start getting used to less food again.

Exercise: tonight is swimming, for an hour.

I am so determined this time. I cannot wait to see the pounds start dropping again!!!! Having some muscle underneath will be nice too :-)

It's all about being healthy and treating myself right. I deserve to have a body that is healthy, lean, and strong. :hippy:

Hi :wave: & :welcome: ( back )

Wonderful attitude and great plan :up:

So yesterday was great! Swimming was such a workout last night and I didn’t come home and start eating.
I weighed in this morning @ 220 (this was AFTER breakfast to boot!). It is just the motivation I need to stay on track.
This morning, so far so good, had my cereal earlier w/ berries and almond milk, I am starting to get hungry already, so I need to be particularly careful during break this morning.
After work is weight lifting (doing double duty because I need to make up a class).
As much as I wish that I could instantly be back to 180 and start back from there, this is a good start and I am so excited that I will be seeing results again.

Way to go! I am also coming back from a gain, ugh! And I also weigh everyday. I love that daily motivation! Glad to meet you and good luck!

Thanks for the support! Nice meeting you too. You are so right about the daily motivation. Some people don't like to weigh everyday, but I find for me it helps alot.

My day in fitnessland~
Food:
Breakfast-cereal, strawberries, blueberries, almond milk (the stuff's great :-)
Snack-1/2 chocolate chip/flax seed cookie, 5 tortilla chips w/guac, salsa, about 5 peanuts. Not the healthiest, but kept the portions down.
Lunch-sandwich, veggies w/ranch, a few mandarins (just like yesterday)
Snack-peach
Snack "Dinner part 1" - An organic "green food bar" (don't remember the name off hand, they are very nutritious and 250 calories), then it was off to work out
Dinner "Main feature" - 2 boiled eggs, a tomato, a hush puppy.
Beverages - lots of water, green tea throughout the day. also a cup of coffee.

If I had to guess, around 1500 today.

Exercise - 1 hour, 45 minutes weight training and ab work.

I have also (re)started listening to a CD "Weight Loss" by Belleruth Naparstek, the "Affirmations" track. Tonite will be "Guided Imagery" before I go to sleep. It's pretty relaxing (the good things that go on hormonally when you relax is worth it if nothing else), encouraging stuff, can't hurt :)

I realize I won't see a -2lb every day (wouldn't it be nice lol), but am looking forward to checking my progress tomorrow.

I managed to turn down unhealthy food my parent's were serving when I stopped by tonite. I realized I need at least a solid week of eating right to stay "on the wagon" as it were. Last week, Monday and Tuesday morning/afternoon were great, but Tuesday night (birthday party for a friend, very yummy buffet) messed me up the rest of the week. I told my boyfriend I will be wanting to be careful on weekends.
I feel like I'm in a much better place this week than last, in a better position to succeed. As the thread title says "once and for all!!!"

wonderful ! :up:

Yeah, 2 lbs a day...that would be awesome! LOL Except for all the loose skin we would have, lol

Another day begins.
Hmm...my scale is a bit...off...
I stepped on today, and was 219, cool, but then stepping again gives 220, then 218, then ~219.5. LOL, I guess I need to step on, and be sure my weight is "settled down" on it. Who knows, my 220 yesterday could have been in that weird fluctuation. As long as it is not going up!
Well, at any rate, I am staying on track, so no worries!
This morning, my usual breakfast, soon it's off to work.
Tonight's exercise will be self-defense class (~1.5 hours exercise time) and 1 hr. swimming.
How great it feels that I know I have no other option but to lose weight now that I am watching my diet. :D

Okaaaay,
218 this morning!! Yay!
Menu was
Breakfast: cereal, berries, almond milk
Snack 1: bits and pieces of chips, cookies, peanuts (again, not the best, but kept portions down)
Lunch: Sandwich, veggies w/ranch dressing, 3 mandarins
Snack 2: small cookies (~150 Cal/bag)
Dinner part 1: I tried a "raw food" brownie, made with dates, tahini, coconut, walnuts, raisins and carob. AMAZING, and so filling. I have no idea the calorie content, the customer service rep was on vacation when I called :)
and a bottle of Kombucha tea.
Off to self-defense class, great workout!
Dinner part 2: Green food+ food bar (250Cal.)
Then swimming for an hour, again, great workout, I am pleasantly tuckered out this morning!
Throughout the day...plenty of water and green tea.

Today, had my cereal, water, will shortly head off to work. A few of us are eating out today, so I need to exercise caution with what I order. Maybe a soup or salad, we'll see.
After work, is weight lifting, then I drive over to the rink for the ice skating class I'm taking with my bf. Then we'll stay for public skate all in all about an hour on the ice.
Dinner? Not sure yet, perhaps I'll grab a food bar before classes and grab a snack at my bf's after class.
Anyway, all this rambling, I know I won't have much chance to post today/tonight, so here's the update/plan.

Yay! Things are working out again! 218 this morning!

Peace out :D

Hey hey! it's Friday!
I have a dr appt today, so work day is nice and short, way to bring in the weekend! Hope the DT world that is reading my journal is doing well.

Well, today's weigh-in was back to 219.5. Typical weigh-ins for me are naked, before breakfast, after using the restroom. Today was after breakfast, and "my visitor" is here today. That and (hopefully) muscle gain from last night's exercise are reasons for the reading to be higher today.

This morning I had bowl of frosted shredded wheat (I am glad to see that smaller portions of foods are keeping me fuller now) and a glass of water.
(hehe, I post all my foods here, which I guess is normal for these journals, if they are boring, then read the other parts :o )

Yesterday stacked up as follows

Breakfast: Cereal, berries, almond milk
Snack: 3 crackers, 1/4 apple
Lunch: kung pao chicken with brown steamed rice (kept some leftovers)
Snack: said leftovers (620Cal total for the meal)
Dinner part 1: Greens+ food bar (250Cal)
Dinner part 2: Masala veggie patty(120), small piece naan(~80).

All in all, roughly 1500 I think.

Yesterday was fun actually. Weightlifting was rough as it has been hot here this week and the room is not air conditioned, so it was a little hard to put in 100%, but I worked out hard and definitely broke out in a sweat :)
Next was ice skating, we are taking a class that goes for a 1/2 hour, followed by public skating time. All together, 1-1/2 hours skating. I was very energetic last night, and really went all out, today I am sore :laugh:

I have been noticing my attitude becoming much better lately, I guess it's due to a lot of things, but my "new" eating habits combined with the exercise I'm already doing is really making a difference. I have noticed perhaps the past few months that I had been really moody before "that time of the month" (moreso than in the past), but this time was different. I feel really good.
I even had the courage to go speak with my boss about a long overdue promotion/raise. (we'll see what happens, my company is good at favortism and being cheap lol)

Seeing the scale this morning, even though I know there are reasons for upward fluctuation, reminds me to stick to my guns and keep disciplined.

Good times, good times.

Today's food (so far)

Breakfast: Frosted shredded wheat w/soy milk ~250
Snack: a few peanuts and 1/4 apple ~50-60?
Lunch: tofu, naan, veggies, ranch ~400-420
Snack: naan, a fresh beet ~285

Tonite will be my first test of "weekend eating"- But this time I know I am dedicated, things feel different now. I will be vigilant and mindful of my eating this weekend.

I am off to take a nap, it's been a long short-day :)

Quick update for the morning. Yes, the weekend was not the "good discipline" I would have hoped for, but at least it did not knock me off the wagon semi-permanently, like usually happens. This morning was back to my usual cereal, and I packed my healthy lunches and snacks for the week and soon will head for work. I will resume weigh-ins tomorrow morning.

Alright, today I am on track after a minor course correction as it were from the weekend.

Breakfast: Cereal, berries, almond milk ~300
Snack: 100 Cal. pack Chocolate cookies(toucans from Trader Joe's). (these are so yummy, and the bag was bigger than I expected)
Lunch: Turkey pastrami on naan (310) Veggies with ranch dressing (~200)
Snack: Cranberry oatmeal (160)
Dinner: Chicken caesar salad with naan (550)

Total: 1620
This is a bit more than I like, but overall not too bad. I may start replacing the naan with a whole grain bread I used to buy. Less calories and healthier overall.
I am off to go swim now. I can't wait until I am back home and in bed, it's been a long day!

Monday night ended with a cookie, teacher was giving them out. (I had one only, but unfortunately I fell into the trap of eating the entire cookie even though it wasn't that good)
Anyway, yesterday's menu breakdown

Breakfast: Cereal, berries, almond milk (~300)
Snack: 100 cal cookie pack, 1/2 banana (~150)
Lunch: Turkey pastrami (~80) naan, (240) veggies w/ranch (~150)
Dinner: Chicken patty (110) cereal, berries, almond milk (~300)
Dessert: 1 1/2 brownie (300) (I am taking the rest of the tray to work today :laugh: )

total: 1630 not too bad, I will probably still lose weight. BUT, I am trying to keep it around 1400-1500, so I need to be more careful.

I may have to wait on my morning naked before breakfast after bathroom weighings for a while though, because my parents are out of town and I'm staying over here. Their scale is way off from mine, so I don't want to list them here, keeping only to the scale I'm used to. That being said, I am about 222 on the scale here, so I can keep track until I'm back using mine. I'm thinking I will be happy with what I find :o
Off to work!
Later all!

Yesterday:
B: Cereal, strawberries, 1/2 banana, almond milk
S1: 100 cal cookie pack, 1 BITE brownie, 1" square jalapeno cheese bread (to try it, didn't like it)
L: turkey pastrami, naan, veggies, tomatoes, ranch dressing
S2: cranberry oatmeal
D1: greens+ food bar
D2: cereal, strawberries, almond milk
rough estimate 1600-1700 cal

exercise: Self Defense was cancelled tonite, so I spent 40 minutes either taking the day's frustration out on the bags (I've never known a nightmare job until this one....), or goofing off :-)
then swimming for roughly an hour.

stopping in to say "hi" :wave:

I see you too enjoy swimming - I love to swim as well, helps that it is a great calorie burner :D

haha, hi!
yes, and I'm excited to start a water polo class in the summer (just a few weeks away!)
I've been busy with work and classes and taking care of pets in my place and my parents' (they are on vacation) so I haven't been here regularly.

Ok, back in it this morning~~~
Weekends have been my downfall. Unfortunately, next weekend might not be better (I will be out of town for the weekend and my bf and I have 3 meal reservations), but I suppose that's all up to me.
This morning I have started the day with my usual bowl of cereal, and I am bringing veggies, tofu, fruits, bread (tomorrow, chicken, I need to cook it lol) for the week to work for lunches. Dinner, I will have to see what's there to cook, and be mindful of the calories. I have made sure my fridge is full of wholesome stuff, I really feel like I need to "get on the wagon" after my stay at my parents' and the long weekend. But here it is. My semester of PE classes is drawing to a close, but I will be starting water polo on June 25. I have a few weeks it seems before that starts, so I will need to be a bit more self disciplined with my exercising. But it also means I will have time to do the activities (DDR, videos) that I haven't been because I simply haven't had time.
So I waver a bit, but don't lose sight of my goals.

Hello! Your menu plan looks good and exercise too. I love to swim too. I also check my scale daily. I only count my weight loss once a week on a fri but i do check it every morning to see how im coming along.

Thanks to those coming and saying Hi in my journal!! Yes, my menu is pretty good, but notice I said nothing of my weekends. lol partly I don't get to go on DT on weekends, part is my eating on weekends is not nearly as good as during the week.
Today has been great though!
B: cereal, milk, strawberries
S: 1/3 avocado, handful grapes, sugar snap peas
L: 2/3 avocado, ~100cal. worth of tofu, 2 pieces whole grain bread, grapes, sugar snap peas, jicama, 1/2 raw beet.*
D: 1c. yogurt, 2 handfuls cherries, high fiber cereal w/ milk.
Had water, a cup of green tea, and 2 cups of coffee w/ creamer, sugar today as well.

*too funny, at work at least 4 people "oohed and ahhed" over my lunch today, some of them had never even seen some of the veggies before. well, it's sad really, b/c most people don't care that much to eat healthy. I did feel a little like a zoo animal or something with all the attention! lol

I feel so healthy when I eat this way, I like it, don't know what happens on weekends, oh yes I do, I'm w/ my bf and those habits go out the window b/c we want to "enjoy" ourselves on the weekend. He wants to eat better too, so slowly but surely our weekends are getting better.

As for weighing in, I think I will wait until Monday for that, so I can "catch back up" before then. I do not want to get depressed that my weight has been stagnant or gained since my stay at my parents' or the long weekend.
Yes, next Monday it is.

I gotta run this morning, but menu yesterday closely mimicked yesterday's with the exception of having yogurt with fruits for breakfast and dinner, and a snack of peaches in the afternoon.
Swimming was great, unfortunately it's the last day of class and I don't go to water polo for a few weeks.

I gotta say, this weekend was loads of fun. Good times, actually got exercise in, but also full of good food. Not that I'm complaining about that, everything was great. I just ate too much.
Okay, so I've slipped and weighed in at 224 this morning (!!!).
This morning I measured carefully some yogurt, trail mix and added cherries for breakfast. (160+200+40) 400 cal per meal is A-okay.
*Sigh* this losing weight thing is tough.
Now that classes are over for 3 weeks, I need to be disciplined to work out on my own.
I will have more time to post here, so hopefully keeping to my healthy habits will on my mind more often.

Keep up the good work. You're better than me at counting those calories. I just never keep up with it. My philoshy is if I eat more, I have to excersize more. So, if I eat tons during the day, I do more exercize at night after the kids go to bed. I just wish my husband wouldn't find those leg lifts so stimulating!!lol.

*sigh* I have not been as good as you think! This weekend was so full of luscious food that I put back on the bit I lost.
Today started great, but degenerated into fast food for lunch and pizza for dinner. Mostly a product of being so "on the go" this week. Tomorrow I leave for a seminar for work, so will not be back home until thursday night. This weekend I do not have fun out of town plans, so hopefully can more easily stay on track.
I feel sad that I was so motivated when I started this journal, and am a bit discouraged at the moment.
But hey, I'm still here, that's better than nothing!

never give up ! You can always get back on track and get that flame burning again :flower:

Learn from your errors, gain new knowledge and take it with you :)

heh, yeppers...THIS MORNING actually, I began my new routine for days that I won't be going to waterpolo (starting next week).
I woke up early (!) did my Neena and Veena bellydance video, showered, had a healthy breakfast (high fiber cereal and fruit) and will soon be walking to work (I can walk on days I don't have other appointments, I am lucky enough to work walking distance from home).
Just *once again* getting back into it all, and not lapsing, that's the key.
Thanks for the encouragement too!!!

Yesterday I totally kept plan. Ate fruits, veggies and a sandwich with low fat cheese, 1/2 avocado, sprouts and tofu on harvest bread. In the afternoon I enjoyed a small piece of cake that a vegan coworker brought for her birthday, with lemon and blueberry (supposedly "as wholesome as a cake can be"). Walked home. Dinner was a lovely meal composed of asparagus sauteed with onion, garlic and a small amount of olive oil, a chicken breast, and a cup of a lentil and brown rice mix. I also drank alot of water throughout the day.
This morning, I did a 1/2 hour dance workout and 1/2 hour yoga. Next stop is a shower and breakfast, and walking to work (lunch and dinner plans are same, minus the cake).
(looks like the scale went from 222 to 220, so that is nice. I just gotta stop losing and gaining the same 2 lbs lol!)

Okay! that 4 lb that I lost and came back. They're gone! This time for GOOD.

It's been a while, haven't gained, haven't lost. Ok so not the best, but "back in it again" lol. You'd think I'd stop this madness since it's only wasting time. Oh well.
There is a girl at work with similar stats to mine, who wants to lose weight for a wedding next year. SO...we are going to be diet buddies. Hopefully that will be some more motivation. (as if I don't have enough reasons to want to lose weight....8-|)
Anyway, I've started keeping a written food journal (sporadically) and may try what my coworker is doing, a spreadsheet.
My scale is acting a bit weird at the moment, but I think I am at 219 right now.

Either scale funky, I was "bad" over the weekend, or trippy menstrual weight fluctuation, whatever, but was at 222 yesterday. My coworker and I will be doing weekly Monday morning weigh-ins. The games are ON!
(just thinking, Mondays are probably the best, so I don't screw up the weekend too bad b/c I know I will be weighing on Monday :o)

Hi !!!! :wave:

It is GREAT seeing you back at DT again :D

whee! I'm losing weight again...I'm gonna smoke my coworker this monday hahaha!
I just need to stay focused this weekend and not blow my efforts during last week.

215.5 today! w00t!

I just read through your journal, well done! You really are on the right track now!

Thanks for looking, and the encouragement :D
I am excited now for sure...the lbs are coming off!!

ack! past two weekends have wreaked havoc on my diet! I was 218.5 this morning :-(
My work buddy probably won this week lol. I was very mindful of what I bought shopping this week, and vow not to go out to eat at all this week. That just sets me up for allowing myself to slip. Not to mention the b-day bbq I attended and subsequent weekend "eat whatever" mentality. No good!!
So far so good this morning, had a cup of plain yogurt with 1/4 c. blueberries added. Very tasty.
Yoga tonight, I'm looking forward to it too.
OK, this week is going to be better than the last two for sure!!

Well, I have managed to get back to 215 again, and still have "the rest of the week" to lose more. And if I watch the weekend, then it's ALL good. The "keep it outta the house" strategy is great, just sucks when the only things to eat need cooking and the dishes are all dirty LOL. Well, I started on them this morning (a daunting task!!) and should make better progress tonite.
After yoga. My teacher is GREAT! I get such a good workout, and I really feel like I'm not only doing everything "right", but I am progressing in my stretches and so on very nicely. :D
:hippy: out

Okaaaayy, so far so good. Now hovering between 214-215. I am going to UPDATE my PROFILE (yay!)


ETA:I also changed my "Start Weight" to 222, for this reason. Way back when, my "start weight" was ~290, I lost enough to drop to 180. Unfortunately, I slipped into some bad habits a couple years ago, and let it pop up to 222. BUT, there it sat, stagnant, waiting for me to continue my path to fitness. 290 is a chapter behind me. Especially with my competition with my coworker, and that 222 has been a recent "high", I now consider 222 to be my "start weight".

So, as it stands now~~start 222, now 214, goal 150.

pfft~~too much of the wrong types of foods this weekend (busy, so looked for convenience, and had HS reunion, so lots of food I did not avoid...)
so, weighed in at 216 this morning. Today I was good, I am not going to mess with my profile for 2lbs. they will just have to go down.
I will be checking in the morning.
BUT, staying active as usual is a good thing. This past weekend, I started volunteering at a ranch where they do therapeutic horseback riding for disabled kids, and plan to go back in a couple weeks. Not that that's why I'm doing it, but running around with horses for a couple hours has to be some kind of exercise :D
Tonight was yoga. Oy. Being back on plan after too much food weekend, period starting, and yoga without much food during the day was a plan for disaster. I got so dizzy I had to sit in childs pose at least once. That is what I get for wasting too much time in the morning before work, not enough time to get food in between. I know for wednesday though.
heh, on a good day, I tell myself I will be svelte in no time. Then I get complacent on weekends. ugh. This weekend is planned though. My birthday is coming up, so my boyfriend and I will be on a weekend trip, which means 4 meal reservations. There is one restaurant I am really looking forward to that has a multi-course meal with wines and the whole bit. For that one, I will not even consider my diet. For the rest of them though, the thought will be on my mind. I think that way I can't stray too bad.
Just gotta remember to keep pushing on toward my goal.

Ack, I haven't been terrible the past 2 days, but slipping a bit. Wish me luck this weekend! I'll need it for sure!

My my my, birthday celebrations were, shall we say.. extended. between the weekend, and family stuff and work stuff. I have to say I appreciate everyone's efforts to celebrate my birthday, but now, seriously, I gotta get back to business, as I've been eating SO MUCH :-/

stopping in to say "hi" :wave:

oh!!
HI!!:wave:
Thanks SO much for stopping by, of course I just noticed today.
Ugh, times on the "let's lose weight" thing have not been so nice lately. Yesterday was (yet another) turning point. I have been working so hard with exercise, but neglecting to be as careful as I need to be with my eating habits. This thing is SO HARD. Yesterday though, I got a journal, and yesterday and today, have written in it. But I thought I'd come back here because I'm in it. Unfortunately, my Monday weigh in was up to 222, where I started, BUT it was about 219 on Friday, so I find it hard to believe I legitimately gained 3 over the weekend.
ANYWAY. As for today, I am not terribly happy with my calorie intake (depending on the calories in the sandwich I ate, perhaps around 2k today) but all the foods were healthful and nourishing.
As a way to jumpstart my efforts, I went and picked up the Gaia herbs Fit for Life (I think that's what it's called) pack of herbal supplements, and a yoga video called Yoga Burn (with Rodney Yee). I have only been through half of it, but I think it's great, and is a great supplement to the class I am taking at school.

I am having trouble with my diet buddy at work though. She, like me, tries and messes up alot, but more often she is gaining, and won't take any suggestions. Even I think she is up 13 lb this past month and it seems she justifies alot. Though she did start a bike riding regimen which is great. I found an exercise regimen in a magazine I wanted to see if she could try (y'know, so we could encourage each other to keep going) but she declined because she started bike riding to work. It is so frustrating having a diet buddy like this, I feel like I might as well just say screw it and do it on my own.

However....:sweat: ....any support I can get is great. It is so frustrating being overweight because my body wants to do so many things it can't right now (more advanced yoga and certain gymnastic moves) and I know it will be a long time before I will be at that point (not to mention hoping I'm not to old by the time I am because of how undisciplined I can be) :c(

So that's my long intro to "return"
I need all the supportive thoughts I can get.
Thanks DTers

aha! so far so good. BTW, for anyone out there reading who is interested in diet shakes (I have been using them for meal replacements though technically they should be "FILLING" snacks to keep you from overeating later), I recommend "Metabolic ReSet" by Nature's Way. They are not kidding, they are the most filling shakes I've tried and are high protein, low GI. You can read more at metabolicreset.com.
Enough of my shilling lol, anyway, this week has been very disciplined for me, and my coworker I was talking about, is now on board to make food journals with me. Thank god! I was having trouble keeping up in mine, now I have someone to compare with, so I gotta do it.
Oh yeah, this weekend I came up with my goal for this year. Gettindown is gettin down to 200 by year end. Will be tough, but I will make my best effort. With a goal and reward in mind, it is making it much easier to stay motivated. Granted as I write this I seem to be doing things for the wrong reasons, but at the end results count, so I cannot complain too much. I will get more "true" discipline and motivation over time.

Hahaha Happy New Year!
I'm back.
Things haven't been going so great, I am still weighing in around 218-220.
Bright Side--the holidays have not been a cause of major weight gain.
My goal is to be "at goal" by year's end. That is 70lbs. in one year. I am hoping for the first 20 to drop this month (so I will be at 200). Wish me luck.
I will have to use ALL my good habits this time.
I am not going to waste any more of my time in life being fat.
Here I go!

so far, so good....

ayayayayayay, why is this so hard?
Well...now I went and got a YMCA membership, I know there's classes and stuff there I like. I am not off the meds that I blame for making it harder for me. So now, I have no excuses. If I don't lose weight, I am destining myself to be fat the rest of my life. Which I don't want. So here I am again.

pfft...i sheepishly say "i'm back"
tomorrow, i shall check my weight, i'm scared. dr. said i gained 7 this month. I know i wasn't trying, and i wore shoes this time and not the last weigh in. but i gotta do this. so far this week i've been great as far as my food intake is concerned, now i gotta re-step up the exercise.
my plan? ddr tonight, and weight lifting in the morning before work.
then i get back into my last couple months routine with water aerobics and dance or pilates classes. back in it again!

Welcome back :)