X-( I say that because my family could care less how I look I am just thier for thier use. This is 2 grown sons a live in girlfriend to one of them and a man who is suppose to be my soulmate (whatever) YEA RIGHT! I am tried of doing for everybody but ME! Never time for me and I am not selfish just mad nobody cares but now I am taking the bull by the horns it is swim are drown I don't intend on drowning.Time I start caring even if no one else does I am not a quitter and I am gonna fight tooth and nail to make this happen. someone on here bless your heart recommined
I start a journal ty and here I go . I weigh 255 on May 22 and going to change that no matter what. The cards may be stacked against me but I'll just shuffle them up let the wieght fall somewhere else just off of me. Thanks for reading my journal all suggestions appreciated.

Hi, Audrey:

Welcome to the Journal Forum of Diettalk. I am so glad that you have started a journal. This will give people a chance to get acquainted with you. And of course we will also be offering suggestions and encouragement to you as you begin your weight-loss journey.

Losing weight is difficult, but not impossible. And you seem to be very determined to lose the weight. So go for it, girl.

Remember to drink lots of water. It helps keep your body hydrated.

Concentrate on eating fruits, vegetables, and whole grain foods. These are good fuels, and your body will thank you for it.

Incorporate more exercise into your daily life. Walk around the block. Park at the far end of the parking lot. Take stairs instead of the elevator. You see what I mean?

And above all, don't expect great progress immediately. It will take time and determination to lose the weight. So take it a day at a time, and enjoy life along the way.

And the best of luck to you.

Hi audrey :wave:

You know getting mad can really be good - no really it can lol and you sound good and mad :D

When I am feeling like a doormat I end up acting like one - but when I get mad, I treat myself better and demand respect from others as well as from myself.

Please know I understand about family and others not being there for you and I am here for you and I care :hug:

IT does know soebody cares you really don't know how much I am sitting here crying know. But I went to the doctor yesterday I lost 1 pound not much I know I just started but I am sort of proud plese guys hang in there with me I really do need ya's help I may have sounded like I only care about me but that is not true I just get used alot. THanks for the advice all you can think of will be appreciated I promise I just need somebody to believe in me. I lost 80 pounds before yea 80 pounds nobody seem to notice. So if I sound mad from time to time I am mad and hurt. But I am doing great so far today drining water ate cup of oatmeal and heading to gym to walk on treadmil if tho I am embarred but yea I got to do something . Thanks for your time

I thought I would start a journal too. I was once down at my goal weight but have gained due to thyroid and started again at 175, down to 172, but since I am up a pound i have been very careful today and went for my swim.

Audrey,
So glad to see you here and a new journal also! Wonderful.
What kind of food plan are you on? Getting started, I always just go for. .. the eat less plan! You mentioned that you went to the dr's office and found out about the one pound loss. Did he recommend anything to you? Do you have any exercise restrictions or anything of that sort?
It will take time to get the weight off... it took time to get it there! It is amazing how easy it is to put on and then how hard it is to take off.
If we don't take care of ourselves... nobody else is. It is not a matter of being selfish of self centered or anything like that! Quite the contrary... it's just common sense and also self preservation..
Looking forward to reading your journal as you go along. Diettalk is a wonderful, supportive place to "hang out"!

I controlled my hunger so far and drank my water. I went to the gym worked out on treadmil and other things for about an hour. I have made up my mind to make ! hr a day mine whatever may come up. I am also having my diet ruined by ppl around me but that is making me madder and not gonna work just because they don't want to do it they don't won't me too. Oh yea the scales said 2 pounds not much I know but itis moving in the right direction the doctor just said like we all know watch what I eat, water and exercise no way around it. Thanks for the cheering me on ya all are so nice. Audrey

Audrey,

so glad you started a journal. It is a great place to keep track and to meet people. As you have seen, this is a great place for support.

They say that we teach people how to treat us. Think about it, how we react, what we do all each those around us how they can treat us. If we allow people to crab and yell at us, that is what they will do; if we allow them to treat us as their slave instead of teaching them responsibility that is how they will treat us. It has taken me a while to catch onto this concept, but I really do believe it is true. You are now teaching your 'family' that you will only accept some things and not others. It is new for them, but they will catch on!!! Hang in there.

You can do this, and you will feel so much better!!! Good work on the 2 pounds!!!!!!!

2 lbs lost is 2 lbs less then you weighed before - don't underestimate it :D

Your doing :super:

Thanks for everyone's support I am really not selfish but have had my fill . I didn't raise my grown children this way and am tired of not beng respected I even got told it was my job to tend to thier needs at 19 and 20 then my 20 year old added an girlfriend who is the most lazy person I know I don't exspect them to do it all but to help out I am not thier slave and I don't need a slve either but 3 grown 2 yr old is getting rough real rough . Might I add no one works. But that is why I am changing if they end uphating me so be it I ca't take anymore this is crazy, But I am up ate my breakfast drinking water talking to you guys a min and heading to the gym.

Good for you, Audrey. Keep up the good work.

Audrey,

You are exactly right. They are old enough to be doing MOST things on their own, not just helping. My 20 year old son does his own laundry, buys most of his 'needs'(clothes, soap etc), he also brings home meat(his choice as he works at the meat department in a grocer, yes he buys it from the store, not given it). Your kids will wake up when they have nothing clean to wear, and no one made them lunch etc. LOL, I would like to be a 'fly on the wall' to watch them when they realize mom is not a slave anymore!!!

Take care.

Hello! Great job on the 2 pound loss. I agree with you that you need to now put yourself first. Your kids are grown and no longer kids. I wouldnt do their laundry or anything, after having no clean clothes and when their hungry they will get up and do it themselves or starve and wear dirty clothes.
My family here can be quite lazy but i then quit doing their things and eventually they will do it when forced. Sometimes you have to just get aggressive.
If they get mad and dont like it then tough because they would only get mad because they want you to do it all and i would say no way.
Focus on yourself, and your health and your weight loss journey. make yourself number 1.

take care...

Thanks so much for sharing your feelings. I felt like an evil mother for getting tired of it. I love my grown kids but I am tired of feeling like a maid, cook and etc, I have always did it so that is what they are waiting on but now my son brings in a 3rd grown kid his girlfriend and I am wore out picking up as soon as I get it clean. Doing ALL the housework and no one even works.X-( But no more I come first and they are gonna find out I have been wrong but now it is time to get right. And to all my friends who are here for me I have lost 5 pounds since the 22 not alot but I am trying hard it is great having someone believe in me.

Hello! Well let me say congrats on 2 things, one losing 5 pounds:cheer: and the other for changing things in your family with putting yourself on top:whip: I can totally relate to you on this subject. First of all i would be insisting they all get off their butts and get a job. I would set a time limit on it too. Theres no reason they need to sit around all day long while you do it all. My girl thats 17 has been working since shes 15 and works quite a bit i may add, she helps buy her own things and now shes pregnant and still working to save for the baby, my 15 yr old is desperately trying to find a job, my 14 yr old well he cant get a job yet and the other 2 are only 2 . At home however, my 17 yr old is lazy as can be. she doesnt lift a finger because she feels she has a job, i have to force her to clean her room or pick up her stuff, my 15 yr old is a complete slob. Her room always looks like a tornado went through it and i get so sick of yelling about it over and over. Once in a while i will get so sick of it i will clean it then in like 2 days its a complete disaster. she throws clothes all over, eats food in there, dirty glasses all over. I get so fed up and feel like a maid here. My 14 yr old is the biggest slob i ever did see. This kid will go to throw something in the garbage and instead of opening the bag will throw it on top or near it, he hides wrappers for food all over the house, he spills things and leaves it or cleans it up with my good towels, its just insane. I am not a neat freak but i like cleanliness and order. I hate clutter and messes so this stuff aggravates me to no end. Its good your putting your foot down. Thats what i had to do. Now i dont yell over and over again with the girls bedrooms. I tell them by fridays i want them cleaned if not they cannot go out or have anyone over, they cant use the phone or do anything till its all done. Its the only way i can get results. They think im mean and unreasonable with this and i think their lazy and am sick of it. When i clean up its like totally unappreciated and expected. I dont care now if im looked at as mean because i too have a life and need time for me and i refuse to spend it cleaning up after everyone while they lay around and watch tv and relax. Anyways your doing great and I believe in you!

:laugh: Angel eyes are you sure you don't live in my house the thing with not cleaning dirty dishes in rooms andgarbage close to trash can but not in it on the table are counters lmao only I know too well this is not funny :( well they were going job hunting today it is almost 9:00 a.m. no one has turned over in the bed much less got out of it I was thinking about starting the vacum up voom voom right at thier door. I am up and eaten my breakfast washed MY CLOTHES drinking water and heading for the gym where I will get phone calls asking where are you and if I say they just come for no reason but to get out of job hunting. They sure not gonna work too hard for them. OH well friends gonna go ttyl . Have a great day.

OK today started as a not today thing I have to do this and that well I am gonna get up and get to that gym no excuses I am taking Angel Eyes advice and they clean are else but no job hunting yet it is 10:30a.m. I must be crazy but I am gonna start beating on doors after I get off here they are gonna get up mad are not. The funny thing is when I go to the gym they start calling where are you for no reason well let it ring. I am grateful for all the advice about my diet and family. I weighed this morning 248.5 on the 22 I weighed 255 I know nothing major but I am proud of myself thanks to ya 6.5 pds in 8 days so is that good be honest with me are am I going to slow?

You are doing super:super: Keep doing what your doing. The first week you will lose more to begin with then it usually slows from 1-2 pounds a week unfortunately. Everyone is different at the rate they lose. When i have a good week most times i can shed a good 3 pounds. Im glad your making them help. If they dont get up to job hunt then yes i would make noise. Vaccum, turn on a stereo loud or basically just pound on their door. You can blow a whistle or clang pots together whatever it takes, i know it sounds childish but if they wanna act like children then treat them like children.
You just keep focusing on you!

Well got up and going today just wish we could speed up getting to our goals . I had trouble on my water today tho but tomorrow I will do better. But I am already feeling better maybe it is the exercise,water and eating better plus the wieght loss. I hope everyone is doing great.

:) Good morning everyone I can't believe down 1 more pound :) Thanks evrybody for being here for me makes me feel happy :D and that is why this is working and giving me the will power not to let myself or my friends down. I hope evryone is doing great today and has a nice day. Well got to be going got things to do but 1 hour is for ME! By the way my wieght is 247.5 down fron 255 I am working on getting out of the 40's one step at a time.

Hello! Glad to see your so cheery. Losing weight does make you feel so much better inside and out. You are doing wonderful with your new habits and with how your losing. I have had alot more energy this week and feel cheerier myself and yes this site does give you what u need to keep going. Its very inspirational the people on here that got to goal and the ones who keep on trying to get there like myself. Nice people who are understanding like on here are hard to come by in our day to day life. You can just totally be yourself here. I let all my feelings out and it helps me alot.
Hope you have a nice day.

Hi Audrey, :wn

I've seen your posts to several others here at Diettalk (Journal Forum) and I thought I would stop by and say hello ...

CONGRATULATIONS ON YOUR ONGOING SUCCESS ... :cheer: looking at your stats you've already LOST 8 1/2 pounds ... which is terrific ...

Well I've got to go to my own little corner of the world ... I will look forward to reading about your ONGOING SUCCESSES . Have and make it a great day. Always, Monica

:( well the scales are the same todayX-( but it is probally lack of water yesterday. Gonna get it today tho still watching my food and exercise. I am noy giving up got to do better.
I do feel alot better tho so that's an upside. So I am giving myself a shove GET GOING! So here I go check with everybody later.

:dance: I decided to use my doctor's scales to wiegh on mine changes evertime I step on them he said it was ok pop in anytime to get wieghed just try to get rid of this wieght to be more healty. So his chart showed me weighing 262.5 starting on the 23rd of last month on yesterday it was 253.9 :D so that is 9 pounds in1o days just wish it was more :( but got to realize takes time. I want to thank everybody for leaving me encouragement and always need any suggestions you have it is so nice to have support .X-( unlike yesterday both son trying to get me to eat things I know are wrong they laugh thinking it is funny and I get mad because they do this knowing I am trying to lose unlike them :c( they are larger than me . I just say no you know I am on a diet. I tell them I have lost wieght they say yea right so that is why I have my Diet Talk family. By the way I didn't eat what they offered. Thanks for reading my journal.

CONGRATULATIONS AUDREY, :cheer: :cheer: :cheer: :cheer: ON YOUR PHENOMENAL WEIGHT LOSS. ..

This journey takes TIME AND PATIENCE and WE'RE ALL WELL WORTH THE TIME AND PATIENCE IT TAKES. Again CONGRATULATIONS. I am as always, Monica

so that is 9 pounds in1o days just wish it was more can i whip you with a wet noodle !? :laugh: My goodness girlfriend - on my BEST time ever I never lost weight like that - not even water weight lol you are doing SUPER !

Ok I won't beat you up - but give me those kids of yours and I will take them on ! lol hope you don't get upset, I really am trying to support you in my "rough" humor way :hug:

I am SO proud of you for not eating what they tried to tempt you with - you keep getting stronger and show these boys what SUCCESS is :D

Good for you, Audrey, losing those 9 lbs.

You are on the right track, just don't lent anything or anyone sidetrack you. Keep on doing what you know you should be doing.

Thanks Monica, Beth and JO for being so supportive as for those boys I will gladly turn them over to you . I just get mad that they act that way so mean and think it's funnyX-( but I'll show them funny when I get rid of this weight . I am glad ya stopped by have a wonderful day.

Audrey, whoohoo!!! Good job on telling those 'brats' no!!! Very proud of you!!!

Just a wee suggestion but what about just getting all the 'junk' food out of the house. Just throw it out. If the boys want junk they will have to get their own, they will have to find jobs then, lol, and they won't be so free in offering 'their' food to mom then!!! Hey, that sounds pretty good!!!

Wonderful about the 9 pounds, wow!

Hello! I agree with crazy, dont buy the tempting foods and if they want to let them buy it. Great job on the 9 pounds lost:1stprize: I am super proud of you! You will show those boys what willpower and dedication bring when you lose the weight and look fantastic. Then lets see them laugh... Sometimes people including family try to sabatoge our efforts because of their own failures. Keep on going!!!

Well today was a trying day but I didn't do to bad I am sure I did over do it a little on the food and not enough water but I don't think it was enough to hurt atleast I hope not So tomorrow back in the swing of things food,water and exercise. I hope everyone had a great day see ya tomorrow.

:) Hi everybody thoght I had blew it but stepped on the scales 252.5 almost in the 40"s wish me luck. So I am sort of happy already met my June goal :cheer: if only I can keep on going. I hope evryone is doing great.

That is wonderful, Keepit up.

Good for you, Sweetie, you are heading in the right direction. You are doing just great!!!

Thanks Jo and Smallfri I just hope I can keep up the wieht loss. I am still doing my same routine may have to step up a beat.

:dc: Well friends i weigh 249 this morning I made it to he 40 :D that is a loss of 13.5 pound lacking a day being two weeks if I can just hold on and keep going. I feel alot better my clothes fit better, and am starting to feel better about myself. I still need ya's support and suggestions. I am proud being I started at 262.5 and ess than 2 weeks I know it probally will slow down and then I am going to be upset but for now I am looking on the bright side I am losing. Thanks for being my friends and supporting me. And to my none supporting family look at the smily face at the top.

:hug: I hate to say this but here is my family. I have made more friends here then I could ever keep in real life. The support is great. And we dont always agree but that doesnt mean we are not friends all the same. :)

I know what you mean Smallfri I have had alot of support and hope to get alot more never to much. I think that is helping me morethan anything Thank You and all my diet talk family.

Hi Audrey,
wanted to stop in and say hello and congrats on how well you are doing with your loss so far.
keep up the great work, you are doing great!
hugs bell :)

Hi Audrey, just wanted to thank you for stopping by my journal. Just read yours and your doing fantastic!! That was great how you turned down food that was offered to you!! Keep up the good work! Remember slow and steady wins the race!

LMJ

Thanks LMJ and Bell ya are a sweety :sweety: and so are
all my diet talk family. I had another small loss but hey the add up right. I am going up on my exercise tho to more treadmil at a faster pace and started toning my upper body . AS for my diet I am staying the same which is usally oatmeal and crystal light for breakfast. A lowfat meat sandwhich on wheat bread sometimes just a few chips ,crystal light, Supper is what I cook for my family just not that much and not the fatting stuff if they want it let them eat it. They are grown so they have to do it for themselves I can't but They are not ruining mine thanks to advice from my DT family. Thanks Friends

Well today no movement in scales but I guess It can be that way sometimes. I am just gonna have to kee trying to lose and get tough with doing it. I think I cut the water short yesterday got to get it today and watc what I eat maybe more exercise. I need any advice anybody can give on staying motorvated I don't feel as much as I did .

Keep at it Audrey, don't give up!! Read journals, posts, look at before and after pics...stay motivated. Don't listen to anyone around you this is for YOU!! YOU are worth it.

Hi, Audrey:

Don't let the slow movement of the scales discourage you. Weight loss happens in fits and starts, seldom consistently. So just keep doing what you have been doing, and you will be successful. Remember that when you put healthy food in your tummy, and stay active, you are making yourself healthier even when the scales don't show a loss.

Firstof all let me thank my friends for the support. Now then let me vent what I am feeling it might let you see what I go through.
My sons girlfriend lives with us they don't help with housework. OK they finally drug thier clothes in the laundry room to sit so I went ahead and started them ended up washing all of them but not hanging them put them on my couch for them to get the least they could do there was 5 loads. If that is not ba enough you guys want believe this they had used all thier underwear she had a pair of my panties and he had a pair of his brothers underwear in them.X-( No telling how many more is in thier room dirty. His brother is disable but works 2 nights a week they do not work and not looking. I was helping my youngest son clean his room my oldest nothing is wrong with him ask me why I was cleanig his disabled brothers room like there was something wrong with it after I had washed his and his girlfriend's clothes and mine and my other sons underwear they wore. I just don't know how much more I can take all she does is eat all the time , play games and internet. This is so disgusting. I love my son but how much father can you go. They also get my towels when they run out because they won't wash any. This is driving me crazy.

how frustrating for you Audrey. They need to learn to stand on their own two feet. would they have eventually done the laundry themselves if it sat there not done for long enough???
i would setting up a roster and sticking it to the fridge so that they do help out around the house and make them stick to it.
Stay strong!
hugs bell :)

(((Audrey))) You have to stand up to them and tell them they have to take responsibility for their own. When my dh and I first started out we lived with my inlaws. We had a baby too. We kept our space clean and did our laundry. Dh worked and after a while I worked too. We wanted our own place. Now, our first apartment well that was a disaster, but it was our disaster. We still had to clean it, do our own laundry, pay our own bills. My daughter is 15 and does her own laundry and then some. As Bell said, let it sit, don't do it for them. Make it clear no one is to use your clothing or towels. I'm hoping the best for you, Audrey.

Stay focused on your plan and goals. Don't let anyone get in the way of them.

All my best,
LMJ

(((Audrey)))

Do you have someone in your area you can talk to about all this. Someone like a Pastor, Priest, or Rabbi? How about a relative or close friend? How about your personal physician? Or perhaps even a lawyer?

You obviously are in need of help. If you can't establish the rules and make them stick, maybe you need some other kind of help.

I know I would never put up with that sort of situation.

Hi today was a good day even tho my scales has stopped moving I am not giving up. I am keeping on my diet and exercise and hope for the numbers to change in the right directions, I hope everyone else had a great day and even a better one tomorrow. I am not giving up no matter what, !

Great attitude!! Keep it up!!!

I finallly made the big 20 pound loss now to keep it up . I am planning on the same thing water,food and exercise just might increase food a little bit maybe not enough felt faint yesterday. So what do you think. Any suggestions on this. So you get an idea what I eat here it is:

breakfast: I pk. instant oatmeal
lunch: turkey sandwich maybe very few chips
dinner : small portions of whatever I cook. Sometimes I skip dinner.

I want to lose bad as you se but don't want to kill myself.

Well today the weight still is the same but I am not giving up I am getting up ang get water,food and exercise in . I just to keep thinking positive and not negative I can do this.

Congrats with the weight loss your doing awesome. As for the grown up kiddies i agree with all the posts. As i told u before i can relate to this. My kids can be total slobs with no regards to the fact i cleaned something. If they cant follow the rules u may need to show them the door so u can have peace and get your life back. tough love....

You and I know that what you are saying is what I need to do I keep hoping. Today they did go look for a job and have made an improvement on thier room .I started leaving post it notes on the ref. and thermostat for them maybe they will get it. I am still on my diet but didn't get to exercise today after all. But I am tomorrow no matter what they pull. They even started to call me at the gym I just don't answer are they come over there I guess to watch. All I see them doing even tho they could exercise they are on my plan. So I am not ansewing anymore just because they want to be thier size don't mean I do. So I just get around and go They should get the message to help..

Thanks for dropping by my journal Audrey. I was having a bad day.. partly due to family issues.

RE grown kids, there is something known as tough love. At some point in their life you have to stop doing for them and baling them out. Most of all, they need to learn that actions have consequences. I had to do that with my son when he was a teenager, and it was oh so very hard. He is now 45 and has finally grown up. Not doing fabulous, but doing pretty darn okay. Working hard, paying his bills, keeping his marriage (#3) together. He is also a great father. Again, it was tough to be firm, but it had to be done.

RE what you are eating. I saw one day your menu, and it looked a little light on the calories - of course, depending on how much and what you eat for dinner. Breakfast and lunch look fine, Maybe add a snack or two - like an apple or a small low fat cheese stick. It is important that you focus on getting some fruit and veggitables in your diet, that makes for good long term health. They also fill you up better. You can add a small glass of V8 or tomato juice to breakfast and get an easy veggie. Make sure you have a salad or veggie with dinner. Even if your family doesn't eat them, fix them for yourself. I actually buy the small cans of spinach and pop them open and eat them.

Anyway, hang in there. You have had a great start.

Jo

Thanks JOWC 123 for the advice I can always use it. I am getting a little tougher and am getting a little more help. Just hope it keeps up and from all of them not just one. Loks like you are doing great keep on going. Thanks for dropping by come back soon. Audrey

X-( Well still no change can't understand this . I really feel like crying no gain I know I should be happy about that but I want to lose but all I do is feel like a big LOSER I am so disappointed. Maybe the odds are against me and I can'tdo this. Well enough feeling sorry for myself I wish all of you a continuing weight loss. And for my friends who gave me advice on the stress problem I can see changes small ones but changes happening for the better. Thanks for being there for me there are some very nice ppl on here. Audrey :wave:

Good Morning Audrey,

Now look ... HOW FAR YOU'VE COME since you started your journey .. this isn't about SPEED WEIGHT LOSS ... it's about losing weight in a healthy and permanent way. There are going to be weeks where you will lose nothing and then suddenly your body starts to accept the changes and YOU WILL LOSE ..

I can understand your frustration especially when you feel you're doing EVERYTHING RIGHT .. but take it from me IT TAKES TIME AND PATIENCE TO ACHIEVE OUR GOALS .. and so be THRILLED YOU DIDN'T SHOW A GAIN ... my mantra used to be a MAINTAIN IS ALWAYS BETTER THAN A GAIN ... if in a couple of weeks you post that you are still on your plateau then I will offer a suggestion that might get you off that plateau ... BUT IN THE MEANTIME you can still improve on your mealtime (and if necessary your snack time) choices. Go out and make it a great day. I am as always, Monica

Hey there! Thanks for dropping by my journal! I appreciate it!

Sounds like you are getting pretty frustrated. I am too. I have been bouncing between the same 5 pounds for 4 months now. I first dipped below 200 pounds right around Valentines day. It's been between 198 and 204 ever since then. Grrr. But things will come around.

I agree with Jo about the food. You need more food that that. I don't want to sound preachy, but your body needs at least 1200 calories a day to function. Based on the oatmeal, sandwich, and often skipping dinner plan you listed, I doubt you are getting anywhere near that. If you add snacks, like Jo suggested, you can increase the calories, and stop feeling so faint. It will also kick start your metabolism again too. Too few calories and your body thinks it's starving, and it will hang on to whatever it can.

I don't count calories, but I know that I get at least 1500 a day, usually more. I have been trying lately to have a decent size piece of meat for the protein and energy, and add lots of veggies (grilled asparagus is FANTASTIC!). The veggies help fill me up, and you don't get a bunch of calories or fat from it. Just good nutrients.

I find that when I eat more (smaller meals, and a couple snacks-eating every 3 hours or so), I do better with my diet.

I hope things get going better for you!

One last suggestion...:)
Take measurements. There was about a month that I didn't lose a pound. In fact I gained some. But when I took measurements and compared them to before, I had lost like 8 inches over my body. It's a great pick me up when you have been working hard, but the scales don't show it.

Have a fantastic Wednesday!

please be patient with yourself, Audrey. I know how you feel, we all would like to lose all those unwanted lbs. overnight, but it never happens that way.

As for all the suggestions about eating your veggies, etc. they are great suggestions. Our bodies need a proper amount of good nutrition. We can't shortcut the fuel our bodies run on any more that we can shortcut the fuel that our cars run on. So eat those veggies, lean meats, fruits, and grains.

And be patient with yourself.

Thanks Jo, Meisa, and Monica I know ya are all right, but this has got to move just a little would be nice. I am glad ya stopped by and I am gonna keep on trying. I feel better anyways exerising. Thanks for the support. Audrey

Just thought I would post and let everyone know I am still trying hey that scale got to move sometimes right X-( . I am gonna give i my all. Thanks for all replies and advice all welcome.

Today I ate good except to late of a supper. My water intake was good. But was running doing errands other than that no exercise. Tomorrow is a new day got to Quit sliding back and go foward no excuses. I had a pretty good day other than that. See ya tomorrow hope ya had a great day. Audrey

Hi, Audrey:

I just popped in to see how you are doing. Just keep doing the best you can, that is all any of us can do. And have a great weekend.

Keep thinking positive thoughts !
Have a good weekend

I hope every body is having a great Father's Day. ;ribbon: HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO MY DECEASED DAD , MY BEST FRIEND ALSO MISS YOU :HUG: Well my weight still the same I guess I should be happy not gaining but I am gonna get to it and lose this week one way or another, enough is enough well got to go shopping last min for bbq . I hope all is doing great have a great day. Audrey

Hi everybody I want to thank my DT family for the kind words in the death of my nephew. I am not really eating ,drinking or exerising today other than getting my house in order for family. AUDREY

There are times when it's okay to put other people first. I definitely think this is one of them.

i was so sorry to hear about the death of your nephew in such terrible circumstances.
i am thinking of you and your family during this hard time.
hugs bell

Im sorry to hear about your nephew. sometimes we have to take time for other things. Your diet plan will come into play when u are ready. sometimes we just need a break.

I was reading your post in someone elses journal about a hurtful comment u received. Please ignore those kinds of posts. Being a member here 5 yrs ago i had lost 50 pounds in 6 months and then it went downhill. I was having trouble and slipping and this one woman kept posting in my journal all kinds of critiscism and it wore me down to the point i quit and stopped coming here. Well i got heavier and here i am at it again but wont let anyone knock me down this time. Your doing fantastic and doing this for you. Theres always one person who can try to sabatoge you, just ignore them, its probably just jealousy or they dont have a life.
take care.

Thanks each and evryone for your kindness. I am still holding the same weight but will try harder after this terrible tragedy settles down. Ya just remember my family . Audrey

Hi Audrey,
How are you doing dear? Just checking on you. I am still thinking about you and your family following your tragic loss. :hug:

Vickie

Hi everybody I am back have ot gained any back but not lost anymore . But got to get back exercising and drinking more water. Everybody is doing good except my husband is feeling angry and I am to about a situation which came up at the funeral. I don't think his relationship will ever be the same with his brother. I know mine won't. For those of you who are wodering what happened I will try to make it short. my brother -in-law is married to a woman who's sister used to live with my husband she claimed 3 of her children was his not true we had DNA test. She and the children showed up his brother was seating family in the family section of the chapel where my husband and I were supposed to be seated he had seated her and her children there were no more chairs left. My husband took me by my hand said let's go I hadn't noticed her yet sitting there so we went outside. I told him let's go back in this is your nephew so we ended up in a little room outside the chapel could still hear the pastor. I was atleast glad he heard the pastor speak. We went to te gravesite chairs under tent it happened again. We just stood outside the tent and left after the pastor spoke. And that was that. I felt so sorry for him. Not to mention his sister left him out of the obit.

Audrey, I am so sorry for everyone involved in this situation. When stressful times come, often people act in unwise ways. You handled a difficult situation very well, and your husband was able to at least hear what the pastor said. He will have that memory.

As for your weight-loss program, get back on track as soon as you can. Prayer and time help in all things we deal with in life.

Thaks Jo I am jumping back right now not gonna let that bad situation get me down. Thanks for saying I handled it good I tried I wasn't gonna let it make me do or say something at a very sad time. I ask for God to help me even tho it was hard I love my husband with all my heart and It was his nephew so I am sad evryone treated him that way. I just always remember the old saying what goes around comes around . But now back to reaching my goal. I hope you are doing great today. Audrey

Hi I like 1 pound being back to where I wasX-( I can't beleve I had to do it twice that could have been that much more of a loss but oh no had to gain and relose. I must have lost my mind. I am so mad at having to lose twice just to get back down to what I already had weighed! Well now I am not going for thirds on having to lose again I have got to do what I need to stay with my plan no matter what. Audrey

Hey there. Sounds like you have been having such a stressful time! Please don't be too upset with re-gaining that pound. One pound with everything that is going on in you and your family's lives is amazing! So many people would have turned to food for comfort, and easily gained back several pounds.

All you can do is just start a new day. Yesterday is gone, so if you messed up, it doesn't matter. Just start fresh and try to stay on track. Eventually you will.

Keep it up! :hug:

Just remember that weight fluctuates a lot. And try to stay more focused on the choices you're making and less on the scale. You're eating better than you were... and that's what's really important. The weight will come off eventually.

You're doing fine - and you're way ahead of your goals as it is. Don't beat yourself up about a pound... I'm still proud of what you've done so far!

It takes so long to change our habits for good so were bound to mess up here and there, the important thing is getting right back on track. We sometimes are so hard on ourselves. I have done the same thing with having to relose weight i already lost.

Hi Audrey - thank you so much for dropping by my journal last week and offering your support. Much appreciated!

My condolences to you and your family on the loss of your nephew. And I'm truly sorry about the actions of some of your family members at the funeral. I hope you won't let this one pound get you down. It could be water. Our bodies can fluctuate sometimes. Anyway, I know you'll hang in there. You're doing SO well!

Thanks Anne ,angel , Alice And Melsa For Kindness And Belief In Me I Went To Dr . Yesterday I Am Back To My 242.5 I Would Be Happy But He Acted Like It Wasn't Enough . Tried To Tell Me To Come Last Night To One Of His Meeting On A Diet He Came Up With Using Apple Cider Vinegar I Tried That Before Didn't Work Which I Told Him He Sort Of Just Gave Me An Whatever Look I Thought, I Was Doing Good. Maybe He Just Wanted The Money For The Meetings Don't Know. His Wife Is Way Bigger Than I Am Makes You Wonder.
Oh Welli Am Gonna Keep On With What I Am Doing. I Think I Am Doing Good And I Feel Better. Any Opion On If You Think I Am Doing Good On My Diet Please Let Me Know I Am So Confused.

