I think I've been out of Diettalk for 4 years! Am back again .. after my recent loss of my dearest hubby who lost his battle to lung cancer. We were extremely happily married for 9 years. I did get the big pix at the end - realising why we couldnt have kids and accepting the fact that my dearest hubby had to leave so early. Let's just say, the strength given by God was amazing and I was able to pull thru the whole journey w/o having a breakdown. Now I wonder, what's next for me??

Anyway, I'm back here to lose another few pounds and basically vent my frustrations of my daily life to the supportive readers here. I lost 15 lbs during hubby's last few months.

Dear China: I am so so sorry about the loss of your dear hubby:hug:.. I know you have been away for quite awhile.. I have missed you and I am sure others have too... So nice to have you back... I have enjoyed the tea you sent me so much...I have tried to get it here with little luck with no name .lol...
I hope it gets a bit easier day by day for you. My prayers and thoughts are with you:cross:

Lulu

Dear ChinaDoll, I am deeply sorry about your loss. :rose:
I did miss you and have thought of you many times during these years.
I am sending you positive thoughts and prayers. :cross:

Dear China,

I too want to add my condolences :console: at the loss of your husband ...

I'm glad to see you back again and I'm here for you .. Monica

HI ChinaDoll :wave: I have thought of you often.

I am so sorry to hear of your husband passing :hug:

sorry to hear of your loss. My heart goes out to you. Was glad to see your name again though.

Oh Chinadoll, I have missed you and thought of you often.........I am so sorry about your DH. I know no words can express the sorrow or help with the pain but just know that you are not alone and I pray the arms of Jesus will surround you each day and feel you with his peace and help you in your everyday life. Know that you are in my prayers and I'm sending hugs your way. Please continue to come here.......I've missed you my friend and wondered about you for a long time.
Talk to you later.........

It is good to see you back China Doll. I was thinking of you just a few weeks ago. I was really wondering how you were and that I missed your interesting posts.

I am so sorry for your loss. My prayers and thoughts go out to you in this hard time in your life.

Carol

Hi Everyone,

Thank you all for your heartfelt words. I am truly touched!

Well, it's been a month since I last post. Nothing has changed -> diet-wise / exercise-wise. No movement in any weight loss ... sigh! I think sometimes I eat 'cos I dun want to waste my food or I havent eaten anything since ? hours ago. I really dun have to eat but I did anyway, hence I could have lost some weight. Got to be more determined!

Not feeling my best today - mood is low. Hope to return in a better mood next post.

:hug: ChinaDoll,
I am so sorry that you have lost your dear hubby. I'm sure that is very hard. I am glad you chose to come back to Diettalk too.
There is so much support for you here, not only in diet and exercise issues, but with any personal issues you want to share.
I hope you are feeling better soon. I will be praying for you!


Vickie :hug:

Good Morning China,

I hear you but KNOW THAT YOU ARE BEING THOUGHT ABOUT .. :hug: Monica

Hi ChinaDoll, thanks for visiting us again and sharing your mood.
Hang in there!
Just so you know, I once thought my life was over when I got divorced at 38, even if everyone was telling me I was young and it was not too late to start over. But they were right: I met my new husband 4 months before I turned 40 and I had my first child at 42.
Hope that helps a little. :hug:

Hi China.. :rose: It is understandable that you are having difficulty exercising, dieting etc... Time is a great healer..
Just allow yourself that time to grieve etc.. and who knows what any of our future holds for us.. so one day at a time is a good way to go :rose:

Hi China,

I agree with Lulu. One day at a time is good advice and each day will be a bit easier. Healing is a long time project. Take care of your health.

Carol

Hi Everyone,

I finally got the treadmill out, cleaned it and started using it last nite. For now, I'm still doing the brisk walk but hopefully someday, I'll be running on it.

Still feeling lousy despite filling my days with activities. But the good news is that I lost a bit and I'm officially back to average weight. Gosh, it's been 12 years since I had this weight. Scary what a happy marriage can do to me!

Sigh ...
stats: 136|120|115

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. You have had a very difficult time. I am happy to see you back. It is hard to realize that it has been 4 years since you were posting.
I hope you start to feel better but this is likely the way your body is dealing with grief.

Pat

Hi ChinaDoll, good for you that you took that treadmill out! Exercise will certainly help keeping your mood up.
Congratulations on getting back to your average weight! I see you are taking good care of yourself. :rose:
Have a great day. :)

Hi ChinaDoll, just checking on you...
Hope you are having a nice day! :rose:

Hi Aria - tks for dropping by.

I know, I'm terrible. I hardly logged in here.

There's not much to report. I just havent been eating a lot lately, really restricting my food intake. Hope to use the treadmill this weekend.

stats: 136|117|115

Hi ChinaDoll, so nice to hear from you! :wave:

It's ok to be a little hungry, but don't you go starving, now! In this box (make it the size you want), you will find some of your favorite healthy foods... :gift:

Good idea to use your treadmill this weekend. I wish I had a treadmill...just not enough space. :( I really have to up the outside walking.

Hope you have an interesting week-end! :rose:

Hi ChinaDoll, hope you are having a nice day... :)

Hi ChinaDoll, how are you? Hope you had a nice weekend. :)

Hi Aria,

Thanks for always dropping by to say hi! I really appreciate your concern and hope you are doing well!

Finally, I'm at 117, it's an ideal weight for me tho it's never good enough (being a typical woman!). How I got to this weight was a series of events:
- I've been having a stressful time dealing with stuff that's giving my stomach butterflies (not good) and loss of appetite.
- recurrence of hyperthyroid and the doctor is currently trying to adjust the right dosage.

I am trying to maintain the weight now ... it won't be easy once I come out of this phase. Sigh .....

Hi Chinadoll,

Good to see you back! I missed the post originally when you came back in February. My dh was in the hospital and I wasn't on DT very much over the winter, spring and summer. But I'm back to stay and hope to see you here more.

Take Care of yourself!

Hi China Doll,

Glad to see you back here posting.

Carol

I am glad to see you back and hope your stressful situation clears up soon. You have done well in getting to your goal while still dealing with your deep loss.

Hi ChinaDoll and thanks for posting in my journal! :wave:
Wow, here you are at 117 lbs!
I did not realize you had to take medication for a medical condition, hope that gets stabilized soon.
So good to see you back, I hope you stick around, lol.
Have a great day! :love: