Short and sweet.

My life exploded a few months ago. This went from bad to worse. My eating plans and treadmilling went the way of the do-do bird.

I am now 330lbs. My knees hurt, my heart hurts, I ended up with pneumonia. No energy to clean my house, play with my new puppy or keep up with my kids.

This is unacceptable.

Today I threw away, yes TOSSED OUT every bit of fatty crap I had in my fridge and cupboards. Nothing was left. Everything was processed, high fat, high sugars, high carbs. That isn't the worst of it. We weren't even eating this food. No, in fact out of the last 60 days, I cooked for 3 of them. The other 57 we ordered in, got take out, ate in restaurants. And I'm not talking subways either. Daily runs to 7-11 for hot dogs became a norm.

I refuse to do this to my children and to myself any longer. My kids and both healthy and slender, beautiful. I won't damage them.

I say down today. I made a 14 day eating plan. Breakfast, lunch and dinner. I then went and took my list of foods I would need to complete this plan and bought all the groceries I need. I spent a CRAZY amount of money of it. Yes I could have done it for cheaper but I know me and if it's not easy I won't follow through. I know exactly what to grab each morning, how much to take and when I should be done eating. This is a start.

I will NOT weigh until the 14 days are over.
I will drink water everyday.
I will NOT eat off my eating plan.
I will use the treadmill.

After the 14 days I will re evaluate things.

Hi, Kendra! :wave: What a great start to your journey you've made! Congratulations and that's a super idea about creating a 14 day eating plan, buying all the food for it and cleaning out everything from the kitchen. I know you are going to be a great success story with this plan. Huzzah!

:jn Hey Chiquita :jn


you do whatever, whenever, you can



and I'll be there to help you sweep up when you want it




I am so darn proud of you for taking this step




missed you so buddy


:love: Peng xo

Glad to see you back. But tell all about the puppy??????

Today was my first real day back on track too. Good plan to goo all out for 14 days and then evaluate again.

:welcome::up::welcome: WELCOME BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! You were missed very much!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kendra,

I am sorry that you reached such a low point.. No dropping out now.. I know how hard it can be to break in new habits.

I am going to journal each day.. my goal being to report positive things I'm doing for myself. Why don't you consider doing the same..

Best from Melly

Great to see you back. Hurray for you on hitting bottom and now bouncing back up.

I am so glad to see you back!!! yea!!!! Tell us about the new puppy??

Great job, knowing what you need to do with the menus and throwing things out!!! I know you can do this!!!

Day 1

Did good. Forgot to put out the meat to thaw because I am not used to cooking anymore but I will make the adjustment to the eating plan and get on with things.

Drank a ton of water.

Thank you all for the welcome backs. Missed you all tons!

Kendra,

I want to say welcome back too!!! I love your 14 day plan.

LOL, when you talked about throwing out all the bad stuff I thought you must have been watching X-Weighted lately!!! It is a pretty good show, and some of the people have some amazing results in just 6 months.

I am trying to just come up with 7 days of planning, lol. So if you can do 14 I should be able to do 7.

Hope you are feeling much better from having pneumonia, yuck!!!

See you soon.

:up: on day one !! No hot dogs fr 7-11 right?

when coming back fr the dark side .... every little bit makes a HUGE dif on the self esteem


just posting again was a monster move buddy



I am proud of ya :jn



Hope your day is marvelous buddy



:love: Peng xo

No.. no 7 11 hot dogs. I got the cold cuts and ff cheeses out and, according to my hubby, fed the family like birds. Kids are all disgruntled at no chips and cookies and crap in the house. I tell them to eat cherries, or raspberries, or blueberry or even freaking black berries.. i bought them all.. nectarines too. Have to take advantage of the fruit while it's around. I get so sick of apples, bananas and oranges in the winter time.

Today, I had a chicken sandwich for lunch. NOT NOT NOT in my eating plan, however.. to make up for it.. treadmill. I know I am going to slip up. Cold turkey is not the way I've ever done anything. But we are having ww spaghetti with ff turkey meatballs and low fat. low sodium sauce for dinner. This morning I did fantastic, so, lunch was kind of balanced. Especially since breakfast, lunch and dinner lately have all been high fat, high calorie, high EVERYTHING!

