Shake off the negative energy.... work with the good


I will def try


thanks to all who helped me get my feet back under me in my pre-journal xo


weighed in at 288.2 this am


food has been OK today, not nuts yet and I had to start this now so I have one less excuse to let it get nuts


little steps



I will think on my set goals tonight and post them in morning or later when home tonight


I hope you all are feeling great !!!



:love: Peng

Hi, Buddy!!

So glad you have an "official" new journal! :laugh: You said in your last post, "but I am still not committed." Now you can commit, right? I feel that way, too. I have the tools and I know what to do, but I'm not doing it. I need to get committed. Hmmmm... will think on this.

Keep eating healthy good stuff and working away on your house & property. You will burn off the calories that are going in and some extra -- that's what works! You can do it!

Lisrey :jn

Pengii,

I loved your duck story, very good point. I have learned this at diettalk, to not beat myself up over everything, but to quickly as possible shake it off and keep moving forward. It makes a huge difference.

Glad to see you new journal, love the title.

Think like a donkey! There's a story about a donkey that fell into a well (or a very deep hole). They tried but couldn't find any way to get him out easily and he was an old donkey so they just decided to bury him. They threw shovel fulls of dirt on him and each time he would shake himself and shake off that dirt, then take a step up onto the pile. Shake it off. Take a step up. Shake it off. Take a step up.

Guess what! He got out of the hole!
Hugs
Mugs

hey Mugs ! I have always liked the donkey story too ! That ol Duck thing was an eye opener tho... reminded me of myself diving in traffic lol

I will post it one of these days


Crazy & Lisrey, I am happy to see you too ! :jn Commitment is a funny thing isnt it...some things I would N E V E R think of doing as I am so against them.... so what about the things I know I shouldnt do??


odd isnt it


I think anyone who studies human behaviour must have the most restless sleeps :laugh:


I had a ok day...breakie was 1 egg,1/2 muffin, 1 ff cheese, and 1/2 cup potato
lunch was a nice wrap with a big bowl of turkey dumpling soup (like a soft matzo)
supper I cooked a lean flank steak and have it sitting on boad...made a pineapple ice and will shave a few oz on rice after and have w veggies

i feel like i ate something bad today but i think I just fantasized about it lol I know that sounds strange but on really busy days I often lose track of what I planned and what I thought about

and yes I still have a license to drive lol

I am fixated on strawbeery shortcake now... so am making them as a feature at the estaurant tomorrow...I am a nurturer by nature and it will leave my system if I make a batch and feed people

I have a lage party that comes in every 2 weeks (singles dinner group) and I always make them one of my homemade specialty cakes... so tomorrow will do a couple dozen shortcakes..I will share one with my other cook and then I will have it out of my stupid blonde brain 8-|


Ah!! I remeber what I ate !! pistachios....two handfuls... so prob 300 cals


I did not weigh as I am feeling on the edge and I know in my head if I* saw 288 again or higher I would give myself a green light to overeat


so might not weigh till sat


anyhow, it is 8 already so better go have supper...I had to work late as I was finishing my new menu for work



hope you all had a great day girls



lets make it the best we can




:love: Peng xo



***editing note***I seem to be having a problem with the 'r's on my puter lol...so if the word is hooped...try adding an r lol

Hi Claire, glad to see things are getting back on track for you. It must be so hard to be making all those good things and not eating much of them.

I should have been paying more attention when you were shopping for appliances. I am talking t places about getting cupboards. Did you buy a free standing range or oven and cooktop? Did you get gas or electric?

Did you get your appliances all working yet?

The whole appliance buying thing is confusing to me!!

Pengii,

I loved your first sentence in your new journal:
Shake off the negative energy.... work with the good.

Those few words pack alot of wisdom in them and create a positive philosophy. So often, it is the doubting and negative self talk that prevents us from moving forward in our weight loss journey. We must continue moving forward despite the detours and delays we encounter on our journey!

Proud of you.

Pengi....HI THERE!

KENDRA!!! WHERE THE HECK R U WOMAN???? :)

Thanks so much for the stories....oh, I LOVE EM! Congrats on the new journal...and your seeing this through...we all will together, we will make a a way....

HA !! :jn a Kendra peekaboo :jn

it is a good day !!

I wish I could tell you I was sailing along and lost tons since I last saw ya buddy


but I am still trying


and happy about that xo


yogi baby...ol peng is thinking drastic change might be in order


I dont mean like in food cuts or unrealistic sh*t but I mean like trying something I usually fight as I need some guidance right now


I am mulling around making A WEEKLY MENU..opps caps :o but it does scream in a way lol... I am soooooooo useless with plans or set guidlines...but maybe I just havnt tried

or really tried



I am very up and down...and feel myself slipping.. I had a great start to day and then scarfed a bunch of chicken wings ?????? like WTPluckityFfrigginPluck



I felt like a thief putting the 2 portioned bags into my little plastic bag at work so I could eat them at home


yup, gosh..I am sure I look like I usually come home to a crisp salad


anyhow


I looked at the laptop too and told myself to fire it up and turf the wings....... evil won this one...thank god that i only have veg & fruit in fridge now...some crackers but dont really feel like them


so...gonna post and not turn tonight into a binge


Nope !!


CJL... I think the negative is buried deep and quite comfy... but I wont give up... the positve side to my wing attack is that it did not go further... I feel stupid... I know what is making me really ansy and I must remind myself that no amount of food will change what is going on



nope



Pat, I might qualify as the appliance queen now :D I shopped extensively to get the best for the best price... best options etc...that is easy to do if you have 20000 to spend.... I spent a fraction of that

I ended up with a double built in oven which I love!! got the jennair cooktop (go vented) and dishwasher and fridge


when you get to that stage, you are quite welcome to drive out for a tea, take a look and I can give you the names of where I went and what I learned

I just know that the pop up vents are really $$ and can have probs



hey, you could prob land a small plane outside my house now lol


I left for work at 6:30 this morn and when I got home by 4.... trees were friggin gone


I will go snap a pic and come right back


unbeleivable



xo

ok..was too lazy to move my truck but you can see the dif...amazing...I was so woried as I knew there was NO WAY all the trees could be moved


maybe the same way I KNOW it is hard to lose weight


maybe I need more faith cause I obviously was worried for nothing and didnt know jacksh*t



also included the pic of one of my deer...I sure hope they dont leave the property till hunting season is over



xo



ok..whille the pics are uploading (dial-up)


I think I am going to write out a meal plan...I want to try something

a fellow came into the restaurant this afternoon and I had not seen him in several weeks...well he looked like heb had lost quite a few pounds

i went to say hey and I guess his knee was buggered so doc told him he would operate but only if al lost some weight (he is 6 something and was 275) so he went to a docs plan (1250 cals a day, thrice weekly shots, and consoltations...sounds similar to dr berstien but you dont starve) anyhow...in 7 weeks I think he was down 43 pounds and got his surgery...he loves the program...feels so much younger (an active 60 something) and says he is taking off another 15 or so.... so I just felt fat and lazy

I know it seems easy once you are going...but ridiculous how hard it seems when you are not


but really... what the heck is the hold up


so when i feel fat and gross after listening to him...what do I do... pack some wings


nuts


just plain nuts



so... shake off the negative claire...I am fat but I am not useless


I schedule work very well..that is a given... maybe I need to try a new approach with my eating



I do love cooking and can satisfy that with cooking great things.... a friggin wing is NOT a great thing




anyhow



I have a little idea sloshing around and am gonna put it on paper


I am taking a quick trip to see my mum in one week...just an overnighter as I dont have a reliable house sitter right now, but that is nothing... wont pig out there...no worries




anyhow.. will let you know what I end up with


man lol files are STILL uploading hahahah

oh well, I am just happy to have a puter...maybe someday there will be more services out here



:jn done finally lol

Let that guy inspire you, Peng! He did it, you can, too! And you have an idea -- that's always a great trigger for a clean start! Menu planning sounds good. Any kind of planning sounds good to me right now, LOL! You are fortunate that you have executive control over your menus. :)

Glad they got the trees cleared out and opened everything up for you. Neat that you have deer! I saw some the other night after riding -- they ran across the road in front of the car I was following. Beautiful, and so quick!

Keep going, keep trying, build on your successes!!!

Lisrey :)

Hi buddy:
As long as you keep trying you will succeed.. It will take time... I personally don't like 1200 calorie diets but that is me.. cause I don't like to feel controlled :laugh: but I need control.

Is your Mum far away.. Hope not too far and it will be good for you to gt away for a few days.. we all need that.
Nice to have deer in your back yard.. They are so pretty..
Keep going buddy we will do this...:hug:

Just don't quit trying!!! I agree with lulu about the 1200 calorie thing...I really think that has been a big downfall for me....i end up rebelling....not quite enough calories even when they are all really healthy and balanced...just not enough fuel especially when I'm doing any exercise! BUT...different things work for different people...I'm doing the meal planning now but with 1500 calories....i looked up my age, activity level, height...(the calculator thats on the diet talk site...) and it tells me to maintain my goal weight i need to eat 1600 calories a day...(thats with no exercise) so, I think what i'm gonna try to start doing is eating 1500...with exercise....that should bring me pretty good results...
I"M HIJACKING...so sorry...lol

Glad you got the trees out!!! And who doesn't like to have wildlife in their own backyard...my goodness! :)
Take care, and have a super week!

Good Morning !! :jn


Yes, I agree the 1200 is too low for me too... seeing as I can eat 1200 in quick meal 8-|

His doctor diet is what worked for him , and I can undertsand that...sometimes something just clicks and if you wrap your brain around it,...it seems effortless... I know he was not an emotional eater either...just an aging fellow who liked sausages, potatoes etc


anywho, I like the 1500-1800 range for my weight (290 this am, thanks to bag of lay's)

I know cals change as weight goes down and when i have stayed in the 1800 range, I lost great

when I came down from 350 pounds...I remember starting with about 1200.... I lost great for under 4 weeks then stopped... I remember freaking that my weight plateaued at 320 something... then I cant remember who here told me to increase cals (I am sure a few peeople did) I thought ya, right

but, increased to about 1800 and was under 300 pounds a few short weeks later


I seem to block that time out of my mind sometimes...the weight loss strategy, not the fact that I was 350



even now when i feel fat and unattractive...I always tell myself...but you have never gotten back to 350


there is always something good huh



today is gonna be a schorcher here today...I am quickly going into ther town close to me...want a quick stop at walmart...would love to go to city and buy some music but am going to meet a friend tomorrow for dim sum (havnt been inh months) and pedicures



I will do a bit of weeding and am gonna start clearing a wee area for a couple perrenials I bought


oh ya...what a lovely hibiscus I got yesterday and a lovely small orhid for my livingroom...a girl I worked with gave me a gift certificate as I gave her family some stuff I thought they could use I found in house



what goes around comes around huh lol


I will take a pic of that lovely flower


anywho



I have not written down my menu and will have that done today


I am extra inspired by Kendra facing her fears for her fourtenn day chasllenge and Lisrey's new journal



will enjoy the sun, the day and myself




have a nice big container of fresh bluberries and will getb a huge salad at IGA for home later

i brought home some lean shaved beef yesterday, and veggies...will make a appy platter later with some crackers, bit cheese, veggies and fruits


that will be my food 'treat'




Hope you all have a fantabulous day


Thanks for your support !!!




:love: Peng xo

You are looking good. I love reading your journal though I havent had a chance yet to post in it. Keep going. I agree with the idea about the 1200 calories with you as I said before, dont drop so fast. But I wont beat a dead horse on that one. lol.

Pengii,

the yard looks great, what a difference. Ah and a deer, I would love to wake up to that!!!

I need to plan too. Actually already thought of that today, the planning suppers idea. LOL, that is about as far as I will get with planning but at least it is something.

Take care, keep taking those steps, one at a time.

Hi there!

Hey, congrats on your new fancy shmansy appliances!!! I just re-read an earlier post!!! whoooooooot!

I think your calorie goals sound very reasonable!!! I've never attempted a food plan for an entire week...but I do make sure i have the next day planned out....

And you are so RIGHT...there is always SOMETHING GOOD! And hey, fat people are attractive too darn it!!!! ;)

Hope you have/had a SUPER Monday! Keep up the logging/blogging/good work!

Howdy Campers !! :jn

smallfri... no one ever has to worry about how much or little they post with me... I never would want to guilt or make some one feel bad .. nopers !! (which also translate to post as MUCH as you want too yogi !! hahah)

like I told naus...if lots of time goes by between posts...just means we have more to blab about later :laugh:


yogi... I am just so happy to have appliances hahah I lived here for a year with an old rickity fridge a toaster oven and a single chinese portable burner lol... I had to buy in stages when I could afford it...and I am pretty frugal... have to be these days
I didnt go fancy but am soooooooo happy with what I have

I am getting easier to please as I get older lol

there IS always something good...trick is in fidning it some days I think

I am going to visit my mum in saskatchewan on sunday...will leave very early and home later tuesday... so will just plan a few days of food

eating at her place is no prob as she is old and does not eat much anymore... I wont starve but there is not food to pigout on.. I will take her for dinner one night which means I will eat and she will nibble

it will be a good time for me food wise as it will cut the crabs too


crazy...the deer I like, till they find my perrenial garden I am sure lol I have to plan at this stage I think... plan and focus

I still have not set my solid goal...I think I need a holiday plan again... hmmmmmmmm



anyhow...I have such a terrible sunburn that underwear will be painfull


supid ol claire...I sat out on patio blabbing to a friend on the phone..we blabbed for so long i even had a quick cold shower to cool down as we blabbed... I was out for prob hour without realizing it


living where i do... clothing is optional upstairs on rooftop patio... got out of shower and went outside to 'dry off' lol


*****try not to have that visual stuck in head K***** :o



anyhow... I never thought of parts of my bod that dont see the sunshine...my boobs and belly are painful and my forhead



man... so when i go to get solarcaine today..I am getting sunscreen to leave out on patios !

dummy



anyhow


weighed in at 289.6.. I am still not cutting back as much but not going over so....


today made blueberry oat low fat muffins.. had one with yogurt and will hve another after


pulled out some crab for supper and will get a slad in town after


have to postpone my city plans as my skin is very sore



lunch is gonna be tuna I think with crackers

I have rainer cherries and blueberries, both which I love



had cherries last night for snack too



I am not allowed to buy chips anymore...I honest went years wiithout buyign any...now I am letting myself cause I have some excuse


just have to shut that down




anyhow...thunder and lightning is rolling here now,, city already got it


better shut down


I hope my ebay phone is in today...might be early but hope




hope you all have a great dsay


I am on water and fruits today between my meals




:love: Peng xo

Oh Lordy...not a good place for sun burn... those parts rarely get exposed to sun and do really burn quickly.. I hope you get some relief from the solarcaine
if you are still at home and have any of these and feel like trying them they may help..
http://www.health911.com/remedies/rem_sunb.htm

haha about getting easier to please as you get older I have noticed that too:)
Hope your sunburn heals up quickly and does not blister
Hugs buddy

Pengii,

Ouch! My DD and I went to the beach at Gull Lake on Sunday and I got a sunburn on my back, it also rarely sees the sun. LOL, just Alberta girls and the sun. You'd think we never had hot, sunny days!!! Well we have had very few this summer. Hope you are feeling better soon.

Aww sorry to hear about the sunburn! I had to have a bit of a chuckle about the clothing optional patio though..

You're awesome girly!

yes, you girls would shake your heads and then slap me upside mine !!!!!!!!


Lulu , what an interesting page...I did take aspirin last night ans just popped the last 2

the thought of anything cool smeared on me sounds good lol... so many things... I still can not beleiev I was so stupid

you are right nancy...it just feels so good wheh the sun shines like that... and we are just not used to it


I have to return a movie today or I would NOT be going out today...my forehead has a scab on it already... I look like john candy in summer rental :o

so changing plans again...I am tracking my parcel on the net so will not go to mail till tomorrow maybe...maybe later..I have not chekced my mail in almost 3 weeks and am sure the box is full



anhow

thanks again for the list louise..I am gonna read it again...


catch ya later girls



xo

The muffins sound good! Sorry to hear about the sunburn!!!! (where is your sunscreen young lady? if your out over twenty minuites you need a good spf!!!)
ok...sorry...
Did you know...(this is something I just read) that berries are better, eaten in small amounts through out the day...rather than a full cup at a time??? Your body can only absorb so much antioxidants at a time...so what your body doesn't abosorb...it just flushes out...so take a cup of berries...and just eat a small handfull here and there and it will be more healthy for you! :)
Keep up the good work! :) Have a Happy Hump Day!

Ohmigoodness!! Clothing optional & super sunburn! :O

Poor Peng. Sunburn hurts, and it sounds like yours is severe. Did you get it on the bottoms of your feet? I think that is about the worst. I don't usually burn much but I am definitely getting better with sunscreen the more I hear about the dangers of sunshine ODs (and the older I get).

I am so glad to hear you love your appliances! That is wonderful! I hadn't really noticed you saying much about cooking on them, but I guess that's 'cos you weren't journaling much when they were finally functional. It made such a HUGE difference to Sweetie & I to have our kitchen fixed up the way we wanted it. We waited 12 years with a very icky kitchen! Even though I'm not much of a cook it has made my house my home. :)

CHECK YOUR MAIL!!! :coach: :laugh:

Take care of yourself & nurse that burn...

Lisrey :love:

P.S. If I can cut out the chips, you can, too. :hug:

Carrots are the new chips..

True story.

Carrots are the new chips..

True story.

Lots of crunch in every munch!!!

I have my sticks in front of me right now


yes, if you guys can cut the chips...I can too !!!! I brought home some chicken and celery & carrots sticks


thanks for the nudges...I NEED THEM !!!!!!! xoxo



OI made borcsht at work today and had 2 big bowls which was great as I make it thick with veggie... packed my fruit to work..cherries and blueberries



brought home my supper and am not having nothing else...i am making myself eat all the veg sticks so i will be stuffed..no room for crap


I have to stall my trip home cause of work so will do my 2 week food plan after all



if you guys can cut the crap



so can i !!!!




Gonna go zzzzzzzzzzzzz soon



hope you all have a great thursday



:love: Peng xo

Hey girls !! :jn


did pretty good yesterday...did have one of my muffins w 2 ff cheese before bed ... but still pretty good


cals were fine cause of all the soup I ate all day but I was NOT hungry ... that was the issue... but little steps huh


way way better than eating another whole box of fancy cookies that I bought for my mum :o


I did not weigh today as I fear a binge and dont want an excuse


another fav excuse of mine is "Look at the scale...I ate great for ____ (insert ridiculous small amount of days I expect a miracle to happen in)days and only lost a pound !! Might as well eat 'this' as it wont matter much"


so not today, on the other hand .... I also use the outta sight outta mind thing with the scale too :laugh: so have to be careful

maybe I will weigh tomorrow and then go one week till I weigh again...for just one week

write down my food and see what happens... set up a one week mini challenge for me


hmmmmm


anywho


today not too bad...2 paoched eggs on a eng muff w 2 ff cheese...did have a handful of spuds, but not many
forgot my fruit baggie on counter at home but am having 2 bowls of borscht again for lunch :jn

man I love that soup


I might make a big pot and ask my mum how she jarred it for the winter...hopefully her dementia aint so bad this week and she can rememeber how


nothing better than fresh veggie soups


better get back to work...making pizza dough again


got to run out this morning and stopped at a little shop near the restaurant...found the cutest little pewter jewellery stuff...fun stuff... needed a smile lol



have a great day


:love: Peng

Thursdays are the new Fridays!

I wish. One more day to go though!!

Oh...I hear ya on weighing being an excuse to binge!!!!!!!!!!!! Thats why I have been too scared to! I haven't weighed in a LONG time.....and I know that I binged far too much a a couple weeks around the fourth of July...I haven't undone the damage yet...by golly I'm TRYING...but my clothes are letting me know I won't like the numbers on the scale!!!! sooooooooooooooo
I'm sure my stats aren't accurate...when I have a little feeling that they are at least CLOSE..I will weigh again...lolol
Canning veggie soup is an awesome idea!!! I would do it..but I'm SO NOT Marth a Stewart and wouldn't know the first place to start!!! :(
Plus...ya gotta love the smell of cooking fresh soup in the Winter, yes? :)

Keep up the Great work..have a Happy Friday!!

Pengii: I had to post about the metal beast...AKA the dreaded scale! I am trying to have a healthy perspective on the scale using it as one tool in the weight loss journey.......OK back to the real world.:laugh: When I don't weigh, I tend to be in denial and my weight goes up. When I weigh and I gain, I get discouraged and often I eat as a result. When I weigh and I lose, sometimes I think there is a little breathing room so I eat. A week ago I didn't weigh myself and tried to focus on healthy eating. I did have a great loss, but it nearly drove me crazy not knowing whether I had gained or lost and how much. I weighed today and I am going to try the "not weighing in and eating heathy bit" for a week again until my next TOPS weigh-in. It isn't easy for I have weighed myself daily for years.

Have a great trip to Sask!! If it is not too late have a quick gander at Whitetail Crossing next to the Yellowhead at Mundare. Our's is lot #13. It only has the foundation in.

Hey Pat ! I had to postpone my trip to balmy sask lol...will go forst or second week in august now...but I am def going to take a boo at your site... I still cant believe city services go that far... it is nicer being out of the city tho.... I dont think i would want to move back now

CJL :wave: you and me both girl !! my old friends here know the relationship I have had with the evil metal demon over the years...I even ran it over with my truck once till it was obliterated...that was particulary liberating at the time :o I have to have it set in my head and stick with it...not the b*llsh*t games I have been playing the last whjile

you know when you are in scale trouble too...dont ya? I weigh leaning right, left, toes curled on the edge, if I was more graceful at 290 pounds I am sure i would try pirouettes on the friggin thing and see how that weighed out


thats when ol Peng knows she is in trouble...so I try to get on ONCE and thats it...to try and curb my obsession..but like you said CJ...if I dont weigh I get in the same trouble


I weighed this am and had to lean WAYYYYYYYYYYY over to get it where I didnt fling it off the roof X-(


saying that tho.... I have had a not bad couple days...yesterday it just kinda hit me that I am just not enjoying the not so great food and the lack of energy I have eating a not so sh*t hot diet


Yogi. I def agree with the smell of soup yummmmmmmmmmmmmmy :laugh: I used to make freezer meals all the time when i worked down to 250 (notice 'worked' an uncommon word in this house)... it helped having something quick to grab that i liked... i will freeze some soup in baggies and go from there... plus the veggies are sooooooooo nice right now


Kendra have you been to the city center market? I went this am for the first time


awesome...i went as soon as they opened and had fun..then i went and picked up a fr and went back lol...the veggie stands were amazing...I bought duck eggs and duck & turkey produts...some nice organic stuff... great local bread (bob the baker stuff...super heavy sour stuff)


anyhow...had fun then something great happened on the way out..we went down a dif isle by chance and i saw a german stand...my friend stays with our stash and i head over..then i hear a woman saw...hey...thats the godmother of one of my children! ya you...remember me

the next booth is run by no other than an old friend I have not seen in way too long...and yes, I am her little girls god mother...it was just after my sis died that I drifted off..i emotionally detached and wanted to call but was afraid too much time had past

she gave me a hug, told me I was a sh*thead and filled in some blanks... I was so happy to reconnect... so we will getb together...



real nice



i would much rather more human visiting and less visiting with my food friends


anyhow.... i am really zzzzzzzzzzz and might even have a NAP.... lol it is smokin hot now and i think i am just a bit warm...have a few more items to put away then might have a quick rest in my chair

bought two paperbacks today and might just enjoy an easy read and relax a bit


have to work tomorrow early..then off monday tuesday

then working straight till ....cant remeber lol



hope you are all having a real nice weekend




:love: Peng

Hey, you just reminded me about a new farmer's market I've been thinking of visiting on a Sunday... I think I may do that tomorrow! Thanks! So glad you ran into that old friend. How much fun! And I hope you will have fun cooking up all of your yummy finds.

Enjoy your rest!!

Lisrey :hug:

;) just cooked some baby carrots, swiss chard, and baby peas... rottiseried a bird on bbq... bit of that... heaps of veggies

have fun at the market !! fruits are awesome now too (seeing how much you love veggies :laugh: )

Shopping is the new eating!

You let me know when this gets old LOL

I"m gonna have to swing by the farmers market here for the rest of summer...good lord...I did that a LOT last year...this year I guess I've been so busy I haven't wanted to take the time...I go to one of those crazy everything you can imagine under one roof grocery stores just to be DONE with shopping on one stop. (USUALLY one stop...lol)

Kendra says shopping is the new eating...lolol..BE CAREFUL there ladies! When I got down to my goal 3 years ago...WOW..I sorta did that...racked up some debt...WHOOOOOOOOOOOO...still have a couple of those cards I'm paying on now! It's true, it can be easy for some of us to trade one bad habit for another!!! Mine REALLY needs to be exercising...or knitting...or reading...etc...I enjoy those three things...crazy way our minds work!

Well, sounds like your hanging tough! Keep fighting the good fight! :)

Ahhhhhh....the virtues of retail therapy! I have found that shopping occupies my time and keeps me from eating. When I started to lose weight, I couldn't afford a new wardrobe everytime I went down a size. I discovered resale and consignment shops which opened a new world up to me. I am lucky that there are two stores by me that are set up like a boutique, merchandised well with only nice clothing. Often I buy clothes with the tags still on. I can feed my retail habit without emptying my wallet. I have bought designer brands for next to nothing. I love getting the bargins and I spend very little.

Hey girls ! :ghug:


Visiting is the new eating !! :dn :jn



I love to shop but I have become so very frugal over the years... I can 'shop' all day but dont buy much... I love to look, to fondle, to dream a little dream and then move on... I so wish I had that discipline with food


but, saying that, when I was a kid I overspent..was lucky I had good jobs...I learnt lessons the hard way...maybe that is where I AM getting with food too?


def overeat... lucky i have good friends to pull me outta the muck


I miss seeing people...not work people but going out and socializing...it was so nice to look at new things, yak and just enjoy the company of others



so did NOT stop at grocery store on drive home fr work... i told myself i needed soda which lately has been code word for lightly salted lays... so skipped it


especially since i have such nice stuff fr farmers market


packed salmon bruscetta with me to work at 6 am to have on my heavy grain market breaD, and a nice fat orange (had a scrambled egg on salmon too)

had some veg at home and pita chip and more salmon when home

tonight will be something simple..i am thinking the bread toasted with lean beef , the fresh lettuce and onion, and farmers market homemade mustard... then dif veggies.... like some fresh peas from pod :jn

bought some sparkling falvored waters at costco to replace my wine :c( seriously..just another habit i can easily live without


little steps



I am standing firmly on the evil metal demon tomorrow am and going fr there




I ha da surprise visitor at work this aft which either tells me 28 days has gone by veeerrrrrrrrrrryyyyyyyyy quickly or my bod is out... who knows...leadt i know my pms cravings will not be an excuse :laugh:



I hope you all have a great evening


lets keep carrots and visiting as our eating replacments this week K




:love: Peng

Yay!!! Good for you avoiding the temptations at the grocery store. Sweetie & I went to the farmers' market this morning and it was really fun... Bought some things that are less than healthy but made fresh that we will slowly enjoy. Also got some deeeeelicious corn on the cob, and some beans which he has yet to cook. Fresh & local is the BEST! :D

No chips for you. No chips for me. We can do it. It's a pact. :coach:

I wish we somehow lived closer because I'd love to visit with you. Do you like games? I love word games, card games, trivia games, you name it, but hardly ever have anyone else around who likes to play. One of my best friends who now lives in Alaska & I used to play all the time. I miss that. :sigh: And we did movies constantly. I love that stuff!

Have a wonderful, wonderful week, penguin-friend!!!

Lisrey :* :*

Hey Lisrey,you should can to visit your friend in Alaska and drop by to see us on the way by. You could even visit the giant sausage!! Whoops , not my journal but I'm sure Pengi will drink to that idea with her sparkling water.

Pengii: Even if I just look or fondle food, I seem to gain!:laugh: Saturday, I went to a very upscale store with clothes, jewelry, and perfume that I could never afford. It was eye candy for me and I did enjoy just looking. I was just looking around while my son was at a party near by. The salespersons had a cautious eye on me and stayed close by. I guess I looked like I was out of my element....and they were right! I did have one pleasant experience in which a salesperson did not judge me by my appearance or whether she thought I could afford something or not and I did make a purchase.

I'm on board with the carrots and visiting. This morning I woke up with a migraine. Nothing I did would touch it. I think it's more detox from the sugar and processed stuff.

Carrots and visiting have no side effects! lol

Kee p going kendra :jn

it is tough to detox... I have cut back but not enough to weed it out


my plan for today is to write down everything!!!!!!!! no matter how embarrassing



this am I weighed back up at 291.2 seems like i was trying to see how much I could push till the scale started the upward rush.... truthfully...higher would not surprise me either


I am putting stuff in my mouth when I am NOT hungry... instead of keeping busy...eatting



anyhow


less talking, more action




had a slice of poopyseed toast this morn with a ff cheese

just ate a duck egg on toast, and am going to eat a fruit...not sure what but when done post will make myself eat a fruit to stop the picking...maybe a few cherries and blueberries


i am planning some beet cabbage rolls for supper and more veggies...might change that and save the cabbage rolls for when companyn is here

all I know is I am cooking lots of veggies


I will rn into town to grab a few things...need some pots for my plants (walmart) and a bit of soil


i would love a pedicure biut nopt sure if i will go into edmonton


tomorrow i am babysitting two dogs for a lady who is strapped...not like i need the extra work but she is older and it is just till saturday.... i said it is not something i can normally do



maybe will zip into ciy tomorrow afternoon


we will see

CJ...it is funny how some salespeople act, isnt it? everyones money is the same.... that is just society now I guess


Pat, I am glad you are he welcome wagon !! We could make a nice trail of DT'rs to visit along the way :laugh: Lisrey, Pat posted some real nice pics of the river valley here in her journal if you want to take a peek one day...you would love the trails


Lisrey... I LOVE GAMES !!!! :jn I wish you were closer too...in the corner of my dining room I keep a big basket with some games in it just in case someone comes over who would play lol...scrabble, yatzee, crib, backgammon, jenga, mastermind,uno ...lol when i lived up north me and my friends always visited and had a tea and a game or two... I miss that so much...never made the friends down here and i sure miss that... maybe part of why oi turned to food so bad... which tells me it is time to find some friends :up:

I put an antigue chess table in the corner with a couple chairs by some nice windows...i will take a pic for you one day... I am usuing the positive fung shui way to encourage what I want :D..ie...someone to play the dam games with hahaha



anyhow


better get my ass in gear



gotta clean my enviroment and do some chores



hope you all have a great day



I am gonna try hard too



:love: Peng

Hello Peng! Yea that scale can sometimes dictate how we feel but i like your idea about running it over with the truck. it did make me laugh. I am obsessed with it and wish i wasnt. Hang in there, you are doing well and it is a long journey for us and we know that. But in time we will get it right and keep this weight off. I miss you much and think of you often. Cant wait to have internet back but for now this has to do. take care and i shall return.

Well Peng, if I lived closer...I'd come over and we'd play for sure! (my favorite is Scrabble with the kids...I just LOVE words!!!!)

This is your "weekend" isn't it? You stay strong...thos days off can rock the boat!

I've never had a duck egg...do they taste different than chicken eggs? lol...SERIOUSLY...do they have different nutrients too? hmmm...

Well, happy Monday to you...just keep up posting and eating that HEALTHY FOOD woman! :)

Hahahahaha!! I would LOVE to visit you on my way to Alaska. If I could afford the time and travel to Alaska. :sigh: Maybe someday. I am just happy to be going to Northern Michigan for a few days later this month. :o I am sure it is beautiful where you are.

Keep trying with the food, Peng. It is tough but you can do it. I am hanging in there for now and the scale is starting to go down. It will move faster for you, and once you get some momentum going there will be no stopping! :D I read the article that you mentioned today -- interesting! I recognize a lot of those strategies, but sometimes I want to make excuses more than I want to work on them, you know? NO more excuses!

I hope you had a great day!

Lisrey :love:

in with the good...


out with the bad....



in with the good....



out with the bad.....




ah, bummer of a mood today and I KNOW it is my food... so posting before i go to work... had to read s few energy packed journals (sorry I did not post in all...later xo) to get my mojo going



I am feeling the blahs set back in prob as they have made themselves quit comfy


not dwelling on it tho



gonna straigten up my spine and carry this bod strongly into today



weighed and I am just not going there this am... I would say I dont know why the jump but I knew it was coming


yesterday was a good day almost all day...did a couple hrs yard work till my tractor died...cleaned my house, went to town, had company for supper, played wii which was different, then streaked my hair


food was 1 toast for breakie w peanut butter and berries
then had lentil salad (3/4 cup) and a lean beef sammy on the good grains bread
blueberries and cherries...so far so good huh
supper i made us fresh rainbow trout I bought at farmers market and a load of fresh veggies, brown rice... 1 fried green tomato w light sour cream
frozen yogurt with assorted fresh berries for dessert
a really good day, satisfied and felt good, cals and choices great

then had just 'one toast' oh...shaved a little apple smoked cheddar on that one
next one I better use ff cheese on this one
well, could have a bit more yogurt
hey....will just sit here with the container
:help:
all this was late and i should of just went to bed


so having my decaf this morning...of course I am full still
which is a bad habit
will have some protien at work and try real hard to NOT eat after supper

that is what is killing me... my meals are ok... it is the mindless crap...and some of the meals lately too... so many 'special, only time of the year' things... god... what a load of crap claire...there is always an occasion for me if food is involved

in my younger days...events were always about activities...now food??? shesh, I aint that old



ok


think like a duck


shake it off...smooth out my feathers...start with a clean slate :up:


Sandy, I miss you too girl xoxo... time goes fast and we will all be back together soon enough huh


Yogi & Lisrey! I had to read your girls journals to get back in mode

you both are doing SO VERY GOOD !!! thanks for the good energy... I am posting a good report tonight k!


and yogi... I never knew much about duck eggs either...chicken and quail eggswere the only ones I had eaten...a local farmer near me raises them and i wanted to try them...the yolks were not as golden as I thought but it depends on the feed
an egg is an egg is an egg but it is the feed.... I am getting grossed out by reg store eggs as once i found out the mad cow thing could reach into our poulty production.... why the hell would we feed chickens ground up cows??? seriously... i read it in usa first then here... chickens were just not born to eat cows
anyhow... i bought them for a recipe i have and as well as she feeds them vegetarian feed and loads of flax... wont go into it all but you just have to count one duck egg as 2 med chciken eggs... the whites are somewhat stronger but otherwise very similar... once the duck eggs are gone...I will prob just stick with organic chicken eggs




I better get ready for work...i am working a long stretch as my partners are going on holidays... will be interesting as my new cook is already losing it



will post later



have a marvelous day all



:love: Peng xox

Pengii,

I understand the 'blahs' thing, I get that too. Hate it.

Wow, you got alot done yesterday!!! Sounds great.

You are just going to have to guide that new chef along, I am sure you will be a great role model for them. Hang in there.

One foot in front of the other babe... head down, move through.

EEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!! O.K...I'm now going to start buying ORGANIC EGGS!!! I had no idea....oh my...no idea...HEY...what are in Egg Beaters??? I eat those every morning on my breafast sandwich...ohhhhhhhhhh, I MUST find out..how gross....thanks for the education!!!

Oh...I must say...I just LOVE the name Claire...it's beautiful!

You are your own boss??? You said your partners were going out of town...and that you have a new cook...oh..that is AWESOME! I love that you are your own boss!!! You've mentioned pizza crusts....what sort of restaraunt/business is it? I"m nosey now....lol...hope you don't mind....do you make your own hours?

O.K...as far as your food goes....writing "stuff" down is REALLY a good idea!!!! Keep it up!

Every day is a new day! Enjoy your Thursday! :)

OMG Peng, today two of my staff that I adore basically told me they might be leaving... one has a crazy schedule and can't fit in any hours anymore, the other has a second interview for a fabulous job elsewhere. I am already struggling with staffing in another area. It stays stable for awhile and then it all crumbles, or so it seems. Aaaack! I hope you can get your cook straightened out and that you don't have to take on too much yourself. It is so hard when you can't keep people! :caf:

As for the food, one bad night won't do you in. You know that. If it's a string of bad nights, you've gotta break it. If I can do it, you can too... and once you've got one good night behind you the second one will be easier. You've been making too many good steps forward to smash it all to bits this way. The evening snacks were killing me, too, and it's so hard to stop -- but it's gotta happen. DO IT! :coach:

What's your plan to ditch the toast? Can you go with no bread in the house? Can you run over your toaster like you did your scale?? :laugh: NO TOAST TOMORROW! You can do it. I know you can.

Lisrey :hug:

HAHAHHAHAHAH


thanks for the giggles !! I love my toaster too much to run over it but man what a hoot thinkin about it hahahahaha


I just got to put the big girl gonch on and get going



so far so good today and I am going to friggin bed if I head towards the fridge



Kendra :wave: Thanks for the nudge and luv babe...I know you are pushing hard now too to get going...It means alot that you try and help me too when going thru the rough part... I know you have your head down and are pushing



Nancy, the blahs do suck...you have done SO AWESOME to battle through and keep losing the fat !! WTG :jn



I know if I dont get my poop in a group I face a very scary thing...going way over the edge...one part of me feels my behaviour is absolutley ridiculous and I can quit it and thats that
another part of me is like...If I have to start from this big fat mess anyways...why dont I just enjoy my food for another 10 pounds (which I know would be 20-30 easy before i came outta food coma)and start then...what is the big dif betweeen 320 and 290 anyways


then i really think about that statement and know even now how dif my bod felt at 270 compared to 290


I forget what 350 felt like ... or maybe i have just blocked it..... my self esteem could not be much worse now so thats that


Lisrey, I am not going to undo everything... nope... you and yogi would prob pedal up here in one day flat (you superbikingbiotchesyou) and kick my arse anyhow


so... like you said....I just need one day ...that can lead to one more after that....one foot in front of the other....



so, with all that blather out... today was not too bad


excellent actually but dont want to get ahead of myself as it aint over yet lol

had chicken at work at 11ish
then made a chicken , veg & spinach wrap at lunch (I figure about 400-500 tops with my cabbage salad)
had chicken snack in afternon (the protien can usually help me stay away fr carbs when trying to wean)& carrots
then another 3 oz bird on drive home at 7:30 (forgot my fruit at home so had lots veggies instead at work)
just had one slice of toast cut in half with garden tomato and 1 ff cheese on each and 1 teas spicey red pepper spread
had a handful of peas that i shelled and I think I better skip the fruit tonight as I fear eating one tiny more thing might set me off on the 'Fluk it ~ eat it ~ start tomorrow thing'



Yogi... being your own boss in my industry means working more, getting your pay last and just crap lol... like your good news lisrey... staff is so hard....does not matter what biz anymore

I have always loved the restaurant industry but it gets tougher every year


nancy, my new chef is def just a cook...one who just spent jail time for dealing so I doubt he will stay legit long..I hope he does, dont get me wrong...but they dont want to make 12/hr when they were making thousands selling dope


sad really... he is a nice kid tho...but he already blew a shift...I allow them one and then thats it... not like there is anyone to replace em tho


just tough... we are just lucky that I cook (part of the plan lol) and one of my partners cooks too but he has another full time job


anyhow...you can only ever do one day at a time with work too... nuts



oh ya yogi ... thanks for the nice compliment :o and if you look for vegetarian fed chicken eggs...you are good to go...organic does not always mean extra protien free but vegetarian diet fed is quite common now and means no ground up dead cows in your chicken feed ( I usually buy the veg fed birds too :D )


thats how i am able to stay away from nuggets and mystery meat... maybe with the rest of the demise of the food processing industry I will be healthy again lol


if I really thought about what is in the food I eat these days... my eating habits would be def very different !



I better go and check my dogs before bed


oh ya.... I did get a sweet gift from the big guy upstairs when I got home...maybe my reward for not eating half my weight today... when i pulled into my yard...one of my does was back with twin babies !!!!!!! last year I had to 3 does and 2 bucks

so far this year the old and young buck are back and I have seen 1 other doe... the two fawns were so cute...still spotted but getting bigger...them and thier momma went into my back pasture when i pulled up

I def have to walk over to the far side of property and post my no hunting signs.. I will go ballistic if someone gets my deer...if I see someone on my land with a gun...oooooooo scary peng will come out then


anyhow



thanks so much for not giving up on me guys




I had to write tons to get it out


posting is the new eating tonight ;)




:love: Peng xo

...what is the big dif betweeen 320 and 290 anyways

LOL, I know you don't really expect a reply to this, but this is what I was thinking of.

What is the dif? At least 1 dress size, the thrill of having your clothes get baggy, seeing a little less of my paunch and butt, feeling like I have actually achieved something that it has taken me years to finally do. LOL, how is that?!

Ah, some fawns too, you lucky girl!!!

Well, as the scale has been in an upward spirial, I have had those same thoughts of ....Maybe I should really enjoy some serious eating and enjoy myself. Maybe I can get some of the desire to eat out of my system and be more ready to eat sensible......if that was only true for me. No matter how much I have ate, the desire to eat is not out of my system! This week I reached a new high......my highest weight ever. Mind you, I am not bragging...it is just a fact that I never thought would happen. Somehow I never thought I could surpass my highest weight (no matter how much I ate.)I know if I continue down this same path the scale will continue upward and my healthy will continue downward.

Mindless eating in the evening is my downfall. I'll just have alittle more of this, just a few bites more...oh I might as well finish it so it won't tempt me tomorrow. Then I find something else to tempt me the next day. In the last days I have given up....hard to believe in myself when I keep eating.....sorry for the hijack. I just can relate so much to what you are saying...probably should have put this in my own journal.

X-( I hate this work laptop

just lost my friign post X-(


in with the good........ :laugh:


anywho... CJ... please dont ever hesitate writing anything in my journal...i dont care how long , short, anything.... writing is very theraputic and if it helps ....go for it !!


You and me both are walking the same line it seems...only thing is, that desire for extra goodies or treats does not go away...and it is not very satisfying when we finally wipe the crumbs off and get on the scale


I finally had one good day yesterday...woke up wondering what I binge ate last night before bed...and had a clean slate :up:

that felt much better than anything I would of eaten


the fats and sugars are so very addictive CJ...very !!! We might have to attack this like an addiciton

what can we replace our evening eating with?? I am no knitter.... I had been working on my house... got burnt out tho... I like to read but can eat and do that at same time no prob...hmmmmmmmm


I know that hopeless feeling all too well... so scary isnt it.... easy to eat over it but we MUST separate our food from our feelings


Like lisrey told me...if she could do it...I could do...so CJ...I actually had a good day...if I can do it....you KNOW you can too ...grab onto any little thing and be proud of it



Nancy ! Yes, we both know the dif 20-30 makes for sure !! Just sometimes when I look at 100 pounds and more...20 seems like nothin... all attitude... I def dont want to be 30 pounds more...too hard on the ol system... you know what i mean



Yogi, we have a family type restaurant and a lounge... pretty good staff so we are fortunate... i want to work on getting a nice little biz I can do from home in a couple yrs... maybe combine farmer market selling with internet...not 100% sure yet...I have a friend who makes jewellery and does that and is very happy...she also has another 'real' job too... so you work from one into the other


never know huh



so yes !! No eating last night :jn :jn



I actually got a good day under my belt... I instantly think...hey I will go for ______ however long...but know one day at a time is all I need to do and all I am ready for maybe



anyhow


weight was still way up... so embarrassing...294.2.. I weighed once and got off...I thought if I stand this way it will be lower... I am paying for the food now...like I thought after ONE day I would be back to 283... I just did not want to play the scale game today and just weighed and left


I have been beating myself up about the weight and it makes me feel worse which then triggers my food comfort eating... not posting my gains does not mean they dont exist


so.... eat less...exercise more.... work the lard off


that good fatlosing fairy b*tch hasnt showed up yet and I guess I better quit waiting for her



Chicken on the way to post office to pick up my ebay phone (so happy with it) gonna have some cherries and blueberrys now
packed 1 c br rice and mac mahi mahi for my lunch...will have veggie with it

I must plan now and am proud I brought my food with me... gonna be a 12 hr day for sure today... I am going to work hard to not eat out of my plan



Hope you all have a good day


I better get back to work



:love: Peng

Oh...see...the daily weighing can be great for some ppl...I think it depends on the person...and maybe at what stage they are at....cause I can be the same way...do well with food/exercise for a week and just be so dissapointed that I haven't dropped more than a pound...lol...or magically fit into a size smaller pants!
CONGRATULATIONS on getting a good day under your belt...AND on brining your food to work with ya on yer twelve hour day!!! (YIKES...twelve hours!)
You need a type of exercise to replace your food addiction with...really...either that or a boyfriend...and have some really good HMMMMM.... :)
Ok...sorry about that...lol
I'm TRYING to make my new addiction exercise...I'll keep ya posted on how it's working for me...

YOU have a SUPER Fabulous Friday!

I vote for a boyfriend

:jn I vote for a boyfriend too !!! :jn


:laugh:

Hell, it's my journal


:jn I am voting twice for one !! :jn


:laugh:

ROFL, Pengii!!!

Pengii: Your post in my journal meant so much to me and thank you for your words of support here as well. Earlier in the week I hit rock bottom....my highest weight and my lowest point. It is a cold, dark, lonely place...but thanks to you I am trying to crawl up into the light. I do feel that I have a dependence on food and I want to work on having a healthier relationship with food. I want to be able to enjoy food without eating excessively. I am good at multi-tasking...otherwise known as eating and doing another activity. I definitely need to stop eating when I weigh...those extra crumbs could make the number on the scale go up!:D Yes we need to separate our food from our feelings! Congrats on having a good day and I am going to follow your lead girlfriend!

HEY CJL !! You and me both buddy hit that point.... I felt your pain so strong as it is deep within me too... even though I always think NO ONE could feel as gross or as bad as I do... that is just more self sabatoge on my part


so buddy...we ARE just human... we can pick up the peices...and we will... thank god for good friends to help remind us both we are worthy huh :console: and carry us until we are strong enough to walk on our own


Well, I had a good day yesterday...instantly I got on scale and expected a big drop...but not as obsessed as I thought I might be...i was down 1.5 which is not much when you gain 10 in a week...but that is the thinking that is really messing me up


so on drive to work today I decided I must face this like an alcoholic... simply one day at a time...it seems too simple... it is really, isnt it?

I do have many days ahead of me so hopefully I have more IN my allowed range than OUT of it


I do need to add serious activity as I dont have a long line of gents to choose for a BF and I am def not the type to rush that


I looked at fitday and saw that I would need to lose 2.2 pounds/week to get to 249 just before xmas... I do need a solid goal that I write down...


The all or nothing part of me says I should lose a friggin lot more in 5 months but the part of me that wants to quit dreaming and start living says go with the one day at a time...1500-1800 cals...and adding exercise instead of restricting food


Yesterday was spot on for food and controling compulsive emotional eating...so maybe on mornings like today I WONT weigh...as the scale can mess up a great routine (YOGI *** are ya reading this??? lol)


I will allow one weigh a day



anyhow..I am right outta pizza dough so better get cooking...of course I am wearing a nice skirt an top as I did not expect to have to make dough this am 8-|



oh well



will check in later and post my food yesterday and today


have a wonderful friday all




:love: Peng

Yes Pengi...lol..I AM reading this! :) I need to just stay OFF The scale until my body lets go of some hormones!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHEWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEE!
1500-1800 sounds like a good range...why is it that I just want to drop my calories down to 1200 and bike 11 miles a day to lose weight fast when I KNOW THAT is what will set me up for diet FAILURE???? good grief...when I"m BINGING I'm consuming well over 3000 calories a day and piling on the pounds...so...eating 1500 a day WILL CAUSE ME TO EVENTUALLY LOSE WEIGHT! lol....sorry..yelling at myself in your journal...lol
This diet talk is like therapy...it's great! :)
Don't work TOO hard...and you have a GREAT Friday too! Thanks to you and a few other ladies my Friday is MUCH better than it could have been...I'm so glad!

I made us bracelets kiddo.. you can wear yours if you want to but you don't have to however I made mine and thought.. yep.. she could use one to.
It's a one day at a time bracelet.
A food addict bracelet.
A someone loves me and it's a good reason not to eat my weight in food every day bracelet.
And most importantly it's an every time I look at this I need to treat myself as good as I treat others because I am just as important as everyone else bracelet.

I'm visual. Seeing it there... it's going to remind me to drink my water, get on the mill, not pick up that cookie.. I hope it works the same for you. And if it doesn't I hope at least you know I was thinking about you.


(I think I spelled braclet like 4 different ways.. thank god for spell check haha)

:jn I WANT A BRACELET !! :jn

what a wonderful idea Kendra and thanks for making me one...


I have to work thru to next weekend but I am quite sure I can zip by you during that time...might be easier as I have to stay near work so much...

so often the food is already in my mouth before i even realize it....maybe by the time our braclets wear down so will our arses ;)


Yogi, writing IS fantastic therapy !! and affordable too !! whatever it takes to get us through huh
I am glad you did not eat half of michigan during your hormonal blip


thats the same thing I have to get inot my head now too, it is fine to have moderate amounts of certain things...i can easily eat 3-5000 cals...no friggin prob...so 50cals of poppyseed dressing on a stupid caggabe salad will not end my world


i found an oprah from 04 about eating patterns when i was putting some books on my new shelf last night...was reading it in bed... i could picture myself in another 4 years reading the same friggin article


i have to work on the planning AND implementing aspects 8-|


anywho...so far so good


my new cook called and said his grandpa had a stroke and had to go see him... i hate to question it but everthing seems to happen on the weekend

hope i find a new one soon as this one wont make it...all I hope for is he lasts until a dif girl can come back



breakie was a bite of chicken and 1c fibre cereal and milk
chix snack
carrots
bison sammy and cabbage salad with poppyseed dressing and pumpkin seeds
another chicken breast in afternoon
2 tbsp sun and pumpkin seeds mixed
I dont think I am hungry, I need more fibre... maybe i will go pick some pineapple outta the fruit salad :o I planned on going home at 3 before i knew my cook was bailing so no fruit here and no plan for supper

making a chicken stirfry to take home for on br rice tonight

the veggies are settling me down

my cabbage and carrot salad was huge today and yummy

so far I am around 150, 50, 500, 120, 175,175,.... approx 1200...so a stir fry on br rice would add another 400



sounds good..we will see



anyhow



better scoot...ran out to canadian tire to get the fixtures for my plumber tomorrow,..another 250X-(



have a great saturday all




:love: Peng

Yay for two good eating days!! :cheer:

One day at a time will work. That is a good way to think (penguin/duck). I like that you are setting a goal, too. My goal right now is the 30-days-until-vacation goal. It has really helped me settle down. You can do it, my friend!!!

Good luck with your staffing issues... I brought home 40+ resumes to look over this weekend... 8-| Have a great one!!!

Lisrey :jn

Hey, sorry you have to work so darn much woman!
Ditto Lisrey with the TWO GOOD DAYS!
And I have often thought that I do sometimes do better with my eating and exercise when I"m working more days of the week...uggg....NOT FOREVER...just until I feel more "solid" in these new healthy ways...you know? Just need something to give me a routine....being out of a routine gives one too much time to think about food...

I DON"T KNOW...just stabbing in the dark here.....

PLEASE do share your cabbage and carrot salad recepie...that sounds delightful! do you know the calorie contents on it too??? (double bonus...)

I hope you have a FABULOUS weekend! :)

Hey girls ;)

Lisrey... I have not had 40 resumes ever !!!!!!!!! you are friggin lucky... I know owners who have had positions advertised for over a year already!! Maybe wrap an apron around one of your rejects, put a flipper in thier hand and send em north K?

I agree Yogi in what you said about working and trying to get in mode

Honestly it will make a dif for me to get my arse in gear this week... no chance to go out or indulge in stuff I only do on days off...

only thing is I am getting tired as my shifts suck and I do tend to really carb out when feeling zzzzzzzz


so far 3 days of no picking anything fried ... no picking really at all....yesterday I wanted some pumpkin seeds so measured out 1 oz and sat down and counted them as a snack...I can easily knock back a few handfuls mindlessly


today was good except i sleep badly last night and was a bear really at work...i left after 1 as it was slower and the plumber was coming to my house to fix the toilet and look at the shower....I stopped at costco before for some goodies and did great :up:

bought some mixed greens, those turkey/chicken smoked sauages I love, a small thing of smoked salmon, ff cr cheese, pink lady apples (chilean, never heard of them before...kinda yummy) and 2 small bunches of alstra meria (sp) flowers... the flowers were much less than a bottle of nice wine and junk food and they sure make me feel nice looking at them and a small rug for my kitchen

no chips, crackers, cheeses, nada :jn


was down another pound this am...almost didnt weigh and will blather about that later...
breakfast was 2 poached duck eggs (ate 2 to boost my protien and keep me outta the fried hashbrowns ...and it worked) on 1 slice of the grains bread, 1/2 garden tomato, ff cheese
the other 1/2 tomato as snack, tea
apple on drive home
once I came home I toasted 150 cals of wafer thin grain bread, had 100gr smoked salmon 150 cals, 2 tbsp cr cheese 40, capers and shaved red onion...so for 350 cals I had a lunch that was healthy and really nice
i just made supper and it was 2 of those sausages (260) and i made a twist on a ceaserr salad..coddled an egg, bit of dijon, smashed anchoive and capers,olive oil and garlic...grated about 100cals smoked cheddar in it 100 cals of grain toast crumbled and then a large amount of baby greens


I figure about 1600 cals today...maybe 1700


almost feel like i overindulged tho...that is what I have to work on... we talked about this already...when pigging out...cals add up at an alarming rate...not that i ever seem to care about the cals then 8-| So today I made an effort to put more appeal into my food...spend time cooking and treating myself with better choices...and succeeded...and then think...oh I shoulda cut the cheddar...or the this or that...

I read an interesting article about people who cut calories to lose weight as opposed to those who add exercise... anyhow... I want to give change a chance....and to do that I need patience...something I dont have with myself always.... trying to lose weight by cutting food alone has not worked before (longterm) so a moderate adjustment of both will work if I let it


so....cut to the weigh in dilema

I thought I would go a bit before I weighed... if I am following a good program...I know the pounds will come off eventually...but then i was reminded about when I went to the dietician and ended up so upset after a month that i ran over my scale with my truck...
she didnt want me to weigh for the first 4 weeks...just follow her guidlines and let my body adjust... that was very hard for me not to weigh...then we had to change appt and it ended up being clower to 6 weeks till i weighed in... I followed the program to a friggin T !!!! I felt soooooooo fantastic...was so proud of myself...had more energy...clothes were way loser.. I knew I had lost at least 25 pounds...maybe 30...all that following a plan that I loved


well...weigh day came at her office...and i was in shock

15 pounds I think


what the fluckitychickenplucker kind of crap scale did she have??????????


she could not believe I was almost in tears....she said I should be celebrating...I said I will be 300 pounds forever if I lose that friggin slow

she tryed to talk sense to me but i blocked it out...


went home and the scale said the same thing..... god I was so depressed....cried even...felt like total crap when for the past 6 weeks I had felt so good


how did things change so fast?



killed the scale the next morning on the way to work....flat a sa friggin pancake



when I thought about the weeks I had been changing my habits... the dietician pointed out a few things that affected my weigh loss.... she still insisted the loss was absolutrly huge and I conceeded that it was good but not what I expected...she told me my expectations were what needed changing

I did follow her plan to a T but one thing she did say was that my portions were not accurate...her egg white omellete is made with 3 egg whites...not 6 or 7... i was eating the right things...but portions were out


the weigh in fiasco totally gave me an excuse to dump that routine...even though now when i look at it...man it was fine... it was me


anyhow... i dont want to set myself up for that kind of thing again... I do want to try and follow a healthier plan till i go see my mom... not that food changes then, just using it as a time line... one part of me does not want to weigh and just focus on trying to implement better eating, taking my vitamins, etc... but in the back of my whacked out mind, i will be thinkin...wonder what the scale says



so just not sure yet




I will have to play it by ear I guess...and by instinct




I have not had 3 good days for a long time...so the one day ata time is helping a lot





anyhow... I am so pooped I am not even making sense to myself :o


better go shower then get ready for zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz




man do I need zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz :laugh:


hope you all have a wonderful sunday




:love: Peng xo

Hello!! Yay for a great day 3!! :jn

I remember your scale story so well! :D That moment of liberation when you smashed it was a big "yahoo!" for all of us. You have come a long way and learned a lot since then. This thing can be really, really hard, and we do need a lot of patience and consistent monitoring of behavior. Those little losses add up to big ones over time. You will have a lot to show by the end of the year, sticking with it one day at a time.

Are you starting to think about exercise? Do you still have a pool nearby? Still lots of yard work for you to deal with too, I'm sure? Can you get much exercise walking weiner dogs? :laugh:

Hope you got some great sleep! Have a wonderful Sunday!!

Lisrey :hug:

P.S. I wish my 45 resumes were all qualified for this job, had fabulous customer service skills and flexible schedules. (They don't.) The job market here is awful; everyone applied, including a number of very over-qualified people. I mean, this is a part-time job that make $11 per hour, and two of my applicants have law degrees. :O Something's not right with that. I would definitely send them to you if I could! ;)

Oh...I vote for you giving walking a try....

JUST TRY IT! :) YOU"L LIKE IT! :)

Start with 20 min a day....work up....

Do wiener dogs like to walk very far? very long?:laugh:

(sorry...couldn't help myself)

YEAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!:congrats: On the three good days...seems like thats the first magic number of days for me to get through....YOU GO GIRL!

I've never heard your running over the scale story before...I think you may have mentioned something about it....but I so thought you were joking when bringing it up! That just shows how hard this can be at times!!! (gonna have to tell my DH about that one...he will hoot!!!)

Have a super Sunday...and keep on keeping on!

Hey buddies !!

Lisrey, I used to get resumes like that too...teachers, architects, etc...and you would wonder... i hired one teacher...she needed extra income...her salary just wasnt enough... with the arch guy...he had the time and wanted extra $ for some occasion...was only there a month... but anyways...the way the economy is now and the crazy prices of everything... you need more than one income to get by

I am def planning on changing the exercise routine...I only have 1 mr week of stupid shifts then have days off again..I will def join the pool again in sept (kids back to school ) and walking is a given...just need to do it more


for right now...my biggest gosl is to wean myself of the bad addicitng stuff and to eat somewhat better... I dont want to make too big a list then feel like a loser if I dont do it all


emotions are a big thing now


I felt sooooooooooo good waking up after not a single nibble after dinner...and dinner was not heavy.. felt my tummy growl in bed but knew breakfast would just taste better

weighed when i got up and was 294.4 after being 292 yesterday


:O then X-(



now this is when i usuallu rationalize that I might as well add such and such and wash it down with a glass of wine as what friggin dif does it make


and no, i am not doing that today....but it is a trend of mine and I must say it out load and then put it to rest


when i think it out, I had smoked salmon which has high sodium, lots of capers, th salad had anchovie and caper, and the smokies have a good dose of sodium too... cals , protien, carbs were all good so it is prob the salt



I just can not let the habitual negativaty take over my thoughts


salt weight will go away... I might have to fart around a bit but I KNOW the pounds will come off if I keep going... I do expect a huge loss the first couple weeks, but I am not 30 anymore and going up and down all the time makes a huge dif too


if a week from now I am still 290 something then fine...i have to reevaluate things


so...gonna stay with my meals... stay in my range... it will come


one day I will get on the evil metal beast and it will cough up some pounds


yup.... ok




so had a good sleep and was not a total b*tch today thank god...had 3 slices ww multigrain (150)made into french toast (add 100 for egg) with 1 yogurt (75) and straw and blueberries (75) 1 tbsp lite syrup (25) so 425 and what a great breakie.. I need breakie to be substantial or I pick a lot


it is slow with the long weekend so that is when my hands go into the fried potatoes etc... but not today

brought an apple for later


not sure whats for lunch and dinner but it will involve veggies and greens



my useless cook called again this am...he doesnt have a ride and is in a town an hour away...I told him he better find a ride as he has to work today...last couple days I could let it go but not today or I am here from 6am to 7 pm

and i am feeling sick today as it is...just a bit of a cold, so drinking tea and will use vit c and aspirin



anyhow



I better go see how things are going...I was sooooooooooo looking forward to going home early.... we will see



have a great sunday all



:love: Peng

Stay strong, Peng! Your food sounds REALLY good, and you are right, it's sodium or something that's holding the numbers up. Drink that water and keep at the good calories -- you WILL see those results! You are stronger than the scale!

I hope you are able to go home before long... I have pulled a lot of those long shifts and I know how draining it can be. We need our down time. Take care & keep posting!

Lisrey :mus:

Thanks buddy ! I feel more in control than I have in a very long time...even tho work is getting more and more outta control

I am at work now...just waiting a wee bit more to make sure my sunday guy is ok by himself...my other cook never showed


anyhow...one thing I know for sure... you can not control other people


such a shame as the kid just wont go anywhere... oh well



so planned for something simple today as felt a bit barfy



stopped and bought some aspirin as i am achey and a light fever, bought some leeks and some chicken drumettes (I am a bone picker)...planned on making a bit of soup while home to feed dogs and shower before going back


sat and completely skinned the drumettes and tossed em in the soup pot...added thin carrot, onions, celery and a whole leek...bit of chix broth
after it simmered an hour I added a bit of a very nice noodle, a ton of dill and a squeeze of lemon


it sat very nice in my stomach


had two big bowls as it is mostly broth & veggies


will have a couple containers left for fridge


I think I have to start making more soups...I always seem to lose weight when I eat my soups...filling, adventurous(when not barfy) and healthy



anyhow



will be home then right back here in morning...thats ok... it happens sometimes



like you said yogi... I will have no friggin time to be a bad bad fridge loving girl so I am counting this work load as a blessing as it will get the bad crap outta my system



and I decided after this long day the company is treating me to a pedicure this week :laugh:


I better scoot



hope you all have a real nice week ahead





:love: Peng xo

Hope you have a great work week, Pengi!! :wave:

I hope you get some good rest & feel 100% again in the morning. Sounds like you fueled yourself right -- chicken soup is what "doctor mom" always prescribes, right?? :) I do best when I stay scheduled fully with work, and when my Sweetie isn't so much in the picture. I have those things lining up this week, so should be good. Let's both have a great week!

Lisrey :hug:

Hey Am ! Nice stats girl !! WTG and thanks for the :cheer: here


Lisrey, the chicken soup did the trick !! That and some aspirin and man did I sleep last night... I agree with Yogi that sleep is essential in keeping healthy.


Woke up determined to just keep eating well... in my mind I am thinking just try august...yes I will have good AND bad days but just try august and see how I level out at the end


weighed in at 290.2 so it was the sodium... the salmon was not the one I usually like...this one did taste a lot saltier...I was gonna have more today so will just expect a temp blip on the scale...


I wanted soooooooooooooooo bad to weigh and weigh till I saw 289 :laugh:



gotta work for that ol girl



I think that is one little thing that clicked in my head last week.... the term work.... I have not been working at things... just not capable of it.... I feel I have to explain that but no, I dont... some will understand ...some wont SO I tried thinking back to 350.... the recent feelings of hopelessness and despair seemed even stronger than then....so what did I do then that might help now?


back then, I believed there was a wee bot of hope... maybe not to lose 175 pounds...but enough to maybe make little changes...and that is where I have to start

Got to have a bit of faith... I have to stop looking at others for anything other than support and inspiration... wishing I could do something like someone else just leaves me feeling like I am not very good at that when I should be focusing on what I can do, and then DO IT !!



anyhow



had chicken boob on way out door this am.... has been funny to feel my stomach actually growl in the morning.... I know I have a real stomach under the big belly :jn


just had a bowl of raisen bran mixed with fibre one cereal and 1 c milk


have an apple and yogurt for snack after


not sure on lunch



would like to get some veggies and make a big pot of soup to freeze..I had 5 servings of soup left fr yesterday...each with one drumette in it,, loads of veg, and couple noodles



I want to make a beet & leek soup...nice and full of veg and then grill a flank steak to shave lean bits of rare beef on top.... grate fresh horsradish and mix with light sourcream for on top


use about 3 oz beef per big bowl of veggies... should be yummy




anyhow...better do some work




IT IS GONNA BE A GREAT WEEK :jn



:love: Peng

Hey Pengii,

Hope you are feeling much better today. I also do well if I have soup in the fridge. I am a chicken noodle girl, lol, and I like to add garlic. Maybe not good when you are working closly with people like you are, lol.

Hi Nancy :wave: I love garlic too....yuuuuuummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmy :o and I am feeling better, thank you ..keeping on the boring side food wise for my tummy... but liking it

Pat... :laugh: too funny... imagine being so casual lol 'oh ya, knocked off another feller last night' lol

trust me darling !! you girls will be first to know when ol peng starts dating again :D One who cooks is not to close to the top of the list right now...need one who has heavy equipment and can redo my yard first is hahahaha


so was home just after 2...like a day off almost :jn



have the beet & cabage soup almost done...heavy veg...on the sour side...quite nice so far... adding the garden dill when done...have a flank steak sitting with a horsradish crust and wil grill it while feeding dogs...thenlater shave it off and try this for supper


lunch was a handful of nuts and then blueberries


stomach queasies come and go today


gonna go do my chore then get that paper peeled off spare bedroom...i need to put the bed and such back inthere so I can set up my treadmill upstairs... I like walking around the property but I dont work up a sweat like on the mill...even just 10-15 mins a day will help



anyhow...better scoot



catch ya later



:love: Peng

A treadmill set up will be great Pengii. Can you put in a tv or a DVD player and tv? Then you can rent your favourite movies and watch while walking, time will fly by.

Glad you are feeling better, maybe just need some gingerale or coke to sip on for a couple of days.

Take care.

Sounds like you're well on your way to another terrific day!!! :jn

That 189 will be staring up at you any day now, my friend! Good plan about doing the paper and getting your room treadmill-ready. Even if you don't use it right now it'll be there for you when the weather changes. It's a great back-up!

My day was good, more or less... I thought about you when I was resisting trail mix!!! :laugh:

We will do August! We will conquer it together. Thanks for working with me!

Lisrey :love:

Hey nancy !! I do have a tv I can use up there and seeing as I still use rabbit ears for reception 8-| maybe oprahs channel will come in clear upstairs ... I would love to watch her and walk....



Lisrey... I bought nuts for a recipe I am making and now my challenge will be to avoid random pickings too... I will use my Lisrey karma to stay out ... if I head into the danger zone...they have to hit the garbage ;)



So my stomach is still up and down


has me wondering....when eating sh*t food...deep fried... heavy meats....sugary carbs...how come I NEVER get sick or feel sick???? X-(

I trade the fried potatoes for brown rice and whole grains

trade the pie for the apple


trade the burgers for soup



and friggin sick



WTFluckityPluck is that????




Do all the toxic chemicals in processed food kill off all the bad viruses too... maybe it kills everything in the system



I ate a chix boob on drive to work... not too bad

just had my cereal w 1/2 banana and milk...and feel bit barfy


I imagine it must be hard on the ol guts always throwing dif stuff in there hmmmmmm



anywho.... weighed in at 289.8 this morning :up: so has been a big drop over the last week as I had a one day high at 299 but was down the next...still seeing that number was scary tho... so part of me says stay off the scale for a bit as it wont move much for a bit... we will see


just play it by ear


I think I will use saturdays as my weekly weigh date as sunday is my friday but always too rushed that morn



anyhow...planning my beet soup and sammy for lunch



supper will be soup and salad



Had to get the big gas powered weed whacker out last night to make a road for a septic pump truck thats coming to my house..that took close to an hour

got a flat on my atv X-(


so no wall paper peeling



it will come



I hope you all have a really good day



one day at a time girls



:love: Peng

PENGI>>>>>>>>>> holy cow woman...ten pounds...is that in a WEEK????? WOW (and ppl wonder why i get frustrated????) lol

GOOD FOR YOU!

Awesome on the treadmill....10-15 is GREAT! (especially compared to nothing....anything is better than nothing!) Just think...you'll be dropping pounds like crazy once you have the treadmill going on a regular basis too! wheweeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!

I agree about the "guts" being all icky when we swith from eating one way to a TOTALLY different way....if I"m eating healthy..then switch BACK to unhealthy..icky....

Unhealthy to healthy...well, not too icky....gassy for a day or two...but then my body adjusts...I'm thinking..if your barfy...you have a bit of a bug!??

Well, keep up the amazing work! Have a super hump day tomorrow!

I am so pissed !!

wrote the whole long post and because there were 8 whole smilies...was told to go back and edit


go back and the post is gone


nice, real nice X-(

Ah, hate that too Pengii. But hey 8 smilies, it must have been good!!!

Hey, congratulations on that ol' scale movin' down!!!

Here is another idea, ok, just press mute right now if you are tired of my ideas, lol. Try some yogurt, pretty well any kind. It helps get the right enzymes working in that tummy. A friend of mine swears by plain yogurt, the only thing he will eat whereas I only eat fruit flavoured and the lite stuff, works for me sometimes.

Keep up the good work!!!

:jn :jn :dc

289!!! You did it! We knew it would come, and there you go. Hard work pays off. :up:

Keep going -- one day at a time. August is the month.

Lisrey :D

Thanks buddy :o


this working to lose weight can be quite rewarding huh



who knew :shrug:



:D

....and another thing....


I seem to favor this smilie X-( when coming off the processed food too lol


I was much more :love: on chips and wine



8-| lol

Hey girly good job on 289!!! Way to go

Thanks buddies !!!


Kept busy last night, got my plants finished by dark...repotted 7 large ones... and stayed outta the munchies...when i came in i counted out a few almonds and had a handful of blueberries

that was that


so far so good


weighed in at 289.4 this morn so looks like the 90's might be toast ! :jn


just gonna keep my head down and keep working



just had breakie... 2 poched eggs (150)on ww toast (110) 2 ff cheese (70) and 2 backbacon (80)

have an apple for snack

brught more beet soup for lunch with a sammy again


not sure if stupid cook will show up today so might be here till late



oh well




anyhow...better go get some work done



today is gonna be a great day :jn



:love: Peng

Congrats on hitting the 80's! I knew you could do it. I am so proud of you. I picked blueberries at a farm and they are so good. Im glad to see you doing so well, keep on keeping on my dear friend.

:congrats::cheer::cheer:

you go girl!!!!!!!!!!!! Super awesome on being out of the 90's!!!!!!!!! Keep on keepin on!

Keep cool this week pengii, although pretty hard while working in a kitchen all day!!!

Hey Buddies !!! ;) Thanks for the cheers and :love:

it is keeping me going !!!!


work is killing me right now but I am trying real hard to keep focus...control what I control...let go of the rest



with the stupid cook blowing the weekend ...he didnt bother to show again...today he shows up with some stupid story (pay day 8-| ) and I told him not to bother...told him what would happen with his final cheque and asked him to leave... waste of time

my other relief cook found out she has heart attack level BP and is out


my foriegn worker is trapped in paperwork hell



think happy thoughts

think happy thoughts


:laugh: got to really



I again think back to bob greenes article...we can always justify our bad eating if we want to



I dont want to...yes work is nuts but it happens... many people have much worse situations




So...if my sched remains stupid, I will go back to the pool... I will be able to go 3 days a week as I work later on those days... aquasize is at 9 am so I would be able to be at work by 11


once I build up some stamina... I can go do laps earlier


this is a positive spin to the nutso schedule



when I eventually get a holiday one day....man will I be smiling !!!!!!!




food has been real good... I am staying away from refined products and high fat sugar crap... it has almost been a week and a half.... I try not to think of more than the 'day' but realized today the days are adding up and I am proud of that


I felt sooooooooo hopeless the last while.... I have hope



weighed in at 287.4 ... this was unexpected and do not expect to see that tomorrow....even tho my food has been great



the heat in the kitchen is nasty and I am drinking heaps of water so as not to pass out... who knows...maybe that flushed me out a bit


as well...my late night eating is almost gone



last night I counted out 10 nuts and 1/4 c blueberrys....just had the same thing again


breakie was scrambled duck eggs (250) with 1 tbsp light cr cheese in them

chix boob and apple at 10:30 (275)

chicken, ff cheese, lettuce, tomato, light mayo sandwich on ww bread on drive home in aft (375)

bowl of my beet & beef soup at home (1 hr at home to feed and clean dogs then back for rest of my 11 hr shift 8-|) (150)

Handful of mixed nuts and two iced tea on drive back to work (175)


chicken for supper,(200) something else I cant thinbk of right now...and then the nuts and berries (200) so
1625 I think ?


pretty good as I am trying to break it into more smaller meals to get my internal furnace going and burn some fat



I would of loved a sit down dinner but had NO time...nada zip...so normally I would feel sorry for myself and grab onion rings, or a fried chickne tender...or 'something' very carby and fat to 'soothe' me


>>>>>>>>



So far I have had great control with the nuts and berries combo Lisrey...you would be proud !! I might buy a small thing of jerky...portion it...and see if I can control myself... I will eliminate anything that triggers me ... I get bored grabbing chicken so much but it totally shuts down my hunger till meal time


anyhow



gonna go sit in my chair for a bit... I should be with dogs but njust want to stretch out




things will settle eventually




this is why I get to be the boss I guess




I hope you all have a wondeful friday




:love: Peng

Are we living in some kind of psycho-staffing parallel universe? How can we both be having all of the same issues simultaneously, while also working together day by day on our healthy eating? Weirdness! :O

Very good on the nuts & berries! That is great! You asked in my journal about the jerky I bought -- it is a plain flavor. Thought I should try that first and see how it worked. If I buy more (and I think I will), I can try a flavored type and see how I like it. I bought it at the warehouse club store, so got three four-ounce packages in one big pack. I then portion each pack out into 1 oz. servings of 80 calories each. Good protein fix. I agree on the chicken being easy but a lot of repetition. I use a variety of marinades and spices to mix it up, but even so...

I think your next weigh-in will be a good one, too! Think positive! I am back down to about the lowest I've been this year (again), and I want to break through! We can do this!!

Lisrey :jn

wow...reading your journal suddenly makes me glad i'm NOT a boss....lol....I hope you end up with some dependable cooks very very soon! shoot....if you lived around here you'd have your pick of PLENTY of people who would just die for the job, I'm SURE! In a place where a decent job is hard to find....and LOTS of people out of work....you would find a good person for sure!

GREAT job on your healthy day streak! you SHOULD be proud of yourself, I know I'm proud of you! Keep it up woman!

Happy Friday!

Actually, I am glad you brought that up Lisrey. I am very happy when you share your healthy control Karma...but buddy... you can keep the crazy work crap :laugh:


maybe we were given it at same time so we could find strength in each other and GO :jn


Yogi, man I wish you could send me a cook..I have been looking for months now... the young ones who used to flood this industry now live off mom & dad and no one else wants to work for 13 bucks an hour...and it is such a nice laidback kitchen too ... when we have that extra person...it is pretty smooth


I am gonna look at costco and a couple places and see what is there for jerky... my control is getting stronger each day


today is NUT FREE FRIDAY lol ...just to reinorfce to me that I have control



weighed in at 286.6 :O ... tomorrow is gonna be my weekly weigh day... so I should be able to stay 287 for sure... I am happy to be where I am right now for sure...



breakie was big this morn as I need even one solid meal each day...I dont care which one... but one good meal then the rest can be mini meals if that is what time allows right now


breakie was 1 turkey saisage (120) 2 eggs (150) 2 ff cheese (70) 2 fat tomato slices (40) 2 slices grain toast (150) so 530...oh ya...forgot i had a latte too... 70 cals... it adds up fast huh
but no butter, less bread than i would normally eat

good protien and healthy fibre.... will eat apple on way to work


the kitchen will be very bad today with temp so very hot...so usuallly drink tons of water and will prob have some of my soup and then apples and chicken to keep me burning


yesterday I almost felt barfy from heat but kept the small bits of food coming...I was very surprised to see a drop again today... but I know the pounds go up and down when the bod changes



anyhow...better feed the dogs then off to work



hope it is not too crazy




you girls have a great day and I will visit your journals when home tonight



:love: Peng xo

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...there is the BEST jerky at a couple health food stores around here...thing is..it's SOY JERKY...and turkey jerky...I LOVE the flavor...and a rather large piece of the soy jerky...(bbq and spicky and terriyaki flavors) have only 80 calories for a large chunk! very satisfying meat chew texture too!!!

good job on the WEIGHT...and on your strengthining control...gotta love that!

keep control of the reings...and have a super weekend! DON"T WORK TOO HARD!!! :(

:cheer: YAY for the great weigh-in! They will keep getting better as you stay strong. We are doing it!!

Sorry you are getting the extreme heat. It is finally cooling off a bit here. My Sweetie has not let me open the windows even at night -- last night was the first one in weeks. Feels so great to get some fresh air again.

Keep up the great work!

Lisrey :jn

Yogi I love soy and turkey!! one vegetarian restaurant here makes the best chicken curry but with the soy chicken...omg it is good
I will hopefully go shopping on monday or tuesday and maybe see what is around

girls..it is such a dif feeling from what I had just a short bit ago... I am trying real hard not to overthink things...or start thinking this or that about weight loss

just the one day ata time...I am trying to plan meals much more... the turkey sausages were on sale at costco today so bought enough to divide up and have for a while


tomorrow is weigh day... week went fast


and the heat is supposed to break by days end tomorrow...that will be a relief too


I will sure enjoy days off this week and i have a lot to do!!


so on top of breakie I had my beet soup for lunch and a lean ham & ff cheese sammy...prob a 500 cal lunch again


had a good size bowl of fresh fruit close to supper time..picked on carrots
chicken after on way home

hey..my cals look a bit light but ok 1500ish


i dont want to eat now as it is close to bedtime and I fear triggering an attack of the munchies


bought portabella mushrroms at costco and am gonna make two stuffed with scrambled eggs, spinach and a bit of feta for breakie tomorrow...maybe i will pack my cr cheese to work instead of feta... and i have a nice red grapefruit i am actually craving
god what a concept huh



anyhow


bought a thai cookbook (I collect em and luv dif ones)and will read it in bed.... most of the dishes are very healthy and i will pick one to make on days off




hope you all have a wonderful weekend



I hope I stay in 287 range... but even a blip will be gone if i keep my head down and keep going



:love: Peng

Saturday August 9th weigh in

287.6

oh hell, worth a nanner after the last bit lol


:jn



since I have flirted with 286, I know I will pass that this week as I keep my head down and keep going !


Have a great day all :cheer:




Peng xo

:jn :jn :dn :jn :jn

Fabulous!! Sounds like you are feeling strong. It's so nice to have that confidence and momentum back -- I know, 'cos I'm there, too. :) We will keep each other moving and working through August!

Enjoy your mushrooms!

Lisrey :love:

As the fish named Dory once said...(or would have said...sung...) "just keep losing...just keep losing...just keep losing losing losing...."

AWESOME! :)

Hey, Peng:

Yesterday at the grocery store, I looked at my beef jerky vs. the same brand of turkey jerky. They had