Ok, so I am not going to post in my journal anymore because last night I had a crazy dream. So I figured I wouldnt write about my dream in the other journal because well that was a finish and today is a start. So here was my dream, and believe it or not if you like, that isnt my point. It gave me a wake up call to say, look this is for real, get over yourself, and your thoughts and make it happen. Noboby can help you but yourself and you need to help yourself and believe in yourself before others can help you.

Ok, so I was dreaming I was on the biggest loser. The real show, it was the people from the last season, and I was an at home contestant. And it was when the at home contestants came back on. Instead of Adrianna, it was me. Ok, so anyway. I really wanted to be on Bob's team, but he wouldnt let me because he said he knew I wasnt going to make it. And Kim didnt want me because she said that she felt the same as Bob but she didnt want me on her team because I didnt have a high enough self esteem. So I was my own team. And then it got to wi and I wasnt allowed on the scale because they didnt believe that I had lost any weight anyway. Ok, so that was so confusing. But then all of a sudden I got on the scale anyway, and I had gained 20 lbs. Hello, how did that happen. Then they felt bad and I was allowed on Bob's Team. So ok, not sure how that all happened, but it was a dream so who knows. And then I got to another wi, not sure how that happened, and I had gained again. So Then I started to lose because I realized that I had to want to do it on my own. I wasnt helpless, and I didnt need them to lose weight, I could do it. They where they to help me and to learn. So then I dont know what happened. I woke up. Ok wierd dream and it might not make sense to some as to why that made me wake up this morning and say, hey wait a minute. But it did. I am not a quiter and I am not someone to give up on. I try hard but I dont try hard enough. I let anything get in my way and use it as an excuse to eat 6 poptarts. And that is dum. So I have to try harder because the only one who can lose this weight is me. I cant have someone else lose it for me. And to not even be wanted by something that I truely enjoy, that is a wake up call. Because I can prove everyone wrong. I can do it.

Ok, so here is the deal. If made it through that drama, great, glad you hung in there. But the thing is, I need to be kicked in the butt, I need people to say, you know that probably wasnt the smartest idea. Why, because I need to hear the truth. The truth hurts and yes, it makes us face things we dont want to. But that is what I need. So if you post to me, be honest and say, hey um, ok, what happen here. Because after I was able to say in my other journal what was going on, I did feel better. So please be honest, critize, because I know in the end. Everyone here is still going to be here. And I cant let the truth hurt me because well. It is me who got me here in the first place.

So I have no goals in mind right now. I am going to take it one day at a time. I will probably do my weight watchers, maybe post here what I eat. Maybe just post what I am feeling for the day. Who knows but at the end of a long day, all I need to know is that my friends are here to kick my butt and say, ok, tomorrow maybe another day, but today is better. Oh, and I have to go and take my vitamin :)

Good Morning Jeannette,

I see you've started a NEW DAY so I plan on being here to ENCOURAGE :cheer: and SUPPORT YOU EVERY DAY. I am as always, Monica

Thanks so far, I have had strawberries and grapes and lite cool whip for breakfast. The strawberries are getting to the end of their season so they are a bit sour and I dont like to add sugar so the cool whip helps. Points so far 2.5.

Aha, I found you, lol, you can run but you can't hide!!!

I love that you started a new journal. I love that you realized that excuses don't get us anywhere. I love, most of all, that you are 'back'.

Will cheer you on, and give a little 'swat' if it is needed, lol.

The first step which you have done is honesty with ourselves. Most times we dont want to hear the truth but like they say the truth will set you free and i believe it so good luck with your new journal and may the truth set you free.

Will cheer you on, and give a little 'swat' if it is needed, lol.


A little swat if needed??? Heck, I'll give her a good swift kick in the butt! But only if she'll do the same for me! Smallfri and I must have the same idea at the same time. I just closed my old journal on the WW's board and will be opening a new one here soon. I don't know if it will be today, but soon!

Good luck, Jeanette! I know you can do this! Yes, your dream was weird, but if it got you fired up and motivated, who cares? We'll be here to cheer you on, but you're right - only you can do this!

Thanks, and yes, I do expect a good swift kick. lol.

Ok, So I ended with 31 points, yikes, but that is ok. My dinner was bigger as I had already knew that. But I had 6 exercise points. So that left me at 25 points total for today. Not bad. Dinner was bad though, I had to brats. And they where 7 points a piece Otherwise the rest of the day was good. I had tomatoes and chicken breast for lunch, oh and I had a chocolate covered banana for a snack. They where on sale at the grocery store. lol.

glad i found the new journal..

Thanks for finding me and visiting. I have had a pretty good wednesday, I am glad to say. And I had a, um, well, I dont even know how to explain it. Lets just say I ate double my points today at work. Now for tomorrow, ugg, that will be worse. Tomorrow is my dont count my points day, because we are going to germanfest. though I usually dont eat much there, what I do find is not really the best. But I dont care, well, I shouldnt say that. I do care, but its a once a year thing. Have to concentrate more on the better things with my work schedule.
So this is my work weekend and so I wont be on very much because the little computer time I have has to be spent on homework and I am going to be exhausted because of going to germanfest tomorrow. So have a great weekend.

Hang tough smallfri :mus:

and ENJOY your weekend :D

Any dream with Bob in it has to be a good dream. :D

Any dream with Bob in it has to be a good dream.


Oh boy, I think I like this new girl! :laugh: And she has a nice name, too! :D

Thanks, I am off to germanfest, I did not behave today, but oh well, I will have to be good this weekend though.

Hope you had fun at the germanfest. Remember we don't have to be perfect all the time. We are going to have special events that we will overeat or indulge in something. Keep up the good work!

Ok, so this weekend sucked. Both diet wise and well family wise. Germanfest I was actually ok, I did pretty good. Then the worse thing that can happen to a parent happened. I became balistic mom. Oh, yes, anyone who would have seen me would have thought, mmmm. But like I said the worse thing happened. The headlines would have read, Psychic mom kills oldest after losing baby. Sounds harse but that was almost what happened. Now before you judge me. I already know some are going to say it really wasnt the oldest fault, how can you blame him, at first I would say, your right, its not his fault in general but here is my story. We where at germanfest and we decided to stop off at the playground to play. The younger three went off to play, the oldest my friend and I went and sat on a pininic bench. We took a head count. All the kids where there. I turned took a drink of my soda, turned back to the playground and my oldest says, I think CJ just left. OMG> I said quick go after him and I will check the playground. I couldnt just leave my other children. My friend check the other half of the playground. I ran to the play equipment he was at. Turned and my 12 year old was just standing there talking wiht someone. I lost it. Yes I know, probably not the most sensible thing to do in the world but one, the festivals are on by the lake, two, my four year old had possibly ran out into 10,000 drunk people, and three, well I just cant of three. So I am running around calling CJ yelled at my 12 year old to go out and help look for him and my friend runs out into the fair. Again, we couldnt jsut leave the other kids in the playground by themselves so one adult had to stay. A parent heard me yelling and he came and said ok, calm down, lets get the other parents involved, well by now I was hysterical. Calm down, my baby is lost. Good grief, but I understand. So my friend came because I saw my husband and left the poor man standing there. My friend took care of that part. So I went out inot the fair my husband was walking back and then a paramedic car was driving. I stopped them and starting explaining to them. As I am explaining them, people where walking past saying. WE will look out for him. As I was explaining a women walks past and says. Oh, are you looking for CJ, someone took him to the information desk. So I go flying over there, they say, oh yeah, we took him to lost and found. So I had to ask three people where it was because it was little tent with this little sign that said lost and found child something, I dont remember. So I find it and see CJ standing there. I called him and went up running to him, he was crying I was crying. The lady asked if I was Jeanette, I said yes. They asked me real quick what happened and I explained we where playing at the park and he just ran off. He wasnt being sassy, he just didnt look. For some reason he thought we left him. I asked why he took off and where he was going, He said he didnt see us. Now mind you, he went right pass us, but he is four and he said he was going to the car. Sure enough, they said he was heading to the main gate when they stopped him. OMG, this is the most horrible feeling. I have never, ever, never, ever lost any of my children or had any of them run off. When I got back to my friend she said she had to calm my daughter down because she was crying thinking he was gone forever and she would miss her brother. My friend in the mean time explained to my 12 year old if he saw him leave he should have just ran and said there goes CJ. Now yes he is 12 but if he can find the time to be bossy and mister know it all because he is that age then yes, I feel that he could say hey there he goes and then we could have took off and called him. So lucky it ended happy, and we could enjoy the rest of the fair but what a horrible feeling. then of course I over ate on saturday to make up for the lack of sleep. I got a whole hour and then worked a 12 hour day. And I was ok on sunday I ate somewhat crappy but I didnt eat alot. Today hasnt been that much better but I am getting there. So for anyone saying. I cant believe she blamed her 12 year old, it wasnt that I was blaming him for leaving, that was not his fault, that was nobodies fault. But when asked to help because he saw where he went and then just stand there, yes that was frustrating. But I am ok, I was over it right after we found him. But its over and done and I have all my children.

oh so sorry Jeanette! Ashamed to say it happened to me once too! I was unloading groceries from our car, i know the older ones were on school break( my 23 yr old was the youngest and around 2ish) he wasn't talking much yet, he might have been more like 1 1/2. anyway before i knew it i looked around and said, where is Scott. Then panick set in, now were very small town, so i told the older ones, spread out go two blocks up in all directions then come back if you don't see him i will call the police then. I had to call , i felt like the worst Mom ever and i was in a state by then. She said, honey he is sitting right here, he made it to main street( by the D.Q.) AND SOMEONE PICKED HIM UP AND TOOK HIM TO THE POLICE STATION. They could have kept going! sheesh, i felt like dirt, it happened that fast.

It can happen to us all, i crawled into that police station to pick him up, then i had to tell my husband! I know it was the talk of the town for several days, i have lived in enough small towns to know that! There is not a worse feeling.

Jeanette, no one is judging you about your struggle with your 12 year old, and if they do just send them to me!!! I'll tell them a thing or two!!!

I also have had a couple of similar experiences, it is just terrifying. Glad it all ended well, I think we forget how many good people there are in the world and just think of all the horror stories. You are a terrific mom.

Hope this week goes by well for you.

Thanks. I really wasnt worried about what others think but I didnt want to come on and have someone say it. So I thought I would put it out there in the first place. I did feel like a horrible mother.

Judith, I couldnt imagine being in a small town and having this happen. But on a funny note, there where probably more people at germanfest then in your town. :)

Nancy, I will send them your way. lol.

LOL Jeanette, the town was only 2900. It can happen in an instant!

I got lost in Detroit Metro airport when I was 5. We went to see my dad off on a business trip, and as we left, mom was carrying my younger brother, and I set off one way, and mom the other. By the time she realized, I was long gone. By the time I realized she wasn't there, I was already outside, and I stopped and froze. Stood outside this door. My mom panicked and found someone to send a message over the PA about me. Well my dad heard just as he was boarding the plane, so he came looking, and finally someone that worked there saw me and asked if I was Melissa and then took me to meet mom. It's just as scary for us kids:)

Hope your week is great!

It is scarey for both, glad it ended good that is all I can say.

Anyway, so how have I been, well, yeah. Lets just say I am not going to get anywhere with my behavior so time to start again, and again and again. But I am really excited about starting my challenge on sunday. I love that song and I keep singing over and over, now to just find it somewhere to download so I can put it on my mp3 player.

After I pay some bills up I am going to buy myself some good shoes also. Mine are ok, but they are almost 6 months old now for some that isnt old but when I wear them all the time, for work and running around, walking and everything else in between then they wear out alot quicker. But that wont be for awhile, I have some unfinished bills I have to take care of first and it wouldnt be right for me to go and spend that much money on shoes when I owe money. I dont like it when people do it to me and I couldnt do it to someone else. So once that is done and over with, then I will buy my shoes I have been wanting for some time except at the moment I cant think of what they are called. lol.

So that is all for now, off to read my harry potter book. I started over cause I cant remember what is happening, and I never read 5 or 6 so cant get 7 yet.

I am not sure what song you are talking about but it reminded me of the BL theme song and thought it would be just awesome to have on my ipod for those days I am feeling a little less than motivated, lol. Was that the one you meant?

No, I think its called walk 500 miles, but it probably has a different name. I love that song.

Things are getting well, I dont know anymore, but I am going to keep trying. I will adventally get to something, I will sooner or later make all my goals and stop going in circles. I will get there and there will be an end to all this madness someday.

So I just got done watching the first week of fat march and I have to say, I am unsure about the show. I will give it time though. 65 miles in one week, that is awesome. I wouldnt have voted Shane off, I would have gone back and made up those 13 miles. HELLO< can we say snacks and water, though I should be to harsh they really didnt show to much. It was a huge bits and pieces. And Kim, I liked her and wish she would have gotten her act together. The one difference that makes Biggest Loser better though is they showed what people are doing now. Which I think helps. I am unsure about making people sleep outside in the cold though. That is a bit harsh but hey, its not my show.

I did almost 2 and half miles during the show of walking/jogging in place. Which isnt to bad because i fast forward all the commercials. So off to do more activities.

I have not seen that TV show. I'll look. I think that you should buy the darn shoes. If they help you walk longer and better and help prevent impact injury, then what is the down-side? I know that you don't like to spend money on yourself, but we're not talking about a pair of Italian pumps here that go with a Gucci dress. Geesh.

Have a great week.

Hey small,

good girl for walking through the show!!! I missed part of the show. My hubby watches tv downstairs alot while the rest of us watch upstairs. He is just into sports and business tv alot more. Well, about 1/3 way through Fat Walk he comes up and asks be if I want to watch a different show with him, sigh, that he came up to watch it with me. Well I realize he is trying to spend some time together so I switch channels and his show isn't on, it was on the listings but not on the tv. So there was a new comedy show on so thought he might want to check that one out so started watching that with him and he descides to go, he says that he can tell I am not happy about missing the other show, sigh, what to do!?!?!?! So, I let him go to bed and I finished watching Fat Walk.

Oh, goodness, just remembered that was your journal. Sorry for the long story.

I am not sure about Shane, if he had stress fractures then it might have been impossible for him to finish. I think he was surprised at how much he could do though. I'll bet he does alot on his own.

Well, better give you back your journal, lol. Take care.

CFJ-you hit it on the head, part of it is spending that much money on myself. Ugg, the thought makes me just, I dont even have words to explain it. But you are right, they will help me, tons.

Nancy, I agree with that part about Shane, I forgot about the foot fracture. But some where saying for his health and others where saying because they didnt want to rewalk the 13 miles. If for his health, then yes, I understand, if its because they didnt want to walk 13 miles, well, that is a shame.

Feel free to take over at anytime in my journal, I quite enjoy it.

Well so far it looks like i am the biggest loser but not in the sense I want it to be. I dont know what my problem is. Well I sort of do. I need to tape my mouth shut, I need to stop going to the store, I need to figure out what is the wrong with me. After figuring out my BMI again I am in between ok, and obcese again. That is not ok with me. I just have to figure out something. I do have some motivation for myself and I am hoping that it works out. The job interview I had yesterday went pretty well, so that gives me 3 weeks to get my act together because if I get that job I need to get some dress up clothes. And well, I dont want to buy them in the size i am now. Now I wont say it because well, I get slack sometimes for it. Because I am not a huge person, and with all my weight on the bottom half that doesnt help at all. So yes I wear a bigger size but I will do this, I will get my act together.

Dilema two. I really need a new pair of shoes. I wanted to get the expensive ones but have heard some bad things about them now also. I dont know what to do. My shoes I get arent cheap to begin with because of having difficult feet in a wierd size so I am not spending that much more depending on the style. And also if I order them off of ebay they will be cheaper. I think I will go and try them on in the store again and see what happens. I dont really know. I can say that if I dont get new shoes soon my back and knees are going to hate me but its takes forever for me to find the right shoe and if I cant find the right size because i have little feet and for some reason its hard to find 6 or 6.5 size shoes. Sometimes I have to go into the boys section to find shoes. So when I find something I like I try to get two pairs so I have them for the year, but I only had enough money last time to get the one pair. So 6 months for a pair of shoes isnt a long time when you have to spend that much money but I heard these last longer also. They are very good quality. I dont know what to do. I wish I could go to walmart and just get a pair of athletic shoes like I can do with other kinds of shoes I dont wear everyday.

Ugg, life, it is interesting.

Hello! Yes i go in those circles too but eventually we find the hole in the loop to sneak through and keep on going. You have a small shoe size like my daughter. I wear a 7 or 7 1/2 depending. I havent watched that show much but should try and catch it. I did like the biggest loser and celebrity fit club. I try to avoid the tv because it makes me want to eat. LOL take care and hope u find the shoes u want.

Small, don't worry. There is nothing wrong with getting boys shoes. I have had to buy mens runners for years and years now. So, just go for it.

Get the shoes! You still have not bought them? OMG!

I'm pretty picky about my feet (used to be a field biologist, and your feet are your life 3-days hike away from the jeep in the desert or mountains), and can't imagine even worrying myself over price...unless it meant that I would not make the electric bill payement or something. I will gladly skip all other expenses for a month or more to get a decent pair of shoes that fit. Don't go the Ebay route for shoes either. Especially if you are hard to fit. I would not buy them unless I tried them on first. Get what works. If it is in the boys department...just try to skip the spiderman sneakers...:laugh:

All shoes wear out, but sometimes you have to live with what bad shoes do to your feet for the rest of your life. I would rather go bare-foot or wear cheap but high-arch sandles to work out in, rather than get crappy shoes that can hurt your arches, ankles, acheles tendons, toes, etc.

