Hi! It's been so long since I have written. I started a new journal rather than going back and looking for the old one.

In my last entry I told I was going to be gone for a few days to my uncle's funeral. It was good to see all the relatives and spend two days with my sister. BUT........when we got home we found our father on the kitchen floor. He had been lying there over night and was in terrible shape. We called the ambulance and he has been in the hopstial every since. He isn't doing very well. He had pneumonia and other things seem to be going on too. He is very depressed and wants to die. It has been very hard. I feel so sorry for him. He is having trouble walking and isn't eating. The first of the week we will be moving him to a Nursing Home which he is going to hate. He is 93 and very stubborn. It is very sad.

I haven't been doing well riding my bike. I have only done it about three times since all this started but I am determinded to get going. I know I would feel better. The eating hasn't been too bad. I haven't been on the scale. I never weigh myself unless I'm doing everything right. Probably not the best way to do it.

I will write more tomorrow. Thank you for reading my journal.

My heart goes out to you ZoeZoe. Please take care of yourself and don't think about weighing in - that's the least of the issues going on.

But do try to eat good healthy food - get your fruits and veggies in. They will give you the energy and stamina you need to get through this dark time.

Hugs
Mugs

It is a cool spring morning here in South Dakota but it is beautiful out.

Just got off my bike. It feels good to get the blood flowing. I am determined to do it everyday this week. I have to do it right away in the morning before the day takes me away.

Today I am going to a baby shower. They are always so fun. It is for a friends new granddaughter.

Before I go to the shower I will go to the hospital and check on Dad. I hope he is feeling better today. He is so down it is hard to take. The next few days are going to be very hard for him.

Tomorrow I was planning to go to DS spring concert. It is 2 1/2 hours away. There is snow in the forecast for here so I have decided not to go. I'm really bummed about it. I didn't get to go his Christmas concert either because of the weather. Guess that is just part of living here. (and being a chicken)

We are in full swing of calving. Yesterday we got 14 new babies. They are so cute. Hope the weather doesn't bet too bad!!

I am going to try very hard to have a good eating day. Yesterday was pretty good except for TWO rice crispy bars at my sisters. We were visiting, having coffee and they were just setting there right in front of me and I ate them!!! I could have eaten the whole plate full. grr

My sister's second son is leaving for the air force today. I was at her house yesterday to say good bye. It is really hard for us all to see him go but that's what he wants to do. The timing is bad because of Dad but what we live through makes us stronger!!!

I hope everyone is having a good weekend. Thanks for stopping by and reading my journal.

mugwump-I do have to take better care of me to be strong. Thanks!!

Pat,

So sorry about your dad, I hope he is able to recover from this but it is good that he is going to have constant care now. It is hard when they get older.

Looking for ZoeZoe!!! Come on zoie, you can do it. Journalling helps to keep us on track!!! Come back soon.