I have been here forever, and ever, and ever. Yet I havent even been close to reaching a goal. What is up with that. It makes me feel like I am starting over and over and over again. I have great intentions. I have accomplished so much in my life. The list is long but yet weight loss isnt even close. So my goal is to finally, and i mean finally accomplish that goal. I dont have any other goals really left, except to finish my masters degree, but I have time to do that. I am half way done and I know that is something I will do. I have a job I love for the most part. I have a great family. I have a house again.

So my goal is to not feel like a newbie anymore. I want to be one of the many on this site, even though they still struggle maintaining, and i know that but I still see them as heros. I wont name them but they know who they are. I have so many people on this site that have inspired me over the years. So many more who needed to lose so much more then I am trying and did it. Yet, they go up and down still, they havent gained it all back. They are awesome people.

Now dont get me wrong. I also know so many awesome people who struggle like me. They are my heros also. They have been here for me and I love everyone. I do. So now its time to become a hero myself. Though I am not looking for it. I just want to be the person I know I can be. Inside and out. I want to be around longer, I want to be healthier, I want to beable to play with my kids. Or go to work and not feel like I ran a marathon after only a 2 hour session. I want to be healthy, I want to be at a goal. I will no longer be a newbie. Time to become an oldie, so to speak.

I feel just like you do ... I have been here over 10 years, yet weigh more now than when I first joined ... I have never gotten to the point where I actually accomplish anything that I do not put back on within months/weeks/days. I want so much to even get back into the mid 250 range ... but have pretty much given up ... cannot stay motivated for even an hour lately, much less actually stick to a plan long enough to actually get somewhere.

Hey girls !

ain't it the truth ! Enjoyed your post smallfri as it is just where my head is at too. thanks

Whether 25 pounds or 125 pounds ... the feelings are very much the same...so very much


I dont want to feel like a newbie either


I felt like you do hynack the last bit and did not even have the omph to post...still read and such but....just try and tell yourself if you had lost all hope...you would not of posted the last response...


it does seem so futile somedays but we cant give up..hang onto that bit of hope


"Ones best success comes after their greatest disappointments."


I like that ol quote and hang on to the fact that today might be the one day that clicks...the day that the support and inspiration helps me care enough about myself to make enough little changes to feel better


and better



I really feel so much like you do smallfri



I will be rooting for you and hnyack....there has to be some life left in us oldtimers too ;)



lets have a good day girls



:love: Peng

Hi Girls!
There are many who face the same issues we do...and yep, I'm one who has made little progress but I know too, without change in the head (thought life) change in the body will not stick. I alone feed myself......and my attitudes, beliefs and behaviors are my responsibility alone. I do have faith in God...and for that reason I will not ever give up hope. But I am expected to do my part.
We have wonderful tools at our disposal but if they aren't "used', we stay stuck.
Remember the saying " If I keep on doing what I always did, I'll keep on getting what I always got".
If there are inner turmoils, it will manifest itself in outward ways.....My heart goes out to all who struggle, as I do. I do believe the ball is in our court..........so how best to play it? Today.....revisit the Basics and the 3 D's..or is it 4? I've been MIA a LONG time!
Bren:o

Good morning everyone. I am glad I am not alone. Though I sort of knew that already but wasnt sure who would admit it. Admitting it made me feel better. I have stuck to my program now for 3 whole days, and have walked just as many. I am starting to feel a bit better. The newbie feeling is still there because way, way in the back of my head I have the feeling I am going to fail again. But trying to focus on the positive. It always has helped me to come and post on the boards every day. When I stuck with something familiar, I always know there is someone to lift my spirits and make me feel a bit better. Also to help stay out of the fridge.

So I am setting two goals for myself.
1. To stop this cycle, though I will continue to have struggles, I need to learn to not give in.
2. To not be a newbie anymore.

Hang in there everyone. We can do this. WE just have to find what works for us. For me the most support I get is from these boards and I have to learn to use them, even on bad days, there is someone always here to lift me up again, and say its ok. No matter how much we have to lose like pengii said, weight loss is weight loss, and if you struggle you struggle. So lets help eachother.

Hugs to you smallfri!
You do know what works, and taking care of yourself to the best of your ability each day will bring you closer to the goals you set for yourself.
Hang in and hang on! I'm hiking the trail with you....as are others!
Have a blessed and peaceful day.....
Bren

Have been having a good week so to speak. Have been walking everyday, have been ok with the eating. Need to up the water a smidgen, which will work out this weekend. Speaking of that, better get it started.

Hope everyone else has a great weekend.

Great thread smallfri. I can relate to you and everyone else on here. I'm here with you all too.

I understand how you feel. I've been a member for a long time and yet I'm nowhere near my goal, in fact I'm further away from it. it is hard when you see others loses pounds week after week and you only lose ounces if anything at all. I know everyone is didn't and lose at different rates but it doesn't make it easier. I have finally come to terms with the fact that I don't lose pounds but ounces and those ounces will at some point equal pounds. I'm trying to keep my eye on the bigger picture. That I'm healthier than I was.

Have a great day!

Hi Ladies Nice to see everyone. I started this oldtimers thread juyst for the very reason, I had been here a long time and never got near my goal. Glad to see that this is active again. I know for me eating is just such a habit and used for so many reasons BUT I am tired of feeling tired and having problems with my back. I don't want to end up like my Mom with major back, knee problems and diabetes. There are so many healthy foods I like. I am lucky that i truely enjoy raw vegetables, oatmeal, and so many other things. I just nedd to stop being unconscious when it comes to eating. So starting right now if I don't love it I'm not eating it. I will take the time to cut the vegetables, have the fruit at room temperature like I like it, have the ater cold so I drink it, take more walks and I will ask myself is it a meal time?, am I hungry? have I eaten from all the food groups? For today i am going to give up sweet snacks. This week i am going to step up taking care of myself going to the chiro a couple of days this week to take care of the bursitus in my arm and actually do the exercises that he and my physical therapist sister have prescribed. Ok outta here. I just thought of something. I am going to print this post and start a jouornal that i will have with me on a daily basis I will put it in a book where I can jot down my thoughts, feelings, failures and triumphs and new ideas. have a great day.

Hey Bren sara turned 12 yesterday can you believe it. i think she was 2 when we started chatting on Snow Angels!

OMG! Where does the time go! ..it's been a tad over 6 years when I found DT and latched onto Lizzie and the snow angels! June 14th, 2002........it feels like forever.
I can't believe Sara is 12 already......on the verge of being a teen. Yikes!
That's a good idea, printing the post for your journal.
I haven't truly challenged myself to perform in so long. I still know the drill, but am shuffling around and missing roll call! haha

It's really good to see all of you here and getting back on track is my goal. You'd think being dx'd diabetic 2.5 years ago would have been my wake up call but I guess I hit the snooze button too many times and am at the starting gate again.

Love and hugs to all on this journey. Let's do what we can today........to move forward.
Bren

I have a kind journal in the Healthy Lifestyle thread and just thought iwoukld post it here since I am making a new commitment to the thread.


I am like a bad penny back again.... I have felt like an old lady getting in and out of my low beach chair. I weigh way too much. I need to break my dependence on food for everything. Yes, just about everything. I started posting in the oldtimers section. I am getting so much done. Those that know me know that I have struggled to let go of a lot of stuff in my house and have struggled to get it fixed up. Well we finally found someone to do the work and took out a home equity loan to fix it up and we are well on the way to getting it done. Now it is time to do the same for myself. You know I can eat and eat and it is making me feel yucky too stuffed but that feeling doesn't stop me. I think it is just a familiar feeling. I don't drink much alchohol these days. Loved to party when I was young in college and my late 20's but now I have a glass of wine maybe two but often i don't get thru the second because I don't like the feeling. I want to get to the point that instead of eating until I get that yucky feeling and continuing to eat. I want to stop before I feel like that and definitely stop if I get to that point If you get what I mean.
Sooo today i will pay attention to how I feel when I eat.

It is interesting, I had one bad day again yesterday, didnt even track my points, ate alot of salty olives and usually that would send me to the ice cream cooler for ben and jerry, but today, I stepped on the scale saw it was up, and rationalized, it was all the salty treats I ate, plus I did eat a bit over board, not to much, but it has to be mostly water.


Wow, what a great way to look at it sharon, compare it to something else you dont like doing anymore. I think that might help. I understand the food thing, I am a total stress eater. I am trying to make that less of a thing, but havent gotten it under control. I cant even remember when I started to turn to food for comfort, cuz as a kid I was quite thin until puberty and then everything just went blah. lol. Its not funny but its wierd to look at my kids and see they are the same way and not to worry they are going to turn out the same way, but so far so good. I do have good eating habits, love my veggies also, and fruits, but have many bad habits, maybe I should start putting my bad habits in writing so I can see them, and then I wont do them. I have heard this works but never wanted to do it because of being afraid of being judged, but at the sametime, I feel safe here, and if someone says something about my bad habits, I need to look at it truthfully.

Great to see you all here!!! Yes, we still have those things that keep us from being successful but I think that writing them down helps alot and thinking about 'do I want to be like I am now forever'? No way!!! We are going to kick this thing and get it overwith. I would much rather 'struggle' to maintain than struggle to get it off.

My weakness lately is evening munching. I know I can control this but lately have chosen not to. I have to get it back in control.

Please keep in touch everyone and let us know how you are doing.

My problem is the PM eating too. I sort of go into zone out mode. It has been better the past few weeks, but I still eat more than my body "needs". I do know too, that if I eat too much PM it affects my sleep, and I am not hungry for breakfast the next morning and I am trying to re-establish that habit. My blood sugar is usually high AM, due to my dinner choices........so I have my work cut out for me!

I think journalling helps too.........I live alone so unless I post something, my thoughts are private, but I have used the tool to discover where my mind and heart are in certain situations. When I have felt overwhelmed, out of control, angry or just "not right". I still use food at times to comfort myself, but it's not the big production it used to be and for that I'm grateful! I do want to see myself show up more in my life. No one can make me........so I need to develop that desire within myself!
Here's to a wonderful week ahead.........for all of us!:up:

That is great Blondee.

I am having a bad eating weekend, but its the holiday weekend, and its not that I am eating to much, but just not as prepared as i would usually be. I hate when things change last minute, that is usually what throws me off. I was expecting certain things for eating this weeekend, and each day it was changed leaving me unprepared. Oh well. I will for sure be back on the wagon tomorrow. One more day of a party, and this one is one of the only houses I cant take something with me because they view it as an insult. So i am preparing myself to not to over do it like usual.

Well I had a split weekend, Saturday was bad and today was great!!!

We can do it girls!!!

YES WE CAN!
Smallfri, I try to take something to my Mom's most times as her idea of veggies is potatoes, corn and beans. I joke about her not knowing a carbohydrate from a carburetor......and it's actually true. We both have diabetes and heart issues and it's imperative that I take charge of my health to avoid being in her condition later! I understand that some folks would be bothered (tho it's a shame they are) by someone bringing food with them that is "safe" for them. We can do what we can each day to ensure we are cared for. It doesn't have to be obvious to others but we will kinow!

I'm off to get ready for work...wishing you all a great, peaceful, On Plan day......to the best of our abilities...lets' make this day a Good one
.......Bren:keys:

Good Morning Ladies,

Right after I posted the original post here it wasn't too long until I was into the brownies from my daughters birthday. OK, one woudn't be bad but I know I didn't have just one. I was in that stupor from my daughters sleepover birthday party, having my nieces here, being kinda funky from all this gray weather and suffering from lack of sleep from a shoulder problem that i am having. Now I just need to learn that eating those brownies won't change any of that and make me feel better. Actually I have to say it does temporarily make me feel better and sometimes it totally makes me feel better. I need to find something else to make me feel better besides food when I need comforting. I have been doing this a long time and I will keep working on it until I change this chain reaction with food. I have never smoked but I feel like a smoker giving up cigarettes. there is a new national campaign, maybe you have seen it where the people try to do everyday things without a cigarette in their hands and can't figure out how to do it. I feel the same way. Actually I am going to check out the campaign because it may be helpful....OK well I am out of here to

1. Call and make my chiro appt. so i can actually sleep thru the night
2. Plan and take something out of the freezer for dinner
3. Pick something out to wear that fits well and makes me feel good
4. Call to have my haircut and colored
5. Take the dog for a walk
6. Food shop for cold cuts so i can make a simple sandwich for lunch
7. Look up that campaign on line

Make it a good one!

I've seen that commercial Sharon! It might help to have a list of things that comfort, quiet or calm you.....that you can try for 20 minutes when the urge to eat non-plan items.
I should have used that technique last night! I had a great day, and as evening hit......I was in trouble. It stemmed from the last week of great stress over a work related booboo and knowing the boss would be talking to me about it yesterday. I'd prayed for mercy and it was extended......thank you God, I still have my job and can breathe again!
The day started with:
1: forgetting to take my "planned" lunch....ended up w/an egg salad sandwich on WGLB w/tomato & V-8....not all was lost
2: Forgetting my "planned" snack of FF yogurt and berries...had no snack..and was too hungry to be rational when I got home
3: Having double portion of Dinner...plus popcorn, WG English muffin w/PB and J, and later........a cheeseburger on WGSF bun..... not a good ending.
The good thing is I am letting it go this morning and starting off fresh...with a clean slate and will aim higher today than I did yesterday. I will get some exercise today, restore order to my surroundings, be aware of my "hunger levels' when I choose to eat, and be aware of what I feed myself. My goal for today is to not eat after 5:30 PM......and keep it light and simple.

I need to get back to the basics and support myself in my endeavors to lose this weight, get my exercise and get in better condition for my later years. I need to be my best friend. I haven't been that and it's important that I start......and why not today?

have a blessed day all.........i will see you here later!
Bren

Good morning ladies, I can totally relate. Yesterday out the door I grabbed four cookies and didnt look up points until after I got home. OMG, so I ended up eating almost twice of what i should have ate. The good part is I recorded every last bite of food I ate, and well, I had to stare at it. It wasnt pretty but I did learn, I need to go back to recording my points before and during grabbing things, just so I can see what I am doing to myself.

Good Morning,

Hi Bren yes I have to be aware of the keep it simple kinda of get thru the urge things. Yesterday I didn't need any of those but I know I will. For me I know going out of the house works, calling a friend to chat, reading or going out for a ride helps me. Usually making a cup of coffee works too. for me. Yesterday was a day when I ate meals and reasonably. I got to the chiro last night and had some relief in my neck and shoulder. I actually had less pain and could sleep better but I was up 2:30am to 4:00am. Though I had some pain I don't think that is what kept me awake. I am getting my period any day and sometimes I can't sleep. I slept in til 8 am and though I woke up with a terrible headache I think I caught it in time and am feeling better. Headache another sign of the time... Well nothing much more going on...

Today
Have a long overdue eye Dr. appt today
Will try and get the problem with my central air figured out
Need to go buy weed killer and spray the weeds in the driveway
Will go to the library with the kids and research the new car we need
Do things around the house

I truely think we work things out while we sleep. You know I just remembered when I woke up last night with the thought that eating brownies is not an option when someone is almost 250#s.

Hello, starting to feel semi normal again, whatever that is. Just thought I would post my thoughts real quick. That sounds silly but whatever. Anyway. I am sitting here, and man, I am doing pretty good this week. It is thursday and I am still recording on ww, nothing to write home about but still recording, yet my evil self is in the back of my head telling me I am going to screw up again. Anyone else struggle with that. Self sabbataging, I dont think that is how you spell it. lol. But you get the point.

Sharon, how did you do with your list of things to do?

Small, I wrote about something like that few days ago in my journal. Fortunately I realized what I was saying to myself, and even though I couldn't make myself feel really positive I did stop that damaging thoughts. You can do it, I know you can!!!

Hey ladies!
Smallfri, progress is good.......sounds like a turning point for you this week. I do have those same troubles as I'll bet many do. Most of my life I have used food to comfort, soothe, mend and entertain myself. I know it can't do those things but it felt good at the moment. I am striving to lay down the PM grazing habit, as that is my biggest hindrence. I also need to:
1~ be aware of what I bring into my kitchen
2~ plan my meals: and take 'em with me on work days!
3~ use portion control consistantly
4~ close the Kitchen after Dinner......if I am not hungry, I don't need to eat
5~ Simplify........in every area of my life

Nancy......I like the goals you have listed at the bottom of your post. It's been a long time since I really pushed myself, set goals and worked towards them. Thanks for the reminder. I'll get my Day Planner out today, dust it off and reboot myself!

Have a blessed day all........Take good care of yourselves! I'll do the same here....
Bren:water:

Hi all. Crazy the list works good for me. Even if I don't do it that day I look back and say oh yeah I need to do that today. I am doing well. Been busy at a lake one day and at the shore yesterday. Haven't eaten much junk and am getting better each day at not liking that over full feeling. Still struggling with my neck & shoulder and am thinking I may be out of work for awhile. Off to the chiro at 10 am
1. Call and get the dumpster for the bathroom demo before i go to the chiro
2. Find pay and actually mail check for old dr. bills
3. Chiro appt.
4. Visit Dad
5. Replant rest of flowers
6. food shop

OK have a great day all!

I am doing well this morning, and feeling pretty good. Good thing I have some motivation and am trying to fight off that icky feeling. I am heading to the grocery store. And the kids want icecream, ugg, if it wasnt my weakness, I would have no problem buying it. I buy them treats here and there and it doesnt bother me. But icecream, I will have to get a flavor I dont like, that usually does the trick.

I buy them treats here and there and it doesnt bother me. But icecream, I will have to get a flavor I dont like, that usually does the trick.

Excellent strategy's small. I haven't eat much icecream for years. In fact a couple of years ago we have some of DH's family visiting and we went to a place for some sightseeing, when we were done everyone descided to get an icecream cone and I found that I really didn't want one but they had icecream sandwiches and I loved it. Now, that has become a weakness of mine if it is in the house, lol. But like you, I try not to buy those things that are my weaknesses if I can help it. Thank the Lord for FF Fudgsicles(40 cal), lol.

Sharon, I have a list like that in my daytimer. I made a list of things I want to get done this summer. Need to keep looking and planning though.

Blondee, several of us are doing goals like that now. And when we report that we did them we love using the :check:

so far so good for me too smallfri

thanks to your help :hug:


your cookies sound like me grabbing a bag of buster bars a couple weeks ago for work...then eating one...then 2...then thinking how can I take only 4 to work???...they were in my freezer for less than 24 hrs 8-|



anyhow...none of that this week



I hope you all have a fantastic weekend



writing down is helping a lot smallfri



:love: Peng

I am praying for the best this weekend. I know tomorrow is going to be a bust, one because I have no extra points left for the weekend, two we are already goign out to eat at a not so friendly restaurant, But we will be doing alot of walking tomorrow so that will be the bonus.

Hiya Ladies!
It's good to see you all here! Oh I love ice cream too and twice in the past couple of months I got the Blue Bunny no sugar added low and non fat...Too good! It gets "gone" at my place too! The sugar alcohols had my tummy roaring too. I do not behave with certain things in the house. I live alone so when i get 'em...they are all mine! haha.

That's great Nancy! The Goal keeping....the neat check offs! I have a Day planner I use and I gutted it.....I didn't need addresses, phone numbers, calendar etc. so made up my own charts in Corel and have sections for stuff from food/activity logs to finances. It's a nice zippered one so I feel my "privacy" is protected!

I need to do a clean sweep in my kitchen and elsewhere...to make my spaces user friendly. I'll work on that while I'm off this week on Tues/Wed. I have a Dr's appt on Tuesday for follow-up and maybe more lab work. If I can get that done now, maybe I can get out of it when I go in 3 months to my new Doc? One can hope!
I need to work on my budget too..see where and how to fit in all I need to do.....dr., eye appt. etc.

Have a good day all....and take good care of you....whatever that entails today!
Bren

Great to see I am not the only one with an ice cream addiction. I have been good up until this weekend, Got to get my weekends under control.

My weekend falls on Tuesday/Wednesday......but I struggle with that too. I believe it's because my off days are unstructured. I live alone, my time is my own and if I want to stay in, do no "work", snack instead of meals........I generally do. The two-three off plan days sure mess up the ground I gain on the ON plan ones! I really am tired of repeating that same pattern week after week.....but I know that no one but me can make changes in my life. By the grace of God and in His strength, I will strive to make the better choice consistantly. I'll start with today!

Good Luck Bren. We will change this if we really want it. I feel the same way. I have been eating when i don't know what to do but mostly I have been eating when I am in pain from my shoulder. It is very frustrated since it hurts when i lie down or sit and you can't stand the whole time. This too shall pass. i go back to work tonight after the restaurant has been closed for vacation for two weeks. I am worried whether I will be able to do the work, whether I should go to the chiro before since it may be too much right before work and on and on. So I need a plan.

1. I am going to ice my back and take ibuprofin every three hours . I will make a decision by 11 as to whether I go to the chiro or not.

2. I will join net flex today so i have good movies to watch

3. i will grab some light books

4. i will cut up some veggies which i actually love if i need to shove food in my mouth

5 . i will go for a long walk to take up time during the evening hours

Yuck Blon, I would make one suggestion, since you do just snack and not eat meals, which really isnt that bad if you think about it because I have heard over and over to eat 6 small meals a day, and I have tried it and that works when I can fit that type of eating in, anyway, and replace whatever junk you have in the house with healthier options of snacking, fruits, veggies, pretzels, cubed lunch meat, or prepare meat and cut it up and put it into snack size ziploc bags, anything you like but make sure its in small portions.

Looks like a good plan.

As for me, I dont know what happened yesterday, but it wasnt good. I know tom is around the corner I can tell because I am all emotional for no reason whatso ever. I was sitting at the computer yesterday and playing a game and almost started crying, I was like crap, mother nature, just get it over with, no need for all the drama. lol.

Hiya Ladies!
Good luck on your to-do lists Sharon! I have one each day...I call it my Plan of Action. Includes my meal plan etc. I sure hope your shoulder straightens out and very soon! I am a pain weenie and would be crying!

I've been without AC for 6 days now and honey, it's hot in here. About 82. I rest ok at night but it's tough on my off days being here all day, working in the heat. If the pool was open I'd get in it. Today is a four bandana day! My new unit is in but the AC man hasn't shown up to install it yet. Our maint. man isn't lisenced to do it or I'd have had air yesterday!

I use those great little snack size bags and do that Smallfri! I portion out my goodies, and may have 3-5 little bags, then I put 'em all in a zip lock back for toting to work. I got fresh salad veggies today. I still have some peaches in there that are on my snack list. I track my meals at another site.......makes it very easy to see where I may be over, under etc. I am tracking saturated fats, sodium etc. I didn't know what trouble I was into before I saw it in writing!

Have a good afternoon all......Be good to you today. I will as well!
Bren

I'm off for a break now. I've got laundry done and need to put it away and my goal for today is to clear my desk again! I got my bank account balanced.....checks written for bills for this pay period. I'm ready to hunker down with a glass of tea and my book!

Good Morning Ladies,

Well I got thru work with some modifications. I did a lot more with my left arm. Yesterday I felt pretty bad but I couldn't stop myself. I get this nesting instinct before TOM and can't stop cleaning and stuff even if my body is exhausted. Of course these days I don't alwwyas get TOM so I am guessing that that is what it was. It was either that or true insanity. My Upper back was way out and of course my shoullder is still an issue and I was cleaning out rooms and my garage. the last three days I have had FREE garage sales and just keep lugging things out and people just keep taking them. We are having our bathroom re-done and I need to clean out room for the building material in the garage. Luckily I don't think my Hercules day hurt me any worse. Just looking for thee day i can sleep thru the night.

Bren I hope your "Monday" isn't too bad today. Our guy who was doing the bathroom fixed our airconditioner for us. t is nice to be comfortable in my house. Hope your get fixed real soon.

I did well yesterday. Ate lunch and dinner was too busy to eat throughout the day. I think the main trigger for me is boredom so I need to keep myself busy.

OK out of here to go for a walk with my neighbor.
Have a great day!

Good morning ladies!
I found out yesterday that the AC man has been in the hospital. He's supposed to come today. Last night was one of the hottest, and it will be good to get to work where I can cool down for real! I pray they do get it done today. I'll be prasing God for the air and praying for those who have much worse living conditions than I've ever had! It sure makes ya appreciate the perks in life when you have to be without 'em for awhile!

You did push yourself Sharon! What a neat idea tho...a free garage sale to rid some clutter. I have those instincts about once a quarter! haha. I'd pared down to 4 tubs in my walk in closet...am back up to 6. I will deal with it very soon tho, as I have a hard time getting in there myself!

I've got to get ready for work.......take care of yourself today! I'll do the same over here!
Bren

Hi ladies,

Sharon, have you ever gone to physical therapy for your shoulder? My family has in the past always gone to chiro, but I like PT better and find it does more for me. My mom has gone to PT for her shoulder before and found it good. Just a thought.

Blondee, wow, I hope your AC is on soon. I hate it when it gets really hot and no AC.

Well I am doing ok. Getting more check marks on my goals than last week so that feels great. I am starting to do some strength and toning exercise but having a hard time to remember to do them, lol, but it will become more of a habit in time. I am at a low that I haven't seen for years and years, very exciting, 262. I know, it isn't low to some but it is to me, lol.

Bad, bad, bad week is how I can only describe it, yesterday wasnt super bad but ugggggggg. I am planning on getting it together today, again, and restarting my points tomorrow. WE are going to the fair tomorrow, which isnt a big deal for me cuz I cant take that greasey stuff anymore.

wow...who knew there was an entire thread of ladies feeling just like I do??!!! :o I was just thinking that it is silly that I have been here for years and yet am actually heaver than when I started!! helloo!!! what's my problem??? I know I can do it, I lost 35lbs before my mom died. It's been 6 years and I just can't find the motivation to stay with it again.

I'm trying again..just like you gals..and am determined to beat it this time! I also use food for comfort, boredom, stress, happy times, just about any excuses you can think of to eat. Unfortantly, I don't like very many veggies and am actually pretty picky about what I eat..so I'm battling my urge to eat literally all day long and trying to convince myself to try new food. But I will get there!!! Time and persistance will do it!!! and support from this awesome site!!!

You guys are doing great! I've read through the whole thread and it was very motivating to me! Thanks for sharing!

Good Morning,

Hows everyone doing? I am doing great. I have been pretty much been eating three meals without much thought or any diet obsessive thinking. Of course it being 90 degrees out and very busy is helping. Also, I think this time when I am in pain from my shoulder (which seems to be a bit better today) I am not running to eat. I figure I already feel bad why eat and feel worse. OK I know I have thought this before but I think I have finally had one of those light bulb moments where the thought actually gets though from myhead to my gut. I mean my gut inner thinking not my stomach but the play on words works too. How is everyone else doing?

I know the weekends are hard. It is easier for me because I am out of the house when i'm not busy. I head to the lake with the kids. I don't eat while I am there.

Bren I know it isn't your weekend. Hows work...Did the air get fixed? Boy it is hot here 90's and way humid. Hope you are doing well.

Mikey So good to see you. I hope you join us. I think for me DT became a social group and the focus went off the weight loss. I am grateful for the social network but do need to focus on the purpose and actually walk the walk niot just talk the talk. I am good at that in so many ways in my life. I notice as I step up and take action in my life in getting my house organized and fixed up, my bills organized and paid on time and my clutter gone then I seem to eat better and notice myself more and take care of me too.

Nancy Thanks for the PT idea. My sister is a PT and works on my shoulder when I see her. I may go more regularly but right now we believe the chiro found the spot in my back that is causing the problem. I am doing exercises and he is doing some deep muscle work. Hope you are doing well.

Smallfri :hug: hope things are getting better for you. How was the fair.

Hi to anyone I missed. OK I am out of here to go for a walk before it hits 90 degrees.

Good morning Ladies!!
Mikey, it's good to see you here....Sharon, I do hope you have some relief for the back and shoulder. I am a pain weenie and would be crying!

I have been MIA for a few days....went to Mom's Sunday after work, she came here yesterday. We went to a press conference for Kraig Parker, an Elvis tribute artist. I am getting free tickets for Mom and I, for putting up posters around town and I look forward to his shows. His testimony on his site thekinglives.com is what drew me before I'd seen him the first time.....

Sharon,I know what ya mean.......we need to be social creatures, support and encourage one another but we need accountability....to ourselves especially. Keeping focused on recovery, weight loss, regaining health, being in the best condition possible for our age and physical limitations. We know the numbers and how much we can crunch them! We can't give up the fight and we are worth the effort it takes to do this, ya'll!

My challenge currently is:
1~ Reach 200 by October 15th=19.5 pounds=1.62 pounds average weekly
2~ Re-form the habit of regular exercise
3~ Stop the PM grazing: this habit alone will make a huge difference!

My purpose:
1~ To get blood sugar under good control, and possibly reverse the diabetes
2~ To gain strength, flexibility and stamina for life
3~ To reingage and participate in the life I have to live..I am blessed and need to give more, be more and do more!

Today is a new day, with a clean slate. Let's use our time well and to our benefit!
Have a great day everyone. I'm off to get ready for work. I'll see you here again soon.
Bren:ex:

hello everyone, I can say, I am in a pity party right now. I just feel unmotivated, and un everything, I dont know why really, cant pin it to anything in particular, just really not happy with me. I have two pairs of pants that fit, no nicer work tops. I look like a slob, cant afford anything right now. It just sucks. I went to kohls, that just made me feel worse because looking at size 14's in the petite department, just makes me want to puke because they look soooooo huge on the rack, plus I am not paying $30 for one pair of pants, nothing on clearance at all. So right now I am on a pity party.

Smallfri.....I am sorry to here you're in a pit right now. I call myself a pit jumper sometimes as I don't slide into one, I jump in, wallow, decorate and hang out too long there!

I shop at Goodwill a lot and ask God to help me find something I love at a good price. OH......I want a size 14!! I'd feel plumb skinny. OK, I know, that doesn't help any.....but I will be thinking of you and pray you turn a corner, climb up into the light again and find a way to perk things up without spending a lot of money!
I wish I could send you a box of goodies!

I'm doing some spot cleaning before work, and will drop off some more flyers on my way to the office. I was up too early but couldn't get back to sleep so figured I'd do something constructive.

Have a blessed, productive on plan day!
love to all.
bren:D

Good Morning,,
Well I tanked big time the last day or two. It started when I went down the shore one day. Didn't eat much there but when I got home got the kids to bed and couln't fall asleep I started shoving oatmeal cookies in my mouth at racer speed. Then I was ok yesterday but later at night after dinner I cooked the extra chicken so it wouldn't go bad and I kept shoving it in my mouth even when I was full. it seemed addictive. This is a chicken cutlet I make for my daughter and it is loaded with butter. Soooo instead of beating myself up and smowballing into an eating frenzy I am going to figure out what to do next time.

When I am frustrated I can't have a container of cookies in front of me. DH was eating them and they were left on the table next to the computer. I will ask him to put it away just like I ask him to take the food off the table when I am done with dinner and just finishing up. If the food is sitting there when we talk then I pick.

As far as the chicken goes I know the salty butter combo for me is deadly so in that case I ahve to use the don't take the 1st bite theory. Just like an alchoholic 1 bite is too many and a hundred is not enough when I am in that mode.

Small.... I know exactly where you are. I have been there many times. Sorry to hear you are feeling so bad :hug: Maybe you can look online. There are alot of deals at stores like Penneys, Walmart, Old Navy and often they have free shipping. I would just be sure you can return them at a local store if they don't fit. I know if I don't have clothes that I feel good in then I don't feel well and that usually spirals into binge eating.

Hiya Ladies......
Here it is Sunday again.the dawn of a new week and great oppotunity to take charge of our health and lives. I pray you all have a blessed, productive and peaceful week ahead.
I want to tackle my ironing pile this week, and start my FLYlady routines again. I seemed to have drifted off course and while I'd pared down tub wise, I have 3 new ones in there now...so I need to stop bringing stuff home!

Have a great day...be good to yourself!
Love to all.Bren

I am here too! MIA for a good while!:(

The doctor had put me on an anti depressant pill which surprisingly enough, was like a diet suppressant!:D I lost 17 pounds within 2 months. :D

Having said that......then the pill stopped working as a diet suppresant, and I gained 20 pounds within a few months. :(

I am now bigger than I have ever been! I have hypertension, and I wish I could find a diet suppresant to help me curve my appetite. I want to eat when I am not even really hungry. I use to not be that way!!! :o

Has anyone had a doctor prescribe a diet pill to help them lose weight? I was wondering if doctors will do that anymore? I need help!!!!!

My doctor prescribed a diet pill for me back in the 70s. It worked, but it was too stressful, and I'll never do a diet pill again!!

I prefer the slow and careful way of eating, plus increasing the exercise. So I still do the Richard Simmons method of eating plus I exercise at Curves for Women. It works for me.

Hope you can find what works for you, JoAnnAtkinson. Keep trying -

I know that most diet pills are not healthy for you. However, what I don't understand is why the anti depressant medication helped me curve my appetite without any side effects whatsoever! If only I could find something to help me get started. Usually, once I lose the first 10-15 pounds, then I can do it on my own. :o

I am glad to be back on here, and getting suggestions from you guys! I really do appreciate all the help I can get! :D

Hi, Texas JoAnn:

I'm surprized that an anti-depressant helped with your appetite control. One of the meds I am on, Arimidex for breast cancer, causes weight-gain. Even the oncologist said that that could happen. However I am evidently one of the lucky ones since so far I don't have a recurrance of the cancer, and my weight seems to be pretty stabilized.

I have to continually focus on my eating though, no slacking!!!! So many medications that are prescribed can cause weight gain. We have to be extremely careful.

And we have to keep trying. Best of luck to you.

Jo,
You are so right about medication causing weight gain! :( But, I have to watch what I eat also!:o

Good to see more joining, this is awesome. Sorry I have been mia again a bit but got sick again. Feeling a bit better but not 100% yet. So sitting at the computer felt like a chore. Going to go and sit on the couch in a few minutes anyway.

Hiya Girls!
Small, I hope you're feeling better quickly. Sorry to hear you were sick again.
I had an episode of low sugar Sunday....it was fine at 4:30 and by 5:30 dropped 79 points to 64 and I was very sick. I've had about six of these now, so am learning..still....that having small, regular meals and paying attention to signals when I am getting off balance will help me stay stable.

Today I am playing catch up, as I didn't get much work done here yesterday. I need to get started, which is often the hardest part! LOL!
Have a good day....I'll see ya'll here later!
Bren

OK, Ladies and guys it is almost September and those of us with kids often feel with the beginning of school it is the actual beginning of the year. Soooo.....it is a good time to get started on a program. Just think how good we can feel by Christmas. The weather will be changing soon and it is the perfect time to get outside and walk, bike etc...

Just for today I will eat three meals, be aware of what I put in my mouth, I won't eat anything I am not absolutely not enjoying and I won't eat until the food is on my plate or off anyone else's plate like my kids.

Ok, enjoy your day!

Sharon

I agree, though I am not a stay at home mom, wish I could have been but never happened. I feel like when school starts again until xmas at least, I can be a bit freer and not feel so, I dont even know. School starts here on tuesday. It will be interesting. All four of my kids are in school full time now. So I wont feel so guilty working during the day. I do feel guilty cuz I have some late nights but I cant get around that. AT least my schedule worked out where I dont have to work weekends at this point.

I got my step back, I dont know what it is or what snapped inside but I have been good for two days in a row. lol. That may not seem like to much but its a good start again.

School starting always feels like a new beginning for me always. And I'm doing better. I'm getting back on Diettalk more often, restarted a journal. I'm recording all of my eating and exercise. It helps me stay on target.

I will be going back to low carb on Monday. My husband and I have been exercising together since the first of September, and I hope that we can get in a little bit more outdoorsy stuff before winter really gets here. Right now we just use the recumbent bike and occasionally some free weights. A bike ride or a hike would be nice, though. I dug out my DT journal and updated it last night, and I think I might go get myself a nice notebook or journal to be a food diary. I'd really like to not have to start over again after this time.

That is awesome ica.

I had one bad day this week and I had the bad day and then the next day woke up and have been continuing on.

Hi as you can see from my "user name" I've been here since 2001. I have lost weight I was 201 when I joined up back then I'm down to 158 now but it has been a constant battle of up and down. I had gotten back up to 190 a year and a half ago. But I got down with a lot of support from the Biggest Loser challenges on here. By the beginning of the last one in April I was down to 146 and heading to my goal of 140.
Then I had an insanely busy spring at work and a move when we sold our house and in the blink of an eye I was up to 164 again.

I cannot believe how hard it is to lose weight and how quickly it comes back if we let our guard down for an instant. I have been dieting and exercising all summer and just got back to 159, it is soooooooo slow going.

Smallfri, I am exactly your size. Petite 14 may seem like a small size to many, but at 5"1' it seems like double the weight compared to those who are taller. We just have no place for excess weight to go.

Last Christmas my hubby went shopping with me and got me some nice things in size petite 12. This was the first time in 37 years of marriage I can remember him shopping with me and I don't think he can be persuaded to do it again. I am so annoyed that I so quickly got to the stage that nothing we bought fits me, so that will be my short term goal to get back into petite 12 by Christmas and petite 10 by the summer.

I have signed up with the Bigger Loser challenge again. That finishes on Dec 16th. That challenge helped me so much last year, I will work to get right in gear again.

Pat

Welcome pat. So glad to see someone who relates. We all relate in a way but when I tell people I am a 14, they say thats not bad, but when you feel as wide as you are tall, its not a good feeling.

That is wonderful, you have accomplished alot though. 50 lbs gone. Keep going.

That's so funny but oh so true; as wide as you are tall!!!:laugh:

[QUOTE] in the blink of an eye I was up to 164 again.

I cannot believe how hard it is to lose weight and how quickly it comes back if we let our guard down for an instant. /QUOTE]

How true, how true! Sometimes it really seems to come back that fast, doesn't it? I know only too well. This summer has not been good for me. While I fought it the first part of the summer, the last half has been disasterous. I too joined the upcoming BL challenge - I've not participated before. I'm hoping to lose this excess weight by the end of the challenge. I know Smallfri from the WW's board, but I hope to get to know Pat better as we go through this challenge. Of course, I guess we could be on different teams, lol. Not quite sure how this whole thing works.

Hope you ladies are having a good weekend. :)

Editing: I don't know why my quote thingy didn't work at the top of this post. I got a new computer, so maybe there's a kink here somewhere. Sorry.

Ok, so I have signed up for every challenge that I could think of. MOst of which are just posting weights. I have been doing ok with ww, so that explains the slow weight loss, but really I should beable to do it at 100%, cuz well, I know I can do it. I have done it before and got down really well, sweets are my issue this time more then ever.