It's a start.

its a big start

you sound like I feel Kendra... the all or nothing just is not real is it


but each bit less is a good thing



I still remmeber the dietician telling me that eaxh week I would see her (grey nuns program and I know the alex has a prog too) having a peice of cheesecake..even two peices...is still bettert han eating half of it

I thought she was nuts... it dont work that way right



wrong



it will work buddy



I hear you on the fruit... it is great right now isnt it


even when it is not baked in pastry :D once we can get those nasty crabs outta our system it will get easier


keep going girl



:jn




:love: Peng

iT IS A START!!! absoposafreakingtively!!! :) It's not "all or nothing"...remember that!
Your doing good...keep it up! :)

RAWR.. day 3 and i'm friggen hungry. I know, I know.. it's the detox off the junk and I'm not really starving to death at my desk. I've had my shake, a cheese stick, veggies of course I've had no crabs (carbs!) and THAT is what my body wants. Carbs... sugars... triple choclate yummy yummys..

Mmmmmmmmmmmmm ... freaking carrots..

Kendra angry... KENDRA SMASH!

Hang on to those carrots!!!!Day 3 is the roughest one I think. It's a matter of getting the bad carbs out of your system.

I hope that the stress level on your job has gone down in the past few months.

Pat

Day three is rough!!! Make sure your getting enough protien...that will help!!!
Hang in there!!!!!!!!!!! Were hanging in with ya!!!!

oh kendra...i laughed so hard when i read your post....i had to hold onto my big sunburnt belly :laugh: kendra angry kendra smash :laugh:



summed up the crab withdrawl feelings TO A FRIGGIN T !!!!!!!!!!!!



yogi has a good point with the protine... i kinda have not been loading that either and it does really help



I hope your day was allright buddy



hang in there girl




no smash K? ;)




:love: Peng xo

I got some protein in and I've been doing good today. Made it through the dreaded day three. Tomorrow is another day! Thanks all for the tips and encouragment. It's both helpful and appreciated!

Happy Thursday Buddy :jn

hope your day is good ... I am sending good energy your way


:love: Peng

Day 4 has been so good so far. I need to figure out how to post up pictures of the puppy in the actual message instead of in the photo album. ONe I do that I will put up pictures of the puppy! He's adorable.. all 4 lbs of him = )
I need to get in more water today.
I need to treadmill.. and I need to clean my kitchen.. those are my goals for today.

Hey buddy


scroll down from this box you are typing your reply in

it is followed by additonal options

in there , the second thing in attach files with 'manage attachments' button to click on

when it comes up you click browse and find your file on puter


thats the only way I know and it puts them right in your message...hope it helps


that puppy is sooooooooooooooo cute

hope you get on your mill for a bit today :cheer:




:love: Peng

Awe..can't wait to see pictures!!!!!

Sounds like you had good goals....did ya make it? did ya? did ya?:O

Ok so there.. is my cute ass puppy! And yes, I made my goals for today woohooo!

Even better .. TOMORROW IS FRIDAY!!

Yea that is our cat bu the puppy.. he's so much bigger LOL

That is one seriously cute puppy! What kind is it?

sooooooooooooo cute


looks like the cat could eat him tho huh hahahahah


:cheer: for making your goals :cheer:



YAY for friday :jn




:love: Peng

Alright Saturdays are a challenege always have been, today was not good but not bad. I am taking a look at this as an all over life change and my life will include off days and treats in moderation. So I am not feeling terribly bad and to make up for it I jumped on the mill.
The dog jumped on with me and quickly got shot off the end. I laughed so hard I must have burned another 100 cals.
Hope you ladies don't mind me not posting in yoru journals, I have to do these 14 days with just mine, then I can come and visit yours.

1. Freaking ADORABLE dogs!!!!

2. Good job haning in there!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! just don't be like me (normally) and go NUTS on the weekends...cause it gets too hard to hop back on the wagon on Monday mornings!!!

3. FUNNY story about your dog!!! lololol

Have a great Sunday!

Keep the focus on where you need it to be. We are along for the ride to support you! Cute, cute pictures!!!!!!

I am with the girls...def keep your focus where YOU need it


just know you have a soft place to land if you need it


(very soft in my case hahahah)




have a great week buddy xo




:love: Peng

WEEK 2!
My body is almost over the sugar detox. Major headache today. Nothing is worth this. But I do feel a ton better then 7 days ago.

:party::cheer::congrats::flower:

YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! Your feeling TONS better than seven days ago!!!!! That is awesome!!!!!!!!!!! I"m so glad for ya!

Keep up the good work!

