:D Well it is about time that I came back here, to get back on track. I know that I have been gone too long!

I feel pretty good today. I worked on the garden, did the dishes, and 3 loads of laundry. I motivated my husband to finally change out the fence in front of the house. Now all I need to do is paint the fence.

I have decided that since I cannot finish everything in one day, I need to just work on getting what I can get done. Then I have to be satisfied with that.

I already have the exercise going well. The gym 3 days a week for 1- 1 1/2 hours. Then pilates on Tuesdays for 1 hour.

I just need to get the diet working, and then I will have it made.

So I will take care of things one day at a time.

Hiya Pat,

Welcome Back!

Sounds like ur pretty active that is a Great Start! Your Already 1/2 way there I am sure you'll get the diet going Soon!

Take Care

Cathy

Cathy-- Thanks for visiting.... I just find it sooo darn difficult to get the food under control. I am just taking it one day at a time...

Today is another day. The depression is a little strong right now, but I am planning on leaving for the gym pretty soon. So that will help.

I can't decide what to eat for breakfast, I just know that not eating is NOT an option. I know that eating 3 meals a day is very important-- I just need to work on the snacking! One thing at a time....

I thought about joining the "Binge free for March" blog-- but starting this late in the month, seems too late. There I go again, thinking that it is too late. It is never to late to stop the binge, and start the self love.

Oh well, I need to get on with my day....

Welcome back! My grade 9 teacher used to say "better never than late" which makes me laugh.

Anyway, welcome back!
Corinna

Welcome back too Pat! Your taking a step in the right direction.

I personally know controlling food portion and intake is one of the hardest things to master in this whole process but you will get there! Just keep taking it one day at a time.

Good luck to you on this journey. We can do this!! Look forward to seeing you around the board. :hug:

welcome back.

Corinna, NuMe, and Smallfri-- Thank you all for the warm welcome back. It is so wonderful to see people visit, especially after a long and tiring weekend at work.

Anyways, things went ok over the weekend. They had a fundraiser at work, where the Bikers for Christ had a Poker Fun Run to benifit Larc Ranch. They had a bbq for the residents, which was fun for everyone. It was pretty warm, seeing that we had to wear these really hot, dark blue shirts that we are required to wear whenever there is a special function, or we go out in the community with the clients. It was great to get out of that shirt after the function.

Food has been out of control. Today is a new day, and I don't have to focus on my failures, but rather what I am doing right.

So these are my goals for today:
1. Go to pilates today
2. Get my 2 hours of work done around the house
3. See my therapist today, and tell her once again that I really didn't make any progress on some things that I could do instead of eating.
4. Make food just something that is needed to live, like breathing. Instead of viewing it a cure all for my life.

I just have to do this for today.... So I know that it can be done!

Later:o

Thought I should put down some words before I go and relax in my bed. I worked really hard today. I spent 3 hours cleaning around the house. Granddaughter was helping so I got half the work done in twice the time. Well, I've got to love her.
I then went and did some major shopping this afternoon, then come home, put away the food, make dinner.... ect...ect...ect...:laugh:

This is my second day of being sugar free! I am feeling better already. I know if I can just stay away from the sugar, a lot of my binging, and overeating will diminish and this will become easier.

I need to really stretch out my back. So...

To be continued...

:stpatty: Well another week is winding down! I can hardly believe that my 5 days off have gone so quickly! Anyways, I need to write some positive things that happened this week.
Monday:
I only got 6 hours sleep each night Fri- Sun. So I was really tired. However, I did go to the gym that morning. I then took a 2 hour nap. Movies later with my husband was quite nice as well. We went to the cheap theaters and saw 27 Dresses.
Tuesday:
I went to Pilates, then had lunch with my granddaughter. Afterwards I went to my therapy appointment. I got some wonderful advice from her. She said I should put on a bracelet that would re-affirm my commitment to stay off the sugar. Then I stopped at K-Mart to pick up a few things. After dinner I found an old charm bracelet, and took off all of the charms and put on ones that were meaningful for me. I have a mustard seed inside a clear bubble. That reminds me of a fresh new start, a new beginning that starts at the beginning of each day. Then I have one that has an anchor, cross and a heart. That signifies the need to heal the physical, spiritual and emotional aspects of my life. Then the American Flag to remind me that I can be free from the damage my disease is causing. The mask of Humor and Tragedy, to remind me that life is full of both, but to always remember that the mask of humor is on top. The bike is for exercise that is very important for me as well. I just need to get one charm for each of my grandchildren to remind me that I am wanted and needed unconditionally, and a Califorina poppy for the gardener in me. Those will be fun to look for over the months to come. This bracelet is to remind myself of the commitment that I made to stay sugar free!
Wednesday:
I went to yet another meeting on dementia. I must admit, even though we go through this every year I always come away with some new way to deal with our residents that may develop this condition while in my care. It was well worth the time. I did have to get up really early to go to the gym that day, since I knew once I got back from the meeting I wouldn't want to go out then and I was right. Played my Sims video game after dinner until bedtime.
Thursday:
spent most of the morning and early afternoon taking care of Ivy and cleaning my house. Then went out to lunch with hubby and then grocery shopping. Came home and made dinner. By 9 pm I went to sleep. Just warn out from the week so far.

Today I plan on working some more on my house, going to the gym, making dinner, doing so ironing and preparing for going to work over the weekend. Then it is early for bed because I have to get up around 3:30 Saturday morning for work. Whew! AND I thought I never got anything done!:laugh::whip:

8-| My week has been going ok so far.
I have been trying to follow a new diet plan that was on TLC? Sunday night. I can follow the second step without any problems.
It is easy to eat whatever I want. The more challenging is following the other three. Really discovering when I am hungry and not emotional hungry is difficult. Then eating with purpose. Slowing down as I chew, concentrating on every bite. The final step, is stopping once I feel that I am full. Well, I just do the best I can. Yesterday I weighed myself at the gym. So my starting weight will be (205.8). That kind of set me back for a tailspin. I am over the gain, and need to have a starting point. So, I have commited myself to this lifestyle change. I cleaned the dining room, bought a new tablecloth and cut flowers to make my eating enviroment the least stressful. This morning I have followed all the steps to the letter. I still need to slow down on my eating, but I was a whole lot slower then I ever was in the past. I actually felt myself getting full. This Sunday the program will be explaining what to do about the emotional eating. I know with every plan I try... I try to get it to fit into a mold that has failed in the past. It is just insanity that I could expect the different results from doing the same thing.
Today I am going to work outside pulling weeds, ect. Then after I go to the doctors to have my blood pressure checked (another binge thing for me), I am going to run over to Home Depot to pick up paint to paint the fence. That is my plan for today.... I can get these things done today...
Well off with me---:laugh: