Just like it says.

When I started here (again) I was 326.5 lbs. A few months later I'm 312.5.

I was hoping to be further along, but I'l face facts, I didn't really settle into anything long enough to actually loose more. Some of that was my fault, some of it was circumstance, all of it adds up to a good(ish) start, but not enough.

I had a journal here perviously, which many of you may have read. I'm thankful for that and hope you all settle into this one nicely as well. This IS the journal i will have until the number 3 is GONE from in front of my weight.

Here is how I will do it.
-I have been given 37 Weight Watchers points to use everyday. Plus the 35 flex points. I'm going to aim to use No flex points and between 27 and 37 points a day.

-I will take my Thyroid pill EVERYDAY!

-At LEAST 10 mins on the treadmill a day. Maybe more. Never less. 7 days a week. Yes 7.. alllllllllll 7. I will learn to love moving my body.

-3 litres of water a day. Plain water, water with crystal light, or 0 calorie tea or whatever.. 3 big old sloshing litres.

-BREAKFAST AND LUNCH are a must. Not just a huge binge at dinner time just because "I have the points and I haven't eaten all day." As a matter of fact, i want to try and eat 5 - 6 time a day. Spread those points out.

-Track, track, track! Food, Water, exercise.

-Reward myself for the good stuff I do and stop consoling myself with gifts and excusing the things I fail at.

-Be accountable, to me and to others. Here, my friends, is where you come in. ***I GIVE YOU ALL PERMISSION TO KICK MY ASS GOOD WHEN YOU SEE ME GOING OFF TRACK AND GETTING WHINEY*** Yep, that's right. Don't handle me with kid gloves. Encourage me and support me and get downright mean when you think I need it. I'll love you all the more for it and I'll return the favor if you wish. I'm big girl, I can take it.

I have on my arm a pink braclette. My kids gave it to me. It says Best Friends on it. It's woven with a plastic clasp. It's more precious to me then almost any other piece of jewelery I own. I almost couldn't get it on my arm, to much fat. It's on, and it's not coming off, not until I am healthy.

12.5 lbs.. I am giving myself 2 months. Today is April 19, 2008. On June 19, 2008 I will be 299 or lower. No excuses.

April 19, 2008

Breakfast: Slim-Fast Shake. 5WW points.

Snack: Cheese, assorted. 8WW points.

Lunch: 2 Low fat Corn Dogs 8 WW Points

Snack: Green Tea Ginger Ale 4 WW Points

Dinner: 2 Low Fat Cor Dogs 8 ww Points (Yay for not cooking on Saturdays)

33 Points Total
10 Mins on Mill

Hey Kendra!! I'm the first in your new journal. i know you want kick-ass advice but I want to tell you not to discredit the loss you had so far. Sooner or later we WILL get spring and I know I used to always come into spring with a gain. So your loss this year in other years could likely have been that much of a gain.

To me the bonus of living so far north is how late it stays nice out in the spring and the good walking weather in summer, spring and fall. Do you live close enough to the River Valley that you and the kids could walk down there? They would love the walking trails and it would tire them out when it is hard to get them to sleep when it is light so late.

See I'm talking as though I believe that it eventually is a going to stop snowing.

What a good plan to wear your bracelet as a reminder. Our bracelets and rings are what we have in our line of vision all the time. So each time you reach out to pick up food it will give you a visual reminder to think it this a good or bad decision.

Let's be farther along in our goals by the time summer does get to us. Maybe by then we can meet up at Pengi's fancy renovated digs and see baby hippo puppies.:laugh:

Pat

Kendra,

Love your new journal and love, love your goals!!! I also commend you on your 14 pounds gone and kept off and I believe that you are going to be under 300 in just a few short months. You can do it!!!

Fabulous determined opening post! I'm excited to see you follow through and work toward those goals -- you've got a great plan & an excellent start!

I especially like your walking goal... Exercising at least a little each day & building that habit truly helps. I never thought I'd become an exerciser, but it happened just that way. Go for it!

Lisrey :up:

Hi Kendra, nice to meet you :D I think your goals sound very well thought out and practical and achievable!

:cheers: Cheers to you as you set out to meet them!! I can be a good ass-kicker so watch out ;)

Hi Kendra... Great goals... 37 points sounds great for now.. as you know they will drop soon enough as your weight drops.. Don't rush things too much or go to low or you will end up hungry and that is a bad thing..
The slow way is the way to go and no matter how long it takes you will keep it off longer than a quick loss.. and congrats on that 14 lbs already gone..
Pat and you going to visit Pengii sounds great.
Take care

:jn :jn :jn


get that ol red headed fire going buddy !!



It is contagious



your plan sounds great and very realistic, the most important thing !!



I hope your sunday is good and you guys dont have to travel in this crap anywhere



:x



xo

Do you got snow out there.. It has been beautiful all week and next week too.. the 20's... ooops sorry off topic..

YAY for visitors!

Yes we got snow.. it SUCKS! I am so so ready for SPRING!!!

Pat, yes let us soon go and frolic with hippo puppies!

Lulu.. this snow may make me cry! It was 24 last weekend for crying out loud!

Nausicca.. anyone who has lost what you have lost is welcome to kick my ass any day of the week! I look forward to hopefully seeing you a lot in my journal!

Pengi... we are getting our new car in the next few days, more mobility means a better chance of us actually getting together! I'm praying for the return of spring soon and with the my compressed work week starts, every other friday is a day off and the ones I have to work I get to leave early! We WILL make the time for ourselves!

MONDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.. sunday I didn't post but i DID track in my little book. I did well. Under in points, got all the water in.. no exercise but I was having SNOW SHOCK.

Today I started off my day with Strawberry Mini Wheats (3 points) and SKIM milk (2 points) = 5 points
Took my pill and got 1/4 of my daily water already drank.

Crazy ass April weather! 50 cm of snow.. - 24 with windchill this is after we had ALL the snow melt and got some serious sunshine the other day! 26 cars went off the road during the morning commute, 6 city busses got stuck and had to be dug out. This is crazy!

You go girl. I am with you, no more whining, want everyone to tell me to suck it up and get over it, and get your butt in gear. I will kick yours if you come and kick mine.

Sorry for the cold and the snow.. It sucks.. for sure.. I hope it is not headed this way..but I will not crow or gloat for fear we may have more.. It has been too nice the last two weeks..
Keep up your good eating.. We will get this weight off..:)

Have a great day in spite of it all

:hug: Lulu

Incredible huh


I got the quad stuck in driveway this morn



ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff




I hope that was not summer last weekend




hope your day is good




:x

Congrats on the good eating Sunday! Every day adds up! I hope today was a great one, too -- and warmer?? Brrrrr!!

Lisrey :spring:

I am taking a SNOW DAY in APRIL! It was to miserable to send the kid to school, me to work and whatever else. But eating and exercise has been great. I'm not even thinking about it, or *****ing and moaning. I'm just doing it.
Breakfast today was a shake 5 points.
Pill taken and half water drank already

Totally justifiable day off today friend !!

good for you to not hitting the fridge all day... I did that yesterday and it did not stop the storm

go figure 8-|


what kind of car are you getting? it will prob be less of a headache for you with wheels huh...esp as kids get older too


anyhow



hope the snow does not get you down too much



have a good day



:x

Way to go staying strong & keeping on target. You are doing this! I can't believe it about your big snow... We are enjoying a very nice spring now that it finally decided to get here. Wishing it for you!

Lisrey :cheer:

Kendra,
Just found your new journal, hope everything is going well for you. Sounds like a snow day was just what yu all needed today. Great job on the eating and exercising.

hugs,

Back at work, feeling positive.. sorta jittery (it's the slim quicks I've been taking) and I think I may have just taken 2 thyroid pills.. Hopefully I don't have some kind of episode. Me all hopped up on caffeine is just never a good thing.

My Strawberry Slim-fast tastes like buttered popcorn.. hrmmm. No I don't really belive that the Slim-quick will make me slim.. quick or that the Slim-fast will speed up this process. However, I like the jolt of energy the SQ gives me and the SF's are a great and easy breakfast alternative for me when I'm running late but still want to get some points eaten before 9 am. So no.. I am not buying into the hype.. just the convenience.

I have been debating trying Alli.. anyone with any experience? "Blocks the body's ability to store fat" which I know can be done. Anyone remember Fen-phen? Ya, at 165 lbs my Dr had me on that until they realized it was KILLING people. I'm 5'7.. I'd kill to be 165 lbs again. SOON DAMNIT!

I'm working like a MOFO to get out of the 300's! That is my first real goal. June 19th, sounds like far away but like every other goal I've set.. it WILL come and if I make it or not is directly tied into how committed I am.

Monday and Tuesday were snow days here, no school, lol. At least the main roads are clear now. It will be gone soon, AND IT BETTER STAY AWAY!!!

You'll make it out of the 300's soon!!!

hey buddy

I think Sandy (angeleyes) tried that pill, maybe pm her and see what she thought


anything that can cause anal leakage scares me but I guess that is the point huh... dont eat the fat and dont have the prob


how old were you when the doc put you on that pill? I know my mom had us girls doing nutrasystem or ww when we were really young...AND NOT FAT... just chunky kids...totally blew our self image all to sh*t


anyhow..I better not get started on that lol


hope you and yours are all doing good


almost friday buddy and it is supposed to be warmer on weekend




:x

I had a HORRIBLE HORRIBLE HUMILIATING day at work.. guess what that translated into? Hubby taking me out to dinner.. to a BUFFET! I didn't do horrible.. I didn't do great. I could have had salads.. soup.. but didn't. I'm not over in points but i SHOULD have done so so so so so much better... ****ing hell.

:console: So sorry to hear your work day was so rough.... Don't beat yourself up over the eating. It sounds like you did GREAT to me. Buffet after a horrible day = major opportunity for a big blow-out binge. You didn't do that. You stayed within your points! At a buffet!

Focus tomorrow and feel better. I hope the work situation will work out soon. Don't let one meal derail you -- there's no reason it must.

Lisrey :x

Beat up myself all last night, figured I had to let the negative go today or I was going to quit my job and move into the Dairy Queen. I woke up remembering yesterday and just did NOT want to come in.
I hate this job, I dread coming here. It's like a poison., But I need both the money and the benefits.
Alright sucking it up.. except that I just realized I forgot my breakfast and lunch at home..
Excuse me while I bang my head repeatedly into my desk..

Hey sweetness !!

I hope you are feeling a bit better... I am at my crappy job today doing office work

which translate into time to yap on phone

I emailed you my # if you want to get it out girl

thats what friends are for


:x

Kendra,
That’s interesting that your strawberry slim fast takes like buttered popcorn. I’ve heard of Alli and seen it in the stores, but I don’t know anything about it, but I’m sure that somebody here does have some experience with it, and they can help to answer your questions. What does MOFO mean? Were all going to be rooting you on as you reach your June 19th goal weight.

Hugs

Ok.. MOFO.. short and sweet version for a not so nice saying about people who fornicate with mothers...

Pengi! I would have totaly called you but i don't have email access at work dangit! i coulda used an ear too.

I think I'm over the whole negative deal though and feeling better. My job is really getting me down. But I have more important things going on.

Food was spotty today but under in points again.

ALMOST FRIDAY!!!

I tried the Alli when it first came out, but it had no effect on me whatsoever. But it's grains, actually wheat that plays havic with my matabolism so others might have different experiences. So sorry about your job stress.
Pat

Kendra,
That's wonderful news that your feeling more positive. Good for you for taking a stand on the important things in your life. Sorry that your job is bringing you down. Great job on the points your doing awesome.

Hugs,

HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No wonder I was the last one to post in your other journal, you have you NEW ONE up and running!!!!
OHHHHHHHHHHHh can I just say that I sympathise with hating your job but having to go because you need the money and benefits???? i TOTALLY UNDERSTAND! I despise my job for more than one reason too...oh there are many!!!
I'm so glad you did NOT move into the dairy queen....but on the bright side, I love the new journal and the goals you posted! Your stayin under your points even with major work crap going on....thats awesome!

How was your weekend chiquita????

got a plan for this week?


Whatever you do, I hope you have a great week ahead and that monday does not suck monkey balls



:x

Monday.. monday is off to a somewhat shaky start as the little one was beside herself this morning when i had to go. I'm starting earlier so i don't have cuddle time in the mornings and i'm off later as well. All of this is pay off for every other friday off.
But I'm at work now, and so far so good., I still hate this place but I can't let that feeling rule my day. SO I won't.

Didn't weigh in this morning as i forgot .. will do it tomorrow. Hope everyone is shiny happy this Monday.

Hey buddy


How was tuesday??



I sure hope you and your day was allright




:x

What is happening??? I hope there is no snow in our immediate futures, but forcast doesn't sound great.

Ok rain I can actually live with. I went into work for my new start time (7 am) and a few hours later had to turn around and go home again as Hubby was convinced son was on death bed. Got home and found both children to be a little stuffy but otherwise fine.
So I made the best of the day and went and picked them up new shoes (little buggers grew again) and my new glasses.
The last pair of glasses I had I bought years ago. They were the cheapest I could find at the time because hubby and I had just moved up to Canada had one baby and one on the way. These ones are like wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy better, I cant believe the difference in how clear things are and how light they feel. It's crazy.
TOM is playing headgames with me this month. Mood swings and water weight. I'm so bloated I could be a parade float.
How is everyone else?

Doing good here Kendra....
Damn TOM anyway....no getting around it...well, there is getting around it...but you feel MUCH more bloated with mood swings for like, oh, nine months give or take...lolol
Congrats on the new glasses...I wish I had enough money for a glasses "wardrobe"...a different style for each different mood...ya know? :)
Well anyhow...got your message on the training thing...and some companies are just awful that way...there really should be dedicated/designated trainers for ALL jobs...patient people that are the creme of the crop for what they do...and they should be paid a slight incentive to do a thorough job training...(imo)
Well, I hope the end to your week is superior, take care!

Man Kendra, I'm old enough to be a graddma but the way my two kids are going that looks as though it isn't going to happen. So I likely don't know what I am talking about but you sure have it tough with both you and hubby working full time and two little kids and no one to help you out when illness etc strikes.
Actually I do know what I am talking about because that's the situation we were in 25 years ago and it's the pits.
I hope good weather comes soon as that make things easier.

Pat

Good morning Kendra :flower:

Hope you are feeling better today

this crappy (&^%@@#$%^&^@#$%^& weather is not helping ANYONES mood either


I have faith in ya girl



heaps of faith




I hope your day is a good one and if I can ever do anything for you, you know where I is



:love:

Don't lurke woman!
Have a super weekend! :)

Good morning !! :flower:


the sun might shine today !!!


Hang in there woman, one little hour at a time if needed... there are always ups and downs...I think you reminded me of that a bit back



Hope your day is a good one



:jn FRIDAY :jn






:love: Peng

Well as far as Birthdays go this one is pretty good.. got me some fancy new hair =) Hubby and kids out at school/work and this is my Friday off.
Foods been good, exercise has been good. I'm in an old bra today that didn't fit a month ago, so my body she is changing.

Hope evryone is good =)

OK PUT UP PICTURES IN THE PICTURE ALBUM.. CAN'T FIGURE OUT HOW TO DO THE FANCY THUMBNAIL DEAL THAT PENGI DOES.
There's a pic of the kiddos being goofy, pic of me with longer hair was taken before i lost the 14 lbs, and my newst pic with the fancy new hair. Feel free to check us out =)

Kendra,
Happy Birthday, hope your day was great. Awesome pictures the new hair cut looks really cute. Keep up the good work with your food and exercising.

hugs,

Thanks =) I really love the hair.. and the kids too lol. This week I am determined to be better then last week. I was pretty bad last week. I mean I was good as far as bad go, but still bad.

Birthday?? well since it was not posted and you did not anounce it lol we will celebrate it when we can


Happy belated buddy!!



I only know one way to attach photos...when you finish typing your message...you just scroll down and it has an 'manage attachments' button...there I add my pics...browse and upload and they magically appear thank god


I really am not puter savy



I like the hair too...a real nice color , and I can not belive how big maddy is getting...she might be taller than hunter huh? lol she looks like she is totally ready to take on the world


it must be strange to watch them grow up sooooooooooo fast



and I love the glasses... my sis just got a style similar and they are very flattering



is work going better this week?




my sched changes this week...no cooks have applied yet so I will be working sucky shifts...oh well



gotta do what it takes to pay the bills huh



I hope your wed is a good day





little steps buddy.........one day at a time





:love:





Peng xo

I need help, I feel very close to the edge of the "I dont give a ****" Cliff and I'm about to jump.
i HATE HATE HATE this job. HATE it. I am doing the work of 3 people and when I do manage to get something done that satisfies one of my bosses the 3 others wants changes made. I can not work like this anymore and I can't afford to quit.
I'm glad I had an orange at my desk just now becuase the feeling of going and grabbing anything and everything chocolate is growing on me.
I think our car is messed up good to and Hubby has been on the mean side past few weeks.
I need a break. .. the office at work has now banned the site that we use to check our spelling here at DT but not DT itself.. so it's ok if I get skinny but I'll have to do it with poor spelling.