So, it's not as much fun eating the good stuff as it is the bad stuff. And that got me to thinking, well, why isn't it? The conclusion I came to was this. A person doesn't get addicted to tylenol the same way they do crack. Just like we don't get addicted to carrots the same way we do doughnuts.

It's the high, the fix, the craving. For me anyway. I'm wondering if I changed my mindset to see myself as an addict and not a fat person. If I used some of the same coping skills that an addict would, would that help. I guess it can't hurt.

On a more positive note, it is day 8 and I have stuck with it for the most part. There have been some slip ups and thats ok. I'll not eat perfectly everyday, just as long as I eat perfectly almost always and imperfectly only sometimes, it's a change.

Congratulations for making it so well to day 8!!! That is terrific.

Some say to think like an athlete and not a fat person. An athlete would not sit down and eat tons of junk food, they would chose things that are good for their body and that will fuel them to do their best in their activities. I need some of this kind of thinking.

Just 6 more days!!!

So, it's not as much fun eating the good stuff as it is the bad stuff. And that got me to thinking, well, why isn't it? The conclusion I came to was this. A person doesn't get addicted to tylenol the same way they do crack. Just like we don't get addicted to carrots the same way we do doughnuts.

It's the high, the fix, the craving. For me anyway. I'm wondering if I changed my mindset to see myself as an addict and not a fat person. If I used some of the same coping skills that an addict would, would that help. I guess it can't hurt.

On a more positive note, it is day 8 and I have stuck with it for the most part. There have been some slip ups and thats ok. I'll not eat perfectly everyday, just as long as I eat perfectly almost always and imperfectly only sometimes, it's a change.


Another big reason we eat the bad stuff so much is in our society it is so much more readily available. The good stuff takes preparation and time. So many of us are so busy with job and family demands that it is far easier to quickly to grap the high fat/ high carb crap that is all over the place. It is so much harder with kids as they are bombarded with advertising telling them to eat all the bad stuff and they have such a short wait time when something better for them needs to be prepared.

I totaly agree with that. I know it is tempting to grab fast food after a long day instead of taking the time to get the good stuff up and cooking and listening to the grumping of the little ones.
But today, we have dinner out and thawing and it'll be yummy and good for us all.

head down ~ keep going


thanks buddy, you helped me thru


hope you are feeling crab free-er :laugh:



:love: Peng

Did great last night, did fantastic today so far. Trying to keep it up. Hopefully this long weekend isn't my undoing.
Head down.. keep going.
Got my first paycheck today from my new job. It was wicked dissapointing. I knew I was taking a pay cut, but damn. Don't think I can stay here making this money. I'll have to see. It was ablow to my system because I really like the job and the people. But.. wow.. the money is crappy. I knew it was when I took the job, but I didn't realize how bad untill I seen it in black and white.

I'm depressed.. big time. This is a dangerous time eating wise.

I made it through without a binge. I ate great, I drank water, I got in veggies like mad. (Yes they had low fat cheese sauce on them but yanno what.. they could have been a cheese covered deep fried corn dog, because that is what I wanted.) I had a 100 cal snack later in the night ..
Basically.. I rocked it last night.

:jn WAY TO GO BUDDY :jn

you have had so many changes and upsets with changing jobs and everything Kendra

you should feel real friggin proud that you are not 350+ today...instead you are WORKING real hard to go the other way


so darn proud of you girl


make your weekend the best it can be :cheer:



:love: Peng

How is your weekend going buddy?

Are the crabs almost outta your system?


ARe you home at all tomorrow?


ok, enough Q's lol



Hope your holiday monday is nice and your week ahead even better :jn





:love: Peng xo

330 - 317 = 13 lbs down in 14 days.

My life is no better under control, may be getting a divorce, may have to move.. i dunno..

But I lost 13 lbs. That's good.

Kendra!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

WOW....well, GREAT on the 13 pounds in 14 days....SHEESH..when u do it..u do it GOOD!

I'm very sorry about your life problems though... that really sucks. :( I hope everything works out for the best for you and your family!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey buddy !

I dont know what to say buddy, other than I am sorry to hear your news


please contact me if you ever think it might help :console:



:love: Peng xo

:love: Thinking of you !!!


Hope your day is the best it can be :jn



Peng xo

Life is.. complicated right now.. but I weighed in at 314 this morning. SO go me..

I appreciate the thoughts everyone, i really do.
talk to you all soon

HEY...GO YOU!

Sorry bout the complicated....

complicated really sucks...can be gut wrenching.... :(

hang in there!