Really I think you just need to focus on the choices you are making, and not the numbers on a scale. This is about lifestyle change if you want to be successful. Are you making healthy eating choices? Are you getting up and moving around more? Are you drinking the amount of water your body needs?

Those are the important things to focus on. The pounds will come off, sometimes fast sometimes slowly, but knowing you're making a *life* change is the most important part. Because eating healthier means you're getting healthier - regardless of how much you weigh.

You're doing fine. Don't get discouraged! Just keep making good choices throughout the day and don't stress as much over weight loss. :up:

I agree. The plan is just as sound as any out there. Weight fluctuates 6 lbs or so during any given week. It usually fluctuates around the same amount during the same days of the week, because most of us are creatures of habit, but not necisarrily. They had me ONLY look at my 10-12 day trends, and not get hung up on a scale number from one morning. Don't do it.

The place where I used to go also sold the apple cider stuff. It curbed my appetite for binging, but not for eating too much during regular meal times. There is no short-cut for learning about portion control. It's not that your body gets used to it as much, as it is that your body chemistry gets more fine-tuned as you eat less and lose more weight. You actually notice "full" easier after a while, not as much from practice...but...I don't know any other way to put this, but because there is less of you to fill up (both physically in your stomach, and metabolically with your blood chemistry). The short answer, is that it gets easier. Stick to your guns.

In the mean time, keep it simple. It is much easier to figure out simple. Simple is good. Over-thinking it is one of the things that got me so large in the first place. Your body will tell your head what it wants, and what you need to do if you know how to listen. Learning how to listen was and is very hard for me, but I'm better at it than I ever was in my entire life now. It can be done!

I'm sending chill-out, happy, in-the-zone, don't worry vibes your way. You are doing great. Take care.

Thanks for the advice CFJ and Alice. I will try my hardest to use it wisely. I do feel better and my clothes fit better. But in my opion he could have been more supportive after all I have lost weight. Audrey

You should look for a new doctor if you aren't happy with yours. There is no reason for a doctor to belittle his patients - especially with so many kind doctors out there.

Thanks Alice I was just seeing I could do this had built my self up to think hey you are doing this it"s working great and then shot down like a flying bird. My weight says 239.5 this morning I started at 262.5 I just don't know. I am trying to be happy but with his reaction it sort of shocked me . I will be getting a new doctor soon as possible. I got mad and thought hateful thoughts which I don't like to think. His wife is a Dr also in the same building and she is way bigger and I am thinking well it did'nt work for her that was so evil of me. I felt awful for thinking that afterwards. I only started last month . How much was I suppose to lose? 23 pounds is not enough? So I just went to the gym and worked my anger out some . Thanks for visiting and your advice Alice.
( But I still just want to cry I am hurt and mad ) Well I am gonna try to give it my all again heading to the gym. I hope you have a great day. Audrey

I understand your shock at his reaction, but remember.. you are not doing this FOR HIM!! LOL. You are the same as all of us... we like positive feedback when we have done a job well. You have lost a ton of weight and you know it! You get a pat on the back and all that goes with that from everyone here.... CAUSE WE KNOW HOW HARD IT IS. You were so right about the "plan/PRODUCT" that he sells! If it was such a great product, then why is his own wife still overweight!? There is no magic plan just like there is no magic bullet. Losing weight is about your body using more than you are feeding it. Calories in vs calories out. WE have all.... and maybe are still trying... looked for the MAGIC DIET .... ... THERE AIN'T ONE.
If this dr made you feel uncomfortable, or gave you the impression that your best interest and his best interest do not agree... get rid of him. Try someone else. I know it is a major pain to change dr's.. but this is your well being we are talking about here!! YOu are changing so much in your life right now... AND ALL FOR THE BETTER! YOU GO GIRL!

Thanks Eball I have ever intention of doing just that . My DT family has been more encouaging than him which I do thank all of you . I am losing thanks to the people on here helping me I am staying right with ya . I hope you are doing well and have a great day. Audrey

I know how awful it is to have someone in a position of authority not praise you for something you feel is an accomplishment. Not only does it hurt your feelings, but it creates self doubt and destroys the positive thoughts and pride you'd built in your mind. He has no right to take those away from you.

It's okay to feel like crying about this... and I think it's okay to be angry. Maybe you can use this as motivation to make even better choices, don't let his negativity get you down, don't use it as a crutch - but use it as a stepping stool to success. Do good in spite of him. Because I know, and YOU know that you are 100% capable of making this life change... and if he thinks differently, then prove him differently.

Thank You so much Alice you have gave me great advice ,I think I neee to hear the crutch part the most but also everything you are saying makes sense thank you so much.

You're welcome. :) I just really do want to see you succeed, so very much.

Hello! Just dropping in to see how your doing and to say hello.

Today the scales show a .05 gain oh well I know they change some so not to worried just want to stay down and going down . Thanks angel eyes for dropping by. I hope everyone is having a great day . I am off and running talk to ya soon.

Hey Audrey, CONGRATS on 239.5! (I know you said it's up .5 today, but as you've already seen it fluctuates and bounces around. It's the overall total loss that matters, not the daily/hourly radar blips.)

I'm saddened to hear your doctor's reaction. Also, a bit appalled that a progress of ~20 pound loss isn't "good enough" for him. Does he really think negative reinforcement is an appropriate way to help his patients? Sounds like he's just interested in pushing his little fad diet (apple cider vinegar from a doctor? give me a break) and NOT interested in caring for your health. I've had my fair share of doctor disasters this year, and I'm tellin' ya, I'm on the warpath. Just fired my therapist, too. So, stick up for yourself and if you're not happy with him or he doesn't listen, and you feel like dumping him, then dump him. Too many fish in the medical sea to bother with the quacks, imo.

All of which is to say... hang in there! Just look at what you accomplished the other day - you felt shot down by this guy, but then you picked yourself up and you went to the gym. You're winning this. :)

Hi, Audrey:

I just stopped in to see how you are doing, and I find that you are having doctor troubles. Therefore I would suggest that, if it is possible, you find a doctor that you are comfortable with. Sometimes I know a switch is just not possible.

At any rate I believe you should be very proud of yourself for your weight-loss success. And keep up the great work you are doing. Remember, it takes time.

Have a great weekend.

Thanks Anne and Jo for the advice . Sometimes having ppl say something possitive helps and this is one of those times. I think he is just pushing his diet that is extra pocket money,nothing to do with the money he makes in the office. I just got mad when I went to the gym X-( just how much am I suppose to lose? He is so out of my health I am looking for another Dr no more of that attitude. And my son and his girlfriend has started helping me. I don't know why but they have. I guess miracles happen everyday. I hope everyone had a great day. Oh yea I wanted to ask a question does sleep play a role in losing weight?

Yes, your sleep effects your weight loss and/or gain. If you are not getting enough sleep, certain hormones in your body increase that result in a bigger appetite and weight gain.

Everything is holding the same except my temper but I'm just gonna go walk it off. ttyl

Yea im glad your looking for a new doctor. You need a doctor that will support you on how you choose to lose the weight and your doing so good. Congrats on the loss and hang in there.

Hi hope everyone is doing great today. I have the blah don't won't to get started doing anything feeling today maybe I stayed up to late no more of that. Well gonna give myself a kick and off I go.

I hear ya on the dr. thing. I have a dr. that all he wants to talk about is my weight. Then his partner (who I see now) is just the opposite. If I go in with a 5lb loss he is excited for me. Stick to your guns, don't let them get you down. I know how it feels.

Sorry about all you have gone through lately. Its so hard to pick yourself back up, but look you did it!! Good for you. Keep it up and you'll find it does get easier.

Thanks LMJ for the support can always use it. I ate things I know I shouldn't have over the fouth and now I have to work that off. This is awful I know what to do and not do but then I do it anyways well off to the gym with my over
eating self. I hope you are doing great today.

Audrey, we are not perfect, we are going to have days that we eat things we're not 'supposed' to eat. Your getting right back on track and hitting the gym. Thats great!! Keep it going...and good luck!!

We all are human and its so much harder to behave when theirs social events and everyone around you is eating such good stuff and you want it too. You think well it wont hurt, it takes time to permanently change our eating lifestyles. Your doing great. I slipped last weekend and it took me all week to get back to where i was. I too get so mad at myself for having to relose weight i already lost but we all do it.

I Hope Ya Didn't THink I Left. No Way!!! I Just Been Dealing With Issues. I Am Happy First Of All Because My Weight Is Down To 235.5 At Dr. Yesterday. Still Lookinf 4 Another Oe He Said You Stll Losing I Said Yes I Am !!! Could'nt Resist After What He Did. He Still Proceeded To Tell Me I Am Having ANOTHER WEIGHT Meeting Tonight What The Nerve. Ok Update IN My Crazy Life. After 1 1/2 Years My X Soon To Be Daughter In Law Yea The Lazy One Left My Son Her Reason I Am Not Ready To Be With 1 Person , I Jumped In This To Fast They Were Supposed To Get Married Feb.14th Next Year. I Feel So Sorry For My Son This Was His First Love And First Everthing. He Cried Like A Baby Still Does But He Seems To Be Getting Better. Her Brother Came And Spent 2 Weeks They Carried Him Back Home She Didn't Want Him To Visit Her Aunt With Her She Wanted Him To Go To The Movies Since They Were Not Open Go Get Something To Eat. When They Picked Her Up She Ate Of Course On The Way To Her Moms House. Then After Kissing ,holding Hands,and Stuff When He Went To Get Thier Clothes Out She Laid It On Him. He Was All The Way In Gretna, La And Just Broke Down I Am In Greenwood, Ms 5 Hrs Away. Luckly My Other Son Was With Him Only He Can't Drive In La . So They Spent The Night And They Came Back The Next Day. I Saw Her On My Space With 1 Boy From Ohio She Already Knew Him Before My Son Told Hm I Luv You They Broke Up In A Week Proceeded To Next Boy From Jackson,ms Did The Same Thing. I Think She Likes Hurting Men. I Took Alot From Her Not helping me Clean,cook, Or Wash not even their room, To Be With My Son And To Keep Him Out Of The Drug Use Of Her Mother. And Then She Did This Now She Is Posting Where My Son Usally Goes On My Space Saying Hurtful Things And Doing The Men Thing Knowing He Will See It. I just Pray Everything Will Work Out And He Will Get Over This Ok, And Not Get Back With Her, She Left The Garbage Dump In Thier Bedroom Which I Cleaned Up And Disinfected. I Wanted To Know It Was Done Right And He Was Hurting Which Was Hurting Me . I Packed All Her Stuff Which He Moved To our Storage. I Told Him If He Goes Back With Her Aftr What She Has Did And Didn't Do She Is Not Coming Back In My House. He Is Still Trying To Get Back With Her But I Hope That Stops Soon. I Also Told Him He Needs To Go To The Dr Get Checked For Std Hadn't Got Him To go Yet. Well This Is My Book So If Ya Hung In There Thanks For Being Here I Will Be Here For Ya Just As Ya Have 4 Me. Audrey

Hi Audrey,

I haven't visited your journal before, just found it this morning, and I read the WHOLE THING. You totally have me hooked!!! I couldn't stop reading it! So here's some things I wanted to say...

about the doctor: I've had three kinds of doctors when it comes to weight loss. The ones who don't bring it up, seem to be kind of uncomfortable if you do, and just tell you to eat the food pyramid and exercise; the ones who are excited about talking about it and willing to take your own preferences and habits into consideration to help you proactively come up with a weightloss plan, and cheer you on (these are the ones that you get excited about visiting when you've lost some weight); and the ones that think less of you because you're overweight or whatever, as if that were to blame for every health problem, and why can't you just not be fat and perfect like he is, and whatever you do it's not enough.

It looks like you have one of the last category! I had one of those not long ago, she was always looking down her nose at me, I even felt uncomfortable wearing the little paper thing they give you to wear because I felt like I was a failure as a patient!

Then I got a MUCH MUCH better doctor, unfortunately I didn't start really losing weight until I had moved away temporarily, BUT she was always SO supportive, she never blamed my weight for anything, and whereas the other doctor always made a HUGE deal about searching all over the office to find the big blood pressure cuff (because the regular one was too small for my fat arm, I guess), this doctor always had it right there with the regular one and never even mentioned which one she was using.

Once I started losing weight, I emailed this new doctor a photo of my progress, and she wrote back and said: "You look so healthy and beautiful!! You've inspired me to go out for a walk!" etc. At that point I had lost 40 pounds since she had seen me, and she was SO proud of me. How can you not feel good about that kind of doctor?

So that is the doctor thing.

As for your kids, well hey look at the bright side: the "leech" is gone! No more thankless lazy girlfriend lying around to step over and clean up after!! I definitely feel for your son. My brother had a very similar situation, his first girlfriend (they were together 8 years) left him on the first day they moved into a new apartment together. He was devastated; but she was already totally over him when she told him. He went and lived with my parents for a while after that, it was too hard to start looking for a new place again. But then, after not that long, he met the most wonderful girl... they have SO much more in common. The first love is great, but if it starts when they're teenagers, well people grow up and change and diverge, and a partner for an adult is probably best discovered by the adult, and not the teenager.

Okay so finally, the MOST IMPORTANT PART:

:cheers: Cheers on your INCREDIBLE weight loss!! You have done so amazing! You are obviously a very dedicated lady with a stubborn streak! :D One HUGE motivator for me that might help you too: I took pictures of myself every 10 pounds or so, and made a collage of them so I could see the changes in myself (I actually posted it on Diettalk, http://www.diettalk.com/forums/attachment.php?attachmentid=3209&d=1179724491 -- I kept the shirt so I could see how it looked over time. I suggest you do this too. When family members are not telling you how great you look, sometimes you need to take things into your own hands. Let the photos do the talking!!

You have done SOOOO well!! I'm so proud of you, and I'll keep reading your journal because I want you to succeed!!!!!!

hugs from Greece, Nausicaa.

and one more thing LOL ... I just saw this article and it really seems appropriate to show you:

The sources of weight stigmatization reported in the study were surprising, with family members being the most frequent perpetrators at 72 percent and physicians following closely at 69 percent. But doctors were not the only health-care professionals to make the list: 46 percent of respondents reported being stigmatized by nurses, 37 percent by dietitians or nutritionists, and 21 percent by mental health professionals.

The whole article is here http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2006/11/01/AR2006110102969.html , check it out. It makes a lot of sense.

:) I appreciate the replies . I read the article it was very interesting . I also found your tip on the shirt very useful I can use any and all tips you have. You can tell how you have lost weight congradulations on almost getting to your goal. You have done great. I hope you have a great day.

I Hope All Is Well I Missed You Guys. I Am At 235.5 Lost To 231.5 But Went Wild On Eating Now Got To Pay The Price And Ready To Do That I Am Back On My Schedule As Of Now. So Here I Go Again!

Welcome back Audrey! You can lose those extra pounds quickly since they came back quickly. Just stick with it for a few more days and you'll see results fast I'm sure. Hang in there!! We're with you! :hug:

You always have confidence in me ifyou have any tips can use all and advice . Iam hitting the gym again tomorrow I will survive and get this done.Thank so much . Audrey

Make the gym fun! I finally got to workout today after having to take four days off. It felt so good!!! I really missed it. Working out should feel good. :) Enjoy!

Getting back on track is the key. We all will have slip ups but the important thing is to hop right back on the wagon. Thanks for visiting my journal.

X-( I did it again time for everybody but me which lead to a 7 pd gain I was at 231.5 :c( now look what I did 238.5 I am so awful .I am gonna get this right even if I have to be selfish. I hope everybody has a great day.

Time to get back to diettalk Audrey. You need us to be able to cheer you on!!! We slip, but we get back up. We can ALL identify with it, it is nothing new, it is very frustrating but we have to keep moving forward!!! You can do it.

Your right I do need the support 240.5 ok that is enough back to what I have to do. Take care of me starts now and I am gonna hang on this time. Thanks

:) I am back here is my up date weight still the same BUT I have straightened out in my life. Finally my oldest son and girlfriend has moved out my house is staying clean again a miracle no more dump.They keep thier apartment clean go figure (no maid) he does it mostly but that is his problem. She is always sick yea right it will change. They both have a job now her first day and yea sick tonight oh well. My yougest son is paying his way somewhat and attitude has changed for the beter most of the time. So things have improved and I am back to fight this wieght demon now since I cleaned house.I hope to hear from my friends and new ones to. Audrey

Hi, Audrey:

Everyone falls off the diet wagon at times. The solution is just to hop right back on it. Which is what you are doing. Don't worry about the past, focus on the future, and please keep posting so we can cheer you on.

Ok so I am slowly getting back on track. I ate alot better yesterday today my goal is to eat right ,getall my water in almost did yesterday and go to the gym if it kills me I should have kept goingX-(. How stupid of me to stop. So here I go up and getting going. I hope everyone a great day today .

Hello! so easy to get off track and so hard to get back on, my life story in the weight loss dept. good job on getting back on. im trying to as well. glad you got the kids out and can focus on you. i look forward to that day too.

:c( Not going down going upX-( 246.5 I am so dishearted. Got to ix this but how?

Hey Evervyone I Have Got My Weight Back Down To 242.5. I Just Got To Keep On Keeping On .i Hope All Is Doing Great Check Back Later I'm Off To The Gym.:)

Awesome job Audrey. Now if I could loose next week I would be the happiest person! Two weeks gaining is enough. Just wish I knew why. :(

Hi Audrey

Welcome to DT!

We are excited to have you with us here at the Message Board and here in the Journals Forum

Have fun here

Thanks for the response gic I am sure your body is catching up with the weight loss don't you quit lke I did hang in there you will see a change soon. I was under stress yesterday so I worked out harder at the gym. didn't get all my water in tho but gonna do better today also with my eating enough is enough. I am gonna fight with all my will power .

Hi, Audrey:

Just checking in to wish you a great weekend! Hang in there, and do the very best you can.

Thanks Jo I can always use a friend to keep check on me it helps. No I have not been doing my best X-( it is no more do better tomorrow it is do better today.I am tried of letting myself get away with way to much the playing is over this is real. I am stronger than this I know we slip but sometimes enough! I will make time for me no matter what! I am going to gym now and please don't cut me any slack I seem to take advantage of that.8-| I hope to see you again please stop y anytime.

Way to go. Hope you had a good workout at the gym Audrey. Keep it up. If anyone knows how hard it is to keep up with an exercise program it's me! :hug:

I have improved on my exercise 1 1/2 miles on treadmil today plus other eqipment real good workout. More water is needed plus could do better on eating too. Tomorrow work even harder. scales say the same:( Maybe I am buildin muscle instead of fat and it will start moving.:)

Hi Audrey!

I found your journal. I posted some replies to your SOS posts. :) You're on the right track...don't give up!!

:( Hi everybody my life feels like it is over. A change I knew would one day come and due to the situation it had to. I lost my true love ,the one that was my world I will never see again. I have just got to go on with my life and make the best of things. I am going back to working harder on losing weight. I have got to keep living even tho I feel so empty, used, and betrayed. Thanks for your time.