what can i do to help?

my sis really likes the compaany she just started with, I could send you the info if you want to file a resume...they are over on 178th street tho


you can call me anytime too...call my cell and i can give you a reg line to call on


anything buddy


jumpin off the choc cliff wont change nothing...trust me..i have tried it many times


I have been fantasizing about swimming in a pool of pizza



please dont hesitate to call me if you want to

home, cell, work whatever



:love:

Hi there. Finally noticed your new journal.

So sorry that you are having a rough day. I can relate to hating your job and wanting chocolate so bad....but you have done great so far!!! 14 pounds is wonderful!!! Don't let the chocolate get the better of you. We both know that you will feel better at the end of the day if you don't give in..if you show your body that you won't cave to the needless emotional cravings!!

You can do this!!!! :coach: Hang in there!!! I'm around most of the day if you want/need to you can pm me.

:console:

Ack! Sounds like a really rough situation at work. I don't have any fabulous words of wisdom about that, but as far as the diet goes... You had some awesome willpower and determination when you started this journal. You said some inspiring things! Maybe go back and read what you wrote -- give yourself some of those great vibes again??

Good luck!

Lisrey :coach:

Hang in there. It can be tough at times. I know exactly how you feel at work. they just let go a person in my department on friday. Now there is 3 people, 1 being part time, to run 18 hours a day, 7 days a week, 365 days a year. And they let the person go because they think we can handle the department with 3 people. The truth is, we needed at least 1 more person. Cravings are hard. It's good to keep the healtyh things in reach so that you don't go for the bad things. Hang in there.

I am at home. And let me tell you why. Everything came to a head yesterday when I was asked to change these meeting minutes that I had taken for the 13th time. I'm not kidding.. 13th. It borders on cruel. I get one boss happy with it and the rest want something different. I'm being pulled in a hundred directions.
So I'm home today.. either just for the morning or for the entire day I cant decide. I need to clean my living room.
Holy cow theres a TOOTH in my journal.. how exciting!
Thank you all for visiting and for the support, I think I would have lost it along time ago if not for ya'll.

I hope you were able to manage your day


some days it takes all ya got just to get through




hopefully you had reason to smile at the end of the day, and if not, you found one




:love: Peng

Well, I have had bosses like that, especially with the editing stuff, where one likes it one way, then another takes out what the first one did and the third does something completely different altogether. It is so frustrating. The only thing that helped me is to get mindless about it. Just make the changes, don't take it personally, just go into a hypnotic haze or something. A catatonic state. Especially if you need the work. But I would start looking elsewhere for a job on the down low, b/c it takes awhile to find a new one and it lifts your spirits just looking. Then you can mutter to yourself, you'll miss me you SOB. hahahahha

Chocolate will NOT make you feel better though. Eating healthy will make you stronger and feel more ready to give them the heave ho when you are ready.

Happy mother's day, Kendra.

Hey buddy


I hope you are doing ok


I have been tetering on that friggin cliff too.... have not found a magic anything yet but not giving up... I know you wont either



my puter is gonna be gone for a bit but I will check in when I can from work


I hope you are ok and feel free to call if you want to



:love:


Peng xo

i have completely and totaly lost it.. i mean in a big way.. no tracking no counting fast food for days on end. i cant get motivated to cook.. forcing my kids to eat healthy when im not. setting a horrible example. I'm out of control. i don't know when ill be back. i'm sorry.

We've all been there; you never need apologize to us. That "out of control" feeling is scary. When I have that problem it seems the control will never, ever come back. Eventually, though, it does. Are you still wearing your bracelet? You can get through this. Let us know how we can help.