Okay, enough about shoes. Have a great week!

Yes, I have not bought them, and I dont buy anything that is shoes or clothes that I havent tried on first in the store because I am so wierd about stuff like that.

Part of my problem is I hate things on my feet. Ok, so the truth comes out. Not to mention it is a pain in the butt to buy them.

OH small, you silly girl. Now if you need shoes, go to the store, find a good pair that are in your budget, enjoy them, be happy. Maybe you can even find some cute socks to go with them or a nice pair of workout shorts/pants to help make you feel better and more like walking.

You are so cute.

Look, if I dont admit to my problems I cant help myself solve them. lol. Really, that is probably why I dont have friends. And the ones i have wont go shopping with me. My hubby wont even go. He has no problems with spending money on himself, even if he really doesnt need things at the moment he thinks he needs them. My husband and I are on opposite sides when it comes to that for sure.

So my goal right now is to lose some of this weight. Any means possible at this time. Which would be to stop eating junk. Hello, a pint of ben and jerry's and then ask, why cant I lose weight, cant go in the same sentence. I had a few choice names for myself but felt they where not appropriate for the board. So I dont know what I should do. Tape my mouth shut would be one. I could go back on ww again. Hello I am paying for it. But I just cant stay focused on that.

Something needs to change. I need to change. I will say it over and over. I know what i need to do, so why cant I just do it. It seems so silly to me. As I even sit here and type it. Just do it. There I will just go and buy a pair of Nike's. Good thing i am off today. I have hours to spend trying on shoes. :) and really last time it took me four hours to find a pair of shoes that I really didnt like but they where comfy and they had my size and my four year old threw himself to the floor and just sighed. lol. for the the last 30 minutes. What a trooper he is.

Hi just popping in to see how you are doing because I see you in the BL challangethread and ealized you are a smaller type person like me. (Well , in my case a shorter type person).

I have the same problem with shoes, I only wear 5.5. I never thought about going to the boys' department. I think I'll get the Spiderman ones though!

Pat

LOL, could you imagine me going to work with spider man shoes on. The residents would think I lost it more then they already do. lol. Thanks for popping by.

Ok, so I still have no new shoes, but I am still waiting a bit. Couldnt find anything that fit right and the ones that where ok they didnt have my size and I am not in the mood to go around town. But i am off for until thursday which means that I can walk around pair foot and enjoy it. lol

So I have decided that back to weight watchers I go. After learning something about myself the two days I worked I was quite surprised by the results. So I need to up my water again which is a given. And I also am going to stick to my points. Even with working, I am going to try my best to make it work. Which is should. I have bought some lunch meat, some lettuce, a red onion, and some tortillas to make myself a sandwich wrap. I have some tomatoe , garden fresh not from the store. I am eating french toast for breakfast but I have some fruit to snack on later if I get hungry, and I made some noodle salad last night that i will have a bowl full. I made a smaller batch but kept the same amount of veggies, so there are a ton a veggies. Which is good thing.

Well that is all I have for now. I am looking at it in one perspective. If I get that job I will need some dress up clothes, and well, I really dont want to go out and buy a whole new waredrobe for work in a size i am not comfortable with. So they said it would be about 3 weeks to hear them. Which means, that I am down to 2 weeks plus a two week notice from my other job. So about a month to get some weight off. Plus my friend has some clothes I can borrow for now, because I would have to weight for my first pay check from them to buy anything. Thank goodness I didnt get rid of any of my dress up shoes.

Small,

It is SO good to hear you sounding much more positive. It was a rough stretch for you, BUT you are getting back on track!!! I hope you enjoy your week, get on track, and enjoy those tapes!!!

Thanks nancy. Did 3 miles of watp videos today.

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OMG< that is so cute. Tomorrow I am going to try for more. I am hoping this weather gives up sooner or later so I could get outside and walk. We need the rain though.

Well the weather isnt giving in. But that is ok to a point. Cuz I have been having problems with my roof leaking and of course the wonderful apartment people have more excuses for things then they actually fix. I pay way to much rent here to have so many excuses. Especially with major problems happening like a leaky roof. And there are huge water spots on the ceiling, I call and complain, they say its fixed and guess what, hello, my kids said we ahve more water spots and sure enough there they are, huge ones. After going through this for a year you would think they might look into a roofer. But of course that costs money. I can tell you the people that own this place have a bit of that unless they are really bad business people. But why own properties if you dont want to take care of them. I wish I had the money to buy a house. I dont think I will have it even when my husband wants to move and what we can "afford" isnt any bigger then what we are renting so to me what is the point. I dont know what to do. I guess I will have to start to play the lottery because then I will have some extra money.

One thing small, is if you find a house, even the same size as what you are in, you will have some equity when you want to move, but you will also have to have homeowners insurance, will be responsible for all repairs yourselves, etc. What about a new apartment or duplex? I don't know. What about calling in some health inspectors or building inspectors and get them to put the pressure on the landlords.

Well, don't let this stress wreck your day, you still chose to make it a good day.

I am going to still make it a good day, the only thing is my knees are bothering me. So I will limit my exercise a bit.

Ok, I made it two miles and my knees hurt to bad. So I am going to take it easy. Ok, so that is good.

Ok, I need to vent, may I. I think I can since this is my journal to vent in. So exactly how do people afford to buy homes actually. And homes they really like. What am I dont wrong. I still dont know. Anyone want to become a land lord under the conditions that my friend and I will pay for the house ourselves. Take care of the house, are able to do the updates ourselves, do was we pretty much please to the house except that someone else has to buy it for us and we just pretend it is ours at this point because that is the only way we can get a house that will be something more then what we have. Ugg. what a pain in the butt this is.

Oh, they came to look at the roof again. Teh good maintance man came. He is wonderful. And he said he is going to call the roofers. Which I believe him because he does take care of things the correct way. Nice man.

Oh that is great that the good maintenance guy came, what a relief.

And vent all you want!!! Go for it!!! I can't help you much with how to do things though, sorry.

YEah, I dont know how to fix the problem either. lol. But I will figure it out. If I have to win the lottery and I think I will start to play it.

Thanks for stopping in to welcome me!:D

Hi Smallfri! :wave:

Wouldn't you really like to know how some people afford the things they have??? My husband and I think we're doing something wrong. Cause my husband makes more than the average guy and we still don't have a lot of the things that other people have. Somehow we must live wrong. 8-|

How come your knees are hurting so much? Did you do something to them? I don't remember you complaining about them before! Hope this passes soon! :hug:

Yeah, I know, I wonder what my husband and I do wrong sometimes also.

My knees just started hurting the past two days. Out of now where. It is the wierdest thing.

Ok to all my moms, I finally did it. I go on wednesday for all my blood work. I also go for a cat scan which I am totally freaking out on and I talked to the doctor about me gaining weight and such so he is going to look at all the blood work on things and see what is happening. Just wanted to let everyone know because I will be gone now for the rest of the weekend because i feel like crap.

I'm glad you got those things scheduled! Might as well have things checked out. Hope you're feeling better soon! :hug:

Have you been to the doctor about your knees? You know...they may suggest that you wear corrective insoles with high arches IN YOUR NEW CUSHIONED AND SUPPORTIVE WORKOUT SHOES. I had to put that in there. Sorry.

People used to walk in natural settings, where the forest floor, loose dirt, sand, etc. coddled the feet more. We walk around on hard floors and concrete all day. Get the shoes.

LOL, oh and I forgot all the dads out there to. I got the shoes. Actually I won two pairs. Ugg, dummy me. long story. But I got a great deal. Almost two pairs for the price I would pay for one in the store so I cant complain to much. And my knees are feeling better. I dont know they must just have not liked me for a day or so. Who knows.

Jeannette,

I'm delighted that you're going to FINALLY be given a total exam ... I understand your being WORRIED but that's true for all of us when it comes to the UNKNOWN. Keeping a very positive thought .. :peace: I am as always, Monica

Hi Smallfri :wave:

I have had several cat scans and really they are OK - not a big deal. I was scared too though before my first one. Now days a lot of places even pipe in music for you to listen too - it will be fine :)

Please keep us posted.....

Now, I am totally freaked out. I didnt realize I would be stuck in a box. I am beyond scared of small places, enclosed places, and such places. so I am calling my doctor tomorrow and see if its possible to go in feet first so my head is toward the opening. Otherwise a large hammer should do the trick.

Oh smallfri ! I am so sorry ! I did not mean to scare you even more - my apologies :rose:

OK well how was it? did you do OK? I guess by now you know they can't do a cat scan feet first ;)

It went well. It was actually a huge doughnut looking thing that you slid through so it wasnt enclosed at all.