Ok here I go laying all my sins out there for all. I am very ashamed that I have let myself go to be this size. I am back with a committment to ME and noone else this time to take the pounds off for good. I have been staying in mt points range and the girls at work help make sure I get my water in. So why is it that after all this revelation I found myself eating dinner like I planned then making a peanut butter sandwich eating it and the trolling the kitchen for something else. For the first time I was disgusted with my self enuff to realize that I am one bite away from another pound and that I am worth it to myself! So that's why I am here to write down my little revelations and struggles to remind me of the big picture and with 160 lbs to lose it's gonna take a while.

Well are you keeping a food journal? It could be that you are actually not getting enough nutierents so your night time cravings can be valid. If you find that you need more snacks. Pre-plan them. Airpopped Popcorn for volume or a sugar free jello for sweetness could do the trick in a healthy way.

Hi, New Life! Congratulations on your new journal and the start of your weight loss journey.

Not meanin' to give advice here but just wanted to say please don't be so hard on yourself. Size is not a sin, nor is eating something at night. :)

You are doing great to make this commitment to yourself, but don't be troubled by any steps out of line on the way as there will be many before you reach your goal.

Night time cravings are very common and can be vastly alleviated by making sure to eat a little something every few hours, never letting your blood sugar dip too low. It is valid to eat at night in order to prevent that dip, just try to make it a good and satisfying choice and as you say journal it.

You will succeed, never fear! Have a great day tomorrow! :cheer:

Hi :wave: & :welcome:

Yes keeping a journal is a great way to help in our weight loss battle, also it provides a place where others can come and offer you support :D

OK not so bad 2day I actually am feeling OK I had a bowl of cereal with skim milk as a snack my baby ate 1/2 of it but evidently it was enough cuz I'm not hungry:o I ate dinner also no skipping meals here!! I am dealing with the coming of summer and hope I can stick to my convictions for exercise I am needing a rigid schedule for me to suceed so it's M-F water aerobics and W-S 1 hour evening walk. I am journaling my food religiously and some days I fel great then others I just can't hardly stand to put it on paper I 'm trying to change my mindset that if I can put it in me I can surely write it down after all aren't I as important as writing in the journal?? Can you guess I have some emotional eating issues?:-/ Well I will deal with that along the way.

OK small mini victory I exercised for 10 mins last night I know it's not much but after 2 years of nothing I felt like I was a :* YEA ME!!

:cheers: Well after week one I am down 5!! I always love the first months losses cuz they are bigger than normal. Today begins the regular walking routine I am shooting for 1 hour not gonna set a hard pace just a nice stroll with the baby and I will see haow I am feeling after that.

Wayt to go on the five pounds! Super.
I find myself doing the "mindless munching" thing also. It's a hbit that I am trying to break and it seems to happen more during the day than at night for me. I don't work outside the home, so the temptation is there all day long. UGH> I have good days and then days.... that could have been better! Keep trying... thats all that matters/

Hello, don't EVER apologise for ten minutes of exercise, just start doing ten minutes everyday and then in three weeks add ten more minutes or at least five to the original ten, then keep at it till you have worked up to an hour. I started out at five minutes doing that three times a day, my feet felt so heavy i had tears in my eyes, but you know what within three weeks i felt so much better and saw such improvement, talk about an ego boost! Work at writing down and measuring out portions, thats what gets you in the over calories not realizing how much we eat.
Best of luck! DONT GIVE UP! we are here and you can do THIS!

By the way, I am a HUGE SURVIVOR FANATIC! I also enjoy Amazing Race!

Like said any excersize is better than none at all. I have restarted my excersize plan with 15 mins of walking. Working my way up to an hour. Emotional eating....yes, I can relate. Fill your fridge and pantry with good foods, that way you won't be tempted to eat the bad things. You are worth it and you can do it. Losing weight isn't as easy as it is to gain it but it can be done. We have living proof right here at dt. Good luck to you in your journey!
LMJ

OH BOY
We're going to the moviesand I am prepared got out the big purse and put my own snacks and allowed 4 movie popcorn NO BUTTER and a bottle of water. The kids are dying to see Shrek 3. Thanks for all your encouragement I'm glad to know I'm not the only emotional eater around!!:D Exercise will be interesting I am going to be logging the time/distance so I can see where I started and where I can get to.

Back from the movie(which was very cute) and things went as planned which in my land of self sabotage that is a big victory. So I'm off to bede with a great feeling of accomplishment today.

things went as planned which in my land of self sabotage that is a big victory :ribbon:

I am thrilled for you :D

:-/Well eating wise good, water good but big bad Monday at work has me all nerved up! I am trying to actually deal with the problem(I did it to myself) and not let food be the answer. I gotta say feeling guilty SUX big time it's uncomfortable and I am also ashamed of myself which also ain't too hot. It's easy to see why I turned to food all the times before cuz right now it's sounding pretty good 2 me. But blowing it is not going to make the problem better or go away and I guess when you're over 30 that's just part of being a grown up:( As I type I am realizing this too shall pass and it's not the end of the world amazing what taking 5 and getting it out can do for me. Well tomorrow is a new day and I can only try to be a better person than today. Here's to growing as a person:blackeye: and learning from it

Well it's a new day and the earth still spins and I didn't cave into my old habits of binging. I am beginning to feel like I am doing it this time and it feels good.:D I am hopeful that I pulled off a decent loss this week but I will take any loss as a good thing and can't wait to weigh in and see.

I am SO proud of you for pulling yourself back together and getting right back on track !!!!!! :D

Thanks Beth kinda proud of myself too:) I am anxiously awaiting weigh in tonight I have done great this week despite my roadblocks so it should be a good one. School is out here on Friday so the true test of being home with all 3 kids will show me exactly what I will be up against for the next 10 weeks:sigh: but it also gives me time to swim, take them to the park and go for walks so we all win anyway!! I am trying to get my oldest daughter ( 9) to start eating healthy my years of yoyo dieting have made a big bad impression on her so eats very little some days and too much others she has lost 7 pounds this year the dr said she went through a growth spurt but I know that wasn't all of it! So we are going to my meeting together tonight so she can see how to lose weight and eat right from others. Hopefully someday she'll see those things from me.

Ok good meeting but great weigh in down 3.4 lbs:D Now it's feeling like I can do this and it's not a hardship just another thing I do everyday.

Oooh my kids make me MADI just don't get the way little minds think sometimes they both got a new puppy and have been doing great until my oldest decided her brother was responsible for them both since she had 2 rabbits to care for. Well the bickering and whining is at my limit so I am taking 15 to vent instead of eating the fridge and they are banned to the outdoors with the puppies!! The baby is crying and carrying on (she needs a nap) and DH (not dear) is sitting in the recliner channel surfing and whining that there's nothing on. Forget that I need a screen replaced and one of the windows has a loose screw. Ok I feel better and didn't eat so that'sround one to me:D

Saturday Round 2.................
Have you ever tried to set up a tent with a 1 year old 7 & 9year old 2 puppies and a Husband????????? Let's say they WILL be sleeping out there tonight! I am doing great today considering all of the fun we've been having around here:laugh: I am trying to remember to feel what is wrong instead of eating it sometimes it's really hard and I catch myself searching the fridge and cupboards for something. It helps that most everything is out in the freezer & I'm just too lazy to go down the stairs and out to the garage (never thought being lazy would work for me):o well dinner time is here time to cook for the family.

Today was a loooong sleepy day everyone thought 6 am was a good wake up time since it was rainy it was a long time to be in the house bored and wanting to snack. I made it through and have decided no matter how good a hot dog off the grill sounds it's just not worth the points! Hopefully Monday is a better day weather wise and we can get to the local p[ool for some sun N fun.

X-( I am sick of the rain we need a break so things can dry out and I need to be able to get out to walk! I am very swollen my fingers and feet my sodium intake hasn't been high so I am a little puzzled. If anyone reading this has any ideas please let me know I am getting in about 100-120 oz of water daily no pop and 1 cup of coffee in the morning. Well I will be away from the kitchen all morning attacking the basement family room the kids have really got a huge mess going on down there. So absence of a fridge will be a nice thing:D

Hello! Glad to meet you. DT is a wonderful place to be. You realize your far from being alone in the journey ahead, and that there are alot of emotional eaters, myself being one of them. I always felt guilty and ashamed of it too. Like i would think no one else behaved that way. I loved to binge when i was alone at home or when everyone was asleep but it was like some dark, secret no one knew about. I can say i have had a love affair with food through the yrs but i needed to end that affair. I eat for many reasons mostly stress and boredom but i also eat when i feel nervous or anxious, worried and i guess i overeat because i just love food. You are doing terrific. Great job on not binging! One day at a time and baby steps. Also great job on the exercise. I am weak in this dept. When i do it i feel great but its forcing myself to do it. That to is baby steps. We dont change overnight from yrs of bad habits to suddenly eating healthy 100% of the time and become these health nuts in a week, it takes time to reverse things. I know for me i take it one meal at a time. Some days i cant believe i allowed myself to get to be this size. I wonder why no one ever said anything to me. It took me looking at pics to say wow that is not me and yes it was me but i didnt even recognize myself. It was a very real moment and depressing moment at the realization that the obese person in the photos with the inflated face and body was me.
As far as you feeling swollen im not sure why. You say your sodium intake wasnt high. Be careful if you are eating frozen foods like lean cuisines or ww smart ones because the sodium is really high, or of its close to your time of month. I know i get swollen more when the weather is warm too.
Well i will be back to visit you. take care.

Well the rain stopped today but I have a ton of water in my basement and more rain is on the way:down: I am feeling ok about the food intake while I am staying in my points range the foods could be healthier choices though:sigh:

Angel Eyes thanks for posting I didn't realize how much sodium was in a smart ones:O I am going to be cooking for a lot people this summer my 3 kids and my friends 2 grils so I won't be using them much! What you said about not recognizing yourself in pictures really stayed with me because I have had the same experiences and just had a hard time admitting it was me:tongue: I am not an exercise nut by any means and I have to force myself I am not sure I will ever enjoy it my couch is my favorite place to be!!

Well we have some major water pumping to do and some carpet cleaning to get to also. Anyone feel like trading lives for a day??!!!

Hello! Well if you wanna trade lives with me for a day your welcomed to it. I have 5 kids ages 17,15,13 and two yr old twins. I also have a husband and a dog and everyone is pretty lazy here.
Glad to see your doing well and yes those frozen meals are packed with sodium as well as some canned foods too. Take care.

Your body will retain or shed water if the sodium and potassium levels aren't balanced correctly. Also, there are health issues that can cause you to retain water such as heart or kidney problems.

Make sure your getting the right amount of sodium and potassium in your diet and if water is still a problem, I would recommend seeing your doctor.

OK you win and I'll keep my day 3 kids under 10 is enough I couldn't handle teens and two's you deserve a medal:ribbon:

BigBob I am pretty sure now that I'm aware of the sodium in the frozen meals that's the source. You would think if it's promoted as a healthy choice for ww it would truly be a health consciuos meal but the salt content is ridiculous!

Tomorrow is weigh in day for me I am not counting on another big loss it usually slows down and starts to be 1/2 to 2 lbs a week from here on out. Wish me luck%%-

Good Luck!!! I believe you'll do great.

I finally got to go to water aerobics and it was fun but you really don't realize how much you are doing until you get out and then OH BOY I am definitely feeling things I thought were only fat. I am a little disturbed that I thought it wasn't there:shrug: but it was a great workout I truly enjoyed now we see what kind of loss I will get while adding it in every day. I'm still not expecting a big loss tonight but hope to see a nice one next week.:up:

Good luck on your weigh in tonite. I will check back to see how you made out with it.

:*:* I got my second star with a 1.6 loss this week yeah 10 lbs GONE I am very pleased with my loss and hope it continues since I am now able to exercise on a daily basis!1:up:

Way to go:dc:jn Doesnt it make u feel its so worth it when u see the scale going down? 1.6 pounds gone for good. Your doing so well.

OH I am gonna be regretting it tomorrow but I had a doughnut and I could tell right away it was the wrong thing to do!X-( I was craving anything for 3 hours after I ate it so now I know that they will be one of those no-no foods for me along with pringles and potato skins. I was really hard to not just grab something even though I was full! Well lesson learned and those doughnuts best be gone soon!!:D

dont be hard on yourself, it is ok to eat bad things sometimes, just pick ur self back up and start again. Its not easy but I have faith in you! (all things are good in moderation):)

I am getting in plenty of excercise but my appetite is increasing too. I think a little more fiber will help with that and I am increasing water intake also. I have used all my flex points this week and I have never done that before so I will find out on weigh in if it was a good idea or not.

:hug:HEY GIRL!!! WELCOME BACK!! Glad to see ya back here. No fret...since my last bout with the Awesome Accountables I've had two babies. Gained 80 pounds, lost 40 and gained 40 back with baby #3. I actually just started low carbing again which is what I was doing when I started with the AA's. That was a good group of people. I can't find most of them anymore. I know a couple of ladies have passed on.:cross: A couple have changed their names. Such as you. lol It's great to find ya on here!!

And I see you have lost 10 pounds!! :cheer::mus: U go girl!!! Well you TC!! I don't have the chance to get on here as much as I should.....especially when I'm paying $50 bucks a month for it. lol But I will be sure to stop back by every time!! Keep up the great work!!

Kayzzee I am glad to hear from you. I too left and came back after having my 3rd litlle surprise last April! Hope to see you more:o

Ok I am soooo frustrated I am busting my hump with exercise and tracking EVERYTHING and I only lost .2!!!X-( I best lose more next week. I am not going to east my extra points this week and see if that helps but the exercise makes me hungry. This to shall pass right:help:

Oh yeah, this will pass! I had my 3rd little surprise last July! Did ya have a girl or boy? My last two have been girls and my oldest is a boy.

Not so good on the diet front for 3 days now:help: I need to plan it out and stick to it!!

Kayzzee I had a little girl last April. Talk sbout your surprises I was done I had one of each. I wouldn't trade her for anything but 7 years between kids was more than enough! No more babies for me.

Hey you! Yeah I was on BC when I got pg with both my 7 yo boy and my 2 yo girl. So I know all about surprise!! My 3rd baby is the first one that we actually "tried" for. lol My two girls are 19 months apart. I love them both dearly. And I wouldn't do it differently when it comes to them. But for future reference.......I'll separate further. lol My husband actually wants one more. He wants a namesake since my first son is my late hubbys baby, I won't change his last name.

As for your diet. Girl, I messed up HUGE and I wasn't even on the LC for a week yet!! Friday, I had it allllllllllll planned. We had invited our nephew and his dingaling gf over. But not until after supper. I had our supper all planned out. And I knew they were bringing over beer, but no biggie coz I wasn't gonna have any. Well, they came over @ 2:00! I was like ooooooo crap! For one, we didn't have enough food. I told my hubby, well go and get more chips and some buns and brats. I'll just have the brats right? Nope, hubby bought potatoe salad. Jerk. lolol jk. But that, I couldn't turn it down. And then I was like, well, I'm having potatoe salad, may as well put my brat on a bun. And well.....may as well have some chips. And well.........I suppose a couple beers wouldn't hurt. And all this knowing I'll have an off day next Sat. I felt so bad. I still do. But I got up the next day and just got back on it. I've done the whole thing where I diet, lose, quit. I've done it more times than I can count. You've gotta find it in YOU to keep going. Just DIG!! I'm not saying I'll be successful this time either, I can't see the future. But for right now, I'm motivated and I'm taking advantage of right now and hoping that my weight loss will be motivation to just keep at it. I have been messing with 15 pounds off and on and off and on since August! Thats why I decided to LC again. As strict as it is, it worked for me before, and I know I can make it work again. I need strict. I can't have a plan where I can have a little goodies here and there. It just makes me want more and then I mess up completely. I guess this is my long winded way of saying. Forgive yourself. Forget your mistakes. It's a new day, new week. Today is what counts, so pull up your boots and get goin!! You're worth it, and your family is worth it!:hug::peace:

Well this week was abust eating everything is not in the plan but someone forgot to tell my other personality that!!X-( But I did get exercise in everyday and that is a GOOD thing so if I gain I know why if not the workouts saved my abundant hide8-| so tonight will tell me which it is!

Kayzee I have done the same thing for 2 years now and I am in it for the long haul this time, losses and gains are all part of learning how to live and I am tired of hiding and missing out cuz of my size!

Hello! Glad to see your doing well. u have the right idea. we all are human and will "cheat" but as long as we keep on going like you did you will succeed. Your doing fantastic. Keep on keepin on...

Feling better about this week last weeks 4 lb gain shocked me!! WOW I got a reality check and realize just how bad my old habits are it took 4 weeks to lose 10 and 1 to gain back 4X-( Hopefully I will get it off over the next 2-3 weeks and be on the plus side of things again.

Yea is stinks that it takes so much work to lose but no effort at all to gain. I know because i have gained some back from slipping off plan and it took me alot to get it off to begin with. Its a long journey and i guess we will slip on the way and hopefully learn from it and keep on going. take care.

Hey girlie. Don't I know it! That weight is soooooo hard to get off. But it comes on with like a couple pieces of cake again. lol Right now I'm on my tom, plus I mucked up last week on my hubbys surprise party. Well...that hole day. lol So I am NOT weighing myself this week. I don't need that mood!! Anyways, hope things are getting better!! tc

:o Amazing what eating right will do 4 you!! I managed to shed 2.8 of my big gain and feel a lot better about myself. I am aiming for staying on track and one pound at a time so I keep my motivation. I was shocked by my gain but at least I got back to it. Oh I can't wait our farmers market will be opening up this weekend which means fresh veggies that I don't have in my garden Mmmm.

Hello, :welcome:

I wanted to stop by and say hello ... I happened to glance at your first post and I see that you too are using the Weight Watcher's plan ... do you participate in the meetings or are you doing it online?

And after looking at your stats I see you have successfully lost weight ... KEEP UP THE GOOD WORK and again welcome to Diettalk and to the Journals Forum. Always, Monica

Glad to see you're back on track. You are so right - eating right is so very hard to do. You have the right attitude - one pound at a time. Heck, sometimes I'm just trying to make it one hour at a time! :laugh: Keep up the great work! I look forward to watching your progress!