Lisrey :console:

ditto what my buddy above said ;)

no need to apologize... we have been there too.. last thursday I bought a 20 pack of timbits for the girls at work and ate every friggin one by the time i hit work (how could I go in with only 10 right 8-|) so then I had a full breakie with fried everything
something greasy with yam fries and mayo for lunch and then something equally empty for supper
chips and beer (oh yes, light ones...that matters right when washing down lay's)

so much food and it kept going


kendra I did not think it would end.... I felt so empty and even if temporary...I felt like 'why not eat'


anyhow... days later I crawled back... so many are there to support and understand



I know that does not make your struggle any easier right now...just please dont feel too ashamed or empty t come back

you do what you need to do and just know that no matter what is going on... there are many of us who would never judge you

ever


It can feel impossible some days... just know you have someone here if you want it



you will get your feet back under you and when you do.... :jn




hang in there buddy




:love:



Peng xo

Oh Kendra...I'm so sorry...and ditto the above posts...we all are there or have been there... :(
We will be here waiting for ya when you get back! So sorry I haven't been around much for you!!!!!!:c(

Kendra,
Ditto to all the above posts. We all have been their before. Falling of the wagon doesnt' mean that your going to stay off the wagon. When you feel ready hop back on again and move forward.

hugs,

I know that you are under extreme stress and probably don't want to come on here and talk about diets and stuff. But I have been worried about you and the job situation and wonder if it got straightened out any. I hope that things start to go better soon.

Pat

The job situation just sucks horribly still. It's taken a toll on everything. Kids, hubby, eating, stress.. everthing. I'm afraid to weigh and I still have no control. NONE. I need a new job.
I wish I could get a job at my kids school. How perfect would that be. See I like being an Admin Assisstant, and I'm good at it when I'm allowed to do my job. But this situation is horrific right now because I can't possibly please everyone.

Oh sweetie!!! :console: I wish I could wave a magic wand and solve the job problem for you! I've been there..I once had a job where I would cry every morning before going and again when I got home! It sucked and it made my entire life feel nasty! But eventually I got out and you will too. You are way to strong to be sucked down by this crap for very long. I'm sorry I didn't stop in earlier to give you more support, I've been struggling too.

And I am very proud of you, b/c I saw in an earlier post that you are still making your kids eat healthy , some people will just start shoving the junk food back down their kids throats and you're not!

You'll get through this and it'll just make you that much stronger!! Hold your head up girl!!! You'll find something else soon!!!

The job situation just sucks horribly still. It's taken a toll on everything. Kids, hubby, eating, stress.. everthing. I'm afraid to weigh and I still have no control. NONE. I need a new job.
I wish I could get a job at my kids school. How perfect would that be. See I like being an Admin Assisstant, and I'm good at it when I'm allowed to do my job. But this situation is horrific right now because I can't possibly please everyone.


Darn, I wish you could get a new job too. Funny you mention liking to work at a school. I work all over the school board assessing kids. I often wonder when I go in how many principals realize how important it is that someone who actually likes people is at the front desk. So many of the people in those seats seem to think they are doing you a tremendous favour by ackowledging that someone is standing there. Other ones are just so pleasant when you get there.

I hope something better turns up but I know it is so hard to find time to look for something else when you are working full time and have the young-uns.

you still have control buddy...you are just too stressed to realize it


you would not keep in touch otherwise




:console:




I really dont see you totally losing it... mentally...i do see you losing itn physically.(weight wise).. this is coming fr someone who was near losing all hope...



deal with what you can as you can



nothing more buddy




feel free to forward your resume to me like i did my sis' to you kendra... you never know... and always confidential



i hope your hump day has no HUGE humps k




luv ya bud



:love:


Peng

I gotta be honest.. I'm close to losing it mentally, however I can't because I have far to many people depending on me and I can't imagine Hubby taking care of the kids if I checked out.

I will forward the resume, I will start applying again for more jobs. And while I've been kicking around the idea of lap-band I think I will try one more thing before I go that route as I am a firm believer that less surgery is always better.

I love you all for the support these last 5 or so weeks. They have been very difficult, but I think I might be finally getting my feet back under me. I'll let you all know.

I know so much of what you are feeling! I have felt the same way too, but it sounds to me like you are starting to beat it! and you will. I have complete confidence in you and your strength.

Great idea to start sending resumes! Have you contacted the principal or who ever does hiring for your kids school? This time of the year would be a great time to check, or at least it is here. They have found out who isn't coming back and want to find people now rather than wait until august.

I've thought of the surgery too..lap band sounds better than gastric by-pass but I keep thinking that I know how to do this and if I'm eating emotionally and can't control my eating why would a surgery work for me? You've shown that you can lose weight..14 pounds is great! I wish I had lost that much so far!!! You can do this!!! Be patient w/yourself while you are struggling in other areas and you'll get there!!! :